A/N: New chappie for you my lovilies :) I know shocker right? Two in one week, I must be bored. Nope, not the case I've been working my arse off, but I've had several caffeine highs where I've been up most of the night and a couple songs played on my ipod and I was like THATS IT! Not too many more chappies left, although down the line I've got ideas for a sequel perhaps. Too many other things lined up first though...

Please review :) I do rather enjoy your comments. And as I write each chapter then post it, I like to get ideas from you, the reader. And most importantly, enjoy! :) hugs and friendly kisses.

Disclaimer: I do not own Star Trek or anything affiliated with it, or else this would be on TV or in a movie! This is purely fan based! I only own Aliah and small parts of the plot which include her. Song is Speechless by Lady Gaga.

Speechless

When Aliah woke up the next morning, she immediately knew the day before had not been just a bad dream. She rolled onto her back and sat up looking around her room, her eyes passing over her clock that read 5:30 and continued around when they landed upon a figure lying on the floor next to her bed. Pavel looked worse for the wear; he was pale with dark circles under his eyes and looked as though he had just fallen asleep. She watched him as he shivered and looked around for another blanket. Stepping onto the floor quietly, she walked as silently as possible to the bed that was supposed to be occupied by her room mate (whom she had not seen in several weeks) and pulled off the blanket. She walked over to him and laid the blanket on top of him.

Pavel shot up after feeling something touch him and his eyes immediately landed on Aliah, who looked like she was ready to cry again. He had seen her like this twice in his life and recognized that she felt broken and lost as to what she should do, although both times were at the passing of family members. He watched her sit on the bed and look out the window where the sun was slowly beginning to rise for the day. Silence occupied the room as he watched her, both of them deep in thought.

Pavel had not slept well, in fact he had only gotten about an hours worth of sleep the whole night, debating on what to say to Aliah when she awoke. It had taken him several hours, but he decided not to tell her about Jim's visit. She was hurting because of him and Pavel wanted to make sure they stayed away from each other, feeling that would be best and keep Aliah sane.

"Things vill get better," Pavel said moving to sit next to her. He moved to hold her hand, but as he touched it she shied away from him. He felt a pang at his heart as she rejected him, but wouldn't give up. Placing his hands on her shoulders he began to rub her back and after she relaxed he pulled her into a hug. She tensed up again, but after a few moments she relaxed into his chest. He laid his head on her shoulder and accompanied her in looking out the window.

The days moved by slowly and she rarely saw Jim anywhere. Pavel had not left her side since she had called him, actually moving into the room taking her roommates space. Aliah was thankful, for she needed him to stay sane. Why had she never realized that she had fallen in love with James Tiberius Kirk? Now it was too late and he had surely moved on to several other girls. She saw him a total of seven times within the month after the break up; each time he looked at her, their eyes met, but one or the other would look away.

Aliah heard the rumors that she and Pavel were dating and when asked she did not deny it nor did she confirm it. She simply stared at the person and would walk away or change the subject. People said this verified the rumor, although she didn't understand how. She was once again becoming just as fond of the Russian as she always had been. It appeared that life had picked up to the way things were just a few years previous and plans were already being made for her to travel back to Russia with him on their four week summer vacation. However, Aliah just could not place her once perfectly happy smile on her lips and she blamed Jim.

She talked to Bones several times always trying to be patient through the conversation as she waited to ask about Jim and how he was doing, but every time Bones gave the same gruff answer, "Eh, okay." And for some reason 'okay' made her happy. The first time her heart fluttered with happiness after hearing it, she hated herself for thinking it was good he was only okay. Soon, however, she began to realize that Jim was 'okay' and not 'destroyed'. She had tried hating him, but she couldn't; he had lived up to his end of the deal. With realization the glass became half full and she was happy that he was at least 'okay.'

Aliah didn't talk with Jim until one Saturday night when she and a few friends gathered at a bar not too far away from Starfleet. All of the girls were out on the dance floor having a good time while she sat at the table and 'watched' the purses. She watched as almost all the people from Starfleet danced together and even saw her old roommate once or twice (who had lifted her hand to show off a giant engagement ring). Aliah smiled at how happy everyone was and relaxed into the comfortable bench she was sitting on. Closing her eyes she let the thrumming of the music take hold of her. Her eyes flashed open as she felt the bench move beneath her.

"Hi there pretty lady," Jim slurred moving closer to her and giggled, "I have a secret." Aliah rolled her eyes at him, trying not to smile.

"Go away Jim," she said keeping her voice stronger than she truly felt. He paused and looked at her confused.

"We're just talking," he said finally with a drunken smile and scooted closer to her.

"Jim stop I can't handle this," she said sighing. He smiled and laid his head on the table and looked at her.

"You can handle me, I know that," he said with a wink; she sighed and threw up her arms.

"Is this goon bugging you?"asked another Starfleet Cadet walking up to the table.

"Horribly," Aliah said annoyed.

"Oi, cupcake, I'm just talking to my girl," Jim said sitting up looking at the man. His girl?

"You broke up with me!" she said nearly crying already. The man reached for Jim and pulled him out of the bench seat.

"Leave her alone," he growled at Jim and Jim threw a punch at him. Aliah screamed and yelled at Jim, but the fight had already started. Jim was winning the fight until several other guys jumped in to help their buddy. Suddenly there was a loud whistle and everyone's attention turned to the entrance of the bar where Archer stood tall looking over everyone. Jim's smile had never faltered through the fight and he lay on a table looking at Archer upside down.

"You still whistle really loud!" he slurred with some laughter.

"Everyone leave! Except for you five, sit down," Arched commanded and the four sat down quickly. Jim however rolled over and fell to the floor. All of the students left the bar except for Aliah who felt partially at fault for the fight in the first place. Archer looked over at her confused.

"O'Hara, you can leave," he said and she stood from her seat.

"Sir, I was the reason for the fight," she said and he sighed.

"Jus' tryin' to tell her I'm sorry," he said leaning towards her in her chair.

"Yea right," Aliah mumbled under her breath and shoved Jim away. He almost fell off the other side of the chair and Archer looked between the two then shook his head.

"You four, you're in trouble and I'll talk with you later. O'Hara, Kirk you stay," he said and the six of them were narrowed down to two quickly.

"Aliah," Archer said softly as soon as the four left, "Tell me what's going on."

"Jim broke up with me," she said mechanically, detaching herself from emotions that wished to flow out through her eyes, "over a month ago. We haven't talked since then, until tonight and he wouldn't leave me alone. When that big guy confronted him and pulled him out of the chair he threw a punch and the fight started." She was glad she was done talking; she didn't know what else she could have handled. Archer nodded and looked over at Jim.

"Is this true," he asked and Jim looked over at Aliah longingly. He saw how she was sitting there with her feet crossed and her hands clasped together tightly. Her breathing was uneven and ragged and her face was covered by her hair as she looked down at the floor. There were several words that could describe her stance, Jim realized: broken, distraught, sad, empty, etc. Archer followed Jim's line of sight and then looked back at him.

"Jim, is thi-,"

"Yes," Jim said sounding suddenly sober. She flinched and began to glance over at him but couldn't gather the courage.

"I will call you to my office tomorrow, Kirk, we will discuss your punishment," Archer said and Jim nodded, "The both of you can leave." Jim stood, stumbling a bit as he left the building looking back only once before the door closed. Aliah stood, grabbed her purse from the table and made to leave when she felt a rough hand on her arm. She looked at the owner and haphazardly smiled at Archer.

"If you need to come and talk to me about anything, don't hesitate," he said and she nodded. "I mean it; I'd hate to lose one of my best students because of a boy or any other reason." She nodded again and left the bar going straight back to her room. Pavel would not be there. His parents were staying the weekend in L.A. and so would he. Taking a large breath she walked into her room and got ready for bed. As she lay down, her mind traveled from one thought to another. She watched the endless expanse of white also known as her ceiling and thought back on the night. How could Jim have been so casual to her? Yes, he was drunk, but still…

Her PADD buzzed as she received a phone call and she ignored it. It rang several times then with one final buzz it fell into rest. She rolled over on her bed, curiosity getting the best of her and replayed the messages from Leonard McCoy, only to see it was not from Bones at all, but his best friend.

"Aliah!" said Jim's voice. It was dark and she wondered if he was hiding somewhere or if he was lying in the dark room, "Aliah, wait- where's that damn light switch." The corners of her mouth twitched into a smile and she watched as he turned on some light so she could see his face. "Hi," he called looking back at the screen. His eyes were glazed over, his cheeks were red and she could tell he was still drunk, "I just wanted to tell you I love you and I miss you! Please, please just talk to me again. I miss you." There was more to the message but she couldn't listen to him anymore. Throwing her PADD across the room she pulled the covers up over her body and looked around her room.

How could he send her that message? He was the one who left her, not the other way around. She licked her dry lips and curled up into a ball. She wondered if he would ever want to come back to her, but she quickly eradicated that thought from her mind. She wanted to send him a message back, but what would she say? After all, he had left her completely speechless.

"Speechless"

I can't believe what you said to me
Last night when we were alone
You threw your hands up
Baby you gave up, you gave up

I can't believe how you looked at me
With your James Dean glossy eyes
In your tight jeans with your long hair
And your cigarette stained lies

Could we fix you if you broke?
And is your punch line just a joke?

I'll never talk again
Oh boy you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless, so speechless

And I'll never love again,
Oh boy you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless, so speechless

I can't believe how you slurred at me
With your half wired broken jaw
You popped my heart seams
On my bubble dreams, bubble dreams

I can't believe how you looked at me
With your Johnnie Walker eyes
He's gonna get you and after he's through
There's gonna be no love left to rye

And I know that it's complicated
But I'm a loser in love
So baby raise a glass to mend
All the broken hearts
Of all my wrecked up friends

I'll never talk again
Oh boy you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless so speechless

I'll never love again,
Oh friend you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless, so speechless

How?
Haaaa-oooo-wow?
H-ooow?
How

Haaaa-oooo-wow?
H-ooow?
How

And after all the drinks and bars that we've been to
Would you give it all up?
Could I give it all up for you?

And after all the boys and girls that we've been through
Would you give it all up?
Could you give it all up?

If I promise boy to you
That I'll never talk again
And I'll never love again
I'll never write a song
Won't even sing along

I'll never love again
So speechless
You left me speechless, so speechless
Why you so speechless, so speechless?

Will you ever talk again?
Oh boy, why you so speechless?
You've left me speechless so speechless

Some men may follow me
But you choose "death and company"
Why you so speechless? Oh oh oh