CHAPTER 12 – All I Need

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A/N: I dedicate this chapter to two people who gave me much support since I started with this story,and this is for you Justine (SimplyDazzling ) and for snowfire81.I hope you guys enjoy this,and with more reviews,more chapters will come.

Tks for everything

Xoxo

Carol

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EPOV

I was freezed,the only thing I could think about was how fuck up my life I was, trapped between the car and Tanya's body.I felt like the air was pulled of my lungs when i heard Bella's voice.

"What the fuck is going on here" she shouted.

She was fucking right,what the fuck was going on here,I just did told the fucking bitch to leave me alone and she just thinks that kiss me would just change my mind?Was she fucking insane?Coulnd´t she see that I was fucking in love with someone else.

.Me. I was so fucking screw.I just find out that I was in love with Swan and she just saw me kissing another shit was so fuck I did the only thing that my stupid brain could do.I whispered her name.

"Bella ..." I couln´t even think rationally right I could do was look in Bella's eyes,and see the pain,the rage,the disappointment.I wanted to run,shake her in my arms,and tell her that she was the first and only girl that maked me feel this way.

But it was too got inside of her Mustang,and run out the parking lot in high speed with her stereo blasting should i do?I was so looked at me,for the first time,like she wish she had never meet me.

I watched her until her car disappeared in the horizon.I run my hands by my hair,gripping it with force.I was so fucking the first time I let myself feel something for someone,and I just fuck up everything in the same second.

Congratulations Edward,you sick fuck, you have just destroyed the best thing that had happened throughout your entire life.

What could I do to make this right?To make Bella forgive me.I started to panic,for the first time,I realized that I needed someone else in my my solitude times were love shit was messed up.I couldn't do anything about Bella yet,but I could clarify some things with the cause of our problems.

I realized that I still was trapped with Tanya's body,and that makes me sick.I push her away from me,wanting to stay away from all this shit that she pull looked me with pleading eyes,like I was going to feel sorry of her flat ass,yeah right.

"What the fuck was that?Are you bitch psychotic or some shit like that?I told ya i didn´t want to hook up with you anymore" I screammed right in her face,and she looked at me like I was fucking insane or something.

"But Eddie,we alwayd hook up,I don´t know why you are soo piss that about this crazy bitch that came running to her junckie car" she reply with her annoyng little voice

"Listen to me Tanya,you might play the spoil little princess in your home or with your fucking don´t try to give me this are a annoying brat and I don't wanna anything you with anymore" I yell at her face.

"Well Edward,you are being a jerk.I am not one of this high school girls that you can use and trow away" she yelled back at me.

"You are fucking just ruined the best thing that had happend in my fucking her car is a fucking classic,its a Mustang Cobra your idiot,and she is the most amazing,gorgeous,smart,sexy girl don´t know shit,all you know is what your dadys money can are just a empty attempt of a person" I said and grab my backpack from the floor and went back to the school.

I was running back to the school,ignoring Tanya's screams,when I saw Alice standing had a petrified look in her eyes,we look at each other but didn´t said anything.I knwe she would probbably tell Bella everything that she saw and heard,and I didn´t know if I should be happy or worry with that.

I needed to think,to talk to someone,to release some of this fucking tension.I was getting more mad every second that passed.I needed to run,to drink,to kick someone's fucking ass.I found Jasper in the hall,and grabbed him.

"Dude I need to get the fuck out of this place before I kill someone" I told him

"Call down Loverboy,what the hell happend now?Bella was fucking worried about your absence" he said to me.

"Lets just say that the shit hit the fan" I reply.

"Don´t tell me you and La Bella fight once again,dude you are starting to fuck with my mojo.I am dieing to hear about yours and her sex life.I need to live through your life since I am a almost married man" Jasper jocked around

"Man I really need to get out of here,I will tell everything later,I need to go home and I need your you in?" I asked,Jasper was my right arm,he would know what could help me.

"Sure Cullen,don´t get your panties in a go to your place then" he said.

We got to the parking lot,and got inside my God that the evil bitch already had left.

"So are you going to tell me what did happen" he said while texting Alice to tell her he took of with me

"Well,today Bella went crazy mode,did the lab shit before I even got to she told me we were free,got me out the class,and sunddely started to make out with me.I thought,what the fuck right,so we got to the Volvo for a bit more of privacy,and before I knew her tits were in my mouth and her hand in my dick" I told Jasper

"What the fuck Cullen,are you telling me that you and La Bella did the dirty in here" said Jasper and started to laugh

"No asshole,there was just a lot of making out and was fucking perfect,she was happy,and I had the feeling that soon our relationship was getting much more like they say...anything saty good for too long" I murmered to him

"So what,did she freak out before,or decided that she liked pussy better?Cause she seems really worried about you in lunch,you had vanished,and she tried to disguise but I realized that she was worried about you" he said

"No,Tanya fucking send me a text telling me she was in the bloody parking lot,so I went there to see what she she didn´t get when I told her I didn´t want to hook up with her anymore,so she thought that kissing me would make me change my mind or right in this moment Bella saw us" I said with a clear sadness in my voice.

"Shit man,are you telling me that she saw you and fake boobs making out" now Jasper seems worried

"Yeah,soon I pushed her away from me,scream for Bella to hear me out and shit,but she just went to her car and took off.I am soo fuck up man" I said parking my car in the garage.

"I guess that you must really like Bells,I never saw you turning down a chance to fuck before.I guess my little man just grown up" said Jasper trying to pay the patriarchal guy.

"Fuck off,yeah I know that.I mean,what I feel when she looked at me like I had stabed her in her back.I never feel so fucking bad in my life" I said while opening the door and getting inside my house.

"Yeah,I think now I had to play a Emmet 'Edward and Bella,sitting on a tree...' wow man what was it for" asked Jasper as I punched him in the shoulder.

"Stop making fun of me,I really like her.I think I fell for wasn't suppose to do I do now Jasper" I asked,I was a desperate man.

We went to my room,Jasper jumped in my bed,and lit a cigarette.I stod by the windown,this comtemplative shit was tottaly cracking my style.

"Well,I guess that you can start by apologizing to her for making out with another chick not even after tree hours of making out with her too" he said with a sarcastic smile on his face.

"Fuck off,and take out this cigarrette from my bed,those are expensive sheets your jerk,Esme will freak out if you ruin then" I said taking his cigarrette and taking a smoke from my windown.

Looking down at the trees,I never feel before such loneliness like I went and turn on my of the best musics ever started to play,it was "All I need" from Radiohead,the music seemed to fit my mood perfectly, it talk and explain everything I was feeling better than I ever could do.

I'm the next act
Waiting in the wings
I'm an animal
Trapped in your hot car
I'm all the days
That you choose to ignore

You are all I need
You are all I need
I'm in the middle of your picture
Lying in the leaves

I am a moth
Who just wants to share your light
I'm just an insect
Trying to get out of the night
I only stick with you
Because there are no others

You are all I need
You are all I need
I'm in the middle of your picture
Lying in the leaves

It's all right
It's all wrong
It's all right
It's all right

This song was was like it was writen for Bella and chest seemd like it would explode,and all I wanted was to cave a hole in the ground and just did everything in my life been so karma beating me in tha ass for all those girls i splet around?Was because i wasn´t a good son?A good friend?What had I done to deserve this...pain.

"Hey dude,are you done,or are you going to be in this EMO mode all afternoon" asked Jasper from my desk chair.

"Screw you,Radiohead isn´t some emo shit,its a form of fucking enjoy it your fukcer" I reply,I knew that Jasper didn´t think that Radiohead wasn't emo,but he was telling me this to piss me off so i would be mad and not depressed.

"Yeah whatever,so if you want to know,Alice just send me a text telling me she will spend the afternoon with Bella doing shopping,I guess that you had ultil twilight to decide what you will do to get in La Bella good graces once again" said Jasper with a big smile on his face.

"You are enjoying this your fucker,you like to see me miserable,what kind of best friend are you" I shouted

"Cullen this is for your own fucking you know that you are in love with the girl and you will try to do the right thing and not fucking this up" Jasper explained his reaction as if it were the most natural thing in the world.

"Whatever,I just need to fix this shit,I never thought that would come a day when Edward Cullen would have to be chasing a girl.I feel like I am in a fucking parallel universe" I groan,this shit was so fucking frustrating.

"I guess that would happen soon or is like the coolest chick ever,shes smoking hot,ride a bloody Mustang,she's got a fucking good taste in everything,from music to girls,if you know what I mean" said Japer with a silly grin on his I had to admit that Bella was fucktastic.

"She's perfect" I whispered.

"Yeah,bla bla bla,now lets think how you will get La Bella back" he said to me.

So we spent the entire afternoon thinking what could make Bella forgive me,but nothing seemed good was already late,and Jasper had left to meet Alice for dinner or shit.I guess that this leaves Bella alone in her there was one thing I could still try to do.

I grab my things and run to the parents weren't in home so they wouldn' freak out if I wasn't here for dinner.I went in high speed,the route that would normally take twenty minutes, took only ten.

I stop in front of her house to see if the cruiser was there.I guess I was lucky that Chief Swan wasn´t in home after all.I parked the Volvo at the corner at a safe distance from the house if I had to flee the never know right.

I saw a light on,it was the only one besides the one in the front fade away and another one close to it turn on.I guess that bella left the was the perfect moment for me to get inside before she notice my presence.

Close to her window,was a large tree,it had na old swing,and I could easily scale it to reach her window.I went and began to climb, and it was not as easy as it seemed, the tree was covered with moss and very I finally managed to reach the window.I pushed it,and got inside of her God that she didn´t locked it.

It was the first time I was in her was fucking amazing,I could see from the moon light that the walls were painted in purple,she had a lot of band posters in the walls,with her favorites bands,and soo far,those were mine too.I had the same Radiohead and Muse posters in my own were also a bookcase full of books and cds,who knew that La Bella was a geek the photographic shit was my favorite thing so far,that and the underware drawer that I just find.

So Bella was really ultil lace and red.I should have imagine that the set she wore today wasn´t a one time this girl get anymore perfect?And just like that,I realize she could when I heard the most beautiful sound moaning my fucking name.

She wasn´t moaning,she was screamming,and from what I know this could only means ony was touching herself thinking about me,oh fuck,great now I have a hard again Bella,you seem to bring the erection in jock I know.

All I could do was stand by the wall,just listening to her.I swear this was the msot hot thing ever.

"Oh God Edward,I need more.I need you to fuck me with your tongue" she said,I knew that bella might be all dominating, but I did not know who came to this could play the dominatrix with me anytime she wanted.

"Fuck,Edward you know I like it me,please" she moaned I would give to just do that,go there and fuck her myself.I needed to get some grip,or two things could hapen,one I would go there,trow her in the fucking all and fuck her brains out,or I would burts in my pants like twelve years old a boy that had just see his first porno my life.

Soon I hear she screamming num name one final I knew she had just cum.I would give anything to just taste her I am soo whiped.

As I tried to calm myself,I heard the door open,and her sweet perfume invade the room.I was behind her,so she couldn´t see me,and I knew that there was only one fucking way to make Bella listen to me.

"What the fuck?I didn´t leave this open" she said,and before she know I embraced her from behind with my arms.I was holding with force her delicious hips.I couldn't hold myself when I saw her in a old over sized Pink Floyd t-shirt and was to irresistible

for her own fucking good.I felt her body get tense, then I decided to use my only weapon at the time.

"So Bella,do you like it rough" I said and breathed on her fuck was going to be a fucking long night.