Edward's pov
It was hard to see my girl so fragile knowing that I had most of the blame. Holding her in my arms while she was passed out was a kind of relief, because I knew that in my arms she was safe.
"Is she going to be alright?" I asked my father after I saw him coming out from her room. My father nodded, "Nothing is wrong with her. Her body didn't know how to handle all these pressure." He told me.
I sighed in relief. Just knowing that she was okay made everything much better. "Look, son." My father said trying to get my attention. "I don't know what's going on between you and Bella, but it has to stop." He told me.
I turned to look at him. "Stop? Do you really want to know that stopping it is one of the reasons Bella is like this now?" I asked him. He kid of looked surprise. "Your mother and I still haven't asked Billy for Rachel's hand. I always respected your decisions and I'm going to respect your decision again. But if you haven't made one until you leave, I'll make one." And with these words he left the room.
I knew that I had to make a decision and I thought I had made that night, hell the day I learn about Jacob's death, but it was pretty clear that I still haven't decided what I wanted to do.
I still remember what my Sergeant had told me that day. 'I'm going to tell you a few words, and then the decision is yours.' A few words I didn't take into consideration.
*Flashback*
"Jacob and I were friends since we were babies. We used to name us brothers not by blood. He was never a shy guy, I always was. He knew how to charm the ladies, when I didn't. He liked to court, a lot. Until, he found his match, his sun, his life, his everything. His fiancée was the best thing he ever happened to him, like he said." I stopped and took a breath.
"I met Bella, Jacob's fiancée, when she stepped on me. The first time I lay my eyes on her, I lost it. I knew that she was the one for me. But," I sighed. I grabbed my head with both of my hands and sighed again.
"But he was smitten by her like she was with him, am I right son?" my Sergeant asked me. I nodded since I couldn't speak. "But?" he asked.
"I tried to step back, I really did but I couldn't. She was always there. But, when I left for the war I sent her letters. If there was a possibility I could die, I had to make sure she would know how I felt." I told him. I heard him sigh.
"She loves you, doesn't she?" he asked again. I nodded. "I love her, too." I admitted to him.
"Listen, son. I'm going to tell you a few words and then the decision is yours." He started saying. "I know it's cliché but 'follow you heart' is the best advice I can give you. Plus, you may want a story of mine as well." he said.
"My wife's and mine parents were best friend for years. While hers was only blessed with a girl, my parents had the 'blessing' to have two boys. My brother and I. I was the oldest while my brother, Frank, was the youngest. My wife was a two years younger than me but she was at the same age with my brother." He took a huge breath. "They knew how much I loved her and how much she loved me but both families, mine and hers; insist on marrying her with my brother. The day of the wedding I flipped out, I couldn't take that the woman I loved was marring someone else, especially my brother. It was so hard to take it.
I went into her room and talked to her. I told her how much I loved her and that if she left right then with me I'd anything to make her not regretting that decision. Fortunately, she agreed but she asked to speak with my brother. Frank was not surprised to see us together in the room. He said that he understood completely, when we try to explain him, and even though he loved her a lot he knew that he could never make her as happy as I could do." He said and a smile appeared on his face.
"That day of their wedding, I let my heart guide me and not my head. I suggest you doing the same." He said in a fatherly tone. "Now, go!" he said with a changed voice.
*End of Flashback*
Now, I know what I have to do.
Small, I know? But I couldn't let you anymore without a chapter and I remember promising putting the 'little' talk with Sergeant Bill. Sorry for any grammar, vocabulary and syntax mistake. I didn't have the time to look it again. I seriously don't know when the next chapter is going to be since I won't be home for a whole week in April and with exams so fucking close(yeah but that means summer is near, too :D) but Easter is around the corner, right? I love you all so much. 3
Georgia
