He is no longer here, but the black curtains which he has bought are still at my windows, and they are still drawn.

He is no longer here, but his smell still lingers in the air, as if it has become the air itself.

He is no longer here, but the necklace which represents his present for me, for my birthday, which has been two days ago, it's still around my neck.

He is no longer here, but I can still smell him from the sheets of my bed, and I saw him in my dream and now, I can feel him in the shadows of the corners of my room.

He is no longer here, but I am.

Chapter 12: Cold

I just can't get up from my bed. I just don't want to get up from it.

I just wish I could fall asleep once again, just so I could dream him again.

And when I wake up, everything would be back to normal, and he would be beside me, watching me, waiting for me to wake up.

But now, after I closed my eyes just with this purpose in mind, everything rushed back to me, forcing the memories to flow.

The reason he is no longer here with me.

'I listened knowing, or already knowing that these rules, conditions, will decide my life, my future, or my curse.

"I allow you to take this human to his house, alive, and I give you three hours to do so, and after that you'll come back to this place. But within these three hours you also have to make him understand that he will never see you again, and that you will never see him again. Also, it goes without saying that if he'll ever utter a word about our existence, you and he will be punished; even if, I doubt that someone will believe him, maybe they'll label him as crazy, but nothing else. Therefore, we'll discuss about your next order when you'll come back. I made myself understood?"

The vampire has said these words, and we all listened but I just can't believe what I've heard.

"Understood." Sasuke said but Itachi almost yelled right after:

"Won't you swear?"

I begun to move my head right and left, saying no from my very core, but Sasuke didn't pay any attention to me.

"I swear." '

Two whole days, I stayed in bed, sleeping and waking up just to stare at the ceiling, and waiting to fall asleep again.

The phone has rung so much that I've turned it off, because it begun to be annoying, I didn't answered, not even one call, I didn't even looked at who it is that it's calling me.

I don't even remember what day it is; I just know that it had been two days without Sasuke.

I don't want to eat, I don't want to get up from my bed, I don't want to move or to think, and I want nothing at all.

I see him in my dreams, and I almost feel him while I dream him, but he always disappears in the end.

And so, I wake up sweaty, trembling, crying and screaming.

And then, I wait to fall asleep again.

The scent of him is still in the sheets of the bed and in the blanket, but because it has been two days, the scent slowly evaporates.

Or it is already gone and I just imagine his scent, I imagine that I feel it, and I imagine that he's here or that when I wake up, he'll be here to embrace me because I had another nightmare.

When he used to be here, he always embraced me when I had a bad dream.

'Where are you when I need you the most?'

I have no intention to do something about my situation. However, the night has come and I realized it because while I stood in this bed for two days, I stared at the black curtains often, and I realized the difference of them when it's day or night.

And so, I got up, and I walked to the window, I opened it after I took away a portion of the curtain so I can do so, and I looked outside, at the full moon and at its stars.

Pain has spread within me in seconds.

As I walked away, hurried, to the bathroom, almost ran to it.

I turned the water on and made a shower which it took me so long that the warm water has become cold, and I'm freezing in the shower, but I don't want to get up.

'Maybe I can just die already...' I thought while I closed my eyes in pain.

And one particular memory has appeared in my mind:

'But I see him, while he is still over me, and I hear him, talking to me:

"I have to leave." He whispers.

'But I don't want you to leave me...' I thought.

"You have to forget that I ever existed, and live, live for me." He whispers again to me.

'I don't want to...not without you.' I thought again.

"Promise me that you'll try." He whispered to me.

'I once promised that I'll accept promises just from you, but I just can't accept this one..." I thought but I said nothing.

"Promise me!" He said.

"I love you." I whispered.'

And so, while the memory played in my mind, while I could almost hear his voice echoing all around me, I began to cry, while I feel so cold that I tremble, while my tears is the only trace of warmth that I can feel, that exists.

And so, while crying and wishing I would just die, the water stopped pouring over me, but I didn't turned it off.

However, I didn't react until I felt a fabric on my body.

When I opened my eyes, it was to look at a big blue towel on me and then, in front of me.

I stare at a blond boy, with blue eyes, which is not too tall but not too short either, wearing familiar clothes.

'Me?'

To be continued…

Yeah, I'm sorry, this is the shortest chapter ever, I just ran out of ideas or at least, I had this one, but I don't like how it turned out, it's all rushed and I am sorry for it. But these really are his actions, and I'll let you guess who the 'mysterious boy' is.

The next chapter won't be as late as this one, I hope, and it will be longer, I hope. Ahem…

I want to thank xenawp532 for your sweet review; this chapter isn't happy either, made you cry this time? Sorry if so… and yes, the way they will get back together will be the whole deal as you may want to name it, it will be a long journey and I mentioned you again. Hope you don't mind. And again, thank you, it means a lot to me.

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