Chapter 12- Internal Voice
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Bella's pov
It was after Esme's arrival in which I had been the most distraught then I had been since Edward's return- despite having intense pain in my womb- because of having heard the disconcerting news Esme brought. I didn't even know werewolves existed until Esme returned and told us of their warning. Those moronic wolves think that they can control my life. (An: no offense team Jacob or werewolf fans) Well they're going to get the shock of their miserable lives when they find out that they are totally and utterly wrong. Nobody can control my life but me and if I want to live with my beloved forever then so should it be. I was then relieved when Esme told us that she didn't mention the baby to them. They would kill the Cullen's for sure if they knew and nobody could kill my family without facing my wrath. We were all stunned when Esme mentioned about Seth's intervention and were glad when we realised that there may be some unbiased and nice werewolves out there although most of them sound like complete assholes. Especially Sam.
"What are we going to do about them. I need to be changed and you need to uphold your promise" I whispered.
"How could you doubt me? Of course I'll uphold my promise" He replied looking offended. All we need to do is find a loophole"
"The treaty is very strict" Esme reminded us unhappily.
"Can someone please explain exactly what the treaty is?" I asked, feeling irritated at my ignorance of the subject.
"We cannot go onto Quilitine land as you know and they can't intrude on ours. We can also never bite a human and let the transformation occur" Edward explained with a frown.
"What are we going to do then" I sighed in frustration. Edward stroked my cheek in reassurance and looked at me thoughtfully.
"You just need a loophole" Emmett repeated Edward's earlier words with a grin.
"This is in no way funny Emmett" Rosalie scolded.
"Sorry" He muttered looking down.
"Wait the treaty just said bite, didn't it?" I smiled, a plan forming in my head. A plan which might just work with the right resources.
"Yes" They all leaned in towards where I was lying on the massive bed.
"Well there is one more way to allow the venom to enter my system" I grinned wider then Emmett had.
"Of course" Edward breathed, an excited look crossing his face as he realised what I was going on about.
"Let us on, on the mystery already" Emmett grumbled.
"Oh I see" Alice laughed.
"Well" Jasper probed.
"All we have to do is get Edward's venom into a syringe and then insert it into my skin. Even though I hate needles, I will do it so that the treaty isn't broken and I can be changed" I announced proudly.
"You're a genius" Emmett exclaimed.
"You say it like she wasn't smart before" Edward shot an irritated look at Emmett. Emmett just shrugged but I didn't care. I was going to get everything I wanted without any stupid wolves' interference.
"Should we inform the wolves or just perform the act without their knowledge" Carlisle asked, not looking as happy as all of us by any rate. He was looking at the logic and I knew that we all truly couldn't be happy unless we followed the logic. Damn you stupid logic.
"I think we will need to leave Forks first" Jasper sighed.
"Yes we will" Esme replied, her eyes full of sadness. I knew she loved this house more than any other Cullen because of its timelessness and natural beauty.
"But we're forgetting about something" I reminded them, cursing myself for forgetting too.
"What" They all said at once, their eyes beseeching. As an answer I looked down at my growing stomach fondly and then looked back up at them.
"That reminds me, what are you going to call him or her?" Rosalie asked curiously causing me to blush. They wouldn't want to know the names I came up with. They may think them stupid or too unique.
"Well if it was a boy I was thinking EJ and for a girl Renesmee or maybe rosalice" I admitted shyly.
"Why were you so anxious about admitting it?" Edward asked, unleashing his eyes on me cogently, knowing that I wouldn't comply.
"Well I thought you would think they are dumb or too unique or silly" I babbled, my blush growing darker.
"There is no way I would consider one of your ideas to be silly or dumb. I think it's sweet that you want to name our child after people you and I love and I wouldn't have it another way" Edward smiled and I could see that it was the veracity through his eyes.
"No matter which one you pick I think it's an awesome idea and I would be honoured to be named after your daughter if you chose that name" Alice smiled warmly.
"I second that" Rosalie smiled coyly. I stared at their smiling faces feeling release as I felt the happiness fill the air but it was all snatched away from me when I leant forward, my vision became blurry, I threw up staining the newly bought sheets my fiancée had so generously bought for me and I saw the world go black. (AN: I promised you guys a longer chapter so it won't end here)
Edward's pov (AN: Yay back to Edward's pov. I just love it when it's my fictional boyfriend's pov. Lol)
I felt my very world get shaken when Bella threw up then passed out and I saw all the blood being drained from her face.
"Bella' I cried out, my voice and core panicky.
"What happened" Alice moaned.
"You should know you're the psychic" I snapped, only wanting to hear the words which would release me from my mental prison. The words which told me she was okay.
"Edward calm down. She's probably just weak and it all became too much for her" Carlisle explained serenely.
"Fix her Carlisle. Find out what's wrong with her, please" I pleaded sorrowfully.
"I will do everything I can son" Carlisle promised me then nodded at Rosalie approvingly when she began to mop up the vomit thoughtfully. I placed my ice cold hand against Bella's forehead and felt the sweat caused by her temperature which was growing abnormally cold. How could you gain sweat when you were freezing? I silently and gently held her hand which was just as icy and choked when I saw how thin her wrists were becoming, knowing that it could get thinner as the baby sucked more life out of her. Huilen warned that this would happen but seeing it firsthand made it much more difficult to endure. It was then when I was about to change my attitude towards the baby when I heard a voice I had never heard before in my entire existence. 'Not enough good food, mummy throws up bad food. Don't want to hurt mummy but will have to if I don't get food. If I don't get food then I will die. I don't want to die' the soft voice thought. I couldn't tell if the voice was female or male and I simply didn't care. I gasped in complete shock.
"What is it Edward" Alice demanded.
"I can hear the baby's voice" I answered, the shock clear in my voice. "He or she is hungry but doesn't want to hurt Bella. It hates the human food and I think he or she wants blood. Remember how Huilen told us that Pire drank blood to keep her and the baby alive. Well I think it's time to try that with Bella if she allows us" I explained to everyone, hoping that they would see my logic.
"Exactly! But do you think she'll agree to it? It must be pretty disgusting for a human to drink blood" Rosalie wrinkled her nose and I knew she was thinking of eating human food if the situation was reversed.
"I think she'll do anything for this baby" I replied confidently.
"Wait you want Bella to drink blood" Emmett laughed.
"Bit behind on the times are we Emmett" Alice snorted.
"Everyone's being so mean" Emmett whined.
"Everybody focus" I ordered getting an immediate response from everyone except for Rosalie.
"What's the baby thinking now" Rosalie asked. 'I bet it's thinking about its wonderful and attractive auntie' Rosalie's thoughts were unsurprising vain as always.
"This is off topic" I griped.
"It may give us some more information" Carlisle said, his face lighting up.
"Who cares about information when Bella is or ill or possibly even dying! The baby confirmed as much in its thoughts" I shouted angrily. Didn't they give a damn about what happened to Bella all was it all about their desires. 'I didn't mean to upset him, I should apologise' Carlisle thought causing me to regret my hasty words.
"I'm sorry everyone, I'm just under complete stress and want to make sure Bella is okay" I said looking down and feeling ashamed.
"We all do Edward" Alice assured me while the others all nodded their heads in agreement.
"I just can't bear to lose her" I whispered weakly. A sudden coughing from the bed alerted us and I squeezed Bella's hand to encourage her to reveal her beautiful, chocolate brown eyes which I loved so much.
"Sorry about that. I don't know what happened" She told me sheepishly, her voice sounding weak.
"Don't apologise. That was in no way your fault" I disagreed. I could tell in her eyes that she disagreed with me but that was because she was so selfless and wouldn't let anyone else take the blame.
"What did I miss" Her eyes brightened but her face still looked pale and tired. The product of her sickness and pregnancy no doubt.
"Edward could hear the baby's thoughts" Rosalie answered elatedly.
"Are you serious? Holy crow! What was it thinking" She asked eagerly, her eyes sparkling.
"Well, about that" I said nervously.
'What is it Edward, what's wrong?" She gripped my hand as tightly as she could manage, her face falling.
"Well through its thoughts we discovered that its craving blood as Huilen said it would. This means that" I started.
"I have to drink blood" She finished for me.
"Are you okay with that" I asked feeling concerned that she would have no objections but as always she was bound to surprise me.
"Well I wouldn't do it for leisure but if it will help the baby then I am all for it" She announced bravely.
"Pay up" Jasper said smugly to Emmett who grudgingly gave him one hundred dollars. With all that's going on they still had time for a bet? Sometimes my brothers were annoying and childish. Especially Emmett.
"I'm going to go bankrupt soon" Emmett muttered.
"Emmett you know we have enough money to float an island but that does not mean you should bet it all away to your brother" Esme scolded disapprovingly. "Now we need to discuss about Bella's options"
"You don't have to do this. We can find some other way" I said, giving her a way out of the terrible thing she would have to endure.
"Edward, I want our child to be safe. You always want to protect me by doing everything you can no matter how unpleasant or dangerous. Well it's the same for our baby. I want to do whatever I can to allow it to safely enter the world and be a part of our life" She explained softly stroking my face as if she was trying to comfort me.
"Are you sure" I demanded staring straight into the depths of her eyes.
"I am totally sure" She smiled. "Now who is going to catch a mountain lion for me?"
"I think the baby would respond better to human blood however disgusting that sounds" I informed her somberly.
"Oh" She frowned.
"I'll go now to the blood bank to retrieve some blood for you. We won't have to sacrifice anything because people have willingly given up their blood for medical purposes and I am going to think of this as a medical situation" Carlisle smiled warmly at Bella.
"Thanks" Bella and I both expressed thanks to Carlisle at once. He then ambled casually through the window just as Esme had.
Carlisle's pov (I hope all these pov's aren't confusing you)
As I ran silently to the blood bank, I once again graciously revelled in the fact that I was a doctor. I had done so many times before such as when I had saved a patient's life. The look on the mother's face as she hugged her daughter who and survived from a life-threating car crash was wonderfully gratifying for me knowing that I had saved two lives. These being the daughter's physical life and the mother's emotional one. Another time was when I was feeling depressed- before I had discovered Esme- over my pointless existence which was only created to kill and then I remembered that a great number of people in the hospital would be dead if it wasn't for me and then I was thrilled that my purpose wasn't so pointless after all. I was revelling over my profession now because it meant that I could give my future daughter in law all the treatment she needed and could obtain things most people couldn't. If there was an emergency I could also aid her and save her and my son's life. I knew without proof that Bella and Edward's life were bound together as if they were frail lines of two pieces of string tied tightly together. If you cut one then you cut both and would lose both of them. Without them our family could never be complete and meaning of this life would be forever be lost. That is why I must dedicate myself to healing Bella and safely delivering this baby. Esme had already agreed as shown when she went out by herself to buy Bella food when nobody else could possibly eat it. We would stand hand and hand together and help our son and daughter when they needed it most. My way of helping at the present was to go to the blood blank and collect blood for Bella while Esme had other duties unknown to me but I knew she would obey them without a thought. That was what I loved about my wife, her selflessness and general kindness. It was hard to find women these days that have these qualities but I was insanely glad and grateful to have her. If everything else was lost then at least I would have her. I didn't get any weird looks as I strolled casually into the blood bank and knew instantly why. I had taken a few trips here on occasion for work business for patients who needed blood transfusions so a visit now was hardly unordinary.
"Dr Cullen" A worker, who was thankfully a man, addressed me. The women just couldn't understand that I had a perfectly happy family life and a beautiful wife. Every day I was bombarded with flirting and I didn't have time for it today. "I thought it was your day off?" He raised an eyebrow quizzically.
"A doctor was urgently needed so what else could I do? The patients needed me so how could refuse?" I lied smoothly.
"Yes, yes I understand" The worker said quickly, smiling at me. Being alive for more than three hundred years tended to give you good lying skills but however much I hated lying it was necessary sometimes although my children thought nothing of it. I don't know how many times I got odd calls from various principals telling me that Emmett had broken school property and he denied it but he was the only one who could have possibly done it no matter how genuine he sounded and the time when Rosalie denied having punched a student in the face for muttering under their breath about Rosalie being ugly when Emmett refused the student's date proposal oh so tactfully. My other children were a bit more vigilant but still undertook illegal activities.
"Well if you don't mind I'll go in and extract the blood myself" I hinted politely.
"Go ahead Doctor" He nodded, smiling pleasantly again. I returned the nod curtly and walked into the blood bank room. It took me no time at all to find the correct blood I needed and caused me no pain at all to do so. Footsteps could be heard approaching the room but I ignored them.
"Dr Cullen, it's your day off and we didn't send for you to come here" Dr Morrison frowned. Dr Morrison was one of my co-workers so I of course couldn't use the same lie as before.
"Well uh, I, uh" I spluttered.
"Well" He raised an eyebrow.
"I have a relative who is gravely ill and needs a blood transfusion" I explained telling a half-truth, making me feel better about the whole lying scheme.
"Who is this relative?" He questioned suspiciously. Drat, what was I supposed to say now? If people knew the real whereabouts of Bella then we would have a number of more unnecessary problems which we don't already have to deal with.
"My cousin who has come to stay with our family. He became ill about an hour after staying out our residence and I have decided to put my skills to use. He is very sensitive about his doctors and only takes who he believes is the best. No disrespect you and our colleagues" I apologised at the end.
"What's his name?" He questioned further.
"John Smith" I answered the first words which came to mind. (AN: Ha, I just watched I am number 4 so that's where that came from)
"Ah, well it's nice to hear that you treat people even when you are not present at work" He said courteously.
"Yes well, now I must attend to him"
"Oh I understand. Tell me tomorrow how it goes"
"Will do" I assured him. I then walked out of the blood bank with what I needed, feeling relieved that the conformation was over. Although I must admit that my confrontation would be more desirable than Esme's. I should have gone with her but then again would my presence have made things worse? Either way it was all over and done and we needed to concentrate on Bella.
Bella's pov
During Carlisle's absence Edward had not left my side and Carlisle was gone for longer than Esme. I didn't see how he could stay with me for so long without getting bored. When I asked him, he told me that there was nothing in the world that could occupy him without me there beside me. When Carlisle did return it was time for me to suck it up and do something that I repulsed but I knew that I better get used to it if I would be having it for the rest of eternity. To make the experience more bearable for me, Carlisle put it into a metal cup so I couldn't be able to see its contents because if I did then I would probably barf. They all smiled encouragingly at me before I plugged my nose and skulled it before I could change my mind. The whole thing repulsed me but not because of the taste. What repulsed me was the fact that it tasted good. Comparable to chocolate or ice cream which freaked me out. When I blurted out my thoughts to Edward he put on a strained smile and told me that it was because of the baby not because of a new preference which had come from nothing in particular. I could tell that the blood was starting to takes its desired effect on me when I felt my strength come back and didn't feel dangerous fragile. Testing this newfound strength, I attempted to sit up and sighed with relief when I did so successfully.
"The Baby is feeling stronger too. That was a good call" Edward sighed also, reading his or her thoughts. Despite the others being vampires, we all jumped at the sound of rapping. Someone was knocking on the door.
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