I stood in front of the door in the training grounds waiting for Hitsugaya to show up. I knew that it wouldn't take too much longer since I just got here and he showed up only two minutes after I get here. He was always perfectly on time and I always showed up only two minutes before him. We had fallen into a habit only shortly after I got here. Once I knew where everything was located everything was easy sailing afterwards.
"Hello Mai," Hitsugaya said walking into eyesight around the corner.
"Hey Hitsugaya," I smile at the sight of him as he walks up to me and walks through the threshold of the door becoming acuminated by the sunrays.
Today we're going to be working on something that you'll find more difficult. You already know how to use your ice as weapon."
I nod my head remembering one of the lessons Hitsugaya and taught me how to turn my ice into a sword that is part of my arm. He had told me that it was to prepare myself for one of his harder lessons. He refused to tell me what that lesson would be, but it didn't take me too long to get it. It only took me about a whole training day to get it down perfectly, according to Hitsugaya.
"Today you will be adding to yourself, with ice, dragon features such as; wings that you can fly with, a tail, and claws. I don't expect you to get it down in one day."
I nod my head to show I understand.
"You seem to speak from experience, can you do this?" I ask wondering if he could and if so how, Bonkia(look up) or is he an Aquarius himself.
"In my Bonkai form that is what I look like," he explains, spiking my interest immediately.
"Can I see it?" I ask hopeful.
"No, but maybe if we ever spare."
I nod my head knowing better than to ask again when told no by an authority.
"Now, let's begin."
I closed my eyes and began to visualize, but the look of what Hitsugaya's wings kept probing at my mind. I knew that they had to beautiful like him. With an intricate workings in the ice formation that showed strength and power, but beauty. His wings must be vast, like his knowledge. I stood there, in that one spot, for over an hour trying to figure out what his wings looked like. It was partly willingly and partly because I couldn't resist the thought that kept bugging me; what did his wings look like.
It wasn't in tell I heard a sound of shock come from Hitsugaya that I opened my eyes.
"What's wrong?" I asked afraid that something just went horribly wrong.
"You have wings!" he tells me with a smile and my worries disappear as I turn my head to smile at my ice wings on my back.
"I have wings!" I say surprised myself. "Hitsugaya, I have wings!" I begin to flap my wings with excitement as I hug Hitsugaya with joy.
I hadn't preformed the transformation completely, but I had made beautiful ice wings that started where my shoulder blades were and spread out in over lapping, intertwining ice feathers. The feathers had a design to them that caused them to capture and reflect light. The wings looked strong, yet slightly fragile by the lack of layers. At the very end of both wings is a claw that curves outwards, causing them to look both menacing and beautiful as if a finishing touch to the wings.
The two of us laughed with joy as we hugged each other tell we both calmed down and were just hugging each other.
"Where did you get your image for the wings for? They're beautiful," he says as he runs his hand over the edge of one of my wings.
"From you, you gave me the image of these wings."
"From me?" he asked sounding more than a little shocked.
I nod my head.
"They came out a little more fragile looking than I inisationlly thought they would be, but I took the things I know about you and put them into what I thought your wings would look like. Unforchentally I wasn't really imagining my own wings because I couldn't think of anything but yours might look like."
"I gave you the idea for these wings," he said still sounding shocked as he lowly says this and continued to stroke my wing.
I nod my head then look at him worried.
"Am I that far off? I mean I don't want you to feel insulted if I messed up or something," I panicked.
"No they're beautiful!" he says being pulled out of whatever he was thinking.
"Good," I smile happy that he saw them as beautiful too.
"Do you really see me as this?" he asked turning to look at me and I nod my head.
"You truly are magnificent, even if you don't see it Hitsugaya. You know there is a love quote about this person who was truly beautiful on the inside and on the outside, but that person didn't know how beautiful they truly were. I just don't remember how it goes," I chuckle feeling quiet stupid for not remembering.
"You seem to know a lot of love quotes," he says and I just shrug.
"I only remember the ones that truly stick with me like the other one."
"What is one of your favorites?" I think for a second then I know what it is.
"Other than the one I resided the other day I have to say it is; 'see there's this place in me where your fingerprints still rest, your kisses still linger, and your whispers softly echo. It's the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me." I quote this love quote for word to word. "I also really like this other one, but it's not quite a love quote."
"How so?" he asks.
"Well it's more for those that don't quiet trust their mate, but truly love them at the same time."
"Can you tell me it?" I nod.
"'I give you all my love because I truly love you, I can't give you my soul and my heart because you'll just break it,'" again I quote it for every word.
"It must be a love from a distance." I nod agreeing with him.
"Well we should probably continue with training," I say as I smile and step back so I could continue.
Hours past and still nothing has happened. My wings had dissolved because I lost the image I had formed of them and haven't been able to get them back. I can now feel the sun low on my back, telling me the day was almost over. I was growing more and more irritated by every passing second, tell I suddenly felt something cool on my skin. I open my eyes to see me covered in dragon like armor with a pair of wings, claws, and a tail.
"You… got it," Hitsugaya says sounding more shocked than he did about the wings.
"No, I tell him as I dismiss the dragon form, "my anger and frustration got it and I won't draw on that to get my results. Only something horrible can come from that."
Hitsugaya nods his head, understanding my reason behind it. He knew the story and he knew how I felt about that. I fought without emotions and when I did my lessons that's how I would be unless it I drew on joy, but I refused to allow anger to be my source of power.
"It's getting late Hitsugaya I think you should head inside. I'll be out here trying to get this right and I think you have more productive things that you probably would like to get down than just stand around and waiting for me to get this right." I didn't want to sound rude and I was afraid that it might of came out like that, but I didn't want Hitsugaya to see how disappointed I was that I hadn't gotten it right and when I did it was because I was angry. I was upset and I didn't want Hitsugaya to be let on to how much I was beating myself up.
I don't know how much time went by but I was pulled out of my thoughts by Dan running up to me, but when my mind was pulled out of imaging the dragon armor it was well past sunset.
"Dan, what's wrong?" I asked as I walked up to him.
"I need you to see something," he tells me with no further explanation and begins to take me by the hand and drag me down the halls.
"In here," he tells me but I just look at him confused.
"It's Haru's room. What do I need to see in there?" I ask not seeing the big deal about this and him needing to drag me away from my training.
"Just open it."
"Ok," I say still not getting it but I open the door after nocking, but my hand just drops by my side as I open my mouth to say greet Haru, but stop short and just stare instead.
I feel hurt, betrayed, disappointed, and worse of all pathetic. I know I should be angry, fierce, lived, and beyond pissed, but I don't. I don't feel pity for myself, I'm not mad, I just feel pathetic, disappointed, and betrayed. I had trusted Haru with my heart and now I catch Haru in the bed naked with another girl. I don't know how long this had been going on, but one time was one too many for me because if someone cheats on you once then they'll do it again. That was just a rule of thumb for me.
With hollow eyes I look at Haru, holding back the tears and speak up; "Sorry, I didn't mean to interrupt anything I was just looking for my boyfriend."
I turn around not bothering to shut the door or to say anything else. If I stayed around for much longer Haru would see that he got to me. Much doesn't bother me normally and I always seem happy, but he got to me.
"Wait Mai!" Haru shouts as he starts to run out of his room while he tried to get his boxers on properly, but I don't slow down I just begin to run away from him.
"Mai, please wait for just a second! I can explain!"
I can explain, isn't that what they all say when they get caught? I can explain what apathetic excuse!
I didn't stop running I just kept running and running; waiting for the anger to come, waiting for that hate that I know I should feel, but it never came once. I never felt anger for a second, but it would be easier to just hate him and get over it, but I couldn't bring myself to hate him and I collapse on the ground crying; tell I couldn't cry any longer.
"Mai," I hear a male voice ask as someone began to approach me.
"Leave me alone!" I yell not bothering to get up off the cold ground that I laid on.
"Mai, it's me," the person said as they approached closer to me and suddenly I felt strong arms wrap around me and pull me closer to them. I clutch their shit and begin to sob again, but harder than I had last time.
"I know Mai, I know."
"I- I trusted him Hitsugaya," I choke out as he just smoothes my hair down as he holds me close to him. "I truly believed he cared about me and- and he didn't. Was I just- a play thing for him?" I shout hurting myself more with that thought then just seeing him with that other woman.
"And the worse thing is I don't hate him. I really, really wish I did, but I can't. I don't know why but I can't bring myself to hate him."
"Hey, it's going to be ok. I know it hurts right now, but you have me and Matsumoto and we won't leave you Mai. We will always be by your side and we will never do something that will hurt you. You have my word." I looked up at Hitsugaya seeing the look of love and care mixed in with the worry he felt for me.
"Thank you," I say, burring my face into his shirt my tears slowly began to dwindle and as the tears stopped the two of us fell asleep with him still holding me close to him and my face now tucked comfortably under his chin.
"They look so cute together," I hear a female voice say somewhere off in the distance.
"If she had a guy like Hitsugaya why did she ever go out with someone like Haru?" I hear a male voice ask in reply to the comment of the female.
"I don't know?" the female replies, but I decide to ignore them finding them to not be a threat and finding curling up with Hitsugaya a much better option than listening in on two peoples conversation.
"Mhm," I complain as I nuzzle closer to Hitsugaya refusing to wake up.
"Mai," Hitsugaya asked and I could tell that he himself had just waked up.
"Mhm," I complain to him as I try to just ignore the fact that I had to get up. I don't remember ever being this conferrable and never before in the arms of another.
"Mai," I can feel him chuckle by the move of his chest and by the sound of his voice I can tell that he's smiling.
"I don't want to get up I'm confertable," I tell him.
"All right, I won't make you," he says as he rolls onto his side. I don't remember us ever lying down together on the ground, but we must have sometime while we were asleep.
"Thank you," I mumble back as I nuzzle into his neck that was now fair game with his new position and he wraps his arms around me again.
"Old leather books and mint," I whisper as I realize what his sent is.
"Hm?" he asks looking down at me.
"Nothing," I tell him nuzzling my nose against his neck and sigh with contentment.
"Mai, are you alright?" Hisugaya asks sounding genuinely concerned, but somewhat against asking incase I start to cry again.
"Yeah, I'm still hurt but to an extent it doesn't really surprise me. There were signs but I just ignored them. I know he promised he would never push me further than I was ready but it was the little things that when I think about it I begin to question myself on why I hadn't taken notice to before."
"Its hindsight," Hitsugaya tells me, but I can hear a slight waver in his voice when he starts.
"Is me position bothering you?" I ask thinking that might be the cause.
"No," he says shaking his head slightly as he just holds me closer to him.
I smile, my lips brushing against his neck ever so slightly as I do so, but I just close my eyes and relax against his body.
"The sun is beginning to rise," Hitsugaya says after a while of silence. I turn my head to look and see that it was. I sit up and Hitsugaya is soon to follow as we dangled our feet over the edge of the mountain I had ran up last night.
"It's funny, the first time I had ever saw you I was walking home from one of the clubs I was in and you were standing all alone gazing up at the sunset. The only reason I took notice of you was because I had been doing the same thing, but told myself that I needed to continue walking home. It was the last time I ever saw you."
"Why hadn't you approached me?"
"Sure and say 'hello my name is Mai, we go to school together and have the same classes. What's your name?' That wouldn't have gone over well because you would think I was some weird fan girl of just annoying." Hitsugaya prepares himself to argue that that isn't true, but I stop him before he can even begin.
"We both know that's true because we both would think the same thing if in the others shoes." Hitsugaya doesn't both to say anything.
"It's interesting that it wasn't until I saw the way that you looked at the sunset did I ever take an interest in you. My thought was you honestly hated school and saw it as a waste and didn't really care about much of anything, but when I saw the way you look at the sunset I knew that wasn't true. I could tell you wanted to be somewhere else and somewhere in your past held your mind about someone you truly cared about and would give everything too. It was the same time that I last saw you did I realize that about you." Hitsugaya looked at me as I stared at the sunset remembering that day.
"I didn't want to be there, I saw it as pointless waste of time."
"It is if you have your life planned out and are working your job," I chuckle.
"Oh and you haven't learned anything new there?" He asked looking at me doubtfully.
"I did learn some new things, but for the most part it's just stuff that my personal teachers taught me before I was seven."
"So you've been the protage your whole life?" I nod my head.
"The oldest child, typically a male but if there is no male than just the oldest exciting child, takes control of the business. Also, considering that my parents knew that I was the Aquarius they wanted me to run their businesses and have the contacts they have. Now that I think back on it a good portion of the donators have told me that if my sister took over they would stop donating and there have been times when I question what I just saw. Some of the donator are Aquariuses themselves."
"Once you go back you can begin to build a stronger bond since you now know the truth." I nod my head.
"I'll miss this place. I've grown to love Matsumoto and you Hitsugaya." I smile as I lean my head on Hitsugaya's shoulder.
"I wish you could just stay here," Hitsugaya mumbles causing me to smile bigger.
"Have I grown on you?" I ask playfully.
"Hn," he says closing off towards me.
"The cold shoulder again," I sigh. "It won't work on me Hitsugaya I've grown used to it and can give it back."
"Oh," he asks with doubt to my turned back.
I don't reply.
"Let's see how long that can last?"
Hitsugaya begins to tickle me. I try to hold back the fits of laughter, but I fail after only a few seconds and begin to laugh and swarm as I desperately try to free myself.
"Not fair!" I cry as I turn on him and begin to tickle him back.
The two of us now switched rules. I was tickling him and he was laughing and trying to break free. He did a better job than me though because after only a couple of seconds of me being dominate and tickling him he began to tickle me through his fits of laughter. I began to laugh instantly and lost consecration. Hitsugaya took advantage of this and rolled me over and pinned me to the ground as he tickled me.
"Ok, ok I give," I say through gasps of breaths and laughter.
"Good," he says with a smirk on his lips as he looked down at me.
I laughed slightly as I tried to regain my breath back.
God that smirk looks hot, I think to myself as I take it in.
The left side of his lips tilted upwards ever so slightly. It gave the rest of his face a boyish, playful looked to him. He didn't seem so intense as usual. His work has still aged him slightly, but he was happier right now. He was relaxed and I liked that.
"Mai, I'm going to still you for the day as long as that's alright with you." I nod my head.
"I would love that."
