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Sister, when you cry
I feel your tears
running down my face.
Sister, sister, keep me
I hope you always know it's true
I would never make it through
You could make the sun go DARK
just by walking away
Sister- Dave Matthwes Band
Lily woke up in James arms, he had already woken but he staid still not to wake her.
"Morning gorgeous." She said sleepily after kissing his cheek, her eyes still not completely open and a smile on her face.
"Someone's on a good mood." James smiled.
"When I wake up when I want, I'm usually on a good mood. And waking up next to you is a plus."
"Great, because we have a long day at Hogsmead, if you still wanna go."
"Of course I do. It's going to be great. And today we don't have to buy any gifts so it's just the two of us, doing whatever we want."
"That sounds nice. Get up, we need to get ready." She slowly got up, after giving him a quick peck on the lips she walked to the bathroom and he walked to his.
He was sitting in the couch reading when she came in wearing light brown ankle booties, bordeaux skinny jeans and a warm wool beige sweater with a lion in the middle and a raincoat in her arm.
"Should we go?" She asked as he got up.
"Sure. I like the sweater, house pride." He hugged her by the waist and kissed her. " Hear just this first."
"Okay, tell me."
"Knock knock."
"Who's there?"
"Love."
"Love who?"
"Love you."
"I love you too." She kissed him, chuckling. "We're so lame."
"Yes we are. We can go now." He said reaching for her hand. They walked out of the castle decided to eat breakfast somewhere else. They only had an opportunity to get out of the castle every once in a while, they had to seize it for as long as they could.
"I was wondering of the Three Broomsticks served food. I only asked for Butterbeer there." Said Lily.
"I asked for other things but I never asked for food there either. I guess we can find out today."
"Yes we can." When they got there they walked to Madame Rosmerta and asked if she served any food.
"Well kids I have apple pie, toasts with whatever you want, blueberry muffins and strawberry tart. It's not much but it sure is great."
"I want a strawberry tart!" Lily said excitedly, it was one of her favorite foods.
"Make it two, Rosie."
"Two strawberry tarts on their way." She nodded and went to the kitchen and they walked to a table. Seeing as it was still breakfast time the bar wasn't too full and it was easy to find somewhere to sit.
"Did you notice that I'm almost as tall as you with this boots?" She said proudly.
"Yes, I did. And I want to emphasize almost." He said.
"I'm not even that small; I bet you took some growing pills to be that tall." She joked.
"Damn it Lily. You got me. Just don't tell anyone." He joked.
"I knew it! Did I mention that I think tall guys are incredibly sexy? I mean they give fantastic hugs." She smirked.
"You did now." He smiled. "That's such a fortunate coincidence. Although I'm not happy with the idea of you hugging other tall guys, especially if you think they are extremely sexy."
"Is it really a coincidence? And almost nobody is as tall as you, therefore nobody gives hugs as fantastic as yours, even if they are taller. You have a gift to give great hugs and to be sexy too."
"Merlin I want to kiss you." And he moved his chair closer to hers and kissed her. They ate and talked for a while until the place got too crowded and they decided to go somewhere else, they ended up walking around Hogsmead until lunch, there was music in the streets and James would grab Lily by the waist and dance with her whenever he wanted... Because he wanted and he finally could.
They ate at a small restaurant in the end of the village that usually Hogwarts students don't know about, but, being James, he knew about the restaurant.
"I know it's not exactly a romantic restaurant, but it has the best food ever. The doses are a little big, that's why Peter and Sirius love it, but I'll split one with you." He said. "If you want to…"
"Sounds great." He pulled a chair for her to sit and sat in front of her. "The only problem with having you in front of me is that we can't kiss with the table and all in the middle."
"I still get surprised when you're flirty like this."
"Do you think you can get used to it?" She joked.
"Hell yeah. I love it."
"You weren't kidding when you said the doses were big, were you?" She asked looking at the enormous plate of food arriving their table.
"No I was not, but I am quite hungry so I don't think there will be a problem."
"Are you sure you don't want one for yourself?"
"What would you eat then? Because I'd don't think you can finish something like this."
"I'd eat a salad."
"That's not enough." He argued. "Your lunch is not going to be just a salad."
"But it's healthy."
"And not enough."
"It is, I'm on a diet."
"Why the hell are you on a diet?"
"Usually when people are on a diet they're trying to lose weight."
"Don't be condescending with me. Why do you want to lose wait for?"
"Because I think I'd look better if I did."
"You look amazing, Lily. You don't need to lose weight. I can feel your ribcage bones in bed at night. You look perfect."
"Not everyone thinks like that and it's not like I'm planning to turn anorexic, I just won't eat as much."
"Lily just ignore what anyone says, they're full of crap. You're the sexiest girl in Hogwarts so don't do this."
She blushed and looked down. "Okay."
He smiled. "Okay, you're not dieting?"
"Okay I won't diet." She nodded.
"I love you. And did I mention you look gorgeous."
"I don't think you did, but I'm glad you're doing it now."
"You know you're going to have to prove me you're not dieting anymore, don't you?"
"How am I supposed to do that?"
"Eat! A lot!" He laughed.
"As you wish." She chuckled and got some food on her plate.
"You better repeat, that is not a lot."
"You're not the boss of me."
"What if I ask please?"
Lily laughed. "Strangely when people ask please it doesn't make me hungry."
"But I really wanted you to eat more." He pouted.
"Fine, but just a little bit."
"Just a little bit sounds good. You know what sounds even greater?"
"I'm not eating more." She said.
"Damn." He said trying to sound upset but he was still smiling at her.
"I love you." She said simply, honestly what else did she need to say?
"I love you too, more than anything."
"You see this is the only problem with not being next to you is that, when you say stuff like that I can't kiss you."
"That and you can't see the snow that just started to fall."
"It's snowing?! But October just ended, it's too soon! I have to eat real quickly."
"Why?" He frowned.
"Whenever it snows for the first time Marlene and I have a snowball fight. So she's probably looking for me already with her stash ready to attack me."
"Every year?"
"Every single year. Once I didn't notice it was snowing and I was next to a window and a snowball just hit me. And got all the parchment wet and I had to write all over, after playing."
"Can I play too?"
"I thought you never asked." She smirked. "I bet Sirius is playing too."
"Ok, come on let's eat quickly." They finished their meal as fast as they could and immediately made snowballs and went looking for Marlene. They knew they had found her, or better she found them when a snowball Lily's head and they heard someone say "he better not be helping you, because that's cheating."
"No it's not. You have Sirius too." She said hiding and trying to see where Marlene was.
"No, I don't. He didn't come." The sounds came from somewhere else, she was moving so she wouldn't be found.
"What if James goes to the castle to call him?"
"Fine, but until Sirius comes it's just me and you."
"Do you mind going there?" Lily asked James.
"No, I'll try to be fast. I don't want to leave you here alone with her." He joked and she laughed. He run with his arms covering his head trying not to get hit but Marlene threw a snowball at him, that was when Lily spotted her and the two-way battle started. Things were not looking good for Lily because Marlene had time to get snowballs ready and she didn't because she was having lunch with James (it was worth it though).
They were throwing snow-balls at each other and they didn't notice the sky going black, and the silence that suddenly fell across all Hogsmead, and everybody disappearing from the streets; they only noticed something was wrong when they heard a cry of pain coming from near the shops. They quickly ran next to each other making sure they were okay and got their wands ready. Slowly and silently they walked to where they heard the second cry coming from, their hearts pounding on their chests and their minds wandering to what might be happening. They hid in the corner of the street and looked to a kid who was on the ground squirming, crying and begging the men with the wand pointed at him to stop, instead the men laughed along with the people around him who were wearing masks.
"Look at the little mudblood, he wants us to stop? But we don't take order from filthy, dirty little creatures like him." The mad said before yelling crucio again. Lily was about to stand up to try and stop all of it but, thankfully Marlene stopped her.
"I agree, we have to stop it, but we need a plan."
"Okay... Okay..." She repeated thinking of something. "I'll be the bait. I'm gonna stupefy some of them and they'll turn their attention to me, when they do you apparate next to the kid, you stupefy someone and apparate next to the castle. Your stupefy spell will get me time to apparatte next to the castle too. Got me?"
"Are you sure you want to do this? I can be the bait."
"There's no time to fight, we're doing this." And just like that she took a deep breath and got out from the hiding and stupefied as many people as she could, they all turned their attentions to Lily and Marlene did as she was told. She got to Hogwarts, when McGonnagal let her in, she saw James almost fighting Remus to go to Hogsmead, next to him Sirius was repeating more to himself than James "They're not here yet, but they're okay. The cry was not a girl's voice." The minute Sirius saw her he stood up and ran to hug her tightly.
"You're okay, you're okay. Thank Merlin you're okay."
James stopped fighting Remus for a while to look around for Lily. "Where is she? Where is Lily?"
"She's coming. She's going to apparate in front of the gates." And that was when they heard a third cry, and this time it was a girls voice, it was Lily's. Remus didn't try to stop James now, in fact him, Sirius and Marlene were now trying to get out of school, but the professors were stopping them.
She was lying in the hard, cold ground. After she stupefied three people all the death eaters turned to her and she was able to avoid the curses but in the second she was going to apparate his spell hit her. She wasn't sure for how long she had been under it, she didn't understand what he was saying right after he'd stopped, it was like the pain had blocked all her senses.
"How dare you stand in the Dark Lord's way?" Asked a girls voice she recognized but couldn't say from who was talking. "A disgusting mudblood." And that word made an image from the person who was talking come to her mind, saying like she had said before. It was Bellatrix Black.
"Don't worry Bella, I'll deal with her." Said the Dark Lord. "And in the end she's going to be asking me to kill her, and being merciful, like I am, I will." And everyone laughed, Lily didn't she did said something though.
"You're not being very coherent. Weren't you just saying you didn't take orders from little mudbloods like me? Or since I'm a little bigger than the kid..." The second spell hit her, it was him again and, again it felt like she had knifes in her veins. But she wasn't going to beg, she was going to put up a fight, she said to herself, knowing it wasn't much of a fight when she was crying and yelling already. But she wasn't going to beg him like he wanted; she wasn't going to give him what he wanted.
James was yelling at anyone who tried to stop him, it didn't matter if it was McGonagall or Flitwick or even Dumbledore. But the last one didn't try to stop him.
''James, you can come with me. If, and only if, you promise me, you'll do exactly what I tell you. You're not going to spell anyone, you're not even talking to anyone you're only going to grab Miss Evans and bring her to the castle when I tell you to do so."
"Albus!" Professor McGonagall protested.
"I'll do it." He said and cleaned the tears he only now noticed he had running down his face.
"Let's go." Professor Dumbledore said calmly and opened the gates James followed him in complete silence. "Do you think she's okay?" James asked fearful.
"I hope, from the bottom of my heart, she is." And James was silent again. He walked until he saw her lying on the floor crying, he was going to run to her but Dumbledore's hand on his shoulder stopped him.
Lily tried to grab her wand, that was inches away from her, but she heard Voldemort's voice the second her hand touched her wand. "I wouldn't do that. You're surprised I know what you're doing?" He laughed. "Oh, I know. I know you want it to stop, you just want to put up a fight. It's useless; you'll beg me to kill you." Lily heard him say the word again and she flinched preparing for the coming pain but nothing happened this time.
"Tom stop this right now." She heard Dumbledore's voice say, but this time it wasn't soft like usual it was cold and threatening.
"Dumbledore, I thought you were too afraid to come." Voldemort said and only three of the people who were in the street didn't laugh. Even though the death eaters laughed, no-one dared to do anything to the boy who left Dumbledore's side to go to Lily. She flinched at her touch because she didn't see it was him, she feared it was a Death Eater.
"It's me." He whispered so only she could hear. "You'll be okay now."
She simply nodded and he easily picked her up apparating in front of the school's gates like Dumbledore told him to, McGonagall immediately opened them and told him to go to the infirmary.
"Don't tell my parents." Lily said quietly.
"What?"
"Promise me you won't tell my parents."
"But-"
"Please, promise me you won't tell my parents." She pleaded.
"Okay I won't tell them." He said trying to relax her; she had gone through enough already. "I'm sorry I wasn't there."
"It's not your fault."
"I'm so sorry. I love you. Please forgive me. I need you." He said again as he laid her on the infirmary's bed and Madame Pomfrey told him he had to get out so she could examine Lily, and although he wanted to stay he left after kissing her forehead and mumbling another apology. James paced back and fourths for God-knows how long waiting for Madama Pomfrey to call him.
"She's sleeping now, and you should go to bed to. You can come here tomorrow."
"I need to see her." He said with pleading in his voice and eyes.
"She's resting." She said softly.
"I won't wake her up. I just need to be sure she's okay." He said and Marlene was behind him about to yell at the woman that she couldn't stop her from seeing Lily, she was going to see her best-friend wether she liked it or not!
"Okay, but you have to be quiet." They all nodded and came in to see her. The always so happy Lily was now lying in bed with pain still in her face, and James had to get out of there because he wanted to wake her up, he wanted her to tell him she was okay and she forgave him for not being there to protect her. He couldn't do that so he just got out of there and went to his room. Short after Remus knocked on his room door.
"So, Sirius asked me to tell you he's not coming because Marlene is still freaking out so he's staying with her and Dorcas, and Peter just went to get some food, I guess he remembered none of us actually had dinner."
"What are you talking about?"
"You're not staying here alone. Obviously you're not going to be able to sleep, I don't think any of us will, so we'll make you company."
"I just want to be alone."
"That's too bad for you, because we're staying." Remus said. "She's okay. Madame Pomfrey took care of her. She'll be hugging and kissing you in the morning, you hear me?" James didn't say anything. "Dumbledore talked about it at dinner, that's what Peter told us. He said that there wouldn't be more Hogsmead visits, at least for now. But he also said she was going to be okay and who wished to visit her could go to the infirmary and that Madame Pomfrey would control the visits. The point is Dumbledore said she's okay. So she's okay." They didn't say much after that. Peter got there with the food a while later but neither James nor Remus ate much. They didn't sleep much either and early in the morning they walked to the infirmary. They got there at the same time Sirius and the girls did. They knocked at the door and Madame Pomfrey opened it, her face serious.
"Only five can go there at a time. And she's still fragile both physically and psychologically, especially psychologically. You can't hold her to tight and you can't cry in front of her." They looked at each other and before anyone volunteered to wait to see Lily, James talked.
"You can go. I'd rather be with her alone" They walked in silently except for James who sat on the bench and waited nervously. It couldn't have been more than ten minutes before Marlene got out of there crying and Dorcas after that. Sirius came to hold Marlene and Peter patted Dorcas on the back.
"Maybe you shouldn't go there." Said Remus, but James didn't hear him. He walked quickly to her room, his heart beating fast afraid of what might have happened to her.
"Lily?" he called and saw her breathing so he took a deep breath. "Lily? It's me." But she still didn't look at him. "I'm so sorry. Please forgive me. I love you. I need you." He repeated what he had said the previous night. For a second he could swear she looked at him but she had her eyes trained on the ceiling again when he looked twice. He felt Remus' hand on his shoulder.
"She's not talking, or looking at anyone."
"It's probably because of what she went through," said Madame Pomfrey. "I believe she'll get better. What you should do is talk to her, of happy things; remind her that there's something good worth fighting for. I'm sorry." James didn't say anything. He sat on the chair next to her. He looked at his ceiling and clenched his jaw, he had to be strong for her and, if talking to her reminding her of happy things was the remedy he sure was lucky because he had a lot of happy moments to remind her of.
"Hey, Lils. Remember when…" he started to talk to her.
A/N: I promise I'll try to make the next chapter happier! Although we had very happy moments in the beginning, I bet James will tell her all about those…
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