Chapter Twelve
Kendall sat across from James at the Palm Woods pool and watched as he talked to his friends, letting them know that he was fine and that they didn't have to worry about him. He was even grinning when everyone was signing his cast and that was kind of annoying to Kendall.
No, not annoying.
It downright pissed him off.
How could he sit there, acting like nothing was wrong with his friends? How could he sit there and act like nothing was even wrong with him? He had a freaking broken leg for crying out loud, scratches and scars on his cheeks! The works! And he was sitting there, smiling that he had just been kissed by the hottest girl in the world, and it was making him feel…sick to his stomach.
Kendall lurched to his feet and ran out of the Palm Woods pool and to the bathrooms as fast as he possibly could. When he reached the boys bathroom he threw himself at a toilet and barely had time to lift the lid before throwing up. The acid stung the back of his throat and he shook as his stomach let go of the food that he had barely eaten that day. Kendall weakly reached up and grabbed the flusher, easily washing away the evidence of how much he was actually tortured by everything that had happened.
"Kendall, are you ok?"
Kendall sat back on his heels and turned his head to see James slowly wheeling his way into the bathroom, making sure that he didn't smash his hands on the doorframe as he entered. Kendall was slightly surprised that James had caught up to him so easily, but he also wasn't surprised at the same time, as James was a vain person. He would just go right out and say it. The fact that he was so vain caused him to constantly work out in the gym to get good muscles. And because of that and hockey, it wasn't hard for James to catch up to his friend, even if he was in a wheelchair.
"Don't even try and say that you're fine," James interrupted before Kendall could even get a word out. "I know you so well it's like you're a part of me and I can tell when you're upset about something." He warned when Kendall started to open his mouth.
Kendall sighed and shook his head, running his clammy hands up and down his cheeks. James was right, the two…the four of them knew each other so well it was like they were four different parts of the same person. Almost so that they knew that something was bothering them even if they didn't say it out loud. So that must have been what James was feeling at that point.
"It's the wheelchair isn't it?" James questioned as Kendall stayed silent. "And the whole accident. Dude, none of us are blaming you." Kendall still remained silent and James frowned, tightening his grip on the wheelchair wheels. "Or is that what you want?" his voice hardened and Kendall flinched like a little kid, looking over at him fearfully. "Do you want us to say that it's your fault? Do you want us to say that if you, Kendall Knight, weren't driving that none of this would have happened?" James continued speaking even though he knew that it was hurting Kendall to hear his fear being voiced.
"Stop" Kendall whispered, closing his eyes briefly.
"Well, I'm saying what you want to hear Kendall," James raised his voice a little, so he could get his point across. "The accident was your fault." He shook his head so his hair would move out of his face. A move that was usually so gentle now looked angry. "Logan and Carlos, even though they're in comas, they're blaming you as they lay there in that hospital bed." He took a erratic breath. "We're all blaming you for it Kendall. You're a Big Time Screw Up that ruins everybody's lives."
"Stop it!" Kendall whimpered and held his hands over his ears, pulling his knees up to his chest.
James finally stopped speaking and looked at the ground for a second before lifting himself out of his chair and gently lowering himself to the floor. He scooted over to his friend and gathered him in his arms, letting him sob against his chest.
James didn't mean anything that he had just said and he hoped that Kendall understood that.
So he could get better...
And stop blaming himself…
A/N: Sorry for the long wait, I hope you guys are still enjoying this story. We get to Logan in the next one.
