F.E.A.R
I hope everyone's enjoying themselves. I am also sorry for how long it has taken me to post. Hope you guys enjoy this chapter. Also I'd like to know whether people like Stelena of Delena. It'll help with the storyline.
ONLY THOSE
WHO CARE
ABOUT YOU
CAN HEAR
YOU WHEN
YOU'RE
QUIET.
"Is anyone going to explain to what just happened?" Uncle Zach asked confused.
"Well Zach, you see Caroline was talking to Dickwood," Damon said before Stefan cut him off.
"Enough Damon. Caroline can I talk to you?" When nobody moved he added, "in private?" Uncle Zach grabbed Damon before he could protest, dragging him out of the room. Caroline didn't move from her spot behind the couch. She stood perfectly still taking deep breaths contemplating whether she should punch or kiss Stefan. He did just walk in on a situation she could've handled however he did defend her when Tyler said those things. She slid a glance to where he was standing. His back was against the wall, his eyes closed taking deep breaths to calm himself. When he opened his eyes the veins rippled with hunger. Caroline took a staggered breath at his veins. He sped over to her so they were only inches apart. She held her breath waiting for him to say something. He didn't though. He kept looking at her all the things he wanted to say were visible in his eyes.
"Caroline look-"
"Stefan don't. You should go talk to your girlfriend. About the plan. About that stupid kiss. Tell her my emotions were turned off. Tell her it was my fault. The last thing I can take is you hating me for centuries," She said taking a step back. He just shook his head taking a step forward. Caroline glared at him, taking a step back, "I'm serious Stefan. Whatever happened between you and me while my emotions were off was entirely my fault. I'm also sorry for snapping your neck. I wanted to say thank you for Tyler but you were the one who started it. I'm pretty sure he was going to apologise to me and then you went ahead and ruined it by opening your fat ass mouth," She says crossing her arms. Stefan shakes his head again stepping closer so Caroline runs into the bookshelf. He puts two hand on either side of her head, trapping her against the shelf.
"Caroline, you should never have gone out with him. He was an ass. You deserve better then him," He was so close they could kiss and as much as Caroline wanted to he was Elena's. He always would be.
"I'm sorry Stefan. I should've listened to you. You were my best friend," She said softly holding a hand up to his cheek.
"Were?" He asked curiously.
"I think I need to discover myself before I can uncover the true you," She says with a small laugh.
"What do you mean the real me? I'm right here Caroline!" He shouted taking a step back.
"You've never been here. When you find me, give me a call," she said quietly.
She moved to her room but stopped turning around to face him.
"Stefan our chapter may have just ended but your story is just beginning," she pulled something out of her pocket and handed it to him, "write to me. Write about your crazy adventures. About our friends. Write about your life. Write for me so that I can take a piece of you with me after I part this world," She pushed the leather bound book into his hands smiling. And with that she walked away.
She stood at the front door with her heavy suitcase in his hands. A tear slipped out and she wiped it away. She stepped towards the door before hearing a friendly voice, "Were you going to say goodbye?" Damon said staring with his arms open.
She dropped the suitcase and ran into his arms.
"Why are you doing this?" He asked.
"I need to find myself. I need to discover the old me. I can't do it here," She said pulling back.
"I'll miss you," Damon said a tear slipping out of his eye.
"Was that an emotion Salvatore?" She asked with a wicked smile.
"No it was allergies. Now leave before I call you back," He said pushing her away.
"She walked towards the door saying goodbye to her old life.
"I'll see you soon," She said slamming the past behind her.
Stefan's first Diary entry
F.E.A.R
It consumes people. It's contagious. What Caroline feared the most was saying goodbye to the people she cared about the most. That was what I thought. It turns out it's losing herself and never finding that part again.
I understand her. I thought my biggest fear was being hurt, my heart being torn apart.
It's not. It's losing my best friend. Losing a part of my soul. It's losing Caroline.
So Caroline if you are reading this, which you probably never will I'm telling you that I will wait a lifetime to find you. I will find me too. I will find that part of my soul that knows I love you and I will confront it. You are apart of me. You are the best of me. I love you Caroline. I need you Caroline. It's like needing air to breathe.
Fear. It's contagious but not as bad as love.
I Love. You. Caroline.
