Do you hate me? Well you are going too! But right now I don't know anyone that hates me so if you do then, well you are the first! Good for you! Because you don't get to know what happens to Belikov! So sad. But Adrian gets……. not telling! Read!

APOV

I sat by the pond, just sat and was thinking. Yes thinking, I know shocking for an Ivashkov. Well for me at least.

I head footsteps behind me; they were light but heavy at the same time. I turned and looked down at the water pretending not to notice when the most beautiful thing in the universe sat next to me, but one of the most deadly, Rose. I might rather face strigoi right now, and then deal with her.

"Why, you hurt Lissa? If you didn't love her then why were you getting married?" Her voice showed no trace of anger, just
wonder. Does she know I still love her, and always will? Did she tell Lissa that?

"I was…….upset." I said, after a long pause.

"Over what?" She asked, still having that same soft tone in her voice.

"More of jealous, over you and Christian. He has every thing Rose, he just doesn't see it. He has the best thing in the world, he has you. yet he just doesn't see it, one day you will be killed, protecting moroi, he will regret it, so much. That he rather be dead then live without you." Everything that I just said is true. And always will be. It possible that two souls can match another perfectly? Or three to one (Belikov, Christian and I)? Christian is so happy he has Rose, and Belikov was too when it was his time. Shouldn't there be an equal amount of happiness one person could feel? Or only so much love they can give away?

He loves me, poor Lissa, she really did love him. And now I don't even think I could make her feel better. I should kill Adrian right about now, but Lissa said I shouldn't, so I won't. He is very lucky today. No wonder he likes this place so much, it is very calming, maybe this is were I will go when things get hard. Steal it from Adrian! Or I could go to Christian's room; he will make me fell better. And then we can 'hang' more like wrestle.

"I just heard you, what you were thinking." As soon as I said it, her eyes widened in both shock and what I did here. To bad she wasn't referring to me, I would like that.

"You are kidding!? Please tell me you are! You can already see what I am feeling, and now you can just bust into my head! That is just great! Shit!" The last part, wasn't for me. I just knew it! "Strigoi."

Yes, yes I know. Too much being attack and stuff. Well wards just aren't what they used to be, what can I say? And Adrian did say he rather face strgoi then Rose right? He got his wish! R&R!

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