Finally the weekend came, and I walked around my room getting dressed. Jake, of course was down stairs ready to go out on our day date. I had no idea where he was taking me, but I sure as hell knew it was going to be fun that was Jake. I finally found a light blue top with dark jeans, and put my hair half up with bobby pins. I looked in my mirror to make sure everything was perfect, and then I hurried outside to where Jake was standing next to his bike. Of course my parents were out hunting for the day, and I told them I would have a peaceful day at home. Well, what do you expect I'm only a teenager. I hopped on the bike with Jake, and held on tight. Jake always went so fast, but not too fast to make me nervous. We drove along the edge of La Push beach, and hung out in a little cove for an hour. We found a dry spot to lie down in the sand.
"Nessie this is one of those moments that I would call perfect." He pulled me closer to him, and kissed me on the forehead. Then he raised my chin level to his with his hand, it was so warm it felt like summer even though it was only fall. He kissed me, and I groaned pulling him tighter towards me. Then something changed Jake started kissing my with more passion. I grabbed a fist full of hair, while he kissed his way down my neck. My body felt still. "Jake I want you to be my first and only." The words came out as if they were not meant to. He pulled away, and sat up, and I sat up with him pulling my knees to my chin. I looked in the opposite direction.
"Nessie, I love you but I not sure if your ready to take that step yet in our relationship besides the fact that your father might kill me."
"Jake I love you my feelings will never change. I want you, and I want this." I put so much effort into this kiss giving him the time to groan this time.
"Nessie are you sure you want this?" He looked me straight in the eye.
"Yes." I said it so confidently.
"Well… honestly I wasn't expecting this until later, but I want this to be special for you Nessie."
"Jake it doesn't have to be planned, I love you let's just I don't know, go now."
"Nessie why don't we go some place else."
"No" I jumped into the kiss, and he grabbed my hair while he kissed slowly down my neck. I took his jacket off, and started unbuttoning his shirt. Now we were kissing, and he worked off my shirt, leaving my bra still on. I felt his bare chest against my skin. It felt so warm, and this moment felt so right. Then when I started kissing down his neck to his chest he began to pull me away. "Jake I don't understand don't you want this? Don't you want me?" I kissed his cheek, and his eyes shut.
"Nessie…Nessie." He coughed. "You must restrain yourself." I pulled away when he grabbed his shirt and started buttoning it up again. "I want to make love to you at the right time, when I know you will always be mine."
"Jake I will always be yours, unless you are talking about marriage. I mean that's a big step, and we might be too young." So many thoughts like what would people think?
"Nessie I want you forever and ever. You are my sun and my moon, and my solar eclipse. I love you with everything in me." He pulled my hand to his heart.
"Jake I…"
"No, don't say anything just think about it ok we could get married later if you want as long as I can have you."
