CH 12
A/N: I am so sorry for not updating sooner it's just been a super busy time. I have 3 core classes and musical theatre, plus choir and a job. So again sorry. I'll try to update regularly but to be honest I don't know when I'm going to have time. And as for the short chapter concern, and the wanting of multiple scenes in one chapter, I'll try to remedy that but my mind jumps sometimes and it's hard to even get as much down as I can when it gets like that so I'll try. Anyways thanks for being patient and on to the show…. Well the story I guess…..
BPOV
When I woke up by Kol's side, his arm wrapped around me I felt great. Sort of full. This feeling continued all morning. I even dressed in one of my sexiest outfits. My plaid corset, a pair of tight jeans and just to top it off because I know how Kol felt about them, and pair of black 6 inch heels. I thought everything was going great. Until I got into the Kitchen. He didn't say anything to me. He was just staring at me blankly. He didn't even say anything to me until Katherine said it was time to go. That's when the doubts set in, eating at my mind.
Were we together? Was that a thing now? He hadn't mentioned anything about it this morning after the shower we took. I mean sure we had a great night together, and I must admit, if Katherine hadn't walked in when she had this morning, I would have sunk down and rode him like a prized stallion. Even in the shower he had been so nice and sweet to me. But I didn't know what to think because this whole time he hasn't said anything to me. Just this big outburst the moment he thought he wasn't going to be able to get into my pants anymore because I was dating.
But what if that's all he had wanted? He's been wanting in my pants since I first got here, even before he knew who I was. Would he lie about loving me? He had never shown any interest in me before I came back. But he said he's felt this way for a while. But he could have just wanted to fuck you. I was broken out of my thoughts when someone spoke.
"Bunny are you okay? You were staring out the window the whole way to school." It was Kol, he was sitting in the driver's seat, hand reaching out and settling on my knee, thumb circling, tracing patterns through my jeans. "You're usually gabbing with Kitty Kat in the back. Something on your mind Love?" He smiled curiously at me, his thumb circling. I sighed, grabbing his hand and putting it back on his own knee. When I looked back up at his face his smile fell and his eyebrows scrunched up so much they looked like one line.
"Kol, what did last night mean?" I asked looking down at my feet. "Are we together?" I asked, shuffling my feet a little bit, my heart stopping. When I heard no answer I shook my head, my chest filling up with hurt and anger. "Did it even mean anything to you? Did you actually lie about loving me?" I asked looking up at Kol, his eyebrows still scrunched in that adorable way they always were, the little lines puckering up. Still no answer. I shook my head and opened up the door, getting out and walking away from the wretched car. But not before saying some final words. "Fine Kol, just forget it ever happened."
I shook my head, storming away as he yelled after me. I walked inside and started going to my locker. I was weaving through the people in the hallways trying to keep my tears at bay when I ran into something hard and solid. As a reflex I put my hands against it to steady myself.
"Whoa Bonnie are you okay?" I looked up and saw Jeremy, eyes ripe with concern. I felt something wet on my cheek and realized the tears had started to fall. I brought my hand up to wipe them off of my cheeks and shook my head. Jeremy grabbed my arm and pulled me out into the court yard. "Do you wanna skip today and go to the falls? You don't look like you can handle school right now." He asked. I sniffed and nodded my head and he grabbed my hand. He took me over to his car, opened the door for me and helped me in.
Jeremy backed out of the parking spot and I leaned my forehead against the car window, closing my eyes. I felt him go slowly over a speed bump slowly and opened my eyes only to have my heart drop. Kol was there staring at me in the car with a pensive look on his face. My heart felt like it was gunna explode when I saw his lips open and saw him say my name. I shook my head and turned it towards Jeremy, kicking off my shoes and bringing my knees up to my chest. He didn't want anything between us anymore? Fine. I would sure as hell make it so there was nothing between us. Like it never even happened.
When we got to the falls I had officially let out all the tears I could, and was now staring blankly out the window.
"Bonnie? We're here." Jeremy's voice broke me out of my staring contest with the trees. I nodded my head dumbly and opened my door, stepping down onto the soft ground. "You know we have to walk to get to the actual water. You could tell me what made you so unhappy today." He told me taking my hand. I immediately felt bad. I had almost slept with Kol on the same night as I went on a date with Jeremy.
"I want to, I really do Jer but I have a feeling you're going to hate me after." I told him sadly, squeezing his hand. He looked at me with the most genuine smile I've ever seen.
"Bon, no I won't. Look if it has something to do with the whole you and Kol thing, its okay. I could tell you weren't really feelin' our date yesterday, you were distant the whole time." I looked down and he squeezed my hand. "But right now I'm just here to be you're friend and help you feel better." He nudged my shoulder. "Maybe then we could go out." He chuckled and smiled at me. I squeezed his hand back as we continued up the hill.
"Well after our date, I was at the microwave and Kol came in and was demanding to know why I went on a date with you after he kissed me and I didn't want to answer so I ran up to my room and he barged in. So I broke down because I've been in love with him for years and years, and for some reason I thought it would be a good time to blurt that out. Then he went on about how he loved me too, how he has for a while and blah blah blah. So I obviously fall for this and we uh….." I risk a side glance at him only to find him looking at me. And of course this is when the blush decides to show. "Well I didn't have sex with him but we did some… intimate? I guess you could say that yeah. Some intimate things. And we fell asleep. Then in the morning it kinda happened again, and we took this really romantic, nice shower together." My heart started to hurt while I thought about this.
"Well when I came downstairs, he didn't say anything to me other than 'Let's go.'" I imitated his low voice which earned a breathy chuckle from Jer. "And then when we got to school I asked him if we were together and what the previous night meant, and he was just…" I let out a puff of breath. "Silent, he didn't say anything. Just sat there with a blank, almost guilty look on his face. So I asked him if it even meant anything to him and he still didn't say anything, just sat there with this dumbstruck look on his face. So I leaped out of the car but not before telling him to just forget it ever happened." I took a shaky breath. I looked up and saw that we were at the falls. The whooshing of the waterfall filled my ears and I smiled.
"Wow Bon, you had a very eventful morning." He said it without any bitterness in his tone which I was very happy about. "So he really didn't say anything?" He asked while leading me to a log beside the pool of water.
"Nothing" I shook my head, a bitter laugh escaping my lips.
"Wow. That's a dick move. Well I would never do that to you. You're too nice to be taken advantage of." He smiled and put his arm around my shoulders, squeezing lightly. I smiled up at him and put my head on his shoulder, closing my eyes, listening to the calming sounds of nature.
"So, you wanna swim?" He asked me smirking, his right arm still around my shoulders, his left gesturing to the clear greenish bluish water in front of us. I was so tempted to take him up on his offer. But I had no swim suit. So I lifted my head off his shoulder, lifting an eyebrow suspiciously.
"No swimsuits you nugget." I shook my head at him. He raised an eyebrow back at me, his arm falling from my shoulders as he stood up. He tilted his head and brought his hands to the bottom of his shirt. Slowly lifting it over his head to revel tanned and toned muscles. He threw his shirt at me and started reaching for his belt buckle.
"JER!" I nearly screamed. This was outrageous. He continued despite my protest. Slowing tugging down his zipper, his pants falling to show a pair of shamrock colored boxers.
"Come on Bon, it's just like a swimsuit. You can even wear my shirt if you don't want me to see." He told me priming himself to jump into the pool. I carefully got up and undid my corset.
"Fine but don't look until I tell you to okay?" He nodded and jumped into the water. I quickly stripped and jumped in after him. He was right, my bikini covered about as much as my bra and underwear did, so what was the point of wearing his shirt.
"Bon, you do realize your splash just soaked your clothes right?" He laughed at me as I surfaced. I quickly turned my body to look, a blush instantly coloring my face. There they were. My poor corset and jeans soaked. I put my hands on my face, feeling ashamed. I felt the water shift and arms snake around my waist, pulling me closer.
"It's okay silly, you can wear my shirt back, and I have an extra in my car." Jer told me putting his head in the crook of my neck. I laughed and pushed his hands off of me, swimming away, not wanting him touching me so intimately, we were just friends. He came after me again, pulling me into him. I tried to push him away again but this time he held on tighter. The look in his eyes scaring me.
"Jeremy let me go." I struggled to get out of his grasp.
"Why? I know you want me, why deny it? We've always had chemistry Bonnie. Just surrender to it." He started kissing my neck and I started panicking again. I thrashed and his grip just tightened. No matter how hard I struggled he wouldn't let me go. Finally I brought my knee back into his groin. He sputtered and let me go. I swam to the edge of the pool jumping out and grabbing my clothes, feeling that they were still soaked I just ran. Jeremy was calling out after me but I just ran. My heart pounding. I ran as fast as I could, never looking behind me.
When I finally got out of the forest, it was dark. I had made a wrong turn somewhere when I was running and got lost. It felt like I had been wandering for days. My feet were sore and torn. I was still holding my clothes in my hand when I made it to the road. I walked along it until I saw car lights. I started waving my hands up and down, trying to flag it to try and get some help.
I was cold and my body felt like ice. My limbs wanting me to stop waving them, locking up, making my movements a jerky mess. The car started slowing and I immediately recognized the car. It was Elijah's. I didn't know he was back from his trip. When he pulled up I saw his eyes widen at my appearance. He reached in the back seat for something and put the car in idle, getting out and running to me. He wrapped a big fluffy blanket around me and ushered me into the car. Elijah ran around to the driver's side and blasted the heat, turning all of the vents onto me.
"Ms. Bennett thank god I found you! Everybody has been searching for you. Kol said you left school this morning. Nobody knew where you went. Klaus and Katerina are at home worried sick!" He told me. Shaking his head he pulled out his phone and typed in a number. It starting to ring instantly.
I was really hurt. So Klaus and Kat were worried, but what about everyone else? What about Kol? Who am I kidding he wouldn't be worried. He doesn't care. He's made that abundantly clear. But it still hurt my heart, making it sink into my stomach, the acid there burning it until there was only a dull ache.
"Hello?" The person on the other end of the phone having answered him. "Yes, yes I found her. She was off of the highway, she just ran out of the forest dressed very skimpily." I felt a blush burn up to my face, tightening the blanket tighter around me I looked out the window. "No, I don't know what happened, she hasn't told me." Elijah hissed into the phone. There was a loud noise on the other end that caused him to hold it away from his ear. "Calm down brother, she is fine. I'm bringing her home now." He tried to calm the person down. Ah, brother, it must be Klaus on the other end. I sighed and closed my eyes. "Yes, yes now. Okay I'll see you there." He hung up and chuckled, looking over at me, shifting the car into drive at the same time.
"So are you going to tell me what happened?" He asked me with an authoritative voice. I loved Elijah, he was a quasi-father figure for me, he has always been good to me but I'm not always comfortable telling him things.
"I'm really sorry 'Lilah but I don't really feel comfortable telling you. You understand right?" I asked him, turning my head towards him. His face looked grim but not at all mad.
"Of course Bonnie." He nodded his head. I smiled a light smile at him. Turning my head so my forehead was against the cool glass I stared out the window for the rest of the ride home. When we got there Elijah came around to my side and opened the door for me, always the gentlemen. We walked inside only for me to be ambushed in a group hug. I nearly fell down because of the force. I looked at all the faces in the hug and was surprised to see Rebekah. I wouldn't have thought she would be like this. There was also Klaus, Caroline and Katherine. Kol standing behind the group by the far wall, an indecipherable look on his face. I quickly looked away from his face when he caught me looking.
"Oh thank god you're okay! We were all so worried!" Caroline blurted out.
"I thought you had died! I wouldn't have been able to handle that." Rebekah admitted through her tears. I was surprised to hear that come from her mouth. We were never that close. I maneuvered my hand out from under the blanket and grabbed her hand squeezing it tightly.
"I'm okay guys." I nodded my head trying to go along with it. When they all dispersed I looked up and Kol was gone. My burned heart fell a little bit more. I laughed bitterly and smiled at everyone. I went upstairs and went into my room, finally dropping the blanket and grabbing my towel and brush. I went into the bathroom, locking the door behind me just in case anyone decided to try and come in. I turned the water on, putting it on the warm setting. I grabbed my brush and ran it through my hair sighing as I went.
When I finally did get into the water it felt like heaven after so long being cold. I grabbed my shampoo and squeezed some in my hand, rubbing it through my hair and rinsing. Doing the same with my conditioner. I grabbed my body was and started scrubbing. I wanted to get Jeremy's touch off of me. I wanted to get Kol's touch off of me. I wanted to get Luca's touch off of me. I used my nails to scratch at the skin of my body.
Why did I have to choose such terrible guys? First one who abused me, mentally and physically. Then one who just used me as a plaything. Next one who tried to get with me even though I say no. I can't do anything right apparently. I laughed bitterly as I got back under the showers spray. Washing the remains of today away. I turned the shower off and grabbed my towel wrapping it around my body. I opened the door and went to my room. I quickly put on my pajamas, dropping into bed like a sack of flour in a bakery I curled up and closed my eyes trying to sleep. I was in a lucid state when I heard my door open. I opened my eyes only to see Klaus sneak into my room and sit on my covers.
"You gunna tell me what the fuck happened between last night and this morning to make you run out of the woods semi-nude?" He asked raising an eyebrow.
