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Eli's POV:
I sigh, "Clare…. I don't want to have sex with you…"
I saw tears instantly grow in Clare's eyes, "Oh um, okay…"
Clare got up and ran to the bathroom. She was crying. Shit.
"Clare wait!" I call after her.
She locked the bathroom door and I could hear her sobbing her face off. It was killing me, "Clare, baby please open the door."
"No!" She screams.
I sigh, "Baby please, let me explain."
"No! Just go away Eli!" She cries.
I sigh and get up, walking to Clare's bag. I find one of her sparkling bobby pins and I begin to pick at the lock. I think Clare catches on because she starts freaking out, "Eli don't come in here!"
"Hmm." I mutter.
"Eli damn it I mean it!" She screams.
Yes! Got it! I pull the pin out of the lock and slowly open the door. Clare was curled up in fetal position leaning against the counter. Her eyes were red and puffy. She had obviously been crying more than I expected.
I walked over to her and tried to wrap my arms around her, but she pushed me off with surprising force, "Clare…"
"Eli stop. I know I'm not sexy or whatever. Just don't try to make it worse." She cries.
How could she not see how sexy and beautiful she is? "Clare honey I think you are amazing. You are absolutely beautiful and totally sexy."
Clare looked unconvinced, "Then why don't you…"
I tried to think of a good way to say it, "I don't want to have sex with you because you told me you wanted to wait. I don't want you to regret it, that would kill me. I love you so much and I would freak out if you regretted it and left or something. Clare I need you, and you can't leave me."
Clare sighed before she smiled slightly and leaned over to kiss my lips. When she pulled back I wrapped my arms around her waist and kept her close to me, "I love you so much, you can't regret me."
Clare nodded before she peck my nose, "Eli, I really want to. I love you, you love me and I really want to. Please?"
I hesitated, "But what if you regret it."
She shakes her head, "Baby I won't regret you, ever, I promise."
I sigh, "Alright."
Clare smiles, "Really?"
I nod, "Okay, but not yet."
Clare pouts, "Then when? I really want to!"
I chuckle, "Patients love. I want to make it really special for you."
She smiles, "Really?"
I nod, "You think I am going to make mind blowing love to you in this crummy apartment?"
"Why not?" She giggles.
I roll my eyes, "It's not good enough. Trust me baby, your fist time will be really special. And it will be a surprise, so just be patient with me."
Clare nodded, "I guess I will need to do some shopping."
"For?" I ask.
Clare giggled, "You'll find out love, patients." She pecked my lips before running off to the kitchen.
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Two Weeks Later:
I told Clare I was going to work when I really was spending the day preparing for tonight. I got us a really nice hotel room for the night and I really hoped Clare wouldn't change her mind. But if she did, we would just spend the night cuddling and I wouldn't complain.
Anyways, when I got to the room. I smiled at the amazing view of the city. It was the most beautiful thing in the world. Clare would love it, at least I hoped so.
I dropped my bag on the floor and grabbed the bottle of Champaign and the two glasses. I took the hotel ice bucket and put the Champaign in the bucket.
I took the roses out of my bag and set them on the bed. I wasn't sure if Clare would want the petals all over the bed, but they tended to get in the way, so I just bought her some really nice flowers. I decided to write her a little note on the card:
Dear Clare,
Wow, we are going to have sex tonight. Well, if you want to. I don't think words can describe how nervous and scarred I am. I love you so much Clare and the thought of hurting you or making you regret it makes me want to kill my self. I just hope you enjoy tonight and I hope I can make it really special for you. I love Clare, please know that.
Love Eli
God I hoped that won't scare her.
I took the condoms out of my bag and put them in the nightstand drawer. There was not bigger mood killer than condoms. It just makes things awkward. But I would rather have them than not and I don't expect Clare to be on birth control.
I put the final touches on the room as I placed candles all over the room. I decided to hold off on lighting the candle until I brought Clare over.
I took one final look at the room and smiled. I pulled out my phone and dialed Clare's number. She picked up, "Hey Eli."
I smiled, "Hey Clare."
"What's up?" She asked casually.
I smiled, "Tonight is the night."
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