~Mello~

Matt... he would leave me? Matt stood up from the chair a little shaky, he was biting his bottom lip and I could see tears welling in his eyes. He doesn't want to leave me, I can tell... I can also tell he is serious about it though. I still choked out "You would leave me?" he nodded his head.

"I-I just want to know because I love you and I don't want you to be suffering by yourself."

"This isn't the kind of thing if I tell you, you'll be able to-- to suffer with me."

"What do you mean?"

"If I tell you, you'll be suffering worse then me... you'll hate me."

His eyes went wide "Did--did you cheat on me!?" he demanded.

"No! I'd never cheat on you!"

"Well that's the only thing I could ever harbor any sort of resentment for you. So tell me!" he yelled.

"Please don't make me Matt." I shook my head.

He blinked a few times "No, you have to tell me."

"Please." I begged.

He closed his eyes and tilted his head away from me "I'm sorry Mello." he grabbed his keys from the table and started walking pass me.

"No!" I grabbed him "I'll tell you." I said hugging him tightly to me so I couldn't see his face. I'll only leave things out. I can't loose you or have you hating me. "Matt," I swallowed down my fear "I'm working for the mafia."

I could hear Matt's keys falling to the ground, then I felt his arms pull me even closer to him. "Mell-lo," he trembled "why didn't you tell me right away? I asked you and you lied to me!" he tightened his grip around me "I-I thought you trusted me!" he started to sob.

I leaned my head on top of his "I do. I just wanted to protect you from this so badly... I didn't want you to hate me but I still ended up hurting you. I'm so sorry I hit you, I'll never do it again. I swear on my life. So please don't leave me."

"I'm sorry Mello! I'll never leave you or threaten you with it again."

"You wont leave me?"

He shook his head "No." he muttered. "I don't want to leave I just wanted you to tell me so that I could know if it was me or something else... you were so mad about me wanting to know I thought it was me but I-- I told you if you were going to join the mafia that I'd stay with you." he pushed away to look at me "Don't you remember?" he asked his face still red. Wiping away a tear then continued "When we lost our virginity I said I wanted to be with you to the end even if this is what you decided to do, but I wont lie... I really didn't want you to do this."

I put a hand on his face "I'm sorry." I paused "I really wish I could get out of it now but I'm in to deep."

"What do you mean?"

"I'm uh--" Damn what do I say now?

"You aren't telling me something."

"I've finished my initiation time and I'm a full member." It is the truth... I just left something out. And even though I wasn't telling him the whole truth I still felt better... but this wasn't fair I have to tell him just a little bit more of the truth "Matt if you want, you can leave whenever you want, if its now or later." I'm being selfish by telling him so he'd stay. I thought bitterly. "You'd really only be in danger with me around. I don't want anything bad to happen because of me, you know how homophobic people can be."

"No, I'm fine here but-- Mello are you saying this because," Matt started slowly "have you... um... Never mind! Its stupid!" he put his head back against me. "I feel bad now."

"Why?" I questioned in disbelief.

"For doubting you. I thought all of these terrible things you might be thinking o-or doing... even now I'm thinking about what" he paused "you might have done already but its not important to me. It shouldn't be at all, right? I mean I love you so I shouldn't be aloud to judge you for anything you do." he moved to hide his face "You wouldn't hate me if it were me instead of you, right?"

"No."

He looked back up at me "From now on whenever you're unsure about something you should think that. Then you'll always be right... I think."

"No, it will work." I kissed the top of his head.

"Mello," Matt breathed and moved to his toes to kiss me "don't ever deprive us of sex again though."

"Do you want to have sex?" I asked. Honestly I don't think I'm ready to do it again. I felt my stomach churn.

"No, I feel exhausted for some reason and don't you think sex would kind of ruin the moment?" I nodded "But you can touch me a little... purely so I can sleep well." he stepped away while getting a hold of my hand. He pulled me with him to the bedroom. "We don't have to have sex I just really miss doing spoons with you." he yawned "Jeez fighting always takes it out of me."

"It makes me tired too." I feel like some weight has been lifted off of me. I sighed a content breath as Matt pulled me with him to lay on the bed, but instead I climbed on top of him "Jesus Christ did I do that?" I noticed a purple-ish mark on his cheek. I turned his face a little and hissed at how dark it was. Fuck I didn't even notice how big and dark this had gotten.

"Its fine. It only throbs now so the pain is starting to go away."

I moved down next to him "Tomorrow lets take the day off." he nodded. I pulled him to me "Can I kiss you?"

His face went a deep crimson "I don't think you've ever asked to kiss me."

"Sorry I always make you ask me, huh?"

"But I don't mind!" he defended.

"Well this time I'm asking you... Can I kiss you?" he nodded. I moved my hand around to the back of his head and slowly brushed our lips. Thinking about it, it really has been a long time since I kissed him... and I've never asked him to kiss me. I nipped his lips one last time.

"Oh Mello." he breathed smiling. "Will ya' spoon me?" he turned over so he was facing away from me, grabbing my arm he pulled it around himself. "I feel a lot better now." he sighed.

I kissed the back of his neck. "Me too." I buried my face into his hair. He smells good. I closed my eyes.

Jesus fuck. I thought as a loud banging interrupted my sleep. "Mell," I heard Matt's sleepy voice call "get the door."

I groaned loudly but rolled out of bed. I yelled "Just wait! I'm coming." I opened the door to see "Boss?" I questioned "What're you doing here?"

"I've got a job for you." he said walking inside.

"Can't this wait until tomorrow, I mean I've got--"

"No, this is going to be a one chance thing! You're the guy to do it." he sat at the kitchen table. God please don't let Matt come out here.


~Matt~

Jeez I took my clothes off in the middle of the night but I still woke up with a horrible sweat. I kicked the blanket off of me. Whats taking Mello so long to come back? I grabbed my phone noticing the time. Four A.M.? Who comes over at four in the morning!? I guess I should text Eden and Katie though. I opened a new message tab and explained that I was going to miss work because of an injury I'd received. I turned my ringer off and laid back on the bed. This bed really is lonely without him. I thought standing up. I looked around for my extra baggy sweater with the black and white stripes.

Its on the floor still, but I guess I can't be surprised. I put it there. I slipped it on and moved to the door. A yawn overpowered me as I walked down the hall "Mello?" I called when I heard some murmuring, it stopped after I'd made my presence known. "Mello I just--" I started but paused when I saw Mello sitting with a large man at the table.

Mello's eyes were wide with fear. I looked at the other man; he was large, and was wearing a suit. Shit, this couldn't be-- "Mello I didn't think--" he looked at me sceptically. "your girlfriend was gonna be cute like this." the word "cute" sounded so weird coming from him.

Girlfriend!? I looked at Mello and his face screamed "Go with it!" I looked back at the strange man "H-hi." I squeaked.

"Matti, why don't you go back to sleep?" Mello insisted.

"Uh-ha yeah. Um bye." I turned back down to the hallway. Oh fuck I can't believe that! Thank god I put some clothes on. I thought nervously making my way back to the room.


A/N: School sucks and that is the honest truth. There is still more to come so review thank you please!?

Disclaimer: I don't own Death Note or My Chemical Romance.