Author's Note: Sorry for such a long time between updates, I been having alittle writers block with this story and a few others for some reason. It has mostly past and I now have again the direction that I wanted to go with this story.

love,

dark


Chp 12

Just a taste


Primal instinct. The most ancient instinct, when the body and mind lose focus the animal takes over. River has lost it, practically; she had reverted to what was safe and what was easy. Inside was cold, void of the warmth that was there and all that was left was the instinct of her wolf. Run it told her. Run far run fast and that is what she did. River had not been out of her wolf form since she left the Norn weeks ago. There was no point in having a talk with anyone, she did smell Dyson trying to find her and may times he was close. River for the first time in weeks sat in her body not in one of her spirit. She sat at the water edge looking at her reflection; she saw something was missing from her she knew it. Her body was scared and it matched her insides now. Her arms were badly scared from where she carved herself up and her tattoos had become faded and greyed out. River ran a hand over her chest as she followed the sadden markings over her body. A noise behind River caught her attention and she turned to see Dyson standing there. He was staring at River with a tired look and River stood up, totally naked with her hair covering her breasts.

"Don't run" Dyson said as he took a step closer and River took one back and before she could run he had her body pined to the ground with his "You know how long I have been looking for you River"

"I can guess" River said as she tried to move but Dyson had her arms pinned above her head and her legs pinned between his legs "why are you here Dyson"

"We were all worried about you" Dyson said "…..I was worried about you, you just vanished. I remembered seeing you at the Norn and then nothing"

"Let me go Dyson" River said as she struggled against him which only caused Dyson to press into her body more.

"No River" Dyson said "I know what you did. I feel something is missing you broke it didn't you"

"I don't know what you are talking about" River said and Dyson gave her a growl.

"You don't think I don't know about the new scars, this sense of wanting that I have for you" Dyson said "I wouldn't have chased anyone around for weeks if I didn't care"

"I don't want you to Dyson" River said with a growl to match his.

"You serious" Dyson replied "I don't know what you did at the Norn all I know is that you took my deal. It took me this long to realize something."

"And what would that be Dyson" River said "I already told you…" River was silenced with Dyson kissing her.

Dyson's hands released River's wrist as they traveled down her body, his hands then cupped her face and it made River look at Dyson.

"You are more important to me than Bo" Dyson said and saw River gap at him "I don't know why it took me this long. Maybe when the warmth went away, when you went away."

"Dyson" River said "It will pass, it always does"

"No damn it" Dyson said "You don't get it, it was something when I saw you walk into the station"

"Can you hear yourself, your acting like someone took your puppy away" River said as she reached up and put her hands over Dyson's that was covering her face. "I can't give you anything Dyson"

"You already gave me everything and I took it for granted" Dyson said "It's my fault you are in so much pain"

"Yea it is" River said

"Thank you for agreeing" Dyson said with a smile "Come back….with me"

"I don't know" River said and closed her eyes "I am just so tried"

"Stop running" Dyson said "Stop running from me"

"What will happen with Bo" River said as she felt Dyson kiss her lips.

"Nothing" Dyson said "Please come back, give me another chance"

"I guess I can" River said quietly and Dyson gave a huge smile and kissed River "but can you get off of me you are crushing my boobs"

Dyson realizing looked down and saw River was totally naked and a smirk went on his lips "Sorry" he then leaned down and kissed each of River's breasts before standing up and holding out a hand for River which she took and he pulled her up. "Here" Dyson than took off his shirt and gave it to River who slipped it over.

It fell down past her butt so she was mostly covered.

"You look like hell" Dyson said finally getting a good look at River.

"I feel worse" River said as she took a step and fell but Dyson caught her and picked her up "I can walk"

"No you can't" Dyson said "I will drive you home no arguing"

"Fine" River said.

Soon Dyson had her in his car and started to drive back. River knew what waited in her apartment, a mess that hadn't been cleaned up yet, that she would have to clean. The final cleansing of a memory that was sweet while it lasted. Soon they arrived where River lived and Dyson got out of the car and picked River up from the passenger seat and headed up towards her apartment. Dyson entered the code for River's apartment whenever she forgot her key she had a keypad to enter a code. He wasn't prepared for what he saw in her apartment, he had almost dropped River as he walked in to her studio apartment and saw a large deep red stain on the floor. The realization of what River did hit Dyson hard as he set River on her bed, which remain blood free. He didn't realize that breaking the bond would cause River so much pain and she could hide it from him, all so that he could be free to love Bo. River had fallen asleep by the time he reached her apartment and Dyson looked at the sleeping River. She looked exhausted and weak, and utterly alone. Dyson looked at the floor and then at the scars on her arms that the shirt didn't cover up, the guilt inside him rose even more. He knew he was the cause of the pain that did this. Dyson crawled into bed with River and wrapped his arms around her and pulled her body close to his. Dyson watched as River stirred for a moment before relaxing and sleeping. He wondered if she had gotten any sleep at all as she was running around. River turned over in her sleep and Dyson curled around her back. His head rested against her hair and his arms found their way around her waist. He felt that even in sleep her body was tense, from how long she was running.

Dyson took one of his hands from around her waist and rested it on her hip and gently began to stroke her skin from her mid-thigh to above her waist. As he continued to do this he felt River's body slowly relax. His other arm since it was wrapped under River he gently rubbed up and down on her stomach underneath his shirt that she was still wearing. His wolf let out a pleasant hum noise that he did near River's ear and she pushed back against him to stay totally pressed against his body. Dyson for the first in a long time felt at peace, and he finally knew why and it involved the women who was exhausted and sleeping in his arms.

Daylight broke into the apartment from the windows and shone right on Dyson. This caused Dyson to open his eyes and saw that River was still sleeping. He would figure she would sleep most of the day to help her body recover. Dyson looked at her arms and saw some of the cuts on her was still angry, he figured it was the deepest one. Dyson kissed River on the cheek and she groaned and rolled over so she was facing Dyson.

"I am going to go and see Trick" Dyson said as River opened her eyes for a moment "I will be back with food later, go back to sleep" he saw River eyes close again and Dyson slipped out of the bed.

As he stood at the edge of the bed he went and covered River up with a blanket. He noticed the stained floor and made a mental note to clean it up; it was the least he could do for driving River to do something extremely painful. He made a note to clean it up as soon as he came back from seeing Trick.

After an hour or so River slowly opened her eyes and suddenly sat up not remembering where she was, she smelt Dyson and realized it was her apartment so she laid back down in bed. Her whole body was on fire, in pure agony. Absolutely every muscle in her body was on fire and she couldn't do much but lay in bed. River wondered how long this was going to last, the pain was something she was use to but Dyson, he had this effect on River. River willed herself to sit up and rolled out of bed and stood on her feet despite her legs crying in protest. She walked over to her closet and took out a scrub brush and a bucket and made her way over to the large stain in the floor. Few of the plants in River's apartment came to live and got out of their pots and grabbed some towels and walked over to where River was. After getting some cleaning supplies River started at the long task of cleaning her floor. The plants were taking their leaves and rubbing back and forth scrubbing the blood, every now and then they would ring out their towels and once again get back to cleaning.

"Such good boys" River said and then saw about 10 spiders carrying over a brush and 5 on each side began to move the scrubber back and forth "little darlings"

About an hour later the wood had started to look like wood again and River's muscles ached even more. River's wolf was stirring underneath it was hungry for the hunt again, the blood. Ever since River let it out for those few weeks, it reared it heads more became more violent. In truth her wolf wanting blood scared River; it reminded her of darker days. A past River hid well and in plain sight. A door opening brought River out of her thoughts and she saw Dyson walking in holding two bags.

"I was going to clean that" Dyson said and then notice the plants and spiders cleaning as well "Interesting"

"They wanted to help" River said as she stood up and stretched as the shirt moved up and then went back down.

"Haven't changed yet I see" Dyson said as he put the bags on the counter

"Complaining?" River asked as she walked over to Dyson and peaked in the bags.

"No" Dyson said with a smirk "Trick gave me something to put on your body, he said you being in your wolf for so long will have caused a lot of pain"

"He's right" River said as she helped Dyson empty the bags "Why are you doing this?"

"Doing what" Dyson replied.

"Taking care of me" River responded and heard Dyson let out a sigh and turned towards River.

"I want to" Dyson replied "I have been very selfish and I want to change that"

"Oh" River said with a nod "you don't have to take care of me"

"I want to, I am the reason you're in pain" Dyson said "How can you even stand your legs are shaking"

"I'm fine" River said but Dyson didn't listen and picked her up "put me down"

"Not until you're in the bed" Dyson said and felt River move.

"Then carry me to the bathroom, I need a shower" River said as Dyson complied and walked over to the bathroom and opened the door and Dyson put her in the shower but her legs almost gave out before she grabbed a bar that was on the wall.

"I don't think you can take it" Dyson said

"I need one" River replied "I don't want a bath, just help me"

"Help you?" Dyson said as he looked at River "you think that is such a good idea"

"At this point I don't know what is a good idea anymore" River replied and took off his shirt and threw it past him as it landed on the floor and she turned on the water "Either help or leave"

Dyson thought about it for a moment before he got totally naked as well and stepped into River's shower. Dyson wrapped his arms around River and gently moved her so her back was under the hot water. River's arms were around Dyson's waist so she would remain steady. Dyson then started to wash River's hair, he noticed that it seemed to be her arms hurt the most and especially after scrubbing the floor he knew they would be useless.

"Dyson" River said as she moved her head and looked up at Dyson "Thank you"

"Don't thank me" Dyson said "Not when I caused this"

"I did it all by myself, this is no fault of your own" River said as she closed her eyes as Dyson massaged her scalp.

After a few moment Dyson was done and River pulled herself closer to Dyson. She rested her head on his chest and he rested his hands on her back. After a moment Dyson suddenly lifted up River and wrapped her legs around his waist and kissed her roughly. River locked her legs around Dyson and clawed at his back. Dyson then moved River so he was right at her entrance and roughly entered leaving River to groan backwards in pleasure. There was nothing soft, or sweet about it, all bets were off it had now become another primal instinct to claim as you see what is yours. River's nails had become more claw like as she dug into Dyson's back which only added to his roughness and moans coming out of River. Both River and Dyson were wrapped up in each other that they didn't hear the knocking at the door, or footsteps coming towards the running shower. Whatever was out there wasn't as important at both of them in the shower having rough sex.

"Dyson we have been….." a voice said and it caused both River and Dyson to stop momentarily as they looked at the opened door and saw Bo and Kenzi standing there.

"Hot mama" Kenzi said as Bo stormed off "catch ya later at the Dale, when you're not busy, continue on" she then shut the door and they could hear her run out of the apartment after Bo.

"She's going to be pissed at you" River breathed against Dyson's lips.

"Don't care" Dyson said as he started up again roughly entering River again causing her to moan out in pleasure.