A/n: Hey guys!! After someone suggested that I write this without a play format, I've decided to make it more story-like with the quotes to complete the enchilada. =) Please read and review!!!!!!!!!
When it dawned on her
It had become a weekly routine. Every Friday, it was hang time for Angel, Buffy, and Spike. Angel would end up sleeping, mid-movie, Buffy would be up, cold and concerned with her mind wandering, Spike would bring her a blanket and tell her to sleep, and that if she needed a friend to talk to, he would be there.
He didn't want to force her into anything, and still doesn't. She is extremely perplexed as to what is going on in her life right now. But for both of them, the coming Friday changed everything.
That Friday at Angel's House.
Of course, Angel has dozed off on the couch, once more. Buffy is sitting on the couch next to him, her eyebrows knitted close together as if in a deep trans. She feels the goose bumps on her arms and gazes up at Spike, almost expectantly.
Buffy whispers, "Spike?"
Spike, "Yes, luv?" He knows why she called for him, without her even answering. "Yea, alright." He gets up and after a few seconds is by her side, wrapping the blanket around her. As he stands up to go back to his couch, Spike's hand brushes past her cheek. He feels the moistness on his knuckles and turns back to look at her face, stained with tears.
Spike's heart breaks a little more. How could he have not noticed her crying there in front of him?
Spike needs her to talk to him. He immediately falls beside her and breathes out, "Buffy." She looks away, in embarrassment. He cups her cheeks and turns her head towards him, making sure that they have eye contact. "Luv, I need to know what's bothering you."
"It-it's nothing."
"It's not just nothing. You don't need to be embarrassed," Spike says.
"Promise you won't laugh, or make fun of me after I tell you?" she asks.
"I promise. I told you, I will be your ever-faithful friend," he adds with a reassuring smile.
Buffy hesitates. "Do you promise that after I open up to you...that-that you won't leave me?"
"I won't ever leave you." He says it more to himself than to her, but she smiles back at him for saying that, and sniffles. He grins in return but then his grin turns into a solemn face, waiting for her to start.
Buffy is nervously wringing her hands together. Suddenly she feels Spike's hands cover hers, and the touch fills her with confidence.
"I feel like-like Angel and I won't work out..."
Spike smiles, which surprises Buffy.
"Spike..you're not going to stop looking after me, if I break up with Angel will you?"
"I already promised you. I won't leave you." He continues, "Why?"
"..it just scares me so much. Through out the year, I thought he was perfect. He was so comforting, he was funny, he was everything a girl could ever dream of..."
Spike felt his heart expand at the compliment and break a little for her grief at the same time.
"...But after we got together, he's been...well...different. He's not at all who I thought he was."
She looks up to see Spike ogling at her, and she suddenly becomes self- conscious.
"..It's like 'now that he's got the girl' he can stop with the acting. But I mean, don't get me wrong, here. Angel is probably a great guy, but I don't think he's the guy for me.." She whispers, "I so believed that he was..."
She looks away, half embarrassed-half unsure as to what Spike's reaction would be. When he is silent and doesn't respond, she continues.
"Spike...I'm so scared...I don't know what to do." She breaks down into sobs.
Spike cannot take the silence any longer. He tucks a few strands of hair behind her ears and he hugs her. He hugs her with all the love and care he has for her. And Buffy felt it.
He whispers, "Baby, if you think that you are heading in the wrong direction then stop, turn yourself around and walk to where you wanna be."
"I don't know where I want to be."
He pulls away from her and looks into her eyes- His blue ones against her green. "That's what I'm here for- to guide you to where you want to be. I am always here for you."
Buffy almost chokes as she takes in all the emotions behind what he said. He would be there for her, no matter what happens. She feels her heart falling for him, which makes her even more confused and hesitant to what she is asking for next.
"Spike?"
"Yea, luv?"
"C-Could I maybe, come sleep next to you on the couch?" She knows it's not for anything sexual, but she just needs some comfort. She needs someone to catch her. And when Spike has volunteered to do just that, she couldn't be more grateful.
Spike's heart almost explodes, but he contains himself.
"Yea, of course. Get up, luv."
He leads her over to the other couch, and he gets on. Both of them, timid and unsure of what they ought to do brings silence and awkwardness between them.......That is until Buffy can't take it anymore. She needs someone to hold her, and she wraps her arms around Spike, holding him under her tight grasp.
Spike is taken aback by her first move. He has to admit, that she is holding him a little to the "too-tight" side, but enjoying her warmth, he wraps his arms tightly around her, as well. They are snuggled on the couch, Buffy's head on his shoulder, and arms and legs wrapped around each other, and with Spike whispering those comforting words in her ears.
Some how Buffy feels that this is how she is supposed to live...she feels safe...she feels comfortable...unsure of how to approach this revelation, Buffy savors it by listening to the words Spike is whispering to her. She feels her eyes drifting close.
"Luv.........baby...you are so strong.......pet......................my slayer"
Buffy's eyes dart open at the word 'slayer'. There is only one person who called her that. It was Angel online- but she had never heard him call her that in person. All her memories of her online buddy are recollected in her brain as she goes through them.
Pet, Luv....they were words that anybody could say. But Slayer...that is just too much of a coincidence. Buffy eyes the sleeping form beside her. Thoughts are racing through her mind 'Some coincidence...it's not a coincidence...'
Her heart races as her mind comes to the final and accurate conclusion.- Spike was actually her online buddy, not Angel. She had loved Spike from the beginning, but had been oblivious to it this whole time.
But her thoughts transition as to why Spike never confessed this to her. She begins to feel manipulated. Having gone through so much in her life, the new revelation leaves her steaming as she curses mentally at Spike and Angel for keeping such a secret that could have changed her life for the worse, forever.
She unwraps her arms from Spikeand shoves him off the couch, with the strength she never new she had.
As Spike hits the floor, he wakes up finding Buffy glaring over him.
"Buffy, luv, what's wrong?"
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When it dawned on her
It had become a weekly routine. Every Friday, it was hang time for Angel, Buffy, and Spike. Angel would end up sleeping, mid-movie, Buffy would be up, cold and concerned with her mind wandering, Spike would bring her a blanket and tell her to sleep, and that if she needed a friend to talk to, he would be there.
He didn't want to force her into anything, and still doesn't. She is extremely perplexed as to what is going on in her life right now. But for both of them, the coming Friday changed everything.
That Friday at Angel's House.
Of course, Angel has dozed off on the couch, once more. Buffy is sitting on the couch next to him, her eyebrows knitted close together as if in a deep trans. She feels the goose bumps on her arms and gazes up at Spike, almost expectantly.
Buffy whispers, "Spike?"
Spike, "Yes, luv?" He knows why she called for him, without her even answering. "Yea, alright." He gets up and after a few seconds is by her side, wrapping the blanket around her. As he stands up to go back to his couch, Spike's hand brushes past her cheek. He feels the moistness on his knuckles and turns back to look at her face, stained with tears.
Spike's heart breaks a little more. How could he have not noticed her crying there in front of him?
Spike needs her to talk to him. He immediately falls beside her and breathes out, "Buffy." She looks away, in embarrassment. He cups her cheeks and turns her head towards him, making sure that they have eye contact. "Luv, I need to know what's bothering you."
"It-it's nothing."
"It's not just nothing. You don't need to be embarrassed," Spike says.
"Promise you won't laugh, or make fun of me after I tell you?" she asks.
"I promise. I told you, I will be your ever-faithful friend," he adds with a reassuring smile.
Buffy hesitates. "Do you promise that after I open up to you...that-that you won't leave me?"
"I won't ever leave you." He says it more to himself than to her, but she smiles back at him for saying that, and sniffles. He grins in return but then his grin turns into a solemn face, waiting for her to start.
Buffy is nervously wringing her hands together. Suddenly she feels Spike's hands cover hers, and the touch fills her with confidence.
"I feel like-like Angel and I won't work out..."
Spike smiles, which surprises Buffy.
"Spike..you're not going to stop looking after me, if I break up with Angel will you?"
"I already promised you. I won't leave you." He continues, "Why?"
"..it just scares me so much. Through out the year, I thought he was perfect. He was so comforting, he was funny, he was everything a girl could ever dream of..."
Spike felt his heart expand at the compliment and break a little for her grief at the same time.
"...But after we got together, he's been...well...different. He's not at all who I thought he was."
She looks up to see Spike ogling at her, and she suddenly becomes self- conscious.
"..It's like 'now that he's got the girl' he can stop with the acting. But I mean, don't get me wrong, here. Angel is probably a great guy, but I don't think he's the guy for me.." She whispers, "I so believed that he was..."
She looks away, half embarrassed-half unsure as to what Spike's reaction would be. When he is silent and doesn't respond, she continues.
"Spike...I'm so scared...I don't know what to do." She breaks down into sobs.
Spike cannot take the silence any longer. He tucks a few strands of hair behind her ears and he hugs her. He hugs her with all the love and care he has for her. And Buffy felt it.
He whispers, "Baby, if you think that you are heading in the wrong direction then stop, turn yourself around and walk to where you wanna be."
"I don't know where I want to be."
He pulls away from her and looks into her eyes- His blue ones against her green. "That's what I'm here for- to guide you to where you want to be. I am always here for you."
Buffy almost chokes as she takes in all the emotions behind what he said. He would be there for her, no matter what happens. She feels her heart falling for him, which makes her even more confused and hesitant to what she is asking for next.
"Spike?"
"Yea, luv?"
"C-Could I maybe, come sleep next to you on the couch?" She knows it's not for anything sexual, but she just needs some comfort. She needs someone to catch her. And when Spike has volunteered to do just that, she couldn't be more grateful.
Spike's heart almost explodes, but he contains himself.
"Yea, of course. Get up, luv."
He leads her over to the other couch, and he gets on. Both of them, timid and unsure of what they ought to do brings silence and awkwardness between them.......That is until Buffy can't take it anymore. She needs someone to hold her, and she wraps her arms around Spike, holding him under her tight grasp.
Spike is taken aback by her first move. He has to admit, that she is holding him a little to the "too-tight" side, but enjoying her warmth, he wraps his arms tightly around her, as well. They are snuggled on the couch, Buffy's head on his shoulder, and arms and legs wrapped around each other, and with Spike whispering those comforting words in her ears.
Some how Buffy feels that this is how she is supposed to live...she feels safe...she feels comfortable...unsure of how to approach this revelation, Buffy savors it by listening to the words Spike is whispering to her. She feels her eyes drifting close.
"Luv.........baby...you are so strong.......pet......................my slayer"
Buffy's eyes dart open at the word 'slayer'. There is only one person who called her that. It was Angel online- but she had never heard him call her that in person. All her memories of her online buddy are recollected in her brain as she goes through them.
Pet, Luv....they were words that anybody could say. But Slayer...that is just too much of a coincidence. Buffy eyes the sleeping form beside her. Thoughts are racing through her mind 'Some coincidence...it's not a coincidence...'
Her heart races as her mind comes to the final and accurate conclusion.- Spike was actually her online buddy, not Angel. She had loved Spike from the beginning, but had been oblivious to it this whole time.
But her thoughts transition as to why Spike never confessed this to her. She begins to feel manipulated. Having gone through so much in her life, the new revelation leaves her steaming as she curses mentally at Spike and Angel for keeping such a secret that could have changed her life for the worse, forever.
She unwraps her arms from Spikeand shoves him off the couch, with the strength she never new she had.
As Spike hits the floor, he wakes up finding Buffy glaring over him.
"Buffy, luv, what's wrong?"
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