Release Me

Chapter 11

A week passed since the spar and Goku spent most of her time away from Vegeta out of frustration and desperation. She assumed that being bounded to the prince would only apply if she was anywhere around him and wished it was broken. She had finally recovered from starvation and was still wearing the armor despite Vegeta bringing some new clothes to the island for her to wear. The garments she found in her room made her dislike Bulma's choices and she refused to try any of them on. Hence, she continued to wear the armor that Vegeta had brought despite it becoming slightly tighter on her form due to her body filling out.

During her explorations on the island, Goku discovered an abandoned ancient shrine carved into the slag of rock that made up the waterfall. For a reason, she spent time meditating there since it was a quiet place. She made it a part of her daily ritual to head there in order to spend time calming herself and had become more adept at using it to chase away the ill-thoughts that plagued her at times.

She also spent time tending to the garden near the cabin. Vegeta wasn't pleased when she asked him to bring back plants, but decided to humor the Earth-raised Saiya-jin. He returned with a few capsules and explained that she would have to take care of them and not abandon them to die. She agreed to those terms and planted the rosemary a little ways from the cabin.

The soft scent seemed to make her feel more at ease the days she spent caring for the plants. The purple and white flowers were relaxing and she could look at them for hours without any problems. She didn't like the pink ones that began to bloom and threw them into the fire. Vegeta was a bit surprised by her needless destruction, but didn't voice his complaints.

Goku started hunting on her own more and more, but she still couldn't summon her energy to start fires. She resorted to making fires with sticks or matches; the latter Vegeta brought to the island due to the fact that she was still struggling with chi manipulation. The prince was perplexed at the sudden issues the female Saiya-jin was having and wondered if she had lost the ability to manipulate energy or if she was afraid of utilizing it.

In either case, he was going to find out.


The moonlight rose and Vegeta didn't need a calendar to know it was full. Goku's scent changed and she was moaning in need as she tried to sleep in the other room. He gritted his teeth and ignored it, but it was becoming harder to fight. The only thing keeping him from doing so was his pride and he wouldn't betray his wife to screw the one he was bound to.

Entering the room, he saw that she was panting; her tail waving the alluring scent in order to attract a male to mate with her. Goku's eyes were completely red and she lunged at him. He tried to press his palm to her stomach, but she batted it away and began to rub herself all over his body; her scent intermingling with his. She was completely naked and ready to be taken.

"Kakarrot…" Vegeta muttered. He felt her lips press against his own as her tongue sought entrance to his mouth. He felt himself drowning in her scent as his hand reached her navel and concentrating; he summoned the energy he needed to dispel what her instincts had craved for just as her tongue broke into his mouth.


Goku had lost control of herself and her body burned. She wanted to have the prince fuck her until she was impregnated with his seed. Her tongue breeched his mouth when she suddenly cringed from the energy that dispersed what was entrapped in her womb. Her mind reeling from the sensation of both his taste and the energy, she glared coldly at him when she realized that he had resisted long enough to prevent her from becoming pregnant.

"Kakarrot, you need to learn how to control yourself," Vegeta commanded.

"I want to fuck…" Goku muttered.

"No," Vegeta grabbed her and carried her outside. Thankfully, the skies were overcast, so he carried her to the stream and dropped her in. She emerged moments later from the water all wet and angry.

"What the hell was that for?" Goku practically yelled at him.

"You were acting like a slut again," Vegeta growled. "I wasn't going to deal with you trying to hump me like that."

The words sunk in almost immediately and she growled. "It's not my fault that I'm a woman who falls under these fucking hormones!"

"That I am aware of Kakarrot. In any case, we should get back to the cabin. Your training resumes tomorrow."

Goku took a deep breath and followed Vegeta. In all honesty, she had mixed feelings about returning back to the way she was. If she couldn't control herself as a female, she feared what would happen when she returned to her male bodice.

'I can't trust men… I can't even trust myself if I ever become one again…' Goku thought silently to herself. 'I'd rather remain a female forever if it means protecting others from going through what hell I had to deal with!'


Vegeta blocked a blow from Goku's fist as it struck his forearm. It only stung slightly, but he knew that she was becoming stronger from all of the physical activities that he had put her through. He sensed how her energy flowed throughout her body and realized that whatever was blocking it was gone.

"Kakarrot, let's try something else," Vegeta jumped backwards. "I want you to try to fire a blast."

"Uh…" Goku stood there transfixed. "I'm not sure I can…"

"Why do you say that?"

"I tried several times, but I haven't had much luck…"

"Idiot…" Vegeta moved back to her side and she flinched when he took her palms in his hands. While his were slightly smaller than hers, she felt how much thicker they were. "Close your eyes…"

"Wha…?"

"Just do it." Goku decided not to argue and shut her eyes. "Now concentrate. Deep inside of you is a pool of energy that you've been neglecting since your previous outburst."

"I was…"

"Concentrate Kakarrot…" Vegeta reminded her. She firmly closed her mouth, biting her bottom lip. "Bring it out into your hands…"

For a few minutes, Vegeta saw her visibly tense, trying to do as the prince had asked. Did she truly forget how to summon energy in the palms of her hands? She knew how to fly and transform, so why couldn't she do this simple task?

"I… I can't do it Vegeta…" Goku opened her eyes.

"Yes you can. Concentrate!" Vegeta exclaimed.

"No I can't…" Goku whimpered. He saw the pain in her eyes and realized that he had pushed her too far.

"What the hell's wrong with you? You were able to do it without any issues…"

"Y-Yanish did something to keep me from firing blasts…" Goku blurted out. Vegeta was stunned when he heard her say this. "I… I can't talk about it…"

"Kakarrot, you can barely fly, transform and now you're saying Yanish did something to keep you from summoning energy blasts… I'm going to bring the woman here to have her fix you."

"W-what?" Goku was fearful as the prince flew off. 'No… not again… they're going to do something bad to me again…'

Paranoia slipped in her mind and she felt terrified. She quickly ran through the forest back into the cabin and holed herself in her room.


A few hours later, Goku sensed Vegeta approach and heard the sound of an engine. She remained where she was; refusing to go out and greet anyone.

Outside, Bulma emerged from the plane and began to pull what tools she needed when Vegeta stopped her.

"She's afraid…" Vegeta felt the torrent of emotions from the female Saiya-jin. He had no idea what she was afraid of and why, but he knew that she would need to confront her deepest fears if she ever wanted things to return to the way they were.

"She seems like she hasn't improved," Bulma noted the distrust Goku still carried heavily.

"Physically, she's better, but not mentally," Vegeta summarized. "What Yanish did to her is unforgivable and I won't hesitate tearing out that bastard's spine."

"What happened to her that she can't trust anyone?"

"Kakarrot's been raped repeatedly," Vegeta told his wife. "And to make matters worse, she's miscarried twice."

"Oh my god…" Bulma covered her mouth.

"Unless you someone who's gone through a similar experience, I doubt she'll learn to trust anyone again."


Inside of the cabin, Goku overheard everything that was said and shuddered. She had a few rosemary flowers resting on the floor and picked at the stem in order to sate her nervousness. The fact that Bulma smelled like lab chemicals made her stomach turn and she didn't need to be anywhere close her to smell the scent. It made her remember the horrible times she was operated on against her wishes and the last thing she wanted was to go through that traumatizing experience again.

"Goku?" Bulma called inside the cabin. "Please come out…"

The female Saiya-jin couldn't bring herself to move. She was terrified and nervous that she might try to hurt her.

"I'll get her," Vegeta walked inside. Goku's fears intensified. She knew it would be a futile effort to try and run away and tried to anyway when he came for her, but he grabbed her and hauled the female downstairs and outside of the cabin. She saw that Bulma had setup some sort of outdoor lab so she wouldn't make her fearful, but it only intensified the fear. Vegeta had to resort to knocking out Goku in order to keep her from bolting.

"She's so afraid…" Bulma noted. She noticed the tenseness in the female Saiya-jin's body and knew that she was troubled in more ways than one.

"Just figure out what's wrong with her," Vegeta growled.

Bulma swiftly looked the Earth-raised Saiya-jin over and scanned her body with the equipment that she had brought with her. Since Goku was unconscious, she couldn't ask her any questions and had to resort to Vegeta's testimony. Eventually, Goku awoke and found herself strapped to the bed.

"Let me go!" Goku cried in fear. She was hyperventilating and an unspoken fear was in her eyes. In a way, she felt trapped and it brought back the haunting memories of her time in Yanish's clutches.

"Sedate the whore…" a voice echoed in the room. "She needs to be punished…"

"Kakarrot, calm down!" Vegeta yelled at the female. "Bulma was running some tests on you."

"It's time for the operation to ensure that your uterus is properly installed…" a doctor explained.

"I don't want it…" Goku whimpered. The gas was already starting to take its effect. No matter how hard she tried to fight it, the gas seemed like it was never ending.

"Tough shit… Yanish ordered this and you're going to be a good whore and take it…" the doctor spoke in such a cruel sounding tone.

"No…" Goku was starting to feel her body become heavy and the fight was leaving her body.

"It'll all be over soon you naughty whore… then you can go back to being his personal fuck toy…"

"No! I… I don't want to be operated on again!" Goku yelled; her psyche was still locked within that memory. Her hair flashed gold and the straps broke from the gurney she was on. Completely out of it, she rolled off and started destroying the equipment by slamming things into each other. Bulma was forced to retreat behind her husband while the Earth-raised Saiya-jin wrecked everything.

"Goku, calm down…" Bulma tried to reason with the angered female Saiya-jin.

"Leave this fucking island!" Goku yelled at Bulma. Vegeta felt the murderous intent from her and knew that she was seriously pissed off. He grabbed the angered Saiya-jin to prevent her from going after the human who was only trying to help.

"Woman! Go home!" Vegeta commanded. Bulma darted into the aircraft and it flew away. The Saiya-jin prince felt Goku shaking violently in his arms; her hair flickering between blonde and black. "Kakarrot…"

Goku pushed him away; forcing him to let go of her. She angrily looked at the prince and he suddenly realized that he had gone too far and ended up making her uncomfortable.

"I don't believe you!" Goku growled out.

"What are you talking about Kakarrot?" Vegeta looked at her dumbfounded.

"You…I can't trust you anymore!" Goku screamed. She flew back onto the island and went into the cabin. He heard the door slam shut inside of the cabin.

'What's wrong with Kakarrot? Why was she afraid?' Vegeta thought to himself and then realized the error he made. The fact that Goku destroyed the medical equipment, the feral look in the younger woman's eyes, it was all making sense. 'Oh shit… I… I had no idea… Yanish had her operated on to the point that she can't even take a physical examination.'


Crying in her room, Goku buried her head in her arms. The last person she thought she could trust had betrayed her. She couldn't trust the one bounded to her at all because he did something so unforgivable that she knew he couldn't start again.

'I hate men… I hate… hate… hate them all!' Goku thought angrily. Her hair flickered between black and gold.

The last thing she wanted was to be in some laboratory being studied like a lab rat. Yanish had done enough of it while she was in his clutches and used it not only to alter her entirely, but as a form of punishment. He had done so much to her that she hated the person she had become and it made her sick. Cold memories of the doctors laughing while cutting her open; sometimes keeping her awake just to feel what they were doing to her made her shudder in utter dread.

'I wish I died back in Yanish's clutches…' Goku thought morbidly. 'After all, I am a good fuck… and I bet the Destroyer would have probably killed me before I even gave birth…'

Goku remained in the room and eventually, she fell into an uneasy sleep.


Vegeta stood outside her door. He had no idea what her insecurities were, but he knew that whatever trust he had managed to earn with Goku was gone. The only thing he could do is to patiently wait for her.

'Damn it…' Vegeta leaned his forehead against the door. 'I was such a fucking idiot… I pushed Kakarrot too far…'

He clenched his fist. Whatever she was dealing with would need to be addressed, but he knew that she needed time; time which of course was limited. The longer he waited, the sooner Yanish would come in order to claim her. He had to do something to try to patch up what happened and help her face her inner demons or they would ultimately destroy her.

To Be Continued…