The next day at lunch I surveyed my outfit afraid of what Jasper might think. I looked down at my wardrobe while I was standing at my locker. I was wearing a silver sequined shirt with a tan fedora and gray ripped skinny jeans, I had 6' grey Yves St. Laurent peep toe heels on my feet and red lips stick. My hair was down and straight today under my fedora. Now I thought I looked like a poser.
I didn't really know what was going on, I mean we liked each other but... we weren't going out. What if some other guy asked me out and I said no because of Jasper... only to get our relationship to nowhere. I mean with the whole mate thing that could happen years from now.
I decided to sit with my friends seeing as Joey, Tony and Noah were on a French field trip I sat with Casey and Ava who were talking about the winter dance coming up.
" So we already know who you're going with Amber" Casey said a happy and excited smile gracing her lips, I looked at her puzzled though I know she meant Jasper. Ava listened closer looking for gossip.
" OK I'm not going out with Jasper, I mean I really like him but were definitely not going out.
Ava's eyes lit up, " Hey Jasper" She purred pushing out her cleavage.
" Amber may I have a word?" He said pulling out my chair. That surprised me. Not one boy I had ever know pulled a chair out for me. Well he did have a slight southern accent so he was probably a good southern boy. Even now his cold touch still sent shock waves through me. Like my bones were going soft.
Out of the cafeteria and into his car, which was very nice, It was a blueish silver convertible, the top was up and as we got inside it smelled exactly like Jasper.
I looked at Jasper out of the corner of my eye, his whole body was facing me, his eyes trained on my face as if focusing on someone. My emotions were going haywire, which was something that always happened when he was near. Maybe it was just me but it seemed like mine always matched his, like we were connected. I was so deep in thought I didn't even notice when he grabbed my hand.
" Amber, I really like you, as you already know" He started staring passionately at me with his gorgeous topaz eyes. They were usually hard, like gems on his pale face. Right now they were filled with emotion so they had lightened to butterscotch.
" I think we should try, I can't promise anything about my control or the controversy your friends and family might have towards me will be good but I want to try" He said with a gleam of confidence in his eyes.
" Jasper" I said rubbing his hand and the gleam died, oh god he thought I meant no I was quick to speak " I want to try to, but we should keep it a secret other than from school, like if we go on a date, it has to be in the city, so that Sam or Emily or the Pack will see" I said calculating in my head.
A glorious triumphant smile lit up his face. I smiled feeling content, until a wave of lust hit me square in the chest, I lunged on top of him, clawing my hands through his hair, I loved doing it, it made my skin tingle. Then his hands clawed down my back and I started kissing the icy coldness of his neck. It was like BAM I wanted to take him right then and there.
When the shrill sound of the bell signalling the end of lunch went off we detached ourselves except that our hands stayed intertwined, though my hand was rather chilly, It was a good feeling.
" Come on baby lets go scare people" his eyes warmed when I called him baby.
When we reached the hall everyone stopped. People saw us, looked away, took a double take and then looked again this time their eyes landed on our entwined hands. Guys stared at Jasper in jealousy, girls glared at me in rage. I could tell what they were thinking. They had been trying to get Jasper since the first day of freshman year, I had been here a week and a half and I was holding hands with him.
When we got to my class, Biology as it seemed, he gave me a parting kiss and everyone in the wide auditorium stopped and stared. The late bell rang and nobody moved except me and Jasper. I didn't move until Jasper rounded the corner, apparently neither did they.
When I got to my table Alice looked just like I told her I was getting married. We talked about Jasper through note passing, and I told her everything, apart from the making out part. I told her about keeping it a secret form La Push, everyone staring, the kiss before class, the hand holding and how much I liked him.
Alice's eyes twinkled and then and there I felt like I was finally together, usually I felt like I was always in three places, trying to maintain and do three different things. Now I felt whole, together.