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IMPORTANT FACT: I know there's been some wonder about how Edward is so old for Bella seeing she's 15 but nobody said she was gonna stay as a fifteen year old. :) *hint*
Edward's POV:
Why did I leave her a choice? What gave her the right to get away from me so easily?
I was not letting my mind think about it too much, it was harder enough to have the immune and cruel little sanity in me to let her live as long as I wished. I was not going out of track. Not a chance in hell. I was going to accomplish my purpose.
As soon as I stepped into my tower, my slaves gathered around the door welcoming me home. I gave Katrina a nod, ignoring Lauren's obscenities thoughts towards Katrina.
What can I say? I was not into a blonde's mood right now. I settled for a brunette.
The human stood there gaping at me before I gave her a glare while stripping of my clothes, letting her know what she should do, she took a step closer to stay in front of my face. I sighed when I looked into her green eyes.
Not in the mood for green eyes I guess.
I flipped her over, so she lay on her stomach, bending her over my desk.
No questions asked, or anything left to say, this is how it was always supposed to be.
I thrust up into her from behind, closing my eyes imagining my sweet Bella's form wrapped around my length, venom began to spread in my mouth, and I could feel the desk move beneath us as my pace grew faster.
The human beneath me moaned voluntarily in pleasure and in pain, because there was nothing much more pleasant of how I was growing faster and harder.
I wasn't able to control myself; thoughts of Bella rang into my mind, singing to me like a canary, taunting me.
Everything about her teased me.
I flipped her over and sank my sharp teeth into her, she moaned in pleasure but it was soon replaced with pain when she noticed I was not doing anything to try and please her, I was feeding.
I was draining her.
A moment later she was just another numb less body scolded up in my arms. Sigh. Nothing seemed to fill me completely. I wasn't satisfied; I had my release but no blood could compare to what Bella's sweet taste would do to me.
Lauren came up to my room letting out a gasp when she saw Katrina's dead body on the floor, but as quickly as she opened her mouth she put a hand on it, preventing a yelp to startle her.
"What do you wish Lauren?" I asked frustrated she was still here.
"I was wondering if you need anything. At all?" her suggestion did nothing to me.
"Yes. Get the girl out of here." I motioned to the slave's body. Lauren nodded with a sigh, not fully pleased with my answer.
I heard the bell ring and I smelt a scent, a familiar scent and it was just downstairs waiting for me.
I growled.
"What do you search for here?" I snapped in disgust from up the stairs, watching her intently.
"Edward." Her tone prayed to be listened.
"Get out," I spat.
That's when I heard her thoughts and snapped. I let out a furious snarl while I joined her in one swift motion downstairs.
"It's gonna happen Edward; I have seen it," she pleaded.
"Never!"
"You're changing, she's important to you, you can be one of us." Vampires couldn't cry but she was the closest to cry, because I saw her eyes glitter.
I shook my head 'no'.
"We want you back, once you realize you don't want to be a monster-" I didn't let her finish as I pushed her against a wall with my hand on her throat.
"Keep your thoughts to yourself," I snapped.
"You don't have to be alone."
Suddenly my hold on her loosened up a bit, my mind started to wonder, what it would be like to spend eternity with someone by my side. Perhaps a family?
Maybe a lover?
No. I was who I was. A monster.
And I was not changing.
"I still crave for human blood." I laughed at her poor attempt to distract me.
"Not by far," she whispered. "You're controlling yourself. You have since awhile." She choked on her words when my grip tightened on her neck.
"There's always a choice." And then I let her go making her fall on her knees.
"Leave." I ordered turning my back on her.
"Carlisle and all of us...we'll love to have you back," there was a pause, "I...we miss you Edward." I turned around to snarl at her but she was gone, she disappeared.
Would I be able to stay away from the finest wine of all?
I went to hunt, but that night I was not hunting humans, I was hunting animals. Just to test my control, just to see if I could spend the rest of eternity like this.
It never fully satisfied me.
I had by far more than I wanted, I had mountain lions and elks, but it could not be compared. My hands shaked, from the bit of control I had in me, I had to stay in control before I'd see Bella again.
I could not afford to lose her. Not yet.
Not her.
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Bella's POV:
When I woke up and didn't saw Edward by my side I couldn't help but to feel sad. Sigh. Was he disappointed with me? Was I not good enough for him? Did he change his mind about me?
I couldn't stand the thought of Edward leaving me, not now. Not ever.
I wanted him. I needed him.
For the first time in my life I felt alive, I felt the danger, I felt the freedom, and I felt touched.
In more than one way.
All my life I've been hid from the secrets of life and exposing them like this, to have them in my reach felt good.
It felt like I was not a child anymore, like I was free from rules.
When I went down stairs I made breakfast with my sisters bickering about how I have been avoiding them all the time.
What was I supposed to say? A vampire is taking me away from you?
Yeah right!
They raced me to it actually.
"Is that man isn't it?" Louis's voice shook me out of my thoughts, making me spun around on my heel and turned my shocked gaze to her.
"It is?" Mary's mouth hanged open in the air.
"What are you talking about?" I blushed.
"It is!" they accused in unison.
"HUSH!" I ordered. They stood quietly giggling waiting for me to spill the beans.
I nodded at them and they stood there turning a lot paler than they already were.
"Bella you can't!" Mary was the first one to speak.
"It's not much of her decision," a velvet voice spoke from behind them, making them turn around frightened. I gasped.
What was he doing here? Didn't he have any self preservation?
"What-the-..." But before I could finish, he made his way around the table to my side, pulling me to his chest from my waist, my sisters followed his every move with their eyes, and mouths dropping open.
He shushed me with his lips over mine in a second. I felt completely uncomfortable doing this right here, in my kitchen with my sisters staring. As far as they knew, I still hadn't started my period yet.
I turned my head around completely flushed looking down on my hands.
He rolled his eyes and let out an exasperated sigh.
"What are you moppets starring at?" He snarled, they stood back letting out a yelp.
He looked at them wary, sitting in the counter while I got busy doing breakfast. He put a hand in his temple leaning on his elbow, looking at them like they were dumb.
"Maybe I should find them a mate." He sighed bored.
"Don't you dare!" I warned threatening him with a spoon.
He laughed.
"You have no saying in the matter of your own fate, and you want to protect theirs?" Apparently I was becoming really amusing to him this morning. I looked up into his eyes and saw his eyes were a deep golden brown. That was my cue, everything was fine. And he was just teasing me like he usually does.
But he seemed frustrated somehow.
I gave him a wary look. Hoping to God he wouldn't test my patience.
"Don't work your 'magic' in them Edward," I spat, he glared at me.
"They might as well learn something." He gave them a grin, and to my surprise they giggled. Was he dazzling them?
"Edward!" I gave him my final warning.
"Jealous much?"
Then he growled furiously standing up like he had caught someone's scent.
"What is it?" I asked.
"A boy," he snarled.
"Oh my god, it's Jacob!"
I jumped out of my bones immediately.
"HIDE! QUICK!"
"Not without you," he let me know.
I frowned my eyebrows at him confused. What's with him?
"We're leaving now!" He gripped my arm, glaring at me.
What the hell did I do? Then it came to me, 'a boy'. I smirked up at him.
"Jealous much?" I mocked him with the same mocking tone he used on me.
"Move it." I sighed and turned around to the girls, ignoring his intense glare on me.
"Tell him I went to the market-" He cut me off rudely.
"Tell him she's fucking!" He ordered. I stared mouth open at him while my sisters stared at him like he had grown a third head, but his head was turn to me only, his eyes burying into me.
"What's gotten into you?"
"And that she's enjoying it," he added.
I shook my head giving him a: 'you-didn't' look.
But before I could respond he tossed me around his back and we were in a matter of seconds in some place new. It was dark and huge.
It was a tower.
I stood there gapping at the monumental tower with the little bits of lightness coming in of it, and how far into the woods it was, completely hidden.
"Come on." He pushed me, taking my hand leading me up the stairs.
I saw there were some girls, no. They were women, and they were beautiful. Blondes, brunettes, red heads, all vixens, with their tall legs and tanned shoulders, glowing blue and green eyes, every guy's dreams. I was suddenly intimidated.
I swallowed hard letting him take me up the stairs, but feeling bad in the pit of my stomach.
When he took me into a huge wooden door, he opened letting me in before he followed suit behind me.
I sighed, the place was beautiful, it had a king size bed with a tent hanging above it, a huge window where I could even see my small shack, and the entire woods. I could see how easy it was for him to get wherever he pleased.
I felt strong arms wrap themselves around my small waist, and his lips descended above my neck. I cringed at the new cold breeze that blew over my neck.
He didn't stop, he only explored further. His hands moved up to grasp my breasts in the thin cotton material gown I was wearing, they took a firm hold of them and it was enough to make me uncomfortable so I tried my best to bring the situation somewhere else.
"Why the sudden rush to leave the house?" He didn't respond, I heard a guttural sound coming from him, was it? Yes.
"Was Jacob making you uncomfortable?" I taunted. He flinched, turning me around harshly, pressing every inch of my body against him forcefully.
"He was excited you know?" he whispered, brushing his nose against mine. "He has being planning for awhile how to profess his love for you, you know?" I frowned, couldn't say I was surprise. "And he's a dog," he laughed, I frowned once again in confusion.
"What's that supposed to mean?" He shook his head.
"Nothing to worry about, I'm excited as well, can you tell?" he pressed his pelvis against me, pushing me completely to the brick wall.
I tensed.
"You had your turn, it's only fair love." He tilted his head to the side so he could catch my eyes.
"What do I have to do?" I surprised him. I knew this cause, he widened his eyes and he was probably thinking I was not up to the challenge. But the thought of Edward coming back home to those girls or 'women' sent a rush of inquietude on me.
And his words last night were printed in the back of my mind; I had to shake them off somehow.
"I have to find my own release."
His shock was soon forgotten because now he became really excited, lifting me up in the air and settling me down on his desk.
"You really shouldn't have said that." He smiled at me, "Do you imagine how many things I can have from you now?" I sighed, it couldn't get any worse, could it?
"I'm trying not to give much thought into it." I blushed.
He smiled, brushing one of his hands on my cheek.
"I love that." Intently he stared down at my cheeks, but then his gaze turned to my eyes and those golden brown eyes of his were glowing. It was those eyes which sent me shivers up and down my body.
I took his hand in my own, and he starred down at them intertwined, I just knew there was something up with him.
"What do you feel like about spending eternity… with… me?" I looked up into his eyes dumbfounded.
"What?"
His eyes turned dark.
"Forget it, why would you spend the rest of your existence with a monster?" His grip in me tightened on my waist, pulling me against his body.
"No, wait! Tell me!" I begged, he turned to me and faced me.
"Why ex-sister made me an offer, she says I can have the glorious Cullen name back," he laughed darkly.
So they were giving him a second chance? Did they had the same faith I had on him?
"So they believe in you." I put my hands to his face, so he would look up at me. "Like I do," I breathed. He stared deep into my eyes for the longest time.
"You would regret the words," he promised.
"I won't," I promised.
"You really should stay away from me."
I shook my head in resistance, now that he was with me I wasn't going to leave his side ever. He wasn't going anywhere.
"I…" But I guess he could read my thoughts because he raced me to it.
"So the lion fell in love with the lamb," he breathed out, I smiled.
"What a stupid lamb."
"What a masochist lion." His eyes bored into mine filling with sadness. I smiled reassuring him everything was going to be okay and he could take the Cullen's offer in having him back, he could be good again.
"This doesn't change anything." I stood quiet, unable to let out any words.
I knew he still wanted me desperately, I knew he wanted my blood, and he didn't want to stop. But I knew deep down he couldn't stand the thought of keeping me away from him, and slowly and involuntarily I was making an appearance in a hole I liked to call a heart.
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I'll have to give you more of Edward's thoughts about Jacob even if he doesn't consider him a threat at all ;) he's just soo cocky as that :D
Keep tuned. :)