Disclaimer:
Emmet: Sweet Mary! Someone save me!
Me: Whoah Em, what's wrong!
Emmet: Can't you see I'm being molested by your friend! Whatsherface!
Me: Her name is Mckenzie and she isn't molesting you. You are just overreacting. All I see going on here is teenage tom-foolery.
Mckenzie: WHOOO!! TAKE IT OFF!!! (smacks Emmet's tooshie)
Emmett: get off me you freak of nature! Lexie, save me. God help me!
Alexis: Only if you say I own Twilight! (motions for Mckenzie to cease the innapropriate touching)
Emmett: But you don't. Stefanie Meyer does and if I told you that it would be a lie and Esme does't condone lying.
Alexis: Well then! I just be on my way! ( skips away merrily) as you were Mckenzie!
Mckenzie: Show me how you handle those grizzly bears Big Boy!
Emmett: AHHHH!!
There you go Mckenzie, I put you in one of my disclaimers that you love so much. This is so you lol.
Any who....
IM BAAAACK!!
You guys have no idea how sorry i am about not updating on sunday
i feel really bad and i hope yall arent too mad at me.
but i had good reasons! :
1. I go to school and have plans on being a merit scholar, latin scholar, keeping my GPA above 4.0, and staying on Principal's Honor Roll
that means i am studying for SAT's and ACT's like you've never seen.
2. I have a job, i teach dance classes every other day, and then I dance everyday with my dance company. and we have a performance coming up in a week so we are rehearsing day and night. I am EXTREMELY tired.
3. I got sick last week. yeah food posining from my favorite place ever......Starbucks. yall never eat the cream cheese danish, i still havnt recovered. but, unsuprisingly i still go there everyday. what can i say. im an addict.
4. I got caught up reading an extremely good fanfiction. Written in the Stars. its in my favorites and its good. so i kind of neglected my story this weekend and i already punished myself, so its all good. lol
I hope you guys can forgive me!!
so, I was in the process of writing this chapter, when i got a message from VampObsession. She asked me about my update and i told her everything and she basically wore me down and concinced me to update the first part. so you guys should love her now and thank her for me updating tonight, because she really wanted me too!! Thanks Yael!
But don't worry, if you were freaking out that I wasn't updating my friends at school and dance were too. they would yell at me everyday until i got this up. It was a bit scary, Andrea even hit me :'(. So readers who know me personally were kicking my ass for not updating so you guys that don't, have are in good hands.
So thanks to everyone who reviewed last chapter, you guys kick some major ass
and every one who put me on alerts and favorites, THANKYOU!
im am soo completely flattered that you guys like this. It makes my dreams of becoming an author someday more clear!
so heres the deal with this chapter:
this isnt the entire chapter 12, or atleast this isnt how i had originally planned it.
last time i asked yall if you wanted once a week long updates or twice a week short updates.
and it was about 50/50, so i just decided i was going to continue with the once a week
but then Yael, messaged me and so now ive decided to update twice a week, hopefully every wensday and sunday.
so review this and tell me if you like it this way.
theres is the other part of this that i will post sunday (hopefully, but most likely :D)
so enough of my mish mash, heres chapter 12!
its basically the end of chapter 11 in Eddy's POV, but i like Eds new attitude in this and hopefully u will too!
Chapter Song: "Mixtape" by Butch Walker
EPOV
She was a vision.
Here I am wallowing in my own self-pity, and the most beautiful creature walks towards me. How did she find me here? Why wasn't she inside celebrating? Were the gods trying to punish me even more? It's like they were flaunting the fact that Bella belonged to another man.
I discretely looked towards the massive rock on her finger and it looked so awkward. It just didn't fit my Bella. Bella needed a ring that was more simple and elegant. The one she was wearing now just looked show offish. This Felix was basically marking her as his with that monstrosity of a ring; it was like a big 'Back off she's mine' sign.
This made me not like him even more.
"Hi" Bella said as she glided over to the tree across from me and sat down gracefully. She had a look of care on her face. I hoped that my distress wasn't too apparent, but then I remembered that I was the one beating up the Earth earlier. I probably didn't look too fresh.
"Hey" I answered. That was really all I could say at the moment. I looked deep into her chocolate brown eyes, silently hoping she would instantly remember me. But luck hasn't been on my side in these past couple of days.
"Are you okay?"
Was I okay? I hadn't been okay for 70 years and it was all due to the fact that I had idiotically left her.
But, I couldn't tell her that.
"Not really, but I'll get over it." She already could tell that I was upset about something.
"What's wrong?" Bella asked me after a moment.
I knew she honestly did care. We had become good friends this morning. I wanted to pour out my soul to her. Tell her everything. But I couldn't, she would most likely think I was crazy and then there was no way she would want to be around me again. She was going to have to remember herself.
I could feel myself yearning to break down again, but I fought against it. I had to stay strong for her. I couldn't ruin the joy of this celebration for her. I looked at the ground thinking about all of this and I didn't know how I could answer her. I couldn't tell her what was really wrong.
"You don't have to tell me", Bella said after my moment of silence. She bit her lip and I internally groaned at the inappropriate mental image that flashed in my brain. I needed to stay focused.
"No, its fine. I just…. I just lost something I loved very much. Well, someone." I looked at Bella, knowing she didn't understand the underlying meaning of that.
"Oh. Did something happen to her?" Bella asked me out of pure innocence. Something did happen to her and its sitting right in front of me. I decided that I would just tell her the problem; she didn't know I was talking about her anyway.
""Yeah. She's with someone else. She doesn't love me anymore." I gazed at her while I said this, and then took my frustrations out on an unsuspecting stick. That was all true. Bella was with someone else and didn't know of the love we once harbored together. That love was now one-sided.
"I'm sorry, Edward" She looked genuinely sorry. I could see something else behind her eyes, though. It couldn't be jealously though or anger at my situation. She wasn't supposed to be aware that I was talking about her.
"You remind me of her" I told her after a moment. I studied her face and she looked at me at me right back. This was Bella, but it was a new Bella; a vampire Bella, who was a future princess and engaged. She may be the same, but she was different; and this was all my doing.
"Oh", she said shyly.
This made me smile a little on the inside. I knew that if she was human, she would be turning her beautiful shade of red right now. I wanted so badly to pull her into my arms and have us be back to what we were. I needed to change the subject off of me and my suckey life. If we kept going in the direction we were, I would surely do something I might regret.
"Congratulations by the way." I told her. She was looking at the ground and the perked her head up. I was doing my best at hiding my true sadness and was putting on my mask.
"On what?" She asked being completely serious. How could she not know I was talking about her engagement; no matter how much I despised it?
"Your engagement. Felix, right?"
"Oh right. Yeah Felix. Thank you" She looked as if she had only just remembered herself. And, she didn't act as overjoyed as I'd thought she would.
"You must be happy" I asked her.
She just shrugged her delicate shoulders as she responded, "Yes, I suppose."
"Are you not?" I was getting a little antsy now.
Was my Bella truly happy with the life she had here? The life here that is just beginning to unfold.
"I mean I am. I just don't know what to think of it. It's all so sudden. In reality I should be ecstatic, but I'm not as excited as he is. Felix is one of my best friends, and this marriage is wonderful for my title and the kingdom. My father is out of his element with joy. So I am happy about that."
"You don't want this, do you?" I asked her after analyzing what she just told me. She basically just told me all of the reasons why she was getting married, and none of them consisted of her and her own personal happiness. This was when I really saw my Bella. She was always so caring. She was still putting other's happiness before her own.
"It's not that I don't want it, it's just that I'm not sure if I want it right now." She bit her lip as she said this and shook her head as if she was trying to clear her head and answer me at the same time.
"Then why are you getting married so soon?"
"Well, I must have a mate to become Princess of Volterra and my father really wants for me to get married during the celebration."
I could only look at her. She had so much on her plate with all of this. I had no idea how complicated this Volturi business was. ""You shouldn't have to do this if you don't want to."
"I really don't have a choice in the matter. This is part of my duty."
This angered me a bit. I knew now that Bella didn't want this. I could see it in her eyes and by the way she talked about it. She was only doing this to appease her father and the expectations of the Volturi. She didn't want to marry Felix.
She doesn't love him.
Bella's need to please everyone was abusing her own happiness. She could have so much more, she could be so happy with me.
With me and my family is where she belonged.
I then knew that I was going to make Bella remember. Not only for me, but for her as well.
She didn't belong here.
"I have to get back Edward, I'm sorry." She quickly stood up and I followed suit. She began to smooth over her appearance before she went back, but she didn't need to. She was beautiful and perfect. "We should hang out tomorrow; I'll come find you after I have my training session in the morning." I brightened at this. I wanted nothing more than to spend time with her. The more time we spent together the more I knew she would be able to remember.
"Yeah, definitely."
"I hope everything works out with your friend." I felt my face fall slightly at this. I hoped things worked out with her too, and soon.
"I hope it does too." She smiled at me and then started to walk away.
Then, she suddenly stopped and turned towards me. Was she remembering something?
Could this be it?
"We're friends, right Edward?"
Damn. I was hoping she was going to remember. Tough luck. She asked me if we were friends. Of course we were friends. I wanted to be so much more though. But, we had to take baby steps here.
"Of course Bella. I would love nothing more than to be your friend."
"Good. I'll see you later." We smiled at each other and then she was off back towards the castle, leaving the faint, intoxicating aroma of her scent behind her.
I was determined to get her back.
For her well being and mine.
She doesn't belong with Aro and the Volturi. Even though they took her in, they didn't love and care for her as much as my family and I did. They wanted her power. They were going to force her into a marriage she doesn't even want, only so they could ensure their rule over the vampire community.
I had to get her out.
Even if she didn't remember what we once had, I was going to offer her the chance to come back with us. I felt she cared for us. I knew she did. I was going to help her out of this.
I would make her fall in love with me again.
I also had to do this for myself. I already had to handle giving her up once. I nearly lost myself in the process. I couldn't walk away from her now. My heart wouldn't take it.
If I lost her this time, there wouldn't be another chance.
I refuse to mess this up.
At that, I began to make my way back to the castle to find my family. I was going to tell them my plan and we were all going to get to work.
Operation Get Bella Back has officially begun.
sooooooooooooooo what did ya think.
dont you love eddy at the end of this
i just wanna give a nice good high five
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also i need some help with an upcoming chapter
i know NOTHING about cars, and this aspect is important in a future chapter. like i cant even tell the difference between a toyota and a ford.
its sad, i know. But i do leaps for a living, not knowing about cars!
so if you know about good, cool looking, fast cars. please send me a message! i need you!!
Next Chapter: Aro and Bella have a chat, and Bella decides to have some fun with the Cullens.
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