Lucy Heartfilia

It has been six months since Rogue Cheney beat us all up. I can still remember the pain in my head when he pulled my hair to force me to sit up. The other things that happened seem to be a little fuzzy. I can't remember anything else.

But there is something that I do remember.

That face.

That face Rogue had when he beat them up. Those tears that he shred. If maiming me hurt him so much, why did he do it in the first place? Ugh… There is still so much I don't understand.

He just looked so... sad. I wonder if I knew him in the past. I wonder if he is immortal like Sting and me too. Still, why did Rogue beat us up in the first place? All he did was appear, beat us up, and disappear. And to know that he was disguised as my father for the past years... Ugh, I don't have the memories of the immortal me so I don't understand a thing...

Well, let me summarize what happened these past six months:

After Rogue disappeared, the police found Gray, Sting, Natsu, and me, lying on the floor covered in our own blood. Immediately, we were put into the hospital.

The police tried to investigate what happened at the area, but they couldn't find anything. They couldn't find the culprit or what even happened at all. Well, obviously they wouldn't. Everything was caused by magic after all. It's impossible for ordinary humans like them to be able to wrap their minds around things like creating a gigantic hammer made of ice above someone's head when there wasn't even any water in the first place (Ahem. Gray).

Apparently, I was unconscious for two weeks. When I woke up, I was told that my house had been already destroyed by the mysterious explosion.

I still can't believe it though.

According to Sting and Gray, my entire life was a lie.

A lie huh… Sounds pathetic… Sounds hard to believe right? Even I couldn't believe it. So Gray asked me to recall the memories I had of him and me. Then I realized that I couldn't remember any specific memories. Just fuzzy ones that don't have a clear memory.

Also I realized that Gray was really my only friend I could recall. I couldn't remember having any other friends until my first year of high school.

Sting told me that my memories were taken that year, three years ago. And to confirm the fact that I was immortal was the fact that my hair never grew no matter how much I wanted it to. It was always shoulder length. To be honest, I never really thought about my hair growth that much.

Also, I never grew any taller. I was always the same height. And I never got acne, you know, the stuff that every teenager fears the most. It was as if my face was frozen in time.

Yeah, and now you're going to ask me, how the hell did I never think about this at all? Gray says that Rogue probably controlled my thoughts to never really care or something like that.

What I think: What the heck.

So basically, my memories were taken about three years ago and replaced with new memories making me think I was an ordinary human being with Gray as a childhood friend. But here is my question:

If Rogue is my enemy, why did he even place a friend into my memories?

Apparently, Rogue tried to manipulate Gray's memories too into thinking I was his childhood friend. However, it didn't work on Gray because he was a wizard. Well, technically, I am a wizard too, so why did it affect me?

Answer: He let his guard down for Gray because he didn't know Gray was a wizard.

To be honest… it hurts. It hurts to be told that my whole life was a lie. It makes me cry… Every night, I can't stop thinking about it and end up crying myself to sleep. The fact that I had a loving father and mother was a lie. The fact that I had a life in this century was a lie. But what hurt the most was the lie that I had a childhood friend… Gray.

In my memories, Gray was the person who supported me the most. He was the one who was always by my side… like a brother. But he lied to me… But Gray lied to me… He betrayed me. He told me that he was my childhood friend even though inside he knew he wasn't. He lied.

Why?

Why… Gray?

Why did it have to be Gray and not someone else?

Why him…?

I feel betrayed.

Because my house had been destroyed, I decided to live with Gray since we basically lived together since we were childhood frien-

Sorry… I was about to say childhood friends until I remembered that we actually weren't…

Anyway, since I knew Gray longer than anyone else, I began to live with him. But that didn't change the fact that he betrayed me. I want to hate him.

I want to hate him so much.

I want to despise him.

But… I can't…

No matter how much I try, I can't hate him.

Because Gray is Gray…

Isn't that… strange?

I want to hate him. I want to despise him. I want to detest him. I want to loathe him. But I can't. I just can't. Even though I know he lied to me all this time… even though I know he is a fake person in my memories… I still can't hate him.

It's just so weird…

I always feel awkward around him now. I can't even bring myself to talk to him. Whenever I see him, I just turn around and run away. Even though we live together now, we still seem like strangers…

Sometimes… I wish I never learned that my whole life was just a simple… lie…

I would rather live in that lie than be so distant to Gray...

OoO

Right now, I am being the cliche anime girl and running with a piece of bread in my mouth to the train station… I'm going to be late for school! As I run, I keep remembering those times Gray would always wait for me in front of my house, no matter how late I was going to be… Now? He never did… After the incident, it just feels so awkward to be with each other…

Suddenly, I feel something wet drip down my cheeks. Oh no… am I… crying? No, no, I can't cry here like this. I quickly wipe away my salty tears and keep my head down so no one can see me crying. This is so humiliating… I don't bother to look at the traffic light to see if it is red or green. Almost no cars ever come to this crossroad anyway.

I miss him… Gray was like a brother to me… and now… even though he is so close to me in distance, he feels so far away like a stranger. If we were going to end up so distant, I would rather not have learned that my life was a lie. I would rather live thinking my life was just the way it was, perfect, even though it was a lie. Wouldn't I be able to live happier that way?

"Lucy! Watch out!" I hear a familiar voice shout, interrupting my thoughts. I think that was… Gray? Why is he shouting?

I pause and look around, seeing if I can spot Gray. Where is he? Why is he here? I think excitingly. It's Gray! I thought he walked to school before me! I look to my right, but instead of seeing Gray, I see something else. My eyes widen to see a truck in high speed being driven towards me.

"LUCY!" I hear Gray scream again.

The truck is getting closer and I am frozen in shock.

Suddenly, I feel a strong hand push me off of balance, making me slide on the ground for about five feet, face first. The floor seems to burn as my skin tumbles on it, causing me to bleed a little.

Right after I slide on the floor causing bruises and new scratches to form, I hear a crash and a eerie sound of flesh being ripped apart. Then, I feel a splash of water fall on me like rain. I check my arm and see that the water is red, like blood. What was that? I slowly get up, turn around and gasp at the sight. My eyes widen and begin to tear up, blurring my vision. I want to puke at the sight.

A truck.

A man.

Blood splattered like paint.

No… This can't be happening.

"GRAY!" I scream.

- End of Chapter 12 -

I know this chapter doesn't sound very NALU, but this is still a NALU fanfic. Thank you for reading and please look forward to the next chapters!

~ Metallic Snow