Chapter 12: Sexual frustration

For the next week Cephera was back and forth to Shay's room repeating acts she'd already been made to do on the crystal penis and learning some new stuff. It was all pretty basic once Cephera thought about it enough. Shay also gave her book to read to get other ideas. She wouldn't tell Cephera exactly what to do from beginning to end and insisted that was for her to discover on her own and set out what felt right to her.

Cephera had not gained the courage to touch Loki since that morning with his hair so she certainly hadn't tried to wake him with a blow job but Shay was insisting Cephera needed to act soon. Loki might be picky with lovers but there were still plenty of women willing to take Shay's place as a mistress and Loki would no doubt take an offer eventually. Every morning Cephera woke and stared at Loki's sleeping form. He almost always slept facing away from her and sometimes he was on his back but very rarely. And every morning she would think and mentally try to push herself to touch him but everyday she failed. Her hands would shake at the thought and her nerves would just become to much.

She not only feared the act as she had never done it before but she feared his reaction and feared he would not allow her to finish. She was afraid that her efforts would be laughed at. In this area of her being she was self conscious more than she had realized. Fantasizing about such things was one thing, performing them was another thing entirely. She was a coward.

This morning was no different. She woke, stared at him a little, even moved her hand toward his shoulder in hopes to have him roll to his back but her fingers would stop short of contact and she would frown and go get a bath. When she'd finished bathing he'd be left the room. That one day had been the only day he had slept in. She found herself with Shay sitting in the gardens just enjoying the woman's company. She was actually a very nice girl to speak with. She listened well and seemed to understand where Cephera's hesitance came from.

"I know you're afraid but I guarantee you he will not make you stop." Shay insisted to her. They were alone as far as they could tell aside from maybe the balconies above, which were to high for anyone to listen to them.

"It's not just that. I fear the unknown. What if I do it and he lets me and then ignores me again. Or worse he ignores me and only pays attention to me when he wants it again?" Cephera was plucking grass unconsciously as she spoke.

"He won't use you if that's what you mean. If anything he'll try to ignore what happened but eventually he'll cave." Shay said her voice almost soothing but it didn't quiet down the reservations Cephera was having.

"I'm a coward. This is never going to happen. Loki will always have to be the one to make the first move and we both know what the chances of that happening are." Cephera sighed burying her face in her hands in exasperation. "Why can't life be easier." She groaned. Shay patted her on the back.

"Once we break him past his stubborn ways life will get easier." Shay said rubbing Cephera's shoulder. Cephera released her face and with a heavy sigh she dropped backward to lie down in the grass and look up into the bright sky.

XxX

Cephera retired early from her very long day. She was stressed out more and more as each day passed that she didn't do what she meant to do. Walking into the room she shared with Loki she paused noticing the bathroom was lit up. She always wondered when Loki bathed as it was never usually in the day as far as she knew. Curious she took a step forward and stopped. If she went in there he could very well be naked. Her face turned a light pink at the thought but she paused as a hundred thoughts ran through her mind. If he was bathing she could join him. She could just go in there and strip for him to watch and join him.

She shifted from one foot to the other like a child debating on doing something they know is risky. Finally she clenched her fists together, clamped her lips shut and strolled toward the bathroom with the thought of 'just do it' running through her mind. Filled with renewed determination she passed the threshold of the archway and stopped. Loki was not bathing. He might have been about to or had just gotten out but currently he was sat on the edge on the stone sill surrounding the bath and his cock was in his hand. His eyes were shut and his head lulled back.

Cephera was grateful she was barefoot or her footsteps would have alerted him to her presence. She had a mind to turn around and leave but she was rooted to her spot staring as his hand glided up and down the thickness of his shaft in slow even strokes. It occurred to her if there was ever a time to show him a new side of her it would be now. Her hands began to shake again but she stilled them thinking that if she backed out now she might as well leave Asgard all together because she wasn't cut out for any of this.

Setting her jaw and forcing her nerves back she made silent steps his way. When she was close enough she made sure her skirts didn't touch him before she reached out her hand and with the backs of her fingers she touched his face. Loki's eyes came open fast but before his reaction could move further Cephera dropped down to her knees, her hand now on his bare leg. Loki looked stunned, surprised, confused and almost intrigued. He looked as though he'd been about to speak before she touched her fingers over the hand still gripping his cock giving him an unspoken plea to let go.

At this point she'd passed the moment of hesitation. If she backed out now he would laugh at her for sure. Loki's grip loosened and his hand feel free to lie on his opposite leg. Cephera tried to take a deep breath discreetly before actually wrapping her own hand around him. Her fingers didn't quite touch themselves once around. He was a decent size for width and judging from what she could see she could fit both her hands to grip around him one over the other. It would be a tight fit but one she could work with. She also realized he held no foreskin and so every ripple and vein was already in plain view.

The contact of her small hand gripping him caused him to make a noise but he didn't speak or stop her. Cephera was still nervous but she did her best to push it aside. She leaned down and she could swear he held his breath when she did. She brought her tongue to touch the head and found he tasted of salty skin rather than the tasteless glass she'd been practicing with. She moved her hand to grip him lower, closer to his sac and did as she was once instructed. She touched her tongue to the base of his cock that her hand allowed and tiling her head she looked upward into his face and trailed her tongue to the top. His eyes were slightly wider than before and she noticed he had moved his hands to grip the sides of the bath wall. It was clear he was in a sort of shocked state by her brazen move.

Cephera felt slightly empowered by this and licked him again a small grin crossing her lips as she did. When she reached the top this time she slipped his cock between those smiling lips until his cock was inside her mouth and continued to swallow him as far as she could get without gagging and then moved back up. It actually wasn't so bad now that she was doing it. The fact he had yet to stop her gave her courage. She continued to bob along him tasting him with her tongue as she did. Moving her neck to allow her lips to suck at different angles. Teasing the head, Shay had told her that it was a sensitive spot. When she did Loki gasped a sound of pleasure and Cephera made sure to repeat it from time to time but never doing all the same stuff. Variety was key Shay had said.

Cephera was not sure how long she'd been enjoying him but at least she was enjoying it. Shay said that he would be able to tell by her effort if she liked performing the act. She even found a rhythm of twisting her hand carefully around his cock while sucking and he really seemed to enjoy that. Cephera had been slightly startled when his hand came to rest deep in her hair and grabbed ahold of a handful. He guided her using that hair and sighed. The pace he set her at was slightly faster and soon he was groaning deeply. Cephera felt his legs tense and knew right then he would cum. She tried to prepare herself but there was nothing to compare to the taste and so when it hit her tongue she gagged slightly before swallowing as quickly as she could to avoid gagging again.

Loki freed her hair and she sat back on her feet touching her lips and licking them. His taste still lingering there. There was silence until Loki stood. "This changes nothing." He said in an odd tone and stepped around her. He left the room and after a second Cephera heard the room door close and she knew he was gone. She sat there wondering if she had done the right thing or the wrong thing.

(Loki)

Loki had to retreat from that room. He knew if he didn't, everything he'd been trying to avoid would come to an end. Truthfully when she'd made her presence known he hadn't expected her to drop to her knees much less actually do what she had done. He had allowed her to get so far mainly because he predicted her to back out. He's been wrong. He had been so very wrong. Now Loki was in his tower pacing the floor attempting to rid his mind of how her soft lips felt wrapped around his most intimate area.

How her tongue moved over his skin bringing him pleasure. Her inexperience was clear yet he recognized a few things she wouldn't have learned on her own. He'd seen her with Shay since Shay had refused him. Loki had no doubt Shay put her up to it. Still the girl had the nerve to actually pull it off and she did a decent job considering it was most likely the first time she done such an act. Loki was cursing both his wife and Shay. A team he hadn't seen coming and one determined to see him lose his resolve. A dangerous team.

Loki needed now more than ever to stay away from Cephera. To not give her a second opportunity to enjoy any of him and show him what she could provide if he only let her. Hours after the incident Loki was lounging on the soft cushions of the chair in his tower trying to sleep but could not. His mind kept creeping back to Cephera and her mouth. His cock twitching in his pants at the memory. His wife had spirit and on certain occasions she proved to have a fire in her and Loki always knew it attracted him but he had done so well to avoid and ignore her.

He cursed Odin for having actually found a woman who was a challenge for him to push aside completely. Loki could almost imagine all the things he could show her or teach her. Shay's words coming back to him about training her to his needs not having to worry about her bringing things to bed from past relationships. The greedy, possessive part of Loki liked this idea and then the other half that was still hating on his father stopped him from acting on it. Loki was torn on how to proceed from here.

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