AN: Totally didn't expect to have this next chap up so fast! But here it is… didn't get any reviews from the last chapter so until I get some I won't post the next chapter! Fair warning this chapter is a lot of plot. Not much lemon.

*Warning: This chapter contains material that may be offending to readers. It's rated M for a reason. Reader discretion is strongly advised.*

Summary: We were just friends, friends not allowed to love one another. "How long will this be?" she breathed. "Until we lose interest, or we find someone to be with, or we become emotionally attached," he replied simply. We promised not to fall in love... I broke that promise even though it was forbidden, just to stay by his side.

Disclaimer: I do not own Card Captor Sakura, but the story is mine.

Chapter 11

Mistakes That Can't Be Undone; Please Don't Worry About Tomorrow

Recap…

"They definitely heard us," she said as they were about to enter the kitchen.

"I doubt it," he replied.

"Sakura!" Tomoyo pounced. "Hurry and eat we must go! I saw this outfit and I want to see how you'd look in it!"

"Okay okay!"

The girls chatted away. Eriols face darkened. "Syoaran, a word if you please?"

Syaoran looked at his cousin questioningly.

"Either buy a new couch or stop fooling around on it. I sit there too you know?"

The stunned look on Syaoran's face was priceless, it was his turn to turn red.

~HK~

Shortly after the girls left.

"Eriol, we need to talk."

"About Sakura?"

"Yes, well … no. Well yes."

"What is it then?"

"Eliza."

~HK~

"You're glowing."

"Tomoyo…"

"I'm serious! You're glowing with happiness! So how do you feel?"

"Like I'm walking on clouds."

Syaoran and Eriol were alone at home.

"I saw her the other day. Since then I've had a bad feeling. Could she be stalking me?"

"Likely," Eriol was surprised.

Eliza Dawson, a woman very much infatuated with Syaoran. Sensible woman, until it came to getting what she wants.

"You better be careful. That woman plays dirty. For Sakura's sake, watch your back."

"I know."

"Regarding Sakura," he paused. "Your intentions are?"

Ding. Ding

"Did the girls forget something?" Syaoran walked to open the door and someone flew at him/

"Syao-baby! I'm here!"

"Eliza!"

"Ya babe, miss me?"

"Hello Eliza."

"Oh, hello Eriol," she let go of Syaoran and straightened herself up. "Will you be leaving soon?"

"Actually we were just leaving, right Syaoran?"

Syaoran moved away from her and nodded at Eriol.

"Okay out you go now." Eliza pouted but exited.

Eriol and Syaoran found themselves with nothing to do. They decided to pay Meiling a visit, shortly after Eriol had an appointment.

So Syaoran ended up going home first. When he returned he noticed a pair of women's shoes at the door.

He grinned. 'Sakura must've come back to surprise him.'

He didn't hear any sounds, so he went upstairs. His bedroom door was half closed. He slowly opened it, finding a pile of clothes on the ground and a bulge under the covers on his bed.

He grinned. He knew Sakura was getting bolder, and this was getting him quite excited. She didn't move, so maybe she had fallen asleep. Boy was she in for a surprise.

He stripped and slid into bed. He wrapped his arms around her. She must've been awake. She was a bit tense bit then felt her relax.

"Silent treatment eh?" he pressed his hardened self against her back . He arm reached back and took hold of him. He gasped and groaned as she felt him. Slowly she guided him to her entrance. She was already wet and wanting. He entered her with a large thrust.

When they had finished he whispered, "Couldn't get enough of me today now could you?"

"I can never get enough of you babe."

Syaoran froze. That was not Sakura's voice.

Horror stricken he leapt out of bed and ripped off the covers.

"Aww hun it's cold," she turned to face him.

"What the hell. Eliza get out!"

"Aren't we having fun?"

"Eliza get the F*** out NOW!"

He was panicing, what had he done? Her hair was about the same length but different colour, but he couldn't really see in the dark. Their body types were similar but there were the many differences…. 'Fuck how did this happen!'

"Eliza get your clothes on and get out! If not I will personally remove you from this house."

"I like the sound of 'personally'- "

"With out without your clothes, I will get you out of my house! Now!"

"Okay okay geeze. Give a girl some privacy kay?"

Syaoran quickly took off to find the nearest other room with a phone.

"Eriol I need you to get over here right now."

"YOU WHAT!"

Syaoran punched the wall.

"I know…" he punched it again. "How am I going to explain this to her? I have to tell her, but … Dammit not again! I can't lose her…"

"Why that b-," Eriol could see that this was eating Syaoran alive.

If it weren't for her hair colour and slight difference in style he would agree that he could mistake her for Sakura at a distance or in the dark, at least until she spoke. But even still. At least his cousins most concern was about telling Sakura.

"She sure does have a way of getting what she wants."

"Not a laughing matter Eriol."

"Well she did know about you feeling like someone was watching you a lot right?"

"I had mentioned that…"

"I'll talk to her about that too, maybe that will break some of the ice."

"Thanks Eriol."

"But from there it's up to you."

Syaoran nodded.

"Hey don't beat yourself up over it too much. It was a mistake. Mistakes happen. Sakura means a lot to you and you mean a lot to her. Thing will work out."

Syaoran half smiled, "Yeah?"

"When do you see her next?"

"We're both going to be busy for the next little while at least until Tomoyo's beach party. I don't want to do this over the phone."

"I agree."

"Well I picked a perfect time to really screw it up. I love her Eriol."

Eriol smiled softly. "Well as they say, love conquers all."

"I certainly hope so."

Two weeks later…

"Tomo… I miss him!"

"Sakura! You'll see him today!"

"But Tomoyo I feel so sick right now!"

"Sakura you have to come!"

"I know Tomoyo, just right now I feel awful …"

She'd been having it a bit rough for the last few weeks. She was taking summer courses to lighten her load for the year. Her last year she wanted an even spread so that she could focus on her 4th year project.

Tomoyo's party was ,for her to relax but she'd been really feeling sick all week.

She climbed back into bed.

Waking up a little later it was still morning; late morning. Tomoyo's beach party didn't start until 1. Feeling better she decided to go. She'd go to the doctors the next day.

When she arrived at Tomoyo's beachside cottage she couldn't help but smile seeing Syaoran. She'd been neglecting him due to school, but he knew how much it meant to her.

He noticed her and flashed a smile. Instantly like magnets they headed towards each other.

"I've missed you," she said.

"Not as much as I have," he said picking her up and spinning her around.

He and Eriol decided it would be best that they enjoyed today and he'd tell Sakura everything tomorrow. Sakura had been really stressed lately and both thought she needed a good day of rest.

Later in the evening…

They were sitting close on the beach together gazing at the starts, the water hitting the beach softly.

She turned to him as he turned to her and she quickly kissed him on the lips.

"Syaoran. I… I love you. I have for a long time now."

He quickly kissed her back.

"How could you beat me! I was supposed to say it first!"

Wide-eyed she starred at him.

"Yes Sakura," he took her hands in his and brought one up to his face and kissed her fingers.

"Sakura, I love you."

She smiled.

He kissed her again, gently, and passionately.

She lay back onto the blanket they sat on.

Everything was different now. It was almost like their first time, like they were really seeing each other for the first time. Both a little timid, and shy. Both a little nervous. But now with a new feeling expressed.

It was slow, caring, loving, passionate. They made love on the beach, under the stars, finally together as real lovers.

They later walked up the beach hand in hand.

"Tomorrow, after you go to your appointment, there's something I have to tell you."

"Can't you tell me now?"

"No. Tonight's too perfect."

Sakura smiled, "You're right, let's not talk about tomorrow."

Eriol and Tomoyo were sitting on a porch swing. Her head on resting on his shoulder.

She knew the truth. She was angry with Syaoran, but she saw the sincerity and respected his decision and judgment on how he decided to handle everything.

They saw the two walking along the beach.

"They're good together."

"Meant for each other."

"But tomorrow?"

"She'll forgive him."

"And I have that calm before the storm feeling looming."

The next day Tomoyo drove Sakura straight to the doctors.

In the meantime Syoaran waited nervously at home.

There was a knock on the door.

"Sakura!... Eliza?" he starred at her. "What do you want now? Get out of my sight. I don't want to see you ever again!"

"But. But…!" She suddenly burst into tears.

"Syaoran I'm pregnant!"

Syaoran turned as white as a ghost.

"Sakura, you look pale. What did the doctor say?"

"I'm just going to need some rest. Lot's of rest. But I just need to see Syaoran first."

Tomoyo giggled. "Yes ma'am we're on our way."

He wanted to meet her in the park.

The park was empty.

"Syaoran?" she called out.

No response.

She found him sitting on a park bench. He looked terribly upset.

"Syao?" she moved towards him concerned. "Hey what's wrong?"

He looked up at her a looked pained.

"Tell me what's wrong?" she moved beside him to comfort him.

He pulled away. "I- We… We can't be together."

She looked at him confused by his words.

"You're only joking right?" she half laughed.

There was pain in his expression.

"W… Why?" realization that he was serious was dawning on her. He wasn't joking, and she was tearing up.

"Why? Why now? What was yesterday all about then?"

"Yesterday was different. Things just happened."

"Was this what you wanted to tell me yesterday?"

"No… not at all!"

"I told you I love you, you told me you loved me."

"And I do."

"Then what are you saying this?"

"I-" he saw the she was breaking apart little by little.

"What I wanted to say was that girl, Eliza. The one stalking me. It's my own fault. I swear I had no idea it was her. I thought she was you."

"She tricked me into sleeping with her. I wanted to tell you sooner but I didn't know how. I felt I betrayed you."

"So? Is that all? Has that been bothering you for so long? Syaoran, I know it's me you love. And I love you, it doesn't matter to me."

They were quiet for a while.

"So why then?"

"That's not all Sakura… She came to see me today… she's pregnant."

Sakura turned pale.

"I have to go by my family's principles, she has my child I have to take full responsibility," he started to choke on his words. "Marry her and raise the child. I'll be forced into it anyway."

"But Syao-"

"Don't Sakura. Don't make this harder. I'm going have to take back what I said yesterday. I'm sorry."

Her heart was breaking. 'No you idiot! Let me finish talking! You don't understand!'

"Syaoran listen to me!"

"Sakura you know the ways of my family, what they'll do, how powerful they really are."

"Yes but-"

"Please understand. I'm sorry I really am."

"Syaoran listen to me! I-"

"I'm sorry Sakura. I can't do this and I can't stay. My mother arranged a flight for me to go join her back home in Hong Kong. I'm stretching it… boarding is in 30 minutes."

He stood and walked away.

"Syaoran, but I- " she grabbed onto him.

"Please just hear me out."

He pushed her away and she landed on the ground with a bit of a thud.

"I'm sorry," he ran off.

Sakura tried to get up to run after him, but a wave of nausea hit her, so she just sat and cried.

She shut herself away for a week. Tomoyo was hysteric. What had happened? Eriol had no idea, Meiling was just as clueless.

After a week and a half, Sakura came out of her locked apartment and just went to school like it was the natural thing to do. She wouldn't talk to anyone.

About 2 or so months later, Eriol and Meiling were summoned back to Hong Kong. To their shock and disgust it was for Syaoran's wedding.

Enraged he immediately let Tomoyo know. Tomoyo dashed to Sakura's only yo find the door wide open grocery's on the floor and Sakura hanging over the toilet.

"Good God Sakura what the heck is Syaoran doing!" Sakura burst into tears in Tomoyo's arms.

"I couldn't tell him," she cried into Tomoyo's chest.

He couldn't stop thinking about her. He didn't think he'd ever be able to. The death glares that Eriol and Meiling were giving him throughout the wedding. He shuddered.

That had been 4 months ago. It was a cold December. Eliza wanted to give birth in Japan, so they were making the arrangements in advance. Eriol and Meiling had pretty much stopped talking to him. He knew they had every right to.

His mother had arranged it so that Meiling was helping them though, since it made more sense for a woman to be helping out a pregnant woman.

Little did he know that Meiling could sympathize with him a little. She was in deeper involvement with their family than Eriol. He knew what they were capable of, Meiling knew how hard it was to even try to disobey their orders. And she sympathized because he didn't know the whole truth either. She was still annoyed with his stupidity, but when she saw him it was too much for her.

Sakura had become a workaholic. Despite her condition she was going full out. She worried everyone with her pursuits.

She was determined to strive beyond and she was succeeding. If not for her final project she would be graduating now.

Thinking about that Sakura's last exam was today and they were all supposed to go out and celebrate together. She couldn't now due to her 'guests'.

The 'wife' was in one of her 'moods' so the easiest thing for anyone was to send her off with one of the maids in the limo with a credit card.

The annoyed and frustrated Syaoran melted into a chair in the living room. He was miserable.

Meiling sighed at the sight. He on top of all the other pressures, still wanted to finish his education, but he was struggling immensely.

She sat herself down in the same room.

"Syaoran, toy know it's okay to relax a little." He opened his eyes and looked at his cousin. Her ruby red eyes expressed concern and care.

He smiled. "Thanks Meiling."

"So how have you been?" he asked her.

"Pretty much the same." And mentally added 'worrying about you and Sakura.'

"School's going fine?"

"Yeah."

"What about everyone else?"

Meiling laughed. "I guess you'll never change afterall. Subtlety is your weakness." He frowned at her, but there was a hint of laughter in his eyes.

Why did he do that. He was like this as a kid. Cold distant. He was forced to grown up too fast. She'd hate to see what he'd be like in 10 years.

"If you wanted to ask about her you should've just asked."

"I have no right to be asking."

Suddenly the phone rang.

"Hello?"

"Meiling! Thank goodness!"

"Tomoyo? What's wrong?"

Syaoran's ears perked at that name. He saw his cousin's body become tense.

"WHAT! She collapsed! Is she alright?" Meiling forgot her surroundings and completely forgot Syaoran was there.

"Damn it. Tomoyo I told her not to push herself."

"She's fine she just needs someone to come stay with her for a bit. Eriol's away and the other girls are busy. And I … If I could stay I would."

"Ya. I'll be right there!" she sighed.

"Is the baby fine?"

Syaoran was trying to listen intensely now. Just who were they talking about? His mind flashed him a face as soon as Meiling said 'baby'.

Meiling hung up and raced to grab her purse and keys.

"Meiling, who collapsed?"

She jumped and whirled around.

Syaoran was right behind her.

She had completely forgotten about him. Her mind tried to recall what she had spoken outloud. Had she given anything away.

"It's none of your concern. When your wife gets back, sake sure you leave on time to catch your flight. I'm sorry I won't be able to take you myself."

"Meiling, who collapsed?"

"I have to leave."

"I'm going too then."

"No, you stay here."

"It was Sakura wasn't it?"

"Your wife will be expecting you to welcome her home."

"Is she alright? Is she in the hospital?"

He wasn't listening to Meiling.

"Syaoran, you can't come."

He glared at her. "I need to see her."

"She doesn't know you're here. And it's best if it stays that way. You'll do more damage then necessary."

"Meiling, shut up and let's go."

"Tomoyo won't be so kind as I have been," he half smiled.

"And no I won't answer any of your questions."

She drove to the hospital. Tomoyo was waiting by the entrance.

"Why the hell is he here?"

"He was in the car when you called?"

"I called your landline."

"I half heard, I just wanted to know she's fine."

"Leave."

He stayed still.

"You don't know what she's been through. Since you've been gone. Since you left her. You have no right to be here!"

He flinched. "I know… but" he sighed.

"Seeing you will make things worse! Thus is all your fault you know!"

"Tomoyo, just let me see her."

"She already collapsed today! Do you want her to go through shock!"

"Why did she collapse? Is something wrong with her health?"

Maybe if you had stuck around you'd know. Maybe if you hadn't run away on her you'd know. No, none of this would have to be this way. She wouldn't be stressed or such a workaholic."

It pained him to hear all this. He should just leave. But something told him he had to stay. Push Tomoyo's buttons a little more.

"If she's over worked why is she no at home yet?"

"Oh for f***'s sake!" cried Tomoyo.

"She tried to graduate as soon as she can; she's pushed herself a bit to hard. She still just had that project to do that's all." Meiling interjected.

"Dammit you bastard! She's pregnant!" Tomoyo finally burst.

"Tomoyo!" Meiling gasped.

Syaoran froze in shock.

Before anyone else could react he barged past them into the hospital and asked for her room.

"Stop it Syaoran, we'll call security."

"I have to see her now"

"Syaoran?" all 3 heads turned.

"Sakura! What are you doing?"

"Sakura!"

"Sakura…"

She looked stunning. She had that pregnant glow and she wore a simple pink coloured maternity dress.

She looked at him with a pained expression.

He finally said, "Why didn't anyone tell me."

"You didn't want to listen when I tried."

She began tearing up and hard to turn around and face the other way.

"Sakura, let's take you home." Tomoyo said. Sakura nodded. She took a step towards the exit but she suddenly felt dizzy.

"Oh God, she's falling."

Syaoran caught her.

With eyes half open and teary.

"Your child," she muttered before closing her eyes.

He held her tightly.

"She just needs rest," said the doctor. "Try not to upset her she's been under a lot of stress and it's finally catching up on her."

"Can we take her home?" asked Meiling.

"Yes, I must stress on the rest."

Syaoran had refused to let her go while the doctor examined her. Even now she still lay in his arms. He brushed away a piece of loose hair/

This annoyed Tomoyo.

"Stop touching her!" she snapped.

"Relax Tomo."

"Fine let's just get her home."

Syaoran carried her to Mei's car.

They drove to Tomoyo's place. Tomoyo let Syaoran to a room. It seemed as if she had moved in with Tomoyo as all her things were there. Books and papers were everywhere.

He gently laid her down. "What did I do," he muttered. 'Now he never wanted to leave her side.'

His phone kept buzzing the whole time. He knew his flight home was fast approaching. But seeing her. Her peaceful sleeping face. His child growing inside her. If he had been a mess before he was certainly going to be a wreck after this.

"Okay, that's enough now Syaoran." Tomoyo's expression had softened watching those two. How he was around her. Sakura would surely be upset when she awoke.

He softly kissed her forehead.

She whispered his name in her sleep.

He clenched his fist getting up and walking away. He stopped by Tomoyo.

"I wish I had known. I'm so sorry. I'll do my best o make this right." And he walked out.

Meiling was waiting in the car.

He quickly dialed a number.

"Mother." He spoke. "When I return I need to speak with you."

"Mother how can you be so calm about this?"

"I knew."

"What?"

"When Eriol and Meiling came for your wedding, they informed me."

Enraged, "Why didn't you tell me! Sakura, she's… I've hurt her so much."

Yelan's expression softened at her son's turmoil.

She had been greatly disappointed in him when he told her about that girl who tricked him. She would not grow any affection for that who called herself a woman and carried her grandchild. Had she known about Sakura sooner, something could have been done.

"Why didn't you tell me?" he questioned.

"To protect Sakura."

"How is that protecting her?"

"Syaoran your wedding was days away. The Clan would not have cancelled it. All the arrangements were already made. It's all about their pride. Had you known then, you'd be hurting Sakura much more. She'd suffer much more than she is now."

"How is that possible?"

"You would still wed Eliza, but knowing you a commotion would stir. The Council would find out and investigate."

She didn't say anything for a minute.

"One can't fathom the emotions felt to have your child taken away from you."

Syaoran's eyes widened His mother was right. The council of Elders probably would same how force her to give up her child, and have Eliza and himself raise it as their own.

He was now horrified. "What can I do? I wanted to make this right! I want to be there! I want to support her! Raise that child with her!"

Yelan looked saddened. It was rare for him to see his stern mother with expressions. He felt worse.

"For now, the council must not know."

He nodded.

"I'm sorry my son. You can only protect her from afar."

They were silent until Syaoran finally spoke.

"What did Eriol say? How far along?"

"She was about a month the day you first came home."

His mind flashed back to late Arpil.

"So she's due early February."

Eliza was due later that month.

"Fate is cruel." She uttered to herself.

Sakura woke up crying. She couldn't stop the tears from falling. Tomoyo tried to comfort her but couldn't succeed. So she sat with crying Sakura.

She asked Meiling to see if she could push back the appointment Tomoyo was supposed to have had, by pulling some strings.

Sakura cried herself back to sleep. In between sobs she had insisted Tomoyo go. Tomoyo's first big meeting and step towards the fashion industry.

'Star crossed lovers?' she thought to herself sadly.

Sakura really had been pushing herself really hard. She focused on school and work and everything else just to distract herself. She must be tucked out. She didn't let anyone see her emotions, she didn't want anyone to worry about her. She wanted everyone to focus on their own lives. This was just a rare breakdown.

Tomoyo could only stay by her side for now. She could only pray that things would turn out. She and Eriol too had become distant.

Nobody knew what to expect next.

Authors Note: Wow… so a lot of plot this time dear readers! Did you see all that coming at all? At some point it became a little too obvious now didn't it? C'est la vie… what's next for our star crossed lovers? PLEASE Review to find out! (I just want to know if things are looking good or bad to continue with this story till the end!) One or two reviews along the way would be nice!

Thanks guys!

~Hime Kimiko~