Chapter 12: Confessions part two

NOTE: This one is a bit shorter… And thanks for the reviews Enjoy!

"Jay," Taide placed her hand on his shoulder. "We're just kidding. Don't be a killjoy. Let's play."

They continued playing Drinkopoly and soon, somehow, Taide was only in her trousers and bra with Neil and Jay topless. Soon they got sick of the game and they had only few cans of beer left.

"Let's play something else." Jay recommended. "We can play the bottle of truth (truth or dare, our version :P). If you don't make the challenge you're given you have to take on piece of your cloths off."

"What's the point? We were doing the same thing in Drinkopoly before." Simon said.

"The winner gets to fuck Taide on the end."

"What?" she winced.

"I'm in then." Simon quickly put over another shirt.

"I never agreed into that!"

"Too late." Neil said.

"You can only dream about that fuck after, just so you know…"

"Don't worry. I'll win anyways so we can do it right away." Jay sat closer and poked her with his elbow. She just rolled her eyes. He got a feeling she wasn't really into his company today. Was it because of that what happened earlier in the morning? Simon spun the empty bottle and it pointed on him and Will.

"Nice!" he said and rubbed his hands. "Go to your annoying neighbour and steal a flower pot from him. You have five minutes."

"Fuck off I'm not doing that. He'll know it was me."

"Five minutes."

Will rolled his eyes and rushed out the house letting everyone laugh at him even when he came back in. With an actual flower pot.

"There! I did it." He said and placed the pot on the ground.

"This is too much." Taide said when she stopped laughing. "I have to take a piss." She stood up and stumbled to the bathroom. When she was washing her hands she looked at the reflection in the mirror for no reason. The picture was pretty blurry. She did drink enough to see blurry but still know what she was doing. She fixed her hair and opened the doors where a surprise waited for her.

"I have to show you something." Jay pulled her out as soon as she came out the bathroom.

"Where are we going?"

She got no answer. Jay brought her to the backyard on the other side of the house. Then he pushed her on the wall and gave her a kiss, but not on her lips. He started with the neck trying to make a hickey.

"What are you doing?" she pushed him away. He wasn't really sober.

"What's wrong?" he asked a bit dazed.

"Don't do that." She said even if she'd let him do whatever with her but something was stopping her. Jay carefully moved away from her feeling horrible even if he wasn't really aware of his actions. Taide turned around and headed back into the house. "You can still hang out with me you know." She smiled to him even if she was forcing herself. Jay slowly walked in and closed the doors when her cell phone rang.

"Hello?" she answered rubbing her eyes. "Mom!" she said delighted. "Why are you calling so late? What time is it?" she listened to her. But the longer her mom was talking, weaker Taide's smile was until it eventually disappeared. "What do you mean? … But you said… You can't stay! You have to come back. … But you promised!" her lips started shaking as her mom was apologizing to her on the other side. Jay was there all the time. As he saw her being worried he placed his hand on her shoulder as some kind of support. "Ok… I will." She forced a shaking voice out and hung up. A tear ran down her check which she quickly wiped off like she was ashamed of it.

"What happened?" he asked compassionately.

"My mom… she won't be back next weekend. She promised she'll come."

"Don't be upset about that. Don't worry. She'll come the weekend after the next."

"You don't understand! She's never around! She always promises she'll come but then she never does. She said we'll move so we'd be together more often. But nothing changed."

Jay felt sorry for her. "And your dad?" he asked even if he knew he shouldn't. Tears burst from her eyes and she was literary breaking in front of him making him feel the same bitterness as she did. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." He said and rubbed his eyes about to literary dig himself two meters below the ground. He quickly pulled her closer and hugged her so she could calm down. It was the first time someone cried his or her heart out on his shoulder. It lasted some time until she stopped sobbing. "I'm sorry." He whispered. They sat down in the corridor and leaned on the wall. They were far enough from Neil, Will and Simon. He was ready to know what actually happened to her. "Are you ok?" he asked. She nodded still wiping tears off her face. "Can I ask you what really happened? I can see there are a lot of things wrong."

"I…" she said with a shaking voice. "Being bullied at school was the least of my problems back in Liverpool. Since I can remember my life is a pile of shit just getting bigger."

"Don't talk like that."
"It's true. I shouldn't be blinding myself if it's true."

Jay's heart was breaking just by listening to her. "What happened?" he continued with the same question.

"When I was about 5 my parents started fighting each other, psychically and physically. I was involved every time, being called a scumbag, piece of shit that shouldn't be born. It was like this until one day when I was ten he decided to leave and never come back. It broke my mom, literary, no matter fact he was an asshole. She couldn't stand that house anymore." Taide was speaking with a monotone voice and an absent gaze. "So she found a job away from Liverpool so she wouldn't be around so often. I was by my own. Just like now." Tears rushed in her eyes again. "I don't want to stay alone anymore. I don't want her to leave. I hope that no one ever leaves." She sobbed. Jay placed his arm around her shoulders and wiped the tears off her face.

"No one's leaving you Taide. Not me, not Si, or Neil or Will."

"You have no idea how much you guys mean to me. I'm not saying that because I'm hammered, but because it's true. And I never had guts to tell it before."

Jay pulled her closed comforting her sorrow. She just couldn't calm down. It all seemed to him like all emotions and sorrow from the past was breaking out now.

"Then troubles at school started. It was horrible."

"The main thing is that you're away from that shit now."

"But I still miss home."

"I know." Something came on his mind. "I found a razor in your drawer." He suddenly heard himself saying. She looked up at him with a confused and questioning face. "I'm sorry! I-I had to tell you."

"You've been rummaging trough my stuff?"

"I'm sorry!"

She sighed. "Why do you have to know everything?"

"You can hurt yourself seriously Taide. I don't want that."

Few tears she tried to hide rushed down her cheek. "I didn't know what else to do. I had no exit. I… I was desperate."

Jay gently lifted up her hand and revealed her wrist. It was cut all the way up, cut next to cut. "I want you to stop doing this."

"I did. I stopped. Since I'm here I haven't done it again."

He smiled to her. She leaned her head on his shoulder and closed her eyes. He listened her breathing for some time then he decided to tell her what was on his mind all this time.

"Taide. Since you're here I can't get you off my mind. I like you very much. And-" he stopped because he realized she was already sleeping. He sighed since the only time he had guts to do it she was sleeping and he had no guts to wake her up. Eventually he crashed out as well. Shaking woke him up the next morning. It seemed like only few minutes passed since he fell asleep. Light was blinding him and his head was about to explode. He was sorry for playing Drinkopoly last night.

"Before I find out someone got pregnant… what were you actually doing?" Simon was standing above him wondering what happened. Jay moaned and straightened up. He realized Taide's head was resting in his lap.

"I… I don't really remember. Nothing, I think." He said with a croaky and tired voice.

"Bollocks!"

He couldn't resist a lie. "Well, I think she gave me a blowjob."

"Bollocks again! We barely get an actual girl in the company and she already gave you a blowjob? I doubt."

"You weren't here! You can't know."

"Whatever… get your ass up. And wake her up."

Jay moaned as Simon walked away and looked down on Taide. She looked so peaceful. Waking her up would be a crime. Which he committed eventually. "Taide, wake up. Get up." He shook her. She slowly opened her eyes and looked where she's lying. Floor with her head in front of his crutch. She rapidly rose up in a sitting position.

"What happened?" she asked. "I mean… did anything happen?" she rubbed her eyes.

"No. No, it didn't. Don't worry."

Jay helped her up as she stumbled to the living room where Neil was still sleeping on the couch with his mouth opened a crack. Jay took a rolled piece of paper and place it in his mouth grinning like it was hilarious. It was too early for everyone for making jokes.

"I'm gonna go." Taide said tired.

"No, stay." Jay rushed.

"No, Jay. Don't."

She changed. In a moment. What happened last night that made her so weird? Or was she just tired and hangover from last night?

"See you tomorrow in school. Bye you guys." She quickly picked up her things and headed out.

"Need a ride?" Simon asked right before she closed the door. "I guess not…"

All eyes were on Jay.

"What happened?" Will asked.

"I don't know! Nothing!" he defended himself. "I didn't fuck her against her will if that's what you're trying to say."

"So she agreed to fuck you?" Neil was suddenly awake.

"No!"

"So you're still a virgin."
"After fucking dozens of birds? I don't think so."

"Exactly…" Simon rolled his eyes. "Word up. What happened? You had to say or do something."

"She… she told be about Liverpool. And that her mom's divorced. And that she's alone all the time."

"Divorced?" Will and Simon were shocked.

"Oh fuck. Poor girl." Simon said.

"Did she mention the reason why?" Will asked.

"Dunno. Maybe the same reason as Neil's dad. Maybe he was bent." Jay grinned.

"Oi! My dad's not bent." Neil rushed.

…

Jay was nervous the next day in school. He kept on looking for Taide but she didn't appear in the common room. Instead, Gilbert came in.

"McKenzie, my office. Now." He said and left. Will moaned and stood up. He could hear Jay and Neil giggling to him. He dragged himself upstairs into his office.

"You wanted to see me?" he gave an obvious question.

"Yes, Mackenzie. That's why I called you." He said and threw a paper in front of him. "Christmas prom." He read the title. "It's one of the larger events on our school and I want it to be remembered. In a good way, of course." (I know this happened in year 12 in the original series, I think, but let's change the situation a bit and make it happen a year and something later. There will be a lot of other changes in the following chapters.)

"You want me to organize the Christmas prom?" Will couldn't believe his ears and asked again just to be sure he heard him right.

"Of course. You're a no-lifer virgin. I'm sure you'll make a clean party without crazy teenage sex and too much alcohol. And try not to spend too much money. You know we don't have much. Gather a team. Someone to get the food, someone to decorate the school hall and make a flyer, deejay and a band. Clear?"

"Yes sir! I'm delighted to be-"

"Just get out."

"Yes… sir…" he took the paper and rushed out. All the rules and 'ingredients' were written on it. He was excited about it and he couldn't wait to tell it to Jay, Neil, Simon and Taide in case if she'll ever talk to them again. As soon as he had chance he blasted the news to his only friends who were already in the common room.

"I have to tell you something." He said with a delighted grin.

"You're bent?" Jay asked causing Neil laugh.

"No, I'm the head organizer of the Christmas prom."

"Close enough…"

"So I was wondering if you'd help me."

"Nope." All three of them said at once. That was no other reaction from them until Taide came in.

"Alright." Jay said delighted to see her. She seemed to be smiling again.

"Ariite." She said back. "Sorry about yesterday. I puked all over the pavement moments later, that's why I ran off."

Jay relieved as she said that. So it wasn't his fault.

"Oh good. We already thought you won't speak to us anymore." Will said.

"Nah! You mean too much to me guys. So, what's cooking?"

"You're here just in the right time."

"Yeah, Will was just about to admit his bent." Jay said.

"Nice one Jay… I'm the head organizer for the Christmas prom actually. I was wondering, since you're an artist, if you could maybe design the flyer and decorate the school hall?"

"Sure!" she didn't even take time to think it over.

"Great."

"We're helping too." Simon said.

"Yeah." Jay added.

"This will be fun."

"I'm sure it'll be. I'll be there."

"Brilliant…" she rolled her eyes grinning.