I couldn't believe what I just did. I gave my virginity to Draco Malfoy, the guy I was supposed to hate. I felt dangerously close to tears as he got off and laid next to me on the desk. I closed my eyes tightly and hoped that when I opened them, I would be in my bed and this would be a bad dream. Of course, his stupid voice ruined that. "So, where does this leave us, love?" he asked.
My eyes snapped open. "Don't call me that," I said through clenched teeth. "This doesn't change anything. In fact, as soon as I leave this room, it never happened. I suggest you do the same and forget about this." I got up and found my wand. "Accio Kaylee's clothes!" All my clothes flew at me and I started getting dressed.
I had just gotten my undergarments on when he said, "What if I don't want to pretend it never happened?"
I pointed my wand at him. "If you tell anyone about this, I will curse you and I know a lot more curses than these other fifth years." His eyes widened in curiosity at my little slip of information. I continued, "I will not be pegged as another one of Slytherin's sluts and Josh and Daisy will never hear of this. Understand? So keep your mouth shut."
My voice never raised as I threatened him. In fact, my voice took on a certain smooth, quiet, yet undeniably cold and dangerous tone that had only been heard from one person at this school.
My tone sounded like Tom Riddle's.
I lowered my wand and put the rest of my clothes on. I noticed he was getting dressed silently too. He only spoke when my hand was on the door handle. "You were wrong when you said this doesn't change anything. It changes everything, love," he said.
I didn't look at him as I asked, "How?"
A moment's pause. Then he said something I never imagined I would hear from the Slytherin sex symbol. "You were my first, Kaylee."
I didn't knowwhat to do or say. I did the only things I could to end this conversation. "Like I said, it still doesn't change anything." And I left.
I didn't go back to the dungeons. How could I face Josh and Daisy after this? I didn't wander around the castle, afraid I might run into Neville or one of the Golden Trio. I went to the only place I knew I would be alone and safe. The Black Lake. Since the temperature was dropping rapidly due to the upcoming winter, hardly anyone was outside. Nobody evenvwent near the lake due to its freezing waters. I sat on the ground on the shores of the lake and pulled my knees up to my chest. I looked out over the lake and felt the tears overflow. I hadn't cried since I was a little girl, when my mom had told me who my father was. I hadn't cried since then. Nothing had ever really effected me enough to. Now, here I was. Crying by a lake because of a boy and a huge mistake.
I didn't go to dinner either. Even when my tears dried up, I didn't move. I didn't want to face my friends; to have to lie to them about what I did. It wasn't just the fact that I just lost my virginity to Draco Malfoy that made me upset. It was the fact that I could be found out by Voldemort and he could go after my mom now. It was the fact that I just put Draco into danger too. Voldemort could use him against me now, as well as my mother. It was all just too much, so I cried. I think I fell asleep because the next thing I knew, someone was shaking me awake in the middle of the night. It was Snape.
"What are you doing out here?" he asked. "It is far past curfew."
I stood up. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to stay out so late. I guess I fell asleep."
"Well, come on. I'm afraid I'm going to have to give you a detention for this," he said as he escourted me back to the castle. I nodded wordlessly.
He walked me to the dungeons and left me at the entrance. I went in the common room by myself. Josh was there, snoring on the couch. I nearly smiled at him. I went to wake him so he could go to him dorm, but hesitated. He would ask where I was and why. Did I really want to face that right now? I let out a deep sigh and readied myself to lie smoothly, like a true Slytherin. I shook him softly and he stirred. He looked up at me, still half asleep. "Kaylee?" he asked, voice thick with sleep.
"Hey. You need to go to your room so you're not all sore in the morning," I said quietly.
"I was waiting up for you," he yawned. "You didn't come to dinner and we tried to look for you but then...curfew...and...detention..." he started to fall back asleep.
I shook him again. "Well, I'm here now, so you can go to your nice, comfy, warm bed," I said, helping him stand. He shuffled to the boys' dorms, still half asleep.
I went to the fifth year girls' dorm and settled in my bed. I stared up at the ceiling, praying tomorrow would be better.
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