I woke up, somehow in my own bed, but I still wore my dress. I smiled remembering the last night. I got up, to take a bath and dress normal again, when I saw a bouquet of flowers on my nightstand, it were roses, pink ones. They smelled wonderful and I saw a little card in the middle of them. I took it and realised Kili's crocked handwriting:
Good morning my beautiful Princess!
I hope you had a good night's sleep and you don't mind that I carried you to your bed.
I hope you have a wonderful day, everything will be very relaxed as everyone is still hung over.
I'll see you tonight, when everyone's asleep.
With all the love I can give,
Sincerely yours Kili
I smiled and pressed the note to my chest. Today was going to be amazing!
I bathed and dressed normal again, in pants and a simple shirt, I missed that a little. I was just admiring my roses again as someone knocked on the door and before I could answer it, Fili walked in the room, the biggest smile on his face as he saw me and the flowers.
"Ah I see, courting you isn't he?" I stood up, ran over to him and threw myself in his arms, all the while laughing and smiling. He picked me up and spinned me around, laughing with me. "So I guess you're happy?" "Oh Fili, I couldn't be happier! Except of course, if we'd do something fun today." I was on my feet again and looked at him, I had the feeling that he already had a plan. "Let's go for a ride and a little hunt in the woods." "Yay!" I squeaked and grabbed my jacket and my archery stuff, ready to go. I wanted to ask if Kili would join us, but I got the feeling like it was going to be a Fili and me day, a rare thing. We made our way to the stables and as we reached our ponies, I had to ask, just to make sure. "Kili's not joining us, right?" "Nope." Fili smiled at me "Just the two of us" I smiled back at him, "we haven't had a day to ourselves in a while, I've missed that, a lot, you know… But I didn't expect Kili to agree on this, I would have expected him to spend the day with me." We rode off. "Who said he agreed to this, he doesn't even know about this." I was shocked, but not really surprised. He gave me his mischievous smile. "Who knows when I get the chance to have you all by myself again? I had to tell him uncle Thorin wanted to see him, to even get him out of the hallway. He'll be so mad when he finds out." Fili laughed and I did too, what else should I have done? "I'd love to see his face now" we laughed and joked on like that throughout the day. Being too loud to hunt anything at all.
The day was wonderful, as the sun set we rode home, just enjoying ourselves. We rounded the corner and in front of the stables stood Kili, his arms crossed and a look on his face that should have made me guilty but just made me laugh really hard. He looked up at me and his expression changed so suddenly and completely I was almost overwhelmed. The anger left his face and all I could see was love and happiness to see me, then he looked at his brother again and the angry expression came back. I laughed again at his mood swings and stopped my horse next to him. Out of a sudden feeling I reached out both my hands to him, he instantly understood what I wanted. He grabbed my hips and my hands found his shoulders, he lifted me down, swinging me around before he put my feet on the ground. We smiled at each other shyly, he quickly looked around and kissed me on the lips, then took my horse away to be feed and washed.
He faced his brother "and now to you!" Uhoh, time to get away. I slowly walked backwards to the stable doors, "See you at dinner!" I waved goodbye and escaped through the door.
I was looking forward to dinner, I wanted to know what Dwalin and Thorin remembered of last night and if they had any suspicions about me and Kili.
Sitting at the dinner table, talking about the celebrations, I realised the remembered barely anything and therefore didn't have any clues. The food was delicious and the conversation was going good, but I was so nervous for tonight, so I retired for my room really early, getting confused looks from Dwalin and Thorin. "I celebrated the last two days, barely sleeping and spend the day riding and hunting, I'm just really tired." The nodded understanding and wished me a good night.
I paced up and down in my room, totally impatient. I had tried to read, dance and even studied some of the papers Thorin had given which were about royal matters, but nothing seemed to keep me busy.
Slowly I had the feeling like he was making me wait on purpose, I was just about to get mad as I heard a knock on my door. I hadn't even turned around as Kili had already entered. He smiled at me, a bottle of wine and two glasses in his hand, I walked over to him and kissed him on the lips softly. His smile widened "Let's sit on the balcony?" he suggested. And so we did, he poured wine into the glasses, grabbed one and sat down. I took the other glass and placed myself between his legs, resting my back against his chest. We spend the next hours like that, talking, giggling and enjoying the time together, occasionally sharing kisses.
I yawned more and more, I was getting really tired. Kili lead me over to the bed, tucked me in and kissed me goodnight. I never slept better.
And that's how the next weeks passed, flowers, wine and all night talking. As time passed, we added secretly kissing in the hallways, sneaking off to the forest and spending every free minute together. It was a perfect time, there was just one problem, I got impatient. When we were kissing, thing would heat up and I would start to undress him, but every time he'd stop me. Each time he'd turn me down, I'd get more angry, but I also realised it was getting harder and harder for him to do so. So I made up my mind, I'd have to seduce him, the problem was just that I had no idea how to do so and there was only one person I could ask for help: Fili.
But I couldn't bring myself to asking him for help, it was just too awkward. It took me another three weeks and four hopeless, desperate and unsuccessful attempts to get Kili to have sex with me. I grabbed a bottle of whiskey and two glasses and sneaked over to Fili's room, careful not to be loud and get Kili's attention, I didn't want to have to explain to him why I had sent him away, saying I was tired and then sneaking into his brother's room with a bottle of alcohol in the middle of the night. But thank the gods he didn't catch me. I didn't bother to knock on his door, I just walked in. he sat on his bed, only wearing his pants, ready for bed and he seemed really confused to see me. "Hey Tui, what's wrong?" he got up and walked over to me. "Nothing's wrong?" I answered. "Don't lie to me, you look stressed. Did you fight with Kili?" he reached me and rubbed my arms, trying to calm me down. But I couldn't, I was thinking about leaving again for a second, but threw that thought out the door a moment later. I collected all my courage "Kind of. Fili, I need your help. And trust me, I wouldn't come to you with this, if I wasn't really desperate and out of ideas." Now he looked confused and worried. He motioned me to the couch in front of his fire place, I walked over and placed he bottle and the glasses on the table. After putting his shirt back on, Fili followed me, a serious look on his face. We sat down, I fumbled with my fingers and chewed my lip, I've never been more nervous or embarrassed. "Now would you please tell me what's this about, I'm getting really worried." He said. "Fine." I took a deep breath, closed my eyes and just spit it out.
"He won't sleep with me." I expected every kind of reaction, but not the one I got, he laughed, like really loud and full of joy. "And I thought it was something serious." Now that got me mad, this wasn't funny. "Fili, that's not funny. I tried everything!" "Okay, okay, calm down. I'll help you, but I need alcohol for this conversation." He poured us each a glass of whisky, we drowned it immediately and then refilled it. "So from the beginning. Why does he refuse you?" he still seemed highly amused by the whole topic. "Well we almost has sex the night of Thorin's birthday." I blushed deeply, I didn't want to talk about this, but in order to fix my problem I had to, so I took another sip from the whisky and continued. "But he stopped, he said he wanted to do it properly and not rush things, you know. He said he wanted to court me the way it ought to be, but he has been doing that for weeks and won't move forward." "Maybe he's just scared." Fili suggested, but I shook my head and finished my glass, he refilled it again. "No, definitely not." Memories came to my mind, about him whispering dirty things into ears, while he caressed my body and when I was really turned on, he'd stop. "He always says those thing and touches me and then all of a sudden stop, and leave me lying like that. Desperate for his attention." Fili laughed again and I growled at him "I'm sorry, it's just so typically Kili. He wants to have the upper hand, he enjoys the effect he has on you. He…, well he plays with you. Until you snap and take desperate actions." "Like asking you for help" I shook my head, that made sense and really sounded like Kili, I couldn't believe it. Why didn't I think of that myself?
"Yap, exactly." Fili smiled at me, obviously proud that he figured it out and I didn't.
"So wise master dwarf, what shall I do?" "Strike him with his own weapons, of course. Make him helpless, desperate and begging, and then leave him like that."
Sounded reasonably, but I was really terrible at things like that. I had no idea what to do, I fumbled with my fingers again until they hurt, Fili took them in his and looked me in the eyes. "You have no idea how to do that, right?" obviously he could read my mind. I looked down and nodded, a little ashamed, I should know things like that.
He let go of my hands and got up, he looked for something in his closet and I got a little scared at what he's got on his mind, so I emptied my glass again. "Here" he threw a bunch of dark blue fabric at me, it was a shirt. I looked at him confused, yes dark blue was Kili's favourite colour but how's this supposed to help? I had blue shirts myself. "Ah you really are a slow one. That's one of Kili's shirts, you'll visit him wearing it." At my still confused look he continued "You'll wear only that shirt." Ohh I understood. I grabbed the shirt tighter and got up. I hugged Fili close, "Thank you, so much!" and I rushed out the door.
Time for action, I had to do it now, before I lose my courage again.