A/N Aaaand here's the 2nd chapter of the night! NEXT chapter (will update this weekend) is a VERY IMPORTANT ONE! The one we've all been waiting for. THE PROPOSAL!
Chapter 12: What If?
"Lexa?" Octavia's voice called.
I looked up from my place on the edge of the bed. "In my room," I shouted. My fingers were wrapped tightly—too tightly—around the velvet box. The winter ball was two weeks away and I was losing my courage to ask the most important question I'd ever ask.
Octavia walked into the room, sitting beside me. She stared at my hand for a moment, then she pried my fingers from around the box. She opened the lid, revealing the diamond inside.
"What's up?"
I shrugged.
"Silence. Wow, okay."
"What's that supposed to mean, O?"
"You're not speaking. You always have something to say. Are you having second thoughts on the proposal?"
I hesitated before nodding. "What is she says no? What if…"
"No," Octavia cut me off. "Don't play that game, Alexandria."
I groaned.
"That's a dangerous game, Lex. You know Clarke loves you more than anything."
"She's always pissed at me."
"Stress, Lexa. And she's not always pissed at you. She's a bit more…irritable, to everyone, but she doesn't hate you or anything. If anything, be glad that she's comfortable enough around you to show all sides of herself, the good and the bad."
I nodded slowly.
"I see the little things. How rubs her thumb over your hand when you hold hands, how she looks at you like you're a fucking angel, how her breath catches every time you say Ai hodnes to her, how she tends to say Ai hod yu in instead of I love you because it's your preferred language, all those little things."
"I guess."
"No. You know."
I nodded. "I know. I love her. And…she loves me."
"She does. She really does, Lexa."