Everything was a blur; she could tell that she wasn't in her bed of house. There was a thin figure in front of her with a dark cloud over their face. Her hearing would come and go and all she managed to understand is "ok… Maura…alright?" she squeezed her eyes shut and opened them trying to overcome the blur. When her vision got less blurry she could see the dark hair and she gasped with terror
" you`re dead, you`re dead" Jane tried reaching out for Maura but that made Maura shot out of bed and take a few drunken steps away from Jane with her eyes filled with pure fear.
"Maura, sweetie listen to me "Jane tried in a soft tone but that didn't help, Maura reached a corner in the bed room and slid to the ground while grapping her head and repeating the same thing over and over
"You`re dead, you`re dead. I saw you die. you`re dead" Jane tried kneeling down to Maura and placing a hand on Maura's knee but that made Maura barley jump out of her skin with fear . "Hallucinations, Maura wake up your Hallucinating, she`s not here she`s dead, she`s dead" Maura squeezed her eyes shut trying to push everything away, maybe Jane will disappear if she did this. why would her brain do such a painful thing to her, why would it recreate Jane in her world "she`s dead, she`s dead, he killed her an she died"
"Maura!" Jane shouted to get Maura's attention when Maura finally looked up her eyes were as wide as ever and Jane could swear that she had stopped breathing " ok, listen to me Maura . It was just a dream" Jane approached Maura with her hand raised as if she was reaching for a wild animal
"D-dream?" Maura started shaking her head
"Yeah, remember you came by to talk to me but you stayed down in the rain until I saw you?"
"Rain?" Maura was repeating the words as if not comprehending what they mean. After a few seconds the dream stared to sink in and Maura raised her gaze to Jane "you-you`re not dead?"
"No I'm right here"
" I d-didn't stab you?" the dream was looked so real, so vivid and alive that Maura still needed to make sure of what was real
"Huh?" Jane was the one confused as she helped Maura up to her feet, at the first touch Maura's breath caught in her throat, Jane was actually there
"You had a high fever for a few days now and I had to call your doctor by to give you something to bring it down. You were out of it for a couple of days now mumbling in your sleep" jane helped Maura back to bed as she tried to explain in a soft tone what really happened " you really had me scared" Jane whispered after she settled Maura down in bed. "You think you could eat something? I mean you haven't eaten in two days, just let me see if there`s something I can do" Jane left the room leaving Maura alone with her thoughts.
Maura`s thought kept drifting back to her dream until Jane came by almost fifteen minutes later with a glass of orange joss and some soup and laid the tray in Maura's lap before setting on the edge of the bed next to Maura. "Don't complain, it was either this or some leftovers from a take out that I'm not sure when I bought it" Jane smiled at Maura but Maura didn't reply the smile nor did she look up from the tray
"Jane, why are you doing this?" Maura asked quietly, Jane let out a nervous laughter
"What do you mean? You`re my best friend" Jane said with chuckle at Maura's odd question. A lonely tear tracked down Maura's face and fell on Maura's hand silently " Maura?" Maura had her head down and it was hard for Jane to see her eyes beneath the golden locks
"Most people…. Most people wouldn't want anything to do with me, so what is it with you?"
"I … you're my friend" Jane hesitated before answering Maura don't you remember Maura?
"That's not a good enough reason Jane" Maura stated quietly you really don't remember, do you Maura?
"When Hoyt came in the picture and I started pushing people away... you-you never gave up on me" Jane's voice was filled with sorrow and cracked as she started rubbing the scars on her hands and a lump rose to her throat "you brought me back when I was at that dark place and I'm not going to leave you there Maura" Jane's lips started to quiver as she fought back tears. "I want to be there for you this time" Jane tried her hardest to smile at Maura who was looking back at her with wide eyes
The days passed and Maura never forgot about that dream, she learned to control herself when Jane was around o she wouldn't get caught while grabbing her head. She stared writing down the dream on the hope she would understand or see what she was missing if she read it again. She was sitting in a booth at the dirty robber still writing the details of the dream when Jane came and sat across from her "what are you writing?" Jane pulled the notebook and stated reading after a few lines she brought it down and pointed at it "uhh, what's this?" Maura was rubbing her nick with a hand while the other was still holding the pen
"It's the dream that I had when I was sick" Jane nodded in satisfaction and continued reading
" Henry, raised the nails gun and killed Jane with a single shot to the head" Jane read with furrowed brows " wow, no wonder you woke up screaming ' you`re dead' . So why are you writing it down?" Jane asked casually
" I just think that there is more to this dream that I don't know, like my Subconscious was trying to tell me something and I still don't get it" Maura huffed in frustration before bringing her head to the table " I think he`s sick" Maura said quietly
"Who Henry? Ooh I just thought that he killed his whole family because he had a bad day" Jane stated with sarcasm as a grin played on her face
"I'm serious Jane"
"So I'm I, why do you care so much about him any why?" Jane looked bored
"he`s my brother" Maura justified
"No he was your brother "Jane corrected Maura and Maura sighed before they both ordered there meal, they both were having small talks when Maura stated out of the blue
"It could be Schizophrenia" Maura made her incent face and Jane through her hands in the air with surrender "in my dream, Henry gives me a flicker to my forehead" Maura looked at Jane as if thought expecting her to put the dotes tougher but Jane kept looking at Maura with a 'so?' look. "When we were kids, Henry would always give me a flicker to my forehead if I asked him for something"
"That's harsh" jams stated before playing with her food but Maura shook her head
"No, it wasn't like that. It was our thing, you know? He would give me a soft flicker to my forehead before saying 'forgive me Maura, some other time' and that's what he told me in the dream"
"Maura it's just a dream don't read too much into it ok?" Maura kept looking at Jane as she bet her lip trying hard not to open the subject again, seeing Maura like that , Jane let out a sigh " what is it now?"
"It's just that I found a doctor that regularly visit him at prison" Jane's mouth hung open
"And how the hell did you do that?" Jane spoke with a shocked face and a high pitched voice Maura made a face and shrugged
"he`s a Psychiatrist, isn't that odd?"
"What's odd about a Psychiatrist visiting a sicko?" Jane mocked
"Any way I made an appointment with him, he seemed rather interested in seeing me for some reason" Maura had her eyes on her plate
"Maura, its better if you call him and cancel, you don't need any more salt on your wounds"
"What wounds? Any why on earth will he give me salt?" Maura looked with confused eyes at Jane who let out a snort
"It's just a figure of speech Maura" Maura let out a 'oh' before returning to her meal
Maura made got stick at work and didn't make it to the appointment; she was almost disappointed when Susie came to tell her that a man named was waiting for her at the café. Maura introduced herself to him and his response was "it's great to finally meet you" Dr. Bradford had a wide smile from ear to ear
Maura didn't miss the way he said 'finally' perhaps Henry spoke of her, but why would he?
"I'm afraid your concern regarding Henry is true. Henry has been suffering from Schizophrenia for awhile now, I`m starting to think that he may have had it since young age. I won't hide the fact that I'm interested in a lot of diagnosed patients of Schizophrenia. Henry is by far is the most interesting Patient I have. I believe that what Henry did wasn't in his right state of mind, he sometimes prefers to be called 'green' I think that that is the dominate character while the other character 'Henry' is hidden in the depth of his mind. When I talk to 'Green' I see a cold character, rough, violent and doesn't have any remorse for what he has done. However, one the rare occasions when I met 'Henry' he was calm, loving person. He keeps talking about his little sister, how he is proud of her, of what she has become"
"Why are you telling me this?" Maura was trying to stay calm, this was her work place, and this was the café that Jane's mother worked at
"What I find fascinating about this, is that even in the character 'Green' Henry was able to kill all of his family, everyone he had ever known but he still couldn't bring himself to kill you, His beloved little sister."
" he exchange love for hate, honor for disgrace but he couldn't bring himself to do it , even years ago when 'Green' finally dominated and Henry no longer resurface and fate brought you two together, he still couldn't do it. Henry is still there, he is still fighting to keep you safe from him self. He told me what he said to you the first time, he told you to run. Why? Was it so you wouldn't seek him again?"
"You have crossed the line doctor and I think this is the end of our meeting, I want to say nice to meet you but I suppose you already know how I feel" Maura stood ending the meeting and walking away when she heard him talk again
"He told me that if I ever meet you, that I should send a massage. He says 'forgive me Maura, there is no other time' he said you`ll know what that means." Maura was frozen at the sentence as she felt he heart beating like a drum in her ears. Instead of talking the elevator to the morgue, Maura opened the way to the stairs and started running up, taking two, three steps at a time. She can't breathe anymore, spots started showing in her sight and they kept growing bigger and bigger until she pushed the roof door and the door swung open
"I'm home" everything was spinning around her and each breath that reached her lungs wasn't enough
She could see the five years old herself runny and throwing herself at Henry "Henry you`re home. Come and play with me, what do you want to play?" she was so existed, staying at home all day waiting for Henry to come back from school was boring and she played with her puzzles countless times and now she just want to play with her old brother
" Maura, your brother just got back from school I'm sure he has lots of homework to do" their mom came in view carrying a basket full with laundry, Maura looked sad and henrys mailed at her before talking to his mother
"It's ok, I'll do them later, there`re pretty easy any way" Maura turned to her mother with a victorious grin
Maura kept looking and looking all over the park for Henry without luck until she saw a leg dangling from the top of the tree. "Henry, I found you" Maura called happy with her accomplishment
"That's pretty good Maura, too bad you can't climb the tree to get to me" Henry smiled
"What! No fair!" little Maura shouted. At dinner little Maura was leaning across the table while sitting in her seat trying to get closer to her dad " say dad, today Henry and I were playing hide and seek but Henry climbed to the top of the tree to run away from me , that's not fair right?" Maura spoke with a pouted face
"Ohh, you can already climb all the way to the top huh?" her dad talked proudly and Henry nodded
"Henry, teach me how to climb all the way to the top" Maura was existed now and forget all about hide and seek
"homework!" her mother called as she prepared the dinner , Maura sat back to her seat with a sad face when she felt a soft flicker to her forehead
"Forgive me Maura, some other time" Henry said softly before smiling to his sister
Maura`s breath finally calmed down and she stood still looking at the view from the roof when she heard someone walk behind her she span around to see who it is
"Lieutenant" Maura said quietly before turning again.
"Doctor Isles" he stood not far from her taking a deep breath from the fresh Boston air and sipping from his coffee. "Life hasn't been nice to either one of us. We both lost loved ones, but we have a good thing going on for us here. Don't let the demons of the past or the anger that builds inside all these years gets the best out of you. You`ll live to regret it" he talked quietly not facing her before walking back again and leaving her alone with her thoughts.
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