Disclaimer: Don't you think it's fun to read/write disclaimers? Haha! My disclaimer for this chapter would be…Bugger off! I don't own anything 'cept the fantasy I have to own Draco…and Blaise…and Harry.
A/N: Okay so here's the next chapter because I love you all. I'm trying my best to keep up with my imagination because now that my WB's lifted, my mind is going nuts with ideas to write…sighs here goes…
Chapter 12 – Everything Inside of Me
Draco felt Ginny's gaze at him the moment she sat down on her seat. She was directly ahead of him, and he knows she was looking at him between Harry's and Ron's heads. He wanted to look back and stare at her hazel eyes but he opted to eat his crepes in silence.
The headmaster, after he announced the early treat of having two matches of Quidditch in one day and having the ball, went back to the head table. All around him, the students were buzzing with excitement and apprehension. Draco was feeling a little delighted himself.
"A ball again?" Blaise mused in front of him. "A Yule Ball?"
Draco shrugged. "I think it's just a mini-Yule Ball. After all Dumbledore said it was just us Hogwarts pupils."
"Well…Yule or not, you have the responsibility of ensuring us Slytherins to have first dibs on our dates." Said Blaise, spooning some cereal. "If you find the Snitch quickly then we all get to pick first."
Draco sneered. "Do you think I don't want that?" he asked. "I know many people want to date me. I'm doomed if I don't get that Snitch."
Blaise laughed. "And here I was thinking you've turned into a better person."
"Hey just because I fell in love with the red-head doesn't mean I'm not Draco Malfoy anymore." He shot back before he knew what he was talking about.
Blaise smile softly. "Speaking of Ginevra, do you still plan on ignoring her?"
"Did I mention anything about Red?"
"Oh, so you're in love with one of her brothers?" teased Blaise.
Draco laughed a little. He got him there. To be frank, he felt great to be laughing again with his friend. They had made up last night and things were back to normal again. But it still bothered Draco that something…someone rather…was missing from him. And he knew it was Ginny.
He gave in to the temptation and briefly looked up to see what the red-head was doing.
Ginny was looking a bit miserable as she played around with her food. She was quite a stand out, not only because she was, in his opinion the only Gryffindor worth looking at, but also because she was the only person who wasn't talking happily to another. Draco longed to hug her and kiss her again. Just the feeling of her in his arms made him smile and feel fuzzy and warm.
"It's better to do than to think, you know mate?"
Momentarily out of it, he stared stupidly at Blaise. "Huh?"
"Until when do you plan to not talk to her?" his friend asked.
Draco took one last glance at Red before answering his question. "I don't know."
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"I honestly don't know how to approach her you know?" Draco replied, now playing with his food. "I mean, I did say some mean things to her."
"You don't know how to approach her?" Blaise blurted out before laughing. "Wow mate, that's rich!"
Draco glared at him. "Is that so abnormal?" he was murdering his poor crepes now, and Goyle was looking up, looking like he felt sorry for the poor crepe who didn't even do anything except be Draco Malfoy's food for breakfast that day.
Blaise calmed himself. "It's just that…y-you were always in c-control Drake…" he trailed off as he laughed again. Then he took a deep breath and wiped the tears from his eyes, a result of his heavy laughing at his friend. "But really, you falling in love with a Weasely, saving a Weasely, and hugging a Weasely was impossible enough so why should I even bother to be scandalized if you don't know how to approach a Weasely." And he broke off to another fit off laughter again.
Draco gritted his teeth. The nerve of this guy to laugh at him when he was the root of all his sufferings. A sudden thought came to him. He smiled at Blaise who, seeing this, stopped laughing.
"Uh-oh…" Blaise said, knowing that smile well enough. "You do have a plan, don't you?"
Draco shook his head. "No. Nothing."
"Then what's with that smile of yours?"
"Nothing…you just forgot something. Another impossible thing to happen between me and a Weasely."
"And that would be…" Blaise looked at him with questioning eyes. "Don't tell me…"
"Nothing drastic, Zabini." Draco said. "I just happened to kiss a Weasely."
He watched as Blaise's mouth gaped open like a fish's and laughed when his eyes went wide like some of the house elves'.
"Why mate? Is that so impossible?"
"W-whe-when? H-how?" Blaise stammered.
"In the infirmary, when she said she love me." He answered, feeling a little fidgety. He looked up and saw Blaise's expression of disbelief. His eyes looked unfocused and it seemed like his friend was battling between looking simply surprised or greatly hurt.
Very wise Draco. That's what makes you a Malfoy, you're being a selfish arse!
He frowned. "Blaise…"
But he was cut off as Blaise laughed again. A rather short and forced laugh.
"That's great mate!" Blaise said, not quite meeting his eyes.
"Blaise, I'm sorry." Draco said, averting his eyes. He was ashamed of his actions. A bloody moron is what you are, Draco.
Blaise waved his hands, looking sullen despite of smiling at him. "No worries mate. I think I just need sometime to get used to it."
Draco nodded and both got back to eating. He stared at his now perfectly murdered crepe and pushed it away, reaching for an apple and biting on it. What did I do to deserve this kind of situation? Oh right, I forgot…I'm a Malfoy. The Malfoy's are never happy. Their sins have been dumped to me and now I'm being punished for them, adding up my own sins and the sins I did to Gin.
Blaise spoke first. "I'm planning on talking to her this afternoon, at the willow tree near the lake you know." his friend said. "Tell her I'm sorry and all."
Draco nodded. "You don't have to tell me that. I told you I'm fine with it." he said. "Would it help you if…" he trailed off, not sure if the idea he was formulating would help anybody. But it's the least he could do for his friend. "Well, you know…I can just not talk to her for a while if it pains you that much." He said, making it sound as if it was nothing and he's just doing Blaise a favor. What are you up to now, Malfoy?
"No!" Blaise told him, smiling a little. "Don't. Ginny'll both hate us for it."
"But-"
"No, Drake. You should arrange your relationship with her." Blaise told him strongly. "I know that she's so much in-love with you, and you're the same with her. I don't want to be another disaster in both of your lives."
Draco nodded silently. He looked at Ginny, who was looking at him then. He saw her questions and her uncertainty then turned to Blaise. "I just hope I'd be able to mend things."
Blaise was waiting for Ginny outside her Arithmancy classroom. He had nothing to do before watching the Slytherin team's Quidditch practice and he knew Ginny's free period was next so he felt it was the best time for them to talk.
A buzz from the room signaled the end of the class and sure enough, the students began filing out of the classroom. He stood attentively in search for the red-headed girl that caught both his and his mate's heart.
It was really a sad thing to not be the man for Ginny Weasley. His heart constricted again, but he quickly subdued it. It won't work for him to hang on to Ginny if his friend, his only true friend had claimed her his. So he has to step aside, give way and let the two be happy. It was only fair he do it. He had caused the two immense hurt. One thing's for sure, he'll do anything to see his friend happy. Draco deserved it.
"Ginny." He called when he spotted the red-head. Both Ginny and her friend Ivanne spun around to face him and both registered shock.
He stepped closer to the two, feeling Ginny tense up.
"Hey." He said, not quite knowing what to say.
"Hey." Came the answer.
"Uh, I'd better get going." Said Ivanne. "I'll see you in our room Gin."
Ginny returned her friend's wave and then turned to Blaise. "What are you doing here?" she said, uncomfortable.
"I, ah…can we talk?" Blaise said.
Ginny stared at him. Blaise could see that she was weighing her options and for a moment he was so sure she wouldn't agree. But she was nodding now.
"Okay." She said. "Where?"
"Let's go." He said, turning to leave before she changed her mind.
Once they were inside the willow tree's 'room', the air between them had thickened. Awkwardness was felt, Ginny was fidgeting and so was Blaise.
"I'm sorry."
Both had started to say the same thing. Blaise chuckled and Ginny joined him shyly at first but soon they were laughing like hyenas, pouring out all the awkwardness and anxiety into their laugh.
"You first." Said Blaise.
"No, you." Countered Ginny.
Blaise grinned and took a deep breath. "Well, as I have said, I'm sorry for getting you into this mess."
Ginny smiled back, a little sadly. She shrugged. "Um…I forgive you?"
Blaise chuckled. "Is that a question?"
Ginny nodded, still maintaining the sad smile on her face. "I do forgive you, you know? It's just that I'm a little uncertain if forgiving you would be the best thing to do."
"Why's that?" Blaise asked the girl.
She shrugged. "For one, you're in-love with me. Another reason would be I'm in-love with your best friend."
"And he loves you too."
Ginny started shaking her head. "No, he doesn't. He's not even talking to me."
"He loves you Gin. I know because he told me." Blaise told her. "Look, I know you're a little mad because I used our plan to get closer to you. And I know you were hurt to find out that I'm in-love with you. But before I've fallen for you, I was Draco's friend. And he deserves you more. You've made him a better, more caring person than he was. He's even offered to not talk to you if it hurts me."
"He did?" Ginny's eyes went wide.
"Yes." Blaise smiled softly. "My friend's in-love with you Gin. He loves you so much he's cried because of you so many times."
Ginny was silent. She probably was digesting this new information. She just stared out to the lake and chewing her lower lip.
Blaise took her silence as an opportunity to explain.
"I fell in-love with you because of Draco's dreams. I wanted to see why he was haunted by you that he keeps dreaming about you, and I kind of also got stuck with staring at you every little chance I get. My proposition to get Draco jealous was…well…I didn't realize it at first but it was just another sorry excuse to have time spent with you." He took a deep breath. "I'm sorry Gin, for hurting you 'cause of my selfishness. I was a fool, a selfish moron."
Ginny looked at his eyes this time and smiled. "But I thank you too."
"Huh?" said a surprised Blaise.
"For making me and Draco realize how we feel for each other." She told Blaise. She offered her hand. "Friends?"
Blaise's heart, which was thumping so fast since they came to the willow, slowed down. For once, everything felt normal. Everything felt as if they were where they should be. And that being friends with Ginny Weasely was the most right thing to ever happen.
Ginny smiled as Blaise shook her hand, feeling all the tension drop and the fresh start was not just a relief, but the best thing the two of them can do together.
"So, my newest friend." Said Blaise. "What do you intend to do with Draco?"
Ginny stared at the lake again. "Honestly?" she answered earning a nod from Blaise. "I don't know."
Blaise cocked his head towards her. "Why don't you know?"
Ginny bit her lip again. "If he still wants me, that would be great. It's just that…" she said, trailing off in an uncertain tone. "I don't know if we have a future together."
"What do you mean?"
"Well, he is a Malfoy and I am a Weasely." She turned to Blaise stressing the words meaningfully.
"Oh, you mean the family feud?" Blaise, beginning to understand, nodded slowly.
"Feud? War's more like it." Ginny said. "You know how much my family loathes his. And I'm sure Lucius won't be glad to have a Weasley as his heir's girlfriend."
Blaise was nodding like he understood them. "I'm sure Draco would do something about it."
"I know." Ginny nodded back, turning to the lake again. Something about the lake's vastness gave her chills for her relationship. "I'm afraid that many would get hurt because of us."
Draco was walking alone in the corridors. He was on his way to the field for the Quidditch practice. But he's heart wasn't really set on the pratcie right now. He was wondering whether Ginny and Blaise were talking now.
He took a deep breath. It's not as if he didn't trust Blaise anymore. He does, even though his friend had tricked him. But he was more anxious to know what Ginny was feeling towards his friend.
Maybe he should just skip the practice and go to the willow. He knew that Blaise and Ginny would have been talking for about an hour now. Surely that was enough?
While he was debating on whether to practice or not, somebody called out his name.
It was Blaise.
And he was with Ginevra.
"Hey mate!" Blaise greeted him with a big smile. "Off to the Quidditch field?"
He nodded his response while stealing a glance at Ginny who had stayed back.
Blaise noticed his looks and mysteriously started coughing. "Oh, it's cold in here, might as well start for the field to get a good seat."
And with that he left the two alone.
Ginny had taken Blaise's absence as an opportunity to step nearer Draco. When she was just five steps away from him, she smiled and said, "Hello there."
Draco stared at her, not quite believing that she was there. "H-he…Ahem! Hello." He said, stilling his fidgety voice. Be a man Draco! Heavens!
"So. You're about to practice?" she said.
Draco nodded. "Yeah." He answered.
"I musn't take your time then." she said. "Good luck!" she said, starting to walk past him.
Draco's mind screamed for him to stop her. To hell with Quidditch!
"Wait!" he called. Ginny stopped and spun around, eyes filled with hope.
"Yes?" she asked in a controlled voice.
"I, uh…I still have time before the practice starts. Do you want to talk?" he said although he was already late for practice at the field. Let them wait. He doesn't care. All he cared about was talking to Ginny.
"Sure." Ginny shrugged. "Here?"
Draco looked around and saw a classroom down the hall. He took her hand and led her there. Once he had closed the door, he turned to Ginny. A smiling Ginny.
"I sort of think I've been through this before." Ginny said, referring to their last classroom encounter.
Draco laughed, tension slipping out of him. He offered Ginny a seat and sat in front of her. He was about to open his mouth to talk but Ginny beat him to it.
"Please don't tell me you're sorry." She said.
"Huh? But…"
"I just simply want to forget it." she said, smiling still even though her mind was unfocused. "Blaise had said sorry earlier and frankly I think that's enough. And I also think I'm the one who should be sorry. So I am sorry, Draco Malfoy for not telling you the truth…I wanted to, you know but I didn't want to ruin the moment. And you were gone the next morning so quickly and Millicent beat me to it and…"
She never got the chance to finish her litany of explanations for Draco's lips came crushing down on hers, stilling her words, her mouth, and her heart.
It was that day all over again. That day at the infirmary when both of them had been confined and shared their first kiss.
Draco and Ginny were both sitting down in opposite chairs and the difficulty to kiss had taken its toll on them. Draco reached out and pulled Ginny out of her chair. They both stood up, still kissing and walked until they bumped into something. Draco took his hand away from her waist to feel the thing and realizing it was the teacher's table the bumped into, he expertly hoisted Ginny up the table to make her sit on it. Now Ginny's head was an inch higher than Draco's. Her hands were on his shoulders and his were on the table. Ginny's legs spread a little, on instinct, and Draco took the opportunity to get closer to her. He placed his hands on either of her thighs and was caressing them with patterns of circles.
Ginny's hands couldn't seem to stop moving. They were on his shoulders, in his hair. She touched him where she could and felt his hands on her thighs.
Draco's one hand started to go upwards, on her waist. The other was still tracing circles on her thigh. She flinched a little when his fingers dug inside her sweater, finding her bare skin. He was aware of her nervousness and stopped kissing her.
"Gin…" he said, his eyes asking if he can do it, if he should do it.
Ginny's eyes were clouded. She looked beautiful with her lips so red because of their kiss. She nodded.
Draco felt warm in his stomach and knew he was aroused by her answer. Before he could stop himself, he was already kissing her again.
This time, when his hand got underneath her shirt, she didn't flinch. So he continued rubbing his palms over her warmed skin until he reached his destinantion.
The lace bra was silky to touch but he didn't really care much about her lingerie. He drew closer and he could feel her own arousal press against his chest. He unclasped her bra and gingerly led his hand on where he wanted them to be. Ginny jumped a little and the kiss was broken. She moaned, still having her eyes closed.
He licked his lips nervously. Why are you so nervous, Malfoy? You've done this before. Said one part of his brain. Not to the girl I love, no. The other countered.
He began kneading slowly and Ginny captured his head to kiss him again. The kiss was getting wilder as he kneaded faster. His other hand had went up to the other breast and was now doing what the other was doing. His lips descended on her neck and began kissing and sucking on it.
"Draco…" Ginny called out hoarsely, bringing him back to his senses. He stopped what he was doing and inched away from the girl he loves, making Ginny stare at him, at a loss.
"I'm sorry Gin…" he said. "I, well…"
Ginny took a deep breath and arranged her bra and top. Sighing, she got down from the table and walked over to a much disoriented Draco. "We, Draco. We."
Draco looked up at her. "Ginny."
"We were just snogging." She said, smiling at him. "You're my boyfriend and we were just snogging. Which was totally normal for…"
"Boyfriend?" cut in Draco who had just heard the word boyfriend and spaced out from the impact of it to him.
"Well, if you want to…" Ginny shrugged.
Draco began to smile. "Are you kidding? Of course I do!" he grabbed Ginny and twirled her around then finally setting her down with a smack on the lips.
When she was on solid ground again, she smiled mischievously. "So, where were we?"
A/N: Aaannnd cut! Weeeh! No, that's not a cliffie…okay it is…maybe I should be the one with the shield, Ms. Elizabeth Vida. Don't kill me, it was begging to be cut. Anyway, now that everything's fine with the two, let's all see who wins the game shall we?