A month away from everything and everyone was just what I needed but it was time to go back and face reality.

Laying here with Hap was the only thing I found comfort in, and the sound of his heartbeat was something I had become accustomed to hearing these mornings. I felt no pain and everything just seemed to go away as he held me.

I had something to do before we left so I quietly got out of bed so that I wouldn't wake up Hap and Killer as I wanted to do this by myself.

After I managed to get out of bed I grabbed a shirt and left the room shutting the door and grabbed my car keys and headed outside.

~A~

After I got the letter Donna had handed me the day she was moving out I sat down on the steps of the cabin. As I looked at it I took a deep breath and opened it and began to read.

"Jess I was just going to go to your house and tell you that I was moving out of Charming but as always I couldn't tell you that I'm leaving. I know that after you reading this letter we are going to end up talking on the couch as we always do. I'm asking you not to talk me out of it. It's for the best and I have to figure this out on my own.

I don't and I will never regret the day I met you, because of you I have two beautiful children and I met the love of my life. Things may not have gone as we expected or wanted but I wouldn't change the past and I know that neither would you.

We both have gone through a lot of trouble and overcame a lot of obstacles it made us who we are today and thanks to that we are stronger and a little crazy, you more than me but we are alright.

I'm thankful to have you in my life and forever grateful that you sometimes put your life on hold when I needed someone to talk to.

Cutting all ties will be hard and I will miss you every day. There is something that I wanted you to remember you are stronger than you think but the most important thing is even when we 're apart I will always be with you. I love you Jessica."

Love Donna.

I laid back as I held the letter, I will always miss Donna and I know that she will always be with me.

As I got up from the floor I heard the door open as Killer ran past me as Hap stood there looking at me.

"You alright?" he asked as I walked over to him.

"Getting there." I said as I as he put an arm around me as he kissed me. "Let's go inside"

"It's not like if we've got anything better to do." he said as he picked me up.

"Hap I have to pack" I said as he threw me on the bed, maybe I should have done it last night I knew Hap had other things on his mind and we were not going to leave soon.

~Gemma~

Everyone was still not healed and Jax seemed to be having some trouble with Clay. I knew my son and he probably found out what happened to Donna.

Jess was still not home and that made me worry if it ever came out that Clay was behind the hit that was meant for Opie well no one would know how she would react.

"When is Jess and Hap getting back?" asked Clay as he walked into the office. Clay always seemed uncomfortable when Jess was not in Charming, but especially right now since Bobby was locked up and Opie also took some time to clear his mind.

"Supposedly tomorrow. The only way we can talk to her is if we call Hap." I told him as he sat down.

"She sounded much better last time I talked with her." he said as I agreed.

"Yeah Hap must really be helping her out." I said as I tried not to laugh as Clay made a face. "I didn't meant it that way" I said as when it came to Jess she could do no wrong and in his eyes she was the perfect daughter.

"Hey I don't care what the hell he is doing and I don't want to hear about it, as long as he brings her back."

"Clay this thing that happened with Donna and the club it can't come out because if Jess finds out we might..

"Hey it's not going to happen" he said as he left the office.

~Jess~

"Are you sure you're ready to go home?" Hap asked as I looked up at him.

"Yeah I can't hide out forever, even though I did enjoy this uninterrupted time with you." I said as I didn't really want to go back but Lake Tahoe was a distraction and it was time to face reality.

"I hate going thru this but I prefer it rather than not feeling anything." I said as I remembered at how mom reacts when someone dies, she just goes on as if nothing happened.

"Everything will work itself out, you will get thru this." he said as I agreed with him. I just don't think things will get better I knew this was just the start of worse things to happen.

"I will and I know I couldn't do this without you. I love you Hap."

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