Freshman year-9th grade-Dave POV

"Uh..sure..what about? Wanna come over?" he asks.

"Yeah"

"Okay…see you then"

"Okay"

We hang up and Azimio and Noah look at me.

"What happened?" asks Noah.

"I'm going to his house"

"Why?"

"Because i wanna talk to him privately. I'm not a jerk like you guys"

"Whatevs, hit me up later. I think the guys are playing football at the park"

"ok i'll text you"

I walk to Kurt's house, my head spinning. I really don't want to do this. I knock on Kurt's door and he answers.

He's shirtless. Shit he's hot.

"I was doing yoga" he says, when he catches me staring at his body. "It helps with stress"

"Oh"

He steps to the side and I come in. Don't stare Dave, don't stare.

"i'll go put a shirt on" he says.

PLEASE DO.

He comes back upstairs with a tank top on which really didn't help considering he still looks so hot. He sits down on the couch next to me and looks at me, those beautiful green eyes have a hint of fear. I think he knows what i'm gonna tell him..isn't good.

"Did you see Jacob's blog?" I ask Kurt.

He nods. "Yeah"

"Everyone by now thinks we're dating"

"I know"

"Yeah i bet you like that" I say to him. Secretly i do, but i said that because seeing him mad is 10x better than seeing him sad.

He looks at me, his whole head turning fiercely, some of his hair falling in his face. "How could you say that?"

"Because you probably do! You probably love the idea of us together!"

His eyes look at me with total disgust "I don't even know who you are anymore"

"Well i know who you are and your a.." and i stop. I couldn't say the word. I could never say the word. This was my best friend, my crush since i was little. He's all i think about. If i say the word, it could potentially ruin everything. Do i really wanna go that far?

"Say it" he says.

"No"

"I don't care. It obviously bothers you that i'm gay. So just say it Karofsky"

He used my last name. Damn he's pissed. Damn he's sexy when he's pissed. Damn i'd give the world to make out with him right now. Damn i have to stop saying Damn.

"It doesn't bother me"

He sighs "I knew this would happen"

"what?"

"This. You barging in here…mad"

"We can't be friends Kurt" i blurt out. I just need to get outta here. He's driving me fuckin insane.

He look taken aback "Wh-wh-what?" he stutters.

"I can't be in high school and people spreading rumors we're dating dude. i just can't. i'm not gay, okay? i'm sorry but i just.." I get up. "We can't be friends"

He touches my arm "Please don't do this"

My whole arm is burning hot from his touch. "I'm sorry its just.."

He shakes his head "Please Dave your my only friend…" he whispers. "Please"

I turn to look at him. Those bright green eyes are clear. I know he's holding back the urge to cry. His lips are slightly open just a bit. I can tell he's wearing chapstick which drives me even more insane. I can't do this, i gotta leave now,NOW. I back up, hitting one of the coffee tables.

"i'm sorry" I whisper to him, backing up more.

His eyes follow me as i stumble back, his lips form the most perfect shape, his chest goes up and down. He's so perfect. Fuck, i gotta leave gotta leave. I open the door and leave, sighing so big. What the fuck am i supposed to do for 4 years? Its only freshman year and i am hopelessly,madly, deeply in love with Kurt Hummel.

And there's nothing i can do about it.