You wanna know the best thing about life right now Ianto?
The very best thing, ever since you left?
The best thing right now is the hopes that someday ill forget you name.
Someday I will be able to drink coffee again, and learn to make biscuits the way you did.
Someday I'll see a man wearing a vest, and your face won't come to my mind.
I'll be able to hear the word couple and not think of how you adored it.
That's the very best thing in my life right now Ianto,
But the very worst thing?
Knowing that I could never do that.
When I'm offered coffee I'll politely refuse, having the world question why forever.
When I eat biscuits I'll always compare them to yours, and how everyone else's just aren't good enough.
When I see men wearing vests, I won't be able to look at them for long. The memories of you are too painful.
And worst of all, when I hear the word couple… well I'll break down inside; because I know how you loved it, and how I never used it with you.
Ianto the best thing in my life,
Well, I'm not going to let it happen.