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Waking up beside Dave was the best thing Sebastian could imagine. He slept so peacefully and when he woke up, he felt rested and nothing hurt, not even his back that bothered him every day because of the plus weight in his abdomen. He snuggled up to Dave's chest, listening to the steady heartbeat, enjoying the warmth of the bed.
Minutes later, Dave opened his eyes. He was disoriented at first and his eyes widened slightly as he saw Sebastian beside him, but then he smiled, stroking the other boy's back.
"Good morning" he said quietly.
"Good morning" Sebastian smiled.
"Slept well?" Dave asked.
"Yeah" Sebastian nodded. "But I'm so hungry, so if you don't mind..."
"I will make something" Dave sighed and got up from bed.
Since the catastrophic dinner Sebastian had made earlier, the boys agreed that Dave would prepare their meals and Sebastian helped with other things. Well, he would have help if Dave let him but the boy usually made everything by himself, leaving Sebastian the dishes a few times but nothing else.
"What do you want to eat?" Dave asked.
"Uhm... scrambled eggs?" Sebastian said uncertainly.
"With bacon" Dave smiled.
"Of course" Sebastian replied and picked up his clothes, so he could follow Dave into the kitchen.
"So... are we alright?" Dave asked quietly as he prepared their breakfast.
Sebastian bit his lip and didn't answer at first. He knew what Dave thought. That the previous night had meant nothing to him, that it had been just a way to comfort each other. But it wasn't true. Sebastian had woken up later that night and spent the next hour with thinking about their future. He was so accustomed to Dave's presence, he couldn't imagine living without him anymore. Not even after the adoption procedure.
"Dave, I want to talk about last night" Sebastian said finally.
Dave took a deep breath and turned around.
"Did you regret it?" he asked quietly.
"Of course not" Sebastian replied quickly.
"I don't understand" Dave said. He expected another answer.
"We're great together" Sebastian said. "I... I really like being here with you and I thought that we could try out... together. For real this time."
"So you want us to date?" Dave asked with a raised eyebrow.
Sebastian nodded.
"Yeah. With all the fancy thing you can come up with, just you and me. Let's forget about our problems for a while and focus on ourselves. And if it works... I would like to stay here. With you."
Dave kept looking at him in silence and Sebastian started worrying.
"What do you think?" he asked hesitantly when Dave didn't answer.
"I think we should watch a movie tonight" Dave answered slowly. "We don't have enough money for a restaurant."
Sebastian threw back his head and laughed.
"I thought you would say 'no'" he said.
"You knew I wouldn't say 'no'" Dave replied.
"I hoped you wouldn't" Sebastian corrected him.
Dave placed their plates onto the table and sat down.
"You know what? Forget the cinema and let's go outside" Dave said after a while.
"You mean like..."
"I mean like walking in the park, having coffee..." Davew started.
"Orange juice" Sebastian added quickly.
"Of course. And ice cream" Dave said.
"Of course" Sebastian smiled. The babies liked sweets.
"Then finish this and get ready. I can't wait to move out for a bit" Dave smiled.
"I agree" Sebastian replied.
~ o ~
Things seemed to get better for the boys in the next days. They always managed to have some time alone in the apartment or outside of it, talking a lot, especially about their future. They always made sure to not talk about the babies or the adoption, since none of them wanted to ruin their mood. It became just a thing they had to get over with. In front of the other, but it didn't mean they forgot about their children.
One day, when Dave was at school and Sebastian got home early, he sat down in the living room, thinking. He was so lost in his thoughts that he didn't notice his hands wandering down to his baby bump. Until the moment he felt something moving around in his abdomen, deep down. He looked down in confusion. It was something new, he didn't feel like this before.
He placed his hands back to his baby bump and waited. Soon enough, he felt the movement again. And another one not too far from the first one. He finally realised that it came from where the babies should be, so it could only mean one thing, that the twins caused it.
"Hello" he said quietly. "I know it's you. I'm happy to finally feel you, I've been waiting for this moment for a long time."
As if they heard him, the babies started moving again. Sebastian laughed, stroking his baby bump gently.
"Oh, I see you have a show going on there" he said. "But just to make sure, I don't want you to ruin anything there inside, okay? Once you come out, I want my body back in one piece."
He felt a lump forming in his throat and it was hard to swallow as tears started gathering in his eyes.
"Damn pregnancy hormones" he muttered.
It was useless to fight against the tears, he knew, but he tried anyway. He promised himself that he would try to forget about the babies and the future they could have had together. He had caused himself and Dave enough pain already, they had to move on. But how was it possible when the babies just made it clear they were there?
"Stop it" he said through his tears.
He tried to think about something else, Dave, school, food, anything. But it didn't work. The babies kept moving, not giving him the chance to forget about them.
"Why are you doing this?" he asked. "Don't you think I'm sorry that I have to give you another couple? That I won't be able to see you grow up?"
The movements in his baby bump stopped and he leaned back, breathing heavily. He wanted to feel them again. He wanted to enjoy every second with his children, now that he had a chance. He wouldn't even be able to see them later. He needed these moments, to have something to remind him that he was carrying these babies.
"I won't forget you. Ever" he whispered.
~ o ~
Dave felt like somebody who committed crime. It wasn't like he did something wrong but as he went to the mall to grab something for dinner, he made the mistake to walk through a baby shop – and he stopped immediately. He looked at the baby clothes behind the glass and he saw two beautiful little sets, one for a boy and one for a girl. As if they were made for twins. Before he realised what he was doing, he was inside of the shop, searching for the sets. He found a few other pieces of them and he grabbed a blue one, turning it around. It would be perfect for the baby boy Sebastian was carrying. And he could buy a similar one for the girl.
"How old is he?"
Dave jumped in surprise and almost dropped the cloth he had in his hands. One of the employees, a kind looking woman was standing there, smiling.
"I'm sorry but you seemed so lost" the woman said.
"I am" Dave nodded. "Uhm... my boyfriend is pregnant and I didn't want to come inside but I saw these clothes and they're so adorable..."
The woman reached forward and grabbed another one.
"Here. This is the newborn size" she said.
Dave took the set from her and smiled. It was so tiny... If the babies would be so small, he could carry them on one arm.
"Can I have another one for a girl? We're expecting twins" he said before he could stop himself.
The woman helped him with the other set and then left him alone, so he could see the other clothes.
And it was a mistake.
Because Dave ended up buying those sets and a few other clothes for the babies. Beautiful, little onesies, feeding bottles, a few toys... Thing they wouldn't even need. Sebastian would kill him for this.
He left the shop quickly and went to buy their dinner. He tried to figure out where to find the baby supplies because he knew he couldn't show them Sebastian. The boy was so sad because of the babies, even if he tried to hide his feelings. Dave saw them staring at the wall sadly several times, he knew very well how Sebastian felt.
Just like him.
Dave rushed back to the car and took out one of the sets, the pink one this time. He took the clothes into his hand, staring at the little animal in the front, trying to figure out what it was. He decided that it's a lamb and he pulled it over his left arm. His arm was longer than the baby cloth. So that's how small his babies would be.
He pushed the cloth away and closed his eyes as a few tears ran down his cheeks. It was so hard to go through this, but he promised himself that he would be strong in front of Sebastian. But he needed the tears right now. He needed to let his emotions take over his body for a while and he needed to break down for a bit. He couldn't go home like this.
~ o ~
Dave was late. Sebastian checked the time on his phone again and then tried to call the other was nervous because Dave didn't get home and he didn't answer the phone. He was afraid that something happened to Dave.
The door opened in the next second and he rushed into the living room to see who it was.
"Finally! Where the hell have you been?" he asked.
"I had to stay at school for a little longer" Dave answered.
"I called you" Sebastian said.
"I know" Dave sighed.
"Then why didn't you pick up? Do you know how worried I was?" Sebastian asked.
"I'm sorry, okay? Let's forget about it" Dave said and flopped down onto the couch with the food he had brought. "I bought dinner."
Sebastian sighed in frustration and joined Dave on the couch.
"Did I do something wrong?" he asked.
"No. Of course not" Dave answered.
"Then why didn't you answer my calls? I was worried" Sebastian said.
"I had a long day" Dave said. Well, it was mostly true. "I needed some time alone."
He handed Sebastian his burger who opened it happily. Since he was pregnant, he needed only small things like food to be in a good mood and Dave was grateful for that.
"Next time, call me" Sebastian said. "The stress isn't good for the babies."
He froze immediately when he noticed what he had said. They hadn't talked about the babies for days and he was afraid he would ruin something by talking about them. He didn't even plan to talk about feeling the babies.
"I know" Dave replied finally and looked around, desperate for another topic. "Uhm... TV?"
"Yes!" Sebastian replied quickly. Anything but another sad evening.
~ o ~
With everything going on with the adoption, Sebastia forgot about school completely. His exams were over, he asked for scholarship, but that was all. He still attended Dalton as he waited for the decision about his scholarship. One afternoon, that he spent with watching TV and eating the remainings of the dinner Dave had cooked the previous night as he talked to the babies again, the bell rang. He frowned but climbed up from the couch, opening the door quickly.
"Sebastian Smythe?" the man in front of him asked.
"That's me" Sebastian nodded.
The man handed him a letter.
"You need to sign it here" the man said, showing at the line in the middle of the paper on his clipboard. "Thanks."
He turned around and left without saying goodbye right after Sebastian had signed the paper. He shook his head and slammed the door shut as he looked down at the envelope. His eyes widened as he saw the name of his school on it and he tore it open without hesitation.
He skipped the first few sentences and went to the important part.
"I can't believe it" he muttered and went back to the couch. He had to sit down.
Dave found him there half an hour later when he came home from school.
"What's wrong?" he asked when he saw the pale looking Sebastian sitting on the couch, unmoving.
"I got my letter from the school" Sebastian answered.
"About your scholarship?" Dave asked. Sebastian nodded, looking at the wall. "I'm so sorry..."
"I did it."
"Uhm, what?" Dave asked in confusion.
"I have the scholarship" Sebastian smiled.
"Are you serious?" Dave asked.
As Sebastian nodded again, Dave rushed to him, hugging him tightly.
"Careful, my bump..." Sebastian started and Dave pulled away to look into his eyes.
"I can't believe it! You did it!" Dave said.
"Well, yeah" Sebastian replied.
"We're going to celebrate today" Dave said ad disappeared in the kitchen before Sebastian could stop him.
He watched from the door as Dave ran around the place, searching for something alcoholfree, so they could celebrate the good news and Sebastian could drink from it, too. Sebastian smiled softly as he watched Dave. Finally, they could have some happy moments after everything they had been through.