hey sorry about the wait i was swamped with work from going back to school if you have a twitter i will always apritiate the followers you get to hear why im not updating its much faster to tweet than update why im not updateing. wow thats a mouth full okay here is chapter 11.

katniss's pov

as i near the cornucopia i see that there is a silver parachute falling from the sky. as i near it i see how huge it is. the parachute reaches all the way up to my midthigh. i look on the top and i see it says tweleve i look up to see the careers coming towards me i quickly open it to see a meatal bow with at least twice the arrows i had last time i trow the shealth over my shoulder grab an arrow and aim at the girl from two who is accompanied by her district partner who is all that is left of the careers. shes moving too fast i dont have time to see were im aiming im too foucused on how i will hit her before she hits me because she can throw a knife farther than i can shoot. i take a chance an let the sring go and it penitrates her right shoulder wich she throws with. she quickly pulls the arrow out only taking a second to examine it shes dashes towards me as i reach for another arrow when i fire it misses her from where she ducks to tackle me down onto the grass below.

as i hit the ground you could hear the air leave my body as it makes contact with the ground. i struggle underneath her to get up and fight her i am half way up when she hits me down to the ground. "stay down will ya." she screams. as i fight underneath her to get up i think back to when i was in district twelve all those memories from after my sisters death comes flooding back into my head how i was sullen to every one. i wouldnt look anybody in the eye i would treat my mother like shit and never apologize. i was mad, mad that gale had broke his promise how he had lied to my face knowing how much i love my little sister. he had killed her to win the games just for a selfish reason the same selfish reason that i came to theese games for. To kill chiildren with no mercy and win the games no matter what the concequnces. except i had never wanted to kill people but i did and i never thought back to it i have turned myself into a monster that will kill with no mercy. i was never meant for this.i think back to the day gale came home.

"GET AWAY FROM ME GALE!" I scream loudly as the enemy enters the room.

"LOOK I DID WHAT I DID TO COME HOME TO YOU…! To be with you…" Gale tries to guilt me. I fume, after what he did?!

"Yeah, sure," I snip.

"You saw! I made her death quick." Made her death quick? Made her death QUICK?!

"Yeah, then you chopped her up even after she was dead!" I shout. How dare he try to weasel out of this!

"I did what I was trained for…! What we were trained for." Gale says, looking into my eyes.

"I… I was never trained for that." I leave because I'm not only about to break into tears from the thought of Gale holding Prim's dead body, but because I'm so fed up with the monster in front of me.

I am the same monster that he is for killing innocent children. I went to him just to start shit with him.I wanted to start the shit with him maybe im the real monster for he has honered the oath he had taken. ' to kill and not to be killed do what it takes to live under the glory of being a victor even to kill thy own.'

I had visited him before he left to force him to take the oath and complete his training. i never cared that my little sister i adored was weeping in the room next door. identical to the one he was staying in. he had honered the oath i had never taken because i had not let him in the visiting room.

i thought back to cinna and the name he had given me ' girl on fire' i dont feel like im on fire i lost that fire a long time ago. the embers may burst when the wind blows lightly on them but i feel as though its been soaked to never burn again. maybe its better if i die ill see my sister and we can make mends of what happend on the reaping day.

as i walk in the room i see prim is on the window seal weeping and you can see the tears going down her delacite cheecks. " katniss why didn't you volenteer"

" you had begge dme not to and i couldn't gales like my boy friend"

" I don't care that hes your boyfirend hes just a guy thats goanna die just like i will in a month" she sits and crys on the window seal again, the peacekeepers had ushered me out that day.

I wish i had listened to her all he did was break my heart. ruin my life. i wish i was dead just let the careers get me kill me and torture me so i can die and see my little sister to tell her she was right. she was right about everything.

im broken from my thougths when feel a knife cutting around the outline of my lips. i open my eyes to see clove is happily cutting the outline of my lips. cato is nowere to be seen. as she gos to start on my upper lip she purs."any last words twelve" i didnt even know i was talking till i heard the words come out of my mouth." go ahead kill me i would love to die i want to see my little sister and make mends of all that happend on the day she left." clove stops in her movement and the knife drops out of her hand blood falls out of her mouth onto my falls onto the ground beside me i hear cato yell to her body that was quickly dieing. "I TOLD YOU SHE WAS MY KILL " i look over at cloves body and seee the slash on the back of her neck. she'll be dead soon.

i quickly get up onto my numb legs and climb the side of the cornucopia bow and arrows in hand when i reach the top. i see rorys body quickly bleeding to death. was this were cato was. i hear two cannons hes dead i look down and see catos having toruble climbing up the cornucoipia. i look over to rorys dead body and see a shealth of arrows on his back i run over to grab the arrows when i hear a voice. i suddenly freeze in my place and look up to see him standing there and ready myself for battle eventhough my chance of surviveing is slim with my small ststure and his tall muscular stature. i am already prepared to die.

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