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This chapter is a bit different, I think it's time for Maura to share some of her fears and some of her past as well. You know how I told you I pictured Jane well I think it's time for her to reveal her real personality… The insecure part is interesting but it's not how I want to write her for the rest of the story, I'm not saying she won't have doubts in the future, but she's really starting to give herself to Maura and take care of her…

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Chapter 12:

Sharing memories.

Maura and Jane spent the morning in bed cuddling. Jane couldn't stop marveling at Maura's beauty: She was probably the most beautiful woman Jane had ever met.

What have I ever done to deserve someone so perfect? She's the most caring, intelligent, educated woman I have ever met and for some reason I can't quite understand she wants to be with me? Of all the smart, gorgeous men and women she could be with, she chose me: an ordinary cop. Come on Rizzoli, you cannot screw this up, this is your chance.

"You know, I kinda like your house." Jane stated.

"Really? If I can recall properly you said it looked like a big castle. A cold one." Maura scoffed.

"I know what I said and I'm sorry. It's true, it's a bit big for me but spending time here with you, I'm starting to like it." Jane apologized, combing her fingers through Maura's hair.

"Well I'm glad you do because I'm not moving out, my parents gave me this house as a graduation present when I finished medical school." Maura explained.

"Wow, that's such a great present. My parents gave me a coffee table." Jane smiled sheepishly.

"And I love that coffee table, it's such a more personal gift then an empty house with no furniture."

"I agree it has character, you know I was just moving into my apartment, working hard and I had no time to shop for furniture so my parents thought it would be a good start. I'm sure your parents meant well. Were they there at your graduation?" Jane asked, hoping that they were. She couldn't bear the thought that her parents wouldn't have been there for the most important day of their daughter's life so far.

"Actually they were. I remember receiving a bouquet of flowers that morning along with a congratulations card. I was really touched that they actually remember I was graduating and then I realized that if they send me a bouquet it was because they wouldn't be here for the ceremony. I was disappointed, even hurt but I understood they must have had more important business to attend to."

"More important than their daughter's graduation?" Jane groaned, already hating who she considered to be her future in laws.

"Yes. You know my parents travelled a lot when I was a kid and when I was ten, I was sent to boarding school. Well, I remember sending them the brochure. I understood they were important people with important responsibilities that were far more urgent than me. I didn't ask for much as a kid and I was quite content with the little they gave me. They're not bad parents; they always made sure I received the best things in life: I went to the best schools, I was taken care of by the best nannies, and they made sure I opened my heart to the world, to traveling, to the arts, to foreign cultures… But they were just busy with their lives. My dad was a professor, and he would travel the world to give lectures and my mom came from a very wealthy family so she had a lot of charities and social events she had to attend. And of course they were so in love and so into each other that all together, they barely had time for me. But It was ok, I wasn't abused or anything, I consider myself as privileged." Maura confessed a tear streaming down her cheek.

"Oh sweetheart, I understand, but you had the right to ask for more. There's nothing wrong with that. You know money isn't everything, a child needs love, to be cuddled, and attention, to be taken care of, you know." Jane said as she wiped the tear off Maura's cheek.

"I know and I had nannies, so I wasn't totally lacking affection you know. They always treated me like their own daughter and like a little princess: they would feed me, cuddle me, read me stories at night, and take me to school. Some kids grow up with no care taker at all, so I was lucky in a way. Anyway I remember going on stage to make my speech and I saw my mom and dad. I almost lost my concentration, but I managed to get through it and at the end of the ceremony, my mom hugged me and told me she was proud of me and I cried. It was the most intense memory I have with my mother. You know, I worked really hard to graduate at the top of my class so that they would be proud of me. I always tried not to be an embarrassment for them and honor to my family's name."

"That's a sweet memory. I'm sure they are both very proud of you. I mean, you're the Chief Medical Examiner. You are a world class Forensic Pathologic. I'm sure they're proud and that you could never embarrass them, even if they don't say it."

"I know. How about when you graduated from the academy? Were your parents there?" Maura asked trying to change the subject. She didn't want Jane to pity her. And besides, she felt it was inappropriate to complain considering she grew up in a wealthy family and received everything money could buy. But on the other hand, Jane was right. Money wasn't everything. But now things were different; she had Jane in her life and she knew she would never have to worry about loneliness or lack of affection ever again, and that was the best feeling in the world.

"Of course they were. Or should I say 'unfortunately' they were...?"

"Why would you say that?" Maura prompted, unable to imagine why Jane wouldn't want her parents to be there.

"Well my mom as you know is, well very Italian and loud so when my name was called she just stood up and started screaming my name: yelling "that's my daughter!" Even pop was embarrassed."

"As weird as this might sound, I can easily picture your mom standing and applauding."

"That's exactly what happened, I was a bit embarrassed at first but you know, they love me and they always support me and my brother, that's what a family is for."

"I'm sure your family was there for every school play, every softball game, every small or big event in your life."

"Yeah, they were. My dad always worked hard to provide for us and make sure we had everything we needed, but he always managed to come to see me at my softball games. I remember after games, we usually went to get pizza and ice cream. It was fun. I had a very happy childhood, different from yours but happy."

"I like your family. They're good people, very caring and strong."

"And crazy, but every family has its problems right? I always complain about how my mom is always so nosy but when I hear you telling me how your parents neglected you, I think I' m actually lucky. You know they love you too."

"They do?"

"Yeah. At first they thought you were a little odd, but then they got to know you and they see the good friend you are to me and you make them laugh when you google talk."

"I'm happy to be a source of amusement for them." Maura joked.

Maura realized that Jane's family was the family she has always wanted: warm, affectionate, present, and loud. She always promised herself that when the time comes for her to have a child she will be there for that kid. She won't let them be raised by nannies or send them to boarding school.

"Hey, don't be sad. I'm your family. You and me, we are a family now, and I'm not going anywhere." Jane murmured soothingly seeing that Maura was once again lost in her own thoughts.

"That's sweet." Maura replied.

"And as insane as this might be, well my family is also your family now. Sorry about that."

"Don't apologize! I couldn't dream about a better family in law."

"In law?"

"Yes, that's how you call the family of the person you're seeing."

"I know, it's just seems so formal and official." Jane smirked.

"I know. Sorry, I'm jumping ahead of my self...We still haven't gone public with our relationship." Maura panicked.

"You're not. I told you I'm in this relationship for the long run. I'm not going anywhere and I'm sure my family will be thrilled that we're together: they can see how good an influence you are on me and that you're helping me a lot ..."

"Are you sure they will accept that you're with a woman?"

"Well my dad won't care. My mom will probably go crazy at first, asking me what she did wrong when she raised me. She will ask herself if she loved and cuddled me enough, if she should have made me take ballet lesson instead of soccer and softball...but after a while she will get used to it and besides she already loves you…Actually I know for a fact that she sometimes wishes I was a bit more like you."

"Really?" Maura asked, accepting the compliment.

"Yes she always says: why do you have to wear men clothes, can't you wear more feminine clothes, like your friend Maura? She certainly has good taste, and she has good manners too, you could learn a thing or two from her."

"Thank you for trying to reassure me, I'm actually flattered that your mom sees me as a good influence. I do feel a bit nervous about entering your family, but we already know each other and I feel comfortable being with them."

"Are you sure you want to become a member of the Rizzoli clan? Once you're in, there is no way out. I hope you realize that."

"I'm well aware of that. And I'm willing to join your family if they want and accept me, but I do have to admit that for now, I'm fully satisfied just being with you with nobody aware of our relationship."

"The secrecy makes things more exciting?"

"Yes it does and besides, you're right: your family can be overwhelming and I'm not willing to share you with them yet."

"Once they know about us and process the information, you will have to go there every Sunday for lunch and maybe twice a week for dinner. I want to have you all for myself and spend all my free time with you..."

"I couldn't agree more, Detective…"

"How about your parents? Will I meet them at some point?"

"Trust me, you don't want that."

"Why, do you think they would give me a hard time?"

"Well I'm sure they won't mind that I'm in love with a woman, my parents are quite liberated actually but lets just say that they expect me to marry someone…"

"From your social class?"

"Yes. I'm sorry. It sounds so pretentious and discriminatory but they raised me to marry well and give an heir to the family, you know, they're disappointed enough that I'm not into the family business…"

"Well, I think that we have different definitions of marrying well: to me marrying well is marrying someone who loves you and respect you and gives their heart and soul and for them it's someone with money and good blood."

"Yes." Maura said sheepishly.

"Well then they might not like me at first… But I hope that with time they will see that I make you happy and that I will always do everything in my power to make you happy. I hope they will see that I have so much more than money to give you. And about that heir thing, that can be arranged."

"What did you just say?"

"Well if what they worry about is your family name disappearing and all they need is a grandchild, we'll give them one."

"Are you saying that you're considering having a child with me?"

"Yeah, why not? Well I'd rather have two actually, you're an only child, and you told me you were quite lonely as a child and I loved having someone to play with, most of the time. It's fun and I like being a role model to at least one person."

"Oh Jane I don't know what to say… I just…"

"Never thought I would be the marrying and having kids type?"

"Yes, and I apologize for making such presumptions."

"Don't apologize, I told you I will give you everything you want. If you want kids, then we'll have kids. If you don't, we won't. I know I will be happy with you, with or without kids, as long as we are together. We're a family anyway."

"Thank you..."

"For what?"

"For being you and giving me a family already..."

Jane realized something that she only suspected before: as rich and privileged Maura was, she was also very lonely and insecure. She couldn't understand how a ten year old girl could think that her parents have better things to do then taking care of her. She realized Maura was damaged, in her own way. She knew she needed someone to be there for her, to give her attention and support and she knew she could be that person.

She also realized that her parents might be an obstacle in their relationship. Maura seemed to care a lot about what her parents thought of her. Jane knew that she would never chose her parents over her and would never leave her if her parents ask her to but it was important for Maura to have their approval and blessing.

Jane wasn't very happy at the idea that she would have to please her parents and try to fit into their world, but it was the least she could do for Maura, after everything she had done for her and given her, she would do everything to make her parents accept her.

So guys what do you think? I'm sure you didn't expect Jane to talk about having kids, so soon but it makes sense in the conversation. It's funny when I'm writing my svu story I'm always stuck, it took me 50 chapter to have them married and I know it will take me another 50 to make Alex and Liv have kids, but here things are going more naturally and smoothly and I have no issues to make things happen fast…