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I turned around and locked my eyes onto his. Slowly but determinedly, I took off my polo and fisted his shirt. My lips found his and I bit his bottom lip. I can do this, I can do this. The kiss didn't last long, as my mouth made its way to the stubble on his chin. It scratched against my sensitive lips and the feeling of it sent a spark to my groin. Going lower and lower, I trailed my tongue over his neck and Adam's apple. Lifting his shirt over his head and throwing it to the floor, I bit his clavicle, before seductively tracing my tongue over the marks I left on his skin.

I wasn't sure what the hell I was doing, but I'd seen the Corbin Fisher boys go at it, so I figured I'd just follow their lead. So far it seemed I was doing something right, as Edward's hands moved to my hair and he let out a soft moan. Right, so, focus! What was next? Yes, nipples! I latched my mouth onto his right nipple and flicked my tongue over it. And safe to say I was rewarded with a gasp from Edward's mouth. I bit down softly and his breath hitched. Was that a good sign?

Not sure of the biting, I moved to his other nipple, giving it the same treatment. His hands fisted my blond locks a little tighter, so I was definitely on the right track. I wasn't about to linger though, so I trailed my tongue further down, dipping it into his navel in a wet kiss. He had the most amazing happy trail disappearing into his pants; a trail I wanted to follow to its destination.

My mouth not leaving his hard abs, I reached for the button and zipper and opened them. Sliding the soft fabric down his supple thighs, I licked down the narrow trail of hair. He bucked his hips and groaned, making me smile. See, I could pull this off and he would be none the wiser. I pulled his boxers down and hooked them under his balls, making them press up against his rock hard length. The sight was something to behold and I took a moment to marvel in it. His cock was beautiful, if you could call a cock beautiful. Hell yeah, you can call a fucking cock beautiful!

It was straight and thick. Definitely shorter than mine, but perfect all the same. It held a wonderful pattern of veins at the base, and a swollen pink head, glistening with pre-cum. And my God, the tiny curls that surrounded it matched the coppery color of his hair perfectly. I lightly blew on the head and watched his dick twitch in anticipation. All right, phase one complete.

Remembering the different ways I saw guys giving head, I decided on fast and deep with a little bit of foreplay. I licked his erection from the base to the tip and slid my tongue through his slit. Wow, that tastes like nothing I've tasted before! I wasn't exactly decided if I liked it or not. It had a salty twinge to it, but a little sweet at the same time. It was sure something else. At least I was sure Edward liked me licking him. He was now heavily panting and murmuring my name as his fingers grabbed my hair more tightly, even slightly painful.

I ran my finger down his length, just slightly pressing, and ran my tongue over the thick head again. A shiver went through him and I could see small goose bumps form on his stomach. I loved what my actions were doing to him, and slid my lips over his cock with newfound confidence.

Now this was the tricky part, as on the videos you couldn't really see what was going on inside a mouth once it was wrapped around a cock. I mostly remember the guys hollowing their cheeks and taking them so deep that their noses hit the pubes.

I breathed in deeply through my nose and plunged down. At first, when I felt his cock hit the back of my throat, it felt weird but okay. But in less than a second, my throat violently tried to expel him. While he shouted; "Oh God!" I gagged, dry heaving and teary-eyed. Fuck! Why on earth would anyone, and I mean anyone, ever want to do this? I pulled back and let him slip from my mouth, giving myself a second to compose myself.

"Jasper? Are you okay?" he asked in a worried tone. Fuck! I needed lust-induced Edward, not fucking worried over his virgin boyfriend Edward. I squeezed my eyes shut and grabbed his cock in one hand, leading it back to my mouth. I ran it along my wet lips a couple of times before I took him in again. I was definitely not going that deep again, so I made sure my mouth had a grip on it with my lip covered teeth.

I sucked and hollowed my cheeks, running my mouth up and down his cock. Again, Edward was moaning and slightly bucking his hips. I had to make sure he wouldn't hit the back of my throat again, so I tried to get an even better grip, my teeth slowly and painfully sinking into the insides of my lips.

Really, giving head was not my thing. It was uncomfortable and a little painful like this. But I wanted Edward to feel good, and not have him know I had never done this before.

Picking up the pace, my lip slipped from under my teeth, making them graze his shaft roughly. He squealed and jerked back. I instantly pulled back and murmured, "Sorry," before trailing my tongue over the silky skin.

"Just take it easy, Jasper, you were doing great," he whispered as he coached his dick back to my mouth. So deep throating didn't work and the teeth were a bad idea. The only other thing I could think of was holding him back with my hand.

This time it worked better. His moans and groans got louder as I jerked him off, with my mouth going up and down his shaft, my tongue swirling around the tip. His movements were getting more erratic and his breathing shallower and faster.

"God! Jasper! So good! I-I'm. I'm coming!" he cried out and I quickly pulled him back from my mouth. At least this was something I knew how to do. And the best part was, it was easy as hell. Look up at him, while waiting for his cum to hit my face, open-mouthed. This was consistent with every blow job I'd ever seen on my computer.

The first squirt hit my cheek and if felt a little weird. The second one shot into my mouth and pride washed over me. I had gotten him there. His face was flushed, head thrown back, and he looked utterly blissful. The third streak hit my nose and eye. I jumped a little and tried to blink it away, a little amused. But then the sting hit. Jesus! Fuck! My eye was burning! Holy shit!

"Jasper?" Edward asked, hit voice hoarse and low. I couldn't answer. The only thing that was important now was getting this fucking sting out of my eye. I tried to rub it out, but it was actually only getting worse.

"Fuck!" I grunted. "My eye!"

Edward turned towards the sink, pulling up his jeans and ran the tap. After soaking it, he handed me a towel and I tried to clean my eye with it.

"Jesus, Jasper! Why would you let me come all over your face? This isn't a bloody porn movie! And seriously, close your eyes if you do!" he yelled at me, more freaked out than angry.

He fidgeted with his hands and ran them through his hair. "I'm sorry. It's just that… Well, I don't know what is going on with you half the time. I tease the shit out of you and you look like a bloody deer in headlights. And then all of a sudden you go all porn star on me. If I didn't know any better, I'd think that was your first time," he said, looking at me sternly.

I didn't reply and avoided his gaze. Had it been that bad? He came, right? It couldn't have been that awful. I tried to hold myself together, but tears formed in my eyes.

"Oh God!" he exclaimed. "That was your first time!"

He grabbed my shoulder and chin, and forced me to look at him. What surprised me was the concern and love I saw in his eyes. It gave me a little hope that he would not run away from me screaming at my ignorance.

"Babe, why didn't you tell me?" he asked and I bit my lip. "Jasper?"

"I just didn't want you to be disappointed," I reluctantly said in a very small voice.

He gently kissed my lips and hugged me. "You cannot disappoint me, Jay, certainly not this way," he said. The reassurance in his voice was all I needed and the tension in my neck and back eased. He took my hand and guided me to the living room. "I'll go get you a fresh shirt. Will you pick a movie?"

I nodded and watched his back as he left the room. What on earth did I do to deserve this man? I was seriously fucking up every single minute of the day and still he wanted me. It baffled me to the point where my insecurities returned. Maybe he just wanted to fuck me? We did live on opposite sides of an ocean. Stop it, Jasper!

I signed and turned to my stack of DVD's. I picked my favorite; 'Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind'. I loved it because it wasn't the regular romantic bullshit Hollywood normally spouted. It was a story of true and undying love. Clementine has her memories of Joel removed and to spite her, he does the same with the memories of her. As the walls of his memory fall down around them, they find they don't want to lose each other. In the end, their love survives. And while love like that might not actually exist, it was sure nice to think about it.

Edward came up behind me and handed me a shirt. I didn't even give it a glance before I pulled it over my head. But as soon as I pulled the cotton fabric past my nose, his scent invaded my mind. This wasn't one of my shirts, it was one of his. He always smelled so fucking sexy and warm and now that smell was close while his body wasn't. It was torturous.

Edward picked up the DVD case and cocked an eyebrow at me. "I'd have never taken you for a Jim Carrey fan," he said.

I grabbed the case from his hands and opened it. Carefully placing the DVD into the player, I looked at him from the corner of my eye.

"I'm not, but this is not the 'Ace Ventura' Jim Carrey you're probably thinking of. Just sit down and watch the freaking movie," I said. "If you hate it, you can watch me instead."

"Just watch?" he asked, and winked.

"You can do anything you want with me." Hi eyes turned dark and I chuckled. "But only if the movie bores you."

He sat down in the middle of the couch and patted the spot next to him. "I will just have to try really hard to have no interest in it whatsoever," he stated.

I shook my head while rolling my eyes at him before I picked up the remote and sat down next to him. Snuggling up against him I pressed play.

The movie wasn't even two minutes in when I felt his nose brush up and down my ear. His hands were already roaming my stomach.

"Edward, are you even trying to give this movie a chance?" I asked.

"Nope, I'm going for plan B straight away," he answered. My doubts from earlier raced to the front of my mind and I tensed.

"Jasper?" he asked, pulling away from me. I bit my lip and tried to hold back the illogical and unnecessary tears forming in my eyes.

"Is that really all you want from me?" I asked, slightly shaking. He looked at me, guilt washing over his face, and my hopes crashed to the ground. He did just want to fuck me. God, how could I be this stupid? I pushed him further away and got up. I really needed a moment to think, to figure out if I could just be his fuck-buddy and ignore my heart.

"Jasper, wait!" he called after me and I paused on my way to the door. "I realize that is what you must think of me with my behaviour over the last two days, but it's not true. I must admit that just seeing you brings out the inner animal in me and I do want you physically, up to a point where I'm having a really hard time taking things slow. Just know that isn't all I want from you. I want to know you in every way possible. Learn who you really are and have you know who I am. This isn't just about sex, Jasper. Please believe me when I tell you it isn't. I really am hopelessly in love with you."

"Then will you fucking try to watch my favorite movie with me?" I asked, still sounding a bit harsh.

He skipped to the far side of the couch and gestured me to sit back down. "Yes, and I will not even touch you. Okay?"

I almost jumped back on the couch and got comfortable leaning up against him. "No, not okay, I never said anything about not touching me," I smirked.

He smiled at me and put his arm around my shoulder. I restarted the movie, and relaxed against his warm body. This time, his attention was on the screen while he rubbed small soothing circles on my back. This was perfect, how I imagined my life with him to be like. That is if we could even have a life together. He would just be here for three weeks, and I had no clue what would happen after he went back to London. This was not the time to think about that, though. For now I would just be happy that he was here and enjoy our time together.

As I stared back at the screen, I found that that was really all there was to it. Clementine was erased from Joel's mind and it was all they had now. To be able to enjoy their time together before everything fell apart, while in the end, not even remembering the hopes that all would turn out well. And wasn't that the saddest part? To lose your hope?

Even if Edward would break my heart, even if it would ruin me, I would never want to lose moments like this. He squeezed me a little tighter and I looked up at him. His eyes were soft as he ran them over my face, ending up staring straight into mine.

"I would never want to erase you," he said and leaned in for a kiss. I slid my arms around him and hugged his chest, while he rested his cheek on my head, hugging me back.

We watched the rest of the movie in this position, both of us reluctant to let go. When the end titles rolled, he kissed the top of my head and sighed into my hair.

"I loved it, Jasper. That might possibly be one of the best movies I ever saw," he said and I smiled. He moved to get up, but I stopped him.

"Can we just sit here a little longer?" I asked and felt him relax again, his arms warm and safe around my shoulders. Maybe I was being a girl, or a child, or mushy, I just didn't care. This was where I wanted to be for now.

"Jasper? I was thinking," he started and I murmured a slight 'hmmm?' when he didn't immediately go on. "I know this is all new to you and I respect that. I would never want to rush you into something you're not ready for. But-" He stopped speaking again and I raised my head to look at him. He had his eyes averted and a blush crept up his cheeks.

"Edward?" I asked, and kissed his cheek when his shoulders slumped.

"But I would really like it if I could hold you while you sleep," he went on, still not looking at me. A warm glow spread inside my chest. He was feeling insecure in asking me this and it was adorable.

"I think something like that could be arranged," I replied.

His eyes met mine, and his dazzling smile made my heart swell even more. I loved this man more than I would've ever thought I could. I rested my head back against his chest and closed my eyes. After a while, I heard his breathing change and the hand on my back stilled it's movements. I took a deep breath and let myself drift away as well.

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Rosalie woke us up around seven. She and Claudia had come back from their day out and decided to let us sleep till dinner. They had prepared a light chicken salad with bread, which was already standing on the set dinner table. I rubbed my eyes and stretched my limbs, while Edward did the same.

"Aren't you two cute," Rosalie said with a smile and nudged Claudia. "You would never even think they weren't speaking two days ago."

Claudia chuckled. "You are quite the matchmaker, Rose. Got any more ex-fiancées lying about? Preferably one as hot as that one."

Rose laughed wholeheartedly and sat down at the table. "I don't think I do. If I did, I would've married him." She started filling the plates and Claudia sat down.

"Boys, are you coming?" she yelled at us, and Edward took my hand.

As we sat down, Rose threw me a weird look. "That isn't the shirt you were wearing when I left," she said and glanced at Edward. "That isn't even his shirt, now is it?"

He threw up his hands in the air as if defending himself. "I didn't molest your brother! I really didn't! I'm innocent!" he cried out, which made me chuckle.

"Innocent, my ass," I replied and shook my head.

"Well, maybe not as innocent as you," he said, winking at me, "but I didn't make you do anything you didn't want to do."

God, he sure was good at embarrassing me. I glared around the table to see if anyone noticed the meaning behind his little comment, and saw Rosalie nod her head in approval.

"So you had that talk then?" she asked him, and he nodded back. I rolled my eyes and focused on my food. There was no way I wanted to continue this conversation.

"Great, now let's eat," she said and took a bite.

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