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A/N: I know it's been like two weeks and I'm really sorry. I hope you forgive me as I was debating how to set up the next part of this story. As always, thank you to all who read and especially to those who review. Until next time please enjoy this chapter.
Chapter 12
Alex felt absolute contentment relax her every muscle as she held a sleeping Olivia against her body. Olivia was stretched out on the couch with her upper torso pressed tightly against the attorney. Just Olivia's presence had always been enough to calm Alex when they were handling a tough case, but a new sense of pure happiness now flooded Alex's being.
Looking down at the top of Olivia's head now, Alex wondered how she had denied herself this for so long. She ran her fingers gently through the soft brown locks, trying not to wake up the tired detective. Alex inhaled the clean scent of Olivia's hair and placed a loving kiss against her scalp. There was nowhere else she would rather be and Alex knew that feeling wasn't going to change.
Olivia came awake to the feel of Alex's fingers teasing lovingly through her hair and Alex's unique scent surrounding her. She had never been one to enjoy cuddling, and had often resented it when her former lovers had roped her into it, but Olivia craved this closeness with Alex. And it wasn't just because Alex so obviously loved being this close that Olivia liked it as well, but Alex's pleasure did increase her own.
The detective stretched out her legs, groaning at the pull in her tired muscles. Even though she hadn't been out on a run or to the gym in the past several weeks since the start of their protective custody, Olivia had still managed to give her muscles quite the workout. Olivia quickly steered her mind away from such thoughts before she lost control and couldn't stop herself from taking Alex again. Not that Alex had uttered a single complaint as of yet.
"Welcome back, Liv," Alex said softly next to Olivia's ear. The hand that she had wrapped around Olivia's waist gently stroked the strip of toned abdomen that was exposed from when the detective had stretched. Alex wasn't trying to rile up her lover, but she couldn't stop her fingers from seeking out that silky skin covering sleek muscles. She had a new appreciation of the tethered strength of Olivia's body.
Olivia slipped her hand over Alex's to stop her movements, threading their fingers together tightly. She could feel moisture beginning to slick across her thighs, the wetness that always accompanied Alex's enjoyment of stroking her lower belly. But Olivia was content to just accept the igniting fire instead of trying to assuage it. She loved Alex and had no need to fuck the blonde whenever the urge overtook her; she could savor the sensations of wanting Alex.
The detective tipped her head back and invited a kiss from Alex, which the attorney happily agreed to. Their kiss was slow and sweet, neither wishing to rush when they knew there was no time constraint on their new relationship. Forever was a foregone conclusion in both of their minds.
"Hey," Olivia said when they finally drew apart. She loved hearing Alex's quick breathing that was as much from arousal as it was from lack of breath. And Olivia loved the few seconds when desire clouded Alex's beautiful blue eyes before they cleared but left her with dilated pupils and eyes that continued to darken.
"Hey," Alex said back when she could speak again and her eyes focused on Olivia's caring brown ones. She didn't miss the subtle desire that flickered through her detective's eyes at the husky quality of her voice that she couldn't control. A slow smile spread across the blonde's face at the power that coursed through her at her ability to turn Olivia on so easily.
"You're perfect," Olivia was compelled to say as she lost herself in everything that was Alexandra Cabot; a place that she was happy to be lost in. She had never felt so connected to another person, so immersed in another person, as she raised her hand to run her fingertips gently over Alex's cheek and neck.
"I love you," Alex said as she let Olivia take whatever she wanted. The attorney took the opportunity afforded her by Olivia's distraction to again play with the bare skin above the waistband of Olivia's pants. It was almost like a compulsion to touch Olivia whenever she could and Alex had no intention of stifling that urge, especially now that she'd been given permission to touch.
Olivia shivered into the caress, her muscles clenching involuntarily. "God, Lex. How do you always do this to me?" The detective again covered Alex's searching hand with her own to stop the arousing touch.
"I guess I'm just your type," Alex said teasingly with a smile as she placed another kiss on the top of Olivia's head. She stilled her hand because even though she loved teasing Olivia, it seemed as if her detective was determined to deny herself any physical pleasure for now.
"I don't know about that, but you're certainly my only now," Olivia said as she settled deeper against Alex and tried to regain control of her desire. She just wanted to have a conversation with her love right now, even if her body didn't feel like spending the time talking.
"Really?" Alex questioned, her curiosity peaked. They had discussed many things since Olivia had taken care of her so many months ago, at least it seemed like a long time ago, but they'd never had a reason to discuss their taste in the people they had previously dated. Alex wasn't worried about measuring up to anyone in Olivia's past, but she was interested in what type of person attracted such a strong-willed woman.
"Absolutely, Lex. No one has ever compared with you and I'm no longer looking so no one ever will."
Alex thought it was cute how Olivia's first instinct was to reassure her. "I meant what was your type before? I know I'm the only one now," she mumbled lovingly against Olivia's neck.
"You really want to know?" Olivia asked, looking up into Alex's clear blue eyes to see what was motivating this line of questioning. Alex's body wasn't tense, so Olivia didn't think that she was concerned about how her answer might differ from the attributes that Alex had.
At Alex's nod of affirmation, Olivia turned her head back around and thought about her answer. "I've never really thought about it, just gone after whoever felt right, whoever I felt attracted to."
"So I didn't feel right?" Alex teased, wanting to keep their conversation as light as she could. "I mean, you certainly never tried to pursue me."
Olivia squeezed Alex's hand, even though she knew that Alex wasn't accusing her of anything. "You felt perfect, Alex. And I was afraid to ruin something that I knew could be so good. Plus, I didn't ever mix business with pleasure before your irresistible self came into my life."
"You feel perfect to me, too," Alex said softly, bringing her fingers back to tangle in Olivia's short hair. It was an action that always reaffirmed their connection and soothed both of them.
"I was usually physically attracted to dark featured women, dark hair, dark eyes, but the personality is what kept me interested. I've always wanted someone who was as strong-willed as I am, independent but not emotionally closed off, and intelligent. If I can't hold a conversation of substance with someone, I'm not going to be able to handle a relationship with them. I've always wanted someone that I could connect with outside of the bedroom as well as in it."
"Not physically attracted to blonde-haired, blue-eyed women, huh, detective?" Olivia's statements didn't bother Alex because she had gathered a mountain of evidence over the past several weeks that irrefutably supported the fact that Olivia found her very physically appealing.
"I guess I didn't know what I was missing," Olivia said as she caressed Alex's thigh. "But you certainly have all of the mental attributes that will keep me around for a while."
"I'm hoping forever," Alex whispered in her ear before placing a kiss on the sensitive spot just below.
Olivia felt her body shudder at the contact and enjoyed the fact that Alex had complete control over her body. She had never allowed anyone else the control over her that Alex had, but Alex returned the favor by allowing Olivia the same dominion over her body.
"What about you?" Olivia asked when she had settled down again. "What was your type?"
Alex's body stiffened and she had to consciously relax because Olivia could undoubtedly feel the tension radiating through her. With all that they had shared in the last month, really the last few months since Olivia had insisted on caring for her after the biking accident, Alex couldn't even contemplate lying. "You," she said softly, knowing that Olivia would question her answer.
"Well, obviously me, but what about before me?" Olivia had answered the question and she was now just as interested in how she compared to Alex's dream girl.
Alex swallowed a lump in her throat, praying Olivia wouldn't be angry with her when she revealed the truth, and held the detective closer. "There were no women before you. Just you, Olivia." She couldn't force her voice to go above a whisper, but she knew that Olivia heard every word.
Olivia sat up and turned so she was facing Alex, the teasing lightness of their conversation no longer present. Alex let Olivia go when she pulled away, acutely feeling the loss of warmth and their physical connection, and looked steadfastly at her detective while she searched her eyes for the true meaning of her words. "Just me?" Olivia asked, wanted to gauge Alex's reaction while she was looking at her this time.
"Only you," Alex said, desperately searching the beautiful brown eyes that had always comforted her before. She waited for her revelation to truly sink in and prayed that Olivia didn't come to the false conclusion that she was purposely trying to hide this from her. It just wasn't something that she'd ever known how to bring up in conversation before.
As Alex's words and their meaning finally sunk in, Olivia wasn't sure how she was supposed to react, or even how she wanted to react. It was a little disconcerting that Alex hadn't told her that she'd never had a female lover before, especially with how close they'd become, but Olivia wasn't sure that it really mattered. She wished that Alex had told her, but Olivia didn't know if it would have made her do anything differently.
Out of every feeling that was rapidly flashing through her system, a sort of proud possessiveness became the dominant emotion. She knew that no one had ever touched Alex the way that she did and she was proud to be Alex's first female lover. The possessive part of Olivia immediately corrected that thought to being Alex's only female lover and then to just being Alex's only lover. No one who ever came before mattered for either of them anymore. For the rest of their lives, Olivia was determined to be all that Alex would ever need, in every aspect of her life.
"Well, I certainly couldn't tell," Olivia said with a gentle smile spreading across her lips as she cupped Alex's cheek.
Alex released a sigh of relief as she pushed deeper into Olivia's comforting touch. Olivia had also unknowingly soothed Alex's unspoken fear that she hadn't known what she was doing when making love to Olivia. It was an unfounded fear as Olivia had never said anything discouraging to Alex, nor had she ever been unsatisfied or displeased by anything Alex had done; in fact the opposite was true.
"Thank you," Alex said, those words encompassing so many things. Olivia had an uncanny ability to say or do just what Alex needed and she was grateful for that intense connection between them.
Alex slid her own hand through Olivia's hair until it was positioned at the back of the detective's head and pulled Olivia towards her. The detective came willingly and Alex captured her lips in a heated kiss, no longer interested in playing the teasing game they had enjoyed earlier. And as soon as their lips touched, Alex was lost in the immersive experience that being with Olivia always was.
Olivia broke their kiss and abruptly stood up. She pulled Alex up with her and began to lead the blonde to their bedroom, the desire in her blazing hot enough to ignite Alex as well. Olivia was done denying herself the pleasure that Alex always brought to her body, the pleasure that Alex always brought to her heart.
If Alex had put up even the slightest bit of unconscious resistance, Olivia would have gone back to cuddling on the couch, but Alex wanted this as much as she did. Olivia believed that they would always be on the same wavelength when it came to this.
As nice as it was to truly be in their own little world where they could focus solely on each other and have very little interaction with anyone else, they both missed their work. There had been no word on Scott Donovan for the almost four weeks they'd been sequestered away out of sight of the murderer. No progress had been made on locating the man either and Olivia was itching to help out with the search.
They were relaxing together on the couch, Alex sitting comfortably against the back of the couch reading another book, of which she'd already finished five others since the beginning of their self-imposed imprisonment, and Olivia laying lengthwise with her head in Alex's lap. Olivia was trying to work on some Sudoku puzzles to help pass the time, but Alex's fingers running through her hair was distracting her and making her sleepy. This was becoming a more common scene during the past week or so as they spent a little more time with their clothes on.
A soft knock at the apartment door instantly drove all thoughts of sleep from Olivia's mind as she pulled herself up into a seated position. In all likelihood it would be Elliot, or Fin, or Munch, just checking in for a face-to-face status update and imparting the frustrating news that there was still now sign of Scott Donovan, but Olivia wouldn't take any chances when Alex's safety hung in the balance.
Olivia pushed silently to her feet as she slid the puzzle book onto the end table next to her gun. She picked up said weapon and eased it out of the holster as she crept cautiously towards the door. While there had been no incidences in the past month, Olivia was still programmed to keep her weapon close at hand so that she would be able to protect Alex if a threat did arise.
Alex marked her place, using a piece of scrap paper as her bookmark; she hated when people folded the corner of the page to keep their place as it just ruined the perfect, pristine paper. She got up from the couch without Olivia having to ask her and walked back towards their bedroom where there would be no sightline of her from the door. They'd argued about the extra precaution before but Alex had conceded when she'd seen the underlying fear for her safety in Olivia's eyes.
Olivia waited until Alex was out of sight before looking through the security eyehole to see who was outside. As she'd figured it was just Elliot and Olivia opened the door, but left the safety chain in place. Once she saw that Elliot was indeed alone, Olivia closed the door to disengage all the locks and allow Elliot entry. As she was opening the locks, Olivia called across the apartment to let Alex know it was just Elliot so she could join them in the living room, for their unofficial meeting.
The female detective closed the door behind Elliot and reengaged the locks, not one to take safety for granted even with two NYPD detectives close enough to protect Alex. Olivia walked further into the apartment and re-holstered her weapon as Alex came out of the bedroom to stand by her side. They usually listened to the progress, or often lack thereof, of the case together as they were both affected.
"What's the news, Elliot?" Olivia asked when her partner was standing across from her and Alex in their standard meeting positions.
"Still no news," Elliot said, exasperated. The waiting game was not his strong suit because he'd always considered himself a man of action. He especially hated that there was a threat to his partner and their ADA and he couldn't track down the man responsible.
"Well, we can't stay in hiding forever," Olivia said, gesturing to herself and Alex. "It's taking manpower away from our cases since either you, Munch, or Fin are always watching over us and we don't even know if it's necessary. We have no idea if Donovan is in the area anymore or even if he has an interest in sticking around to wait us out."
"I know, but we'd all rather you two stay safe and out of sight then something happen again." He'd seen the effects that Alex's hospital stay had on Olivia and he was hoping that none of them would have to experience that again anytime soon.
Alex cleared her throat to get both detectives to focus on her. They were not purposely trying to keep her out of the conversation, but they had been working together for years and knew how each other thought, so much of their communication was nonverbal. Sometimes it was almost like they shared the same brain, and yet they achieved different emotions and conclusions. It was a partnership where they accepted that they wouldn't always see things the same way.
"I have an idea," Alex said to get their attention. She only continued when both Elliot and Olivia were looking at her. "Bring Huang in to do a profile on Donovan. Specifically have him look at how Donovan would likely react when his chosen prey goes to ground. If he thinks that Donovan would just move on then Liv and I will go back to work and if he doesn't then I'll hire a security company to keep tabs on us so you guys can go back to focusing on your cases full time."
Elliot diverted his attention to Olivia, waiting to hear what she thought of the idea. He could see the danger in trying to project what Donovan would do, particularly if Huang believed that Donovan had moved on and was wrong. But Elliot knew that Olivia was primarily concerned with Alex's safety, and she wouldn't let anything happen to their ADA.
Olivia was milling over the suggestion in her mind and she was also aware of the possible consequences if Huang wasn't able to make the correct profile. "Do it," she said to Elliot. "Give Huang access to all of our information on Scott Donovan and ask him to predict what he'd do if Alex wasn't available."
Elliot nodded his consent and walked to the door. He waited for Olivia to follow before he opened it, not wanting the apartment to be open for any longer than necessary. "I'll pass along your request as soon as I get to the car and get Huang working on that as soon as possible."
"Thank you." Olivia shut and locked the door behind her partner.
Even if Huang thought Donovan would move on to easier prey, Olivia wouldn't let Alex go unguarded. Huang was likely to have at least some worthwhile insight into Scott Donovan's movements and Olivia wanted to know what they were even if she wasn't going to put one hundred percent stock in what he said. It had taken a little while, but Olivia now respected the psychiatrist's craft.
When Olivia turned away from the door, Alex was there to draw her into a hug. "Thank you," Alex said as she molded her body to the detective's.
The urge to show affection towards Olivia whenever one of the guys showed up was almost overwhelming and somewhat surprising as Alex had never felt the need to show her possessiveness like she wanted to with Olivia. But they hadn't yet discussed sharing their relationship with anyone else, probably because they were locked away without normal everyday contact with the outside world, so it hadn't come up yet. And Alex certainly wasn't about to breach the subject when Olivia's colleagues were in the same room and she wasn't sure if her lover was comfortable sharing that personal information.
Olivia happily returned the embrace. She would forever enjoy just holding Alex, basking in the love she knew Alex had for her and which she returned wholeheartedly. "If it gets us out of here any sooner, then it'll be worth it. As much as I love spending twenty-four hours a day with you, I know we both want to get back to work."
Alex held Olivia tighter, but had to agree with the detective. Both of them defined themselves so much by what they did that being unable to do their jobs for the past month had been difficult. They would just have to make time to be together when they were eventually able to get back to their respective jobs.
It was a few days before Huang was ready to release his profile. Alex and Olivia agreed to go down to the station to listen to Huang's analysis. The breaking of their isolation served a couple of purposes. One was that they had been cooped up in the safe house for a month now with everything being delivered to them so that their exposure wasn't just limited but nonexistent.
The other main purpose of seeing Huang themselves was that they were trying to bait Donovan into revealing himself if he was still in the area. If he made a move while they were still under watch then they could capture him and all of their problems would be solved. They knew that it was a long shot, but the danger wasn't particularly great and the reward would be worth it if Donovan came out of hiding.
Olivia drove them to the precinct. They took an indirect route so that it would be easier to spot a tail and Munch and Fin were following behind in an unmarked vehicle just in case Donovan did make a move. Even though Olivia didn't think there was a good possibility of Scott Donovan following them, she still wanted all of her bases covered.
Alex talked Olivia into stopping by her apartment so she could pick up some more appropriate clothes for their meeting with the FBI psychiatrist. Olivia called their change of plans in to Munch and Fin so they wouldn't think anything was wrong. Alex only had the clothes that Olivia had packed for her and that did not include any work attire. And since Olivia was dressed in black slacks and a maroon button-up shirt, Alex wanted to be dressed in something other than a ratty t-shirt and an old pair of sweatpants.
Olivia parked in front of Alex's building and then escorted her upstairs to her apartment. Alex was stopped in the lobby by Sal, who was happy to see the blonde after she'd been away for so long. Once Alex reassured him that she was doing fine and was hopefully going to be back soon, he let her and Olivia go without too much of a holdup.
It was kind of surreal to be back in her apartment building after all this time, probably because so much had changed in the time since she'd last been here. She was looking forward to seeing her apartment after Donovan's attack. Eager to replace her memories of the last time she was here with some more pleasant memories. Hopefully the cleaning crew had been able to get every trace of the last time she was there out of the apartment.
Olivia insisted on preceding Alex into the apartment. She didn't want to remind Alex of the trauma of the last time she was here, but there was no way Olivia would allow a repeat of that night. As the detective pushed the front door open, Olivia made a mental note to get an alarm system installed so that Alex would have more protection.
Alex followed close behind Olivia at the detective's request. If she'd had another officer with her then Olivia would have had Alex stay outside with him while she searched the place, but since she didn't Olivia wanted the blonde to stay close. The detective didn't believe that Scott Donovan would again attack at Alex's apartment, but she wouldn't take Alex's safety for granted.
There was no one else in the apartment and when Olivia was satisfied that they were alone, Alex was able to finally look at the repairs. She walked through the rooms, finding no trace of when Scott Donovan had terrorized her. Alex even pulled the new, pristine sheets off the bed to find that her mattress had been replaced. She would need to thank Judy for getting an excellent crew in here and ask about the bill.
"They did a good job, huh?" Olivia said from the bedroom doorway as Alex was straightening out the remade bed. She was impressed with the cleaning crew for leaving nothing that indicated what had happened here.
Alex swung around to face Olivia and instantly knew that she was the reason for her newly decorated apartment, not Judy like she'd assumed. "You had them do this?" she had to ask.
Olivia looked at Alex and just nodded her head, not knowing if it was a good thing or a bad thing that Alex was asking. She couldn't lie to her lover, but she knew how independent Alex was and wasn't sure if the attorney would be mad at her for orchestrating this without consulting her. Olivia had just wanted all reminders of that terrifying night gone and at the time she hadn't even been thinking about Alex's preferences.
Alex walked over to Olivia and as she got closer she could read the uncertainty in her gorgeous brown eyes. If she hadn't already of lost her heart to Olivia then she surely would have at that moment when the detective was unsure how she would react. Alex quickly pulled Olivia into a tight embrace to let her know that her thoughtfulness was much appreciated.
The feel of Olivia hugging her back sent a no longer unexpected frisson of awareness shooting through Alex's body. Desire was always there, bubbling just under the surface, but now that she could act on it Alex was more likely to lose control of her hold on the desire. She reached her hand up and pulled Olivia into a scorching kiss, loving that her detective immediately responded.
Olivia fell into the kiss and was helpless to do anything except follow when Alex moved backwards into the bedroom. She had to stay with Alex or risk losing the pleasure of the attorney's lips on her own. There was no stopping even when Alex fell back onto the bed, her hold on Olivia strong enough to bring the detective with her.
It wasn't until Olivia felt Alex pull her shirt from her pants and slip those delightfully wicked hands against her quivering stomach muscles that Olivia pulled back. She sat back on her knees, straddling Alex's waist, and looked down into smoldering blue eyes. "Baby, we have to go," she said, her voice cracking with unfulfilled desire.
Alex had felt the muscles in Olivia's abdomen jump excitedly under her fingers and knew that her detective wanted this as much as she did. "You don't really mean that. We have time. They'll still be there when we're done," Alex said huskily as she reached for the button at the top of Olivia's slacks.
Olivia circled Alex's wrists and pulled them away from her pants. "John and Fin will come crashing into your apartment if we take too much time up here and I do not want that to happen. After we hear what Huang has to say, we can come back here and I'll be more than happy to fulfill whatever desires you have. But for right now, you need to get changed so we can go to the precinct." It was difficult to be the voice of reason when she really wanted to follow through with Alex's suggestion, but they needed to attend to business first.
"You promise?" Alex asked with a slight pout on her lips.
Olivia smiled at Alex's obvious desire to continue. It was really awesome to have a girlfriend who enjoyed sex as much as Alex did. "I promise, anything you want later tonight," Olivia said as she dipped her head to steal a quick kiss from her lover before pushing off the bed.
"I'll hold you to that," Alex grumbled as she rolled off the bed. She quickly stripped out of her t-shirt and sweatpants, chuckling a little sadistically when she heard Olivia groan at the sight of her in only her underwear. Just because they had to wait until tonight didn't mean that she couldn't tease Olivia now.
Alex gathered one of her suits from the closet and went into the adjoining bathroom to get ready. They didn't have a lot of time, so Alex didn't spend much time on her appearance besides making sure her suit was wrinkle-free. Besides, the quicker they got to this meeting, the quicker it would be over, and the faster they could come back here and Alex could have Olivia all to herself once again.
Olivia was standing at the bedroom door again when Alex came out of the bathroom. She looked up at her girlfriend and was momentarily lost in thoughts about when she found Alex more appealing, in work clothes or in comfy clothes. It was a given that she preferred the blonde without any clothes, but she had to avoid those thoughts right now so she could make it through this upcoming meeting without completely torturing herself.
The detective cleared her throat and met Alex's eyes. "Ready to go?"
Alex read the banked desire in Olivia's eyes, but knew she'd be shot down if she started to play again. "Let's make this quick," she said as she walked past Olivia with perhaps a little more swing in her hips than was absolutely necessary.
FYI - I don't think there are more than three or four more chapters left to this story. Just giving you guys a warning that things are drawing to a close.