I stood there a moment and sighed I wanted to cry I knew the feeling still to well, I knew I would be hearing that. I started to run after him and I felt a calming wave from Jasper and I smiled a little. I grabbed Damien's hand as he walked out the door and everyone now looking at us and sighed. "Damien..." I said and sighed I glanced at everyone who nodded. "you have been here before, in a past life, you were Edward, my Edward, I had a way to give you a second chance at a normal life, and I did it for you, I didn't think that you would come back into my life Seventeen years later, and I love you too... even if your not my Edward anymore your still so much like him and it is just better off for you to leave me alone and have a normal life." I said softly
"you risked your own happiness in life so I could start over? Wait what?"
"yes"
"what was I before? What are you??"
"i cant answer that."
"why not??"
"because it just how things are you had me figure it out and I am sure you can just like I did."
"cold skin, eyes that change colors, your not a ghost... you look young still. And..." Damien pulled me closer and moved my shirt alittle and I sighed. "a moon shape on your neck and your hand... Bella...i understand now your a Vampire."
"yes"
"and I was one?"
"yes, you were and you found me and we were in love we were married and you turned me. But I knew more then anything you wanted to be human again. So when I found a way I gave you that chance... "
"and gave up then one thing you wanted most Bella?"
"better my heart torn then Emmett's heart."
"Huh?"
"Rose wants to be human again more then you did but I didnt want to hurt Emmett." I said softly.
"so you hurt yourself?"
"yes"
"turn me back... "
"Edward.."
"Bella... you were stupid to do that. Now turn me back."
"no"
"BELLA..."
"YOU WANTED TO BE HUMAN YOU WANTED TO HAVE A NORMAL LIFE... NOW YOU HAVE THAT AND I WILL NOT TAKE IT FROM YOU...YOU CAN HAVE THE LIFE YOU ALWAYS WANTED, A NORMAL ONE, YOU CAN GET MARRIED AND HAVE KIDS, YOU CAN GROW UP AND BE NORMAL!"
"And leave you behind?"
"yes."
"no"
"goodbye Damien." I said and turned walking away from him up the stairs. I understood, I knew now why Edward didn't want to change me and why he had a hard time with it, he acted how he did. I sighed and heard him behind me and I ran to the bedroom and flitted out the window I didnt stop I went to the meadow and fell to my knees. The then unthinkable happened I felt something run down my face and I wiped it off another one I was crying. How was this possible how was I a vampire crying?