We completed out finals and we're done with school. Forever.
I'm terrified to check my GPA.
"Did you get your exam results?" Mom asks when I walk in the door.
"Um, yeah..." I toss the paper on her lap and escape to my room.
I don't know whether to be happy or cry.
I slam my door and bury myself in my bed.
And then I hear her scream downstairs. She comes rushing in and she's the one crying. "oh my god! You got a one hundred percent on every one of your exams!" She screams. She whips out her phone and checks something and then she screams again. "Your GPA is a 5.2!"
We both start screaming, and then Madge comes walking in and she hears about me GPA and she starts screaming and then Kale hears and Reed and then we're all screaming.
"We're throwing a graduation party!"
She walks out of the house. "Clean your room! The party is this weekend!"
...8...
Haymitch and Effie lost it and they brought the Mellark's here and my other relatives and Effie invited the entire fucking school and since Madge and I were the post popular people everyone invited came.
So the house is jam packed. I'm holding onto Madge's hand and we're screaming over the music to talk to each other. Johanna, Annie, Finnick and Peeta are here somewhere.
Is my bedroom locked?
Mom put something in the way so people can't go upstairs, but this is like a crazy college party, so people are anyways.
After a long argument a couple days ago with my Mother, I gave in. She said Dad wanted to come, and I didn't wNt him but she insisted and said "he's your father"
Madge's parents and relatives are here as well because Mim made the party for me, Madge and Reed.
Our four bedroom three bathroom beach house is way too small for all of these people. It's so hot.
I go upstairs to make sure my doors locked, and it is. Mom's room and Kale's room is and so is Reed's.
I don't want people fucking in my bed, is all.
"I'm gonna go find my Dad so I can give him my phone to put in his pocket!" Madge screams. She vanishes in the crowd.
I push through, trying to find someone so I'm not alone.
Luckily, I run right into Peeta. His soda pours down the front of my dress.
He starts to say something but I can't hear him, so I grab his wrist and pull him upstairs. I unlock my door, yank him inside and lock it again.
It makes the music downstairs much quieter.
"I am so sorry about that." He puts his cup on a coaster.
"It's okay. Accidents happen." I open my closet. "You don't care if I change in front of you, do you? I mean...it's not like you haven't seen my boobs before..."
I was wearing a blue strapless dress that is short with a tan belt and black heels with spikes. Madge was wearing the same dress.
I take off my blue dress.
"You know that me breaking up with you is probably the worst thing I've ever done." He whispers, and he's right behind me. Mom got a ton of alcohol and soda. "I just...I didn't think you would cry. I thought you wouldn't care."
I'm literally wearing nothing but spiked black heels and white lacy panties.
"Well you thought wrong." I whisper.
He slowly, hesitantly, reaches around and wraps his arms around me with his hands up higher than my waist. They are at my ribcage. He leans down and rests his chin on my shoulder.
"If you want me to stop, just tell me." He whispers. I notice then that we are standing in front of the mirror, and he's watching me.
"You didn't drink the alcohol here, did you?"
He laughs and shakes his head.
"No."
"Good." I smile.
"You are so beautiful. There are so many things I want to do to you."
"So do them. I don't care what they are."
His arms move up so they are right underneath my breasts, and my breasts are resting against his arm. He shuts his eyes and inhales, and I can feel his erection against my ass.
"Are you sure about that?" He whispers, and slowly, he reaches up and puts each hand over each of my breasts.
Am I sure about that?
Yes.
Yes, I am sure about that.
I close my eyes. "Peeta, you do what you want to do."
"I want to do what you want to do."
"Well ditto then."
He takes the other dress from my hand and rests it on my dresser and then he turns me to face him, picks me up and lays me down on my bed.
"Is the door locked?" He asks.
"Yes."
"Good."
He takes off my heels and sets them on the ground, and then he crawls on all fours on top of me.
"You know, the day you left to come home was the day I realized I'm in love with you." He whispers, and then his lips collide with mine.
...8...
We didn't even fall asleep, although we were about to. I was paranoid people were looking for us and so was he so we both got dressed and went downstairs.
I "lost" him in the crowd and have been searching for Madge.
I find her walking around asking "have you seen Katniss?"
I sneak up behind her, grab her wrist and pull her out the back door, all the way down the street to the beach. It's vacant here but the noise from the party is loud enough to keep someone awake that lives in another house on this street, but everyone on this street is at the party.
"What?"
"I found Peeta."
"And?"
"And he spilt his drink on me and then we went upstairs so I could change and I wasn't even thinking and I asked if he was okay with me changing in front if him because he's seen my boobs anyways and he said he didn't care so I was changing and he told me I was beautiful and all that jazz and his arms were right under my boobs and them I told him to do what he wanted and then he said he wanted to do what I wanted to do and I told him the same thing and then he laid me down and said that the day I left to come home was the day he realized he was in love with me and fucking shit Madge we had sex." I take a deep breath because I didn't even stop when I was telling her.
She looks like she's been slapped and then she screams. "Oh my god!" She gasps. "Did you use protection?"
"No."
"Fuck!" She says. "You are not ready for a baby and neither is he and I'm not read for a niece or nephew!"
"I'm scared." I whisper.
"You need to tell your mom."
"If I tell my Mom she's going to freak out even worse than you did."
"Do you have birth control?"
"No."
"Shit!" She says. I start hyperventilating. "Okay, alright, okay. Stop crying. When my older sister had sex for the first time she didn't use precautions just like you. She went to a drug store and got some pill, the morning after pill or something. Tomorrow morning we can go and get it, and then you take the kill and we can get you birth control and everything will be okay."
"And we don't have to tell my Mom?"
"We still need to tell your Mom. You can't just not tell your Mom. I think you should tell her after you take the morning after pill."
"What if she gets mad at me?"
"Well, then she gets mad at you. Whatever. Your her daughter. She'll get over it."
"I guess your right." We're silent for a little while, and then I hear a loud cough. We are right next to the sand dunes.
And out comes Mom, Mr. Mellark, Mrs. Mellark, Haymitch, Mrs. Undersee, Mr. Undersee and Effie.
Shit.
Shit.
Holy shit.
Madge doesn't falter for a second. "How much did you hear?" She demands.
"We heard everything." Mom says.
I don't think she's mad I had sex, I think she's mad I wasn't going to tell her I had sex.
So what do I do?
I run.
I run home, and when I'm running, literally, in the back door, I run right into Peeta and fall down and scramble up again, grabbing his arms, crying.
I'm scared.
He pulls me outside and I have both hands on his biceps.
"I'm sorry! I was telling Madge everything because I always tell her everything even when I'm not supposed to and my mom and Haymitch and Effie and your parents and Madge's parents heard! They're mad and Mom's pissed because I wasn't going to tell her we didn't use any protection because I don't have birth control! Peeta I'm sorry!"
He wipes away my tears. "It's okay." He whispers. "It's okay. Katniss, everything is okay. They're not going to do anything. They'll tell at us but it's not like we're never been yelled at. Honey, don't cry. It's okay, okay?" I hug him. "It's okay." He soothes. "It's all okay." He rubs my back and his voice is so soothing and gentle. "It's okay." He whispers.
He pulls away and wipe away any remaining tears and then kisses me for a moment. "It's okay."
I think I'm in love with him.
"Will you be my girlfriend again?" He asks.
"Long distance isn't my thing." I tell him flat out.
"Well, we can try it for a little while. If you start to want to break up, I'll move here."
"Peeta..." I bite my lip. "I don't want you to move for me..."
"But I want to be with you." He whispers. "We can just give it a shot. Please?" He whispers. He puts his hands on the small of my back and rests his forehead against my forehead.
We stare into each other's eyes for a long time before I kiss him, my eyes closing when our lips make contact. His hands leave my back to cup my cheeks and I move my arms around his neck and tilt my head back to deepen the kiss. I feel like we're being watched and I don't even care. He swipes his tongue along my bottom lip and I grant him entrance.
A couple minutes of us just making out pass, and then I pull away before I pass out from oxygen deprivation.
"Okay." I whisper. "We can do it."
"I love you." He whispers. "And I know it's a scary subject, but I love you and I don't expect you to say it back yet so don't feel any pressure. Just...just know I really do love you and I plan on tell you that all the time."
"Okay." I whisper. "We need to go back inside before people start getting suspicious." I whisper.
He nods and I walk into the house, only to walk right into my mother. It's clear she's been looking for me. Madge is right behind her. I see Mom look at Peeta, and then at me.
She says something I don't quiet catch and then she grabs my hand and pulls me out of the house. I see Peeta and Madge watching from the doorway. She pulls me across the street and let's go of my hand.
"What the hell?" She demands. I don't think I've seen my mother this mad in my whole life. "I don't know what's going through your mind right now, but they would you think you can't tell me? Katniss, I want you to be able to come with me for anything, and the same goes for Madge! Our relationship isn't strong enough. Why would you think you can't come to me?"
I cross my arms. "You obsess over me like I'm two years old. I know I can come to you but I didn't want to because you freak out about your little girl and it's annoying. Also, Madge is the person that I can talk to about anything. Why the hell did you follow us?"
"We followed you because we were in a group and we saw you coming downstairs with a boy. I didn't think anything of it until Mr. Mellark said he thought you two had sex. When you grabbed Madge and pulled her away I knew he was probably right, so we followed you and hid behind the sand dunes."
"Okay, but that was a private conversation."
"Well it's my job as a mother to know what's going on in your life. Even when your eighteen, I'm going to stay involved." She cups my cheeks. "I love you, honey. Now…was it nice?"