Hi Guys I am so, so, so, so, so sorry I haven't updated in a long time. It's just that school has started again and I have had to revise for exams I have soon. Hopefully after these exams have passed then I should be able to update faster ;) xx

I just wanted to thank my best friend that goes by the name of 'st. madness' for helping me out with the beginning of this chapter. This one is dedicated to all of my closest friends 'Love you all' 3 xx

Chapter 10: It's all coming back to me now

It's like a fire siren or a dream where you are falling because I wake up on Sunday morning suddenly shooting up, all sweaty and in a state of shock.

Oh my god, I had it again. Just as I thought that it couldn't get any worse, I have my childhood nightmare return to me.

Finally looking around again, I actually register things this time; including my dad in the corner of my tent.

'Dad, what are you doing here?' I ask, completely confused as to why he is in my tent.

My dad snaps out of his own daydream state and registers me as if he didn't know where he was or how he got there. Then he looks worried. 'I...um' he starts 'I just had the feeling I had to be here'. He looks around my green and yellow, 1 person tent as if he is looking for something but his gaze slowly drifts around and lands on me 'what did you dream about?'

'What? Erm, nothing'. My parents got really worried and frightened when I was a kid; I don't want that to happen again.

'Robin, I know you had a dream last night, and I know you have been having dreams for a while now. Your mother and sister do not know, and I am a bit annoyed that you haven't told me, but that doesn't matter. I just need to know what you dreamt'

How does he know? I can't believe that my secrets can never stay secret. I bet it was Cassie.

'Robin, please'

I sigh, 'Ok... I had the nightmare, the one I had when I was little. The one with the car crash' I confess. My dad looks at me with a very scared look on his face 'but you don't need to worry, I have been have been dreaming other things that could never come true so Cassie and I think I am dreaming normal dreams for a change' I lie fast, trying to fix the mistake I just made. My dad just gives me a look of sympathy. He knows that I die in the dream and we both know that somewhere subconsciously deep down I desperately want my lie to be true.

My dad approaches me slowly and puts his hands on my shoulders. 'Robyn' he says 'you don't need to worry ok? Just be careful and you will be fine. Remember, Jez, your mother and I, we all love you and we always will, even when we move on. Just be safe and chose the right decisions and no matter what, we will always respect the things you have chosen' he removes his hands and starts to get up 'now, I am going to try and convince your mother to let me drive' he finishes and leaves.

I sit there in shock while I try to process what he had just said and once I think to ask why he is telling me this, I realise he is gone. I decide to pack my clothes in my bag.

'Hi Bobbins' someone shouts and I jump so high I almost fall off the air bed 'can I help you get the tent down?' Jez continues.

'Uh, yeah, I guess so'

'Cool, I'll wait outside until you're ready' Jez says and then disappears quickly.

I pack up my stuff, trying to fit it into my bag (and with great difficulty if I might add) and take my time to think about the time I had camping and how, actually, I had fun with Jez. I am glad that I was forced to go on this trip because, ok maybe I would have spent time with James but if I had stayed home I would have missed some time with my family. And my family deserves my respect.

I would have liked to stay with James because then at least I would have been able to text Cass about my dream returning and I would be reassured by Faith. Here though, I have no signal. Typical.

At least I have had a good time, and Jez has defiantly enjoyed it.

Speaking of the devil, she has never been so quiet. What is she doing out there?

All of a sudden I am surrounded in a flash of yellow, and it isn't lightning.

'Jez! What happened to waiting until I was ready!' I shout, thinking she has run away.

Instead, she comes back under the fallen down tent and hugs me so I fall over. 'Thank you Bobbins' Jez says.

'What for, Hun?' I ask while trying to detach Jez.

'For coming camping and playing with me' she says and gives me a kiss on the head and makes her way out of the entrance of the tent then runs away to help pack up the rest of the gear.

I sit there for a bit thinking, then I pack up the rest of my stuff and put the tent in the car.

'Come on Robyn, get in the car' my mom shouts from inside the car on the passenger side. I guess dad convinced her not to drive.

'Coming!' I shout back and jump into the back seat of the car and we set off. Going home; at last.

Whilst in the car I find myself losing myself in the music from the radio, looking out the window at nothing in particular, and thinking.

I can't believe I dreamt about the car crash again. I haven't had that nightmare since I was a kid. When I had dreams when I was little, they used to come true about 3-7 days later. If I am not just having normal dreams now, then there may be a chance that me and my family only have 3-7 days at the most to live. And it's my fault. If I hadn't have had that dream then it may not have come true. And if it would have come true anyway then at least I wouldn't have to live the next 3 days knowing that we all might die very soon and I can't tell them.

My dad was acting really weird though. I wonder if he knew.

I wish James was here. I miss him. I guess I'll see him in a few hours anyway. Camping would have been more fun if he came along though. And Cassie; If she was here then I would tell her about all my problems when I have them and not tomorrow or the next day. I might ask if I can stay off school or if not then I will pretend to be ill so I can just spend more time with my family before my dream comes true.

I stop thinking for a while and look out the window. We have been driving for hours now and it is getting dark, but not dark enough for me not to see out the outside. I look ahead of the car at the trees going past and notice something dark brown in the pink coloured trees in the distance. It looks a bit like a small eagle.

The next thing I know is the bird is coming towards the car and I see a pair of dark purple (almost black) huge bird eyes heading straight towards us.

Be careful little bird, I silently think. But the bird keeps coming.

Everything from that moment goes too fast. My dad being the considerate person he is swerves out the way to avoid hurting the bird. Instead of getting back on track though the car wheel slips and starts to run down the steep drop on our right. After a second or two after driving off the side we start flipping around and the car goes upside down about 5 times. My sister is screaming with my mom. My dad is covering his head and grunting. Me, I am also screaming. As these few seconds go by (as clichéd as it sounds) my life flashes before my eyes. I see the great times I spent with my family; I also see the good times I had with my friends. But also I see the amount of times I have had this nightmare before last night. I realise that even with my dreams (and how they have been trying to warn me about this for weeks) I know that I have had a perfect family, perfect friends and I have had a rather perfect life.

The car flips over one last time before landing in a ditch. I can feel blood funning from my forehead and down my cheek. Everyone has stopped screaming and my vision is blurry. I realise I am in a state of shock. I can't move. I can't speak. And the only thing I can see out of my foggy eyes is my mom, dad and sister dead and bleeding around me. I refuse to believe they are dead even though the horrendous sight of my sister still clutching her stuffed bear and staring at me with dead, blank eyes, tells me otherwise. I close my eyes knowing what is coming. Knowing that I will be with them forever and I doze off into eternal sleep to the distant sound of a wailing ambulance. The last thing I remember thinking is how the bird's eyes looked a lot like James'.

Ok guys so please tell me what you think. I would like it if you did not shout at me for not updating and I really hope you enjoyed it. LYALL

JJ