Previously on 'Our Little Relapses'
POV Aria
She rolled her eyes at me, "Word on the street is you bathed while I was gone. How did that go?" she asked knowing that it takes a lot for me to be able to get out of bed.
I sighed, "Alright I guess. Ezra did all of the work, but even so, afterwords I was exhausted and went right to sleep. I've been asleep ever since. So, where have our lovely husbands gotten off to?" I asked as I noted that we are the only two people in here right now.
She smiled, "They went to go eat and spend some time with our amazing children. They probably won't be back until morning, but I think Spencer and Toby'll be by sometime after supper time." she informed me.
I looked at the digital clock on the bedside table in between our beds. "So probably in an hour or so, and they'll also bring us something here soon." I stated as I let out a yawn. "I've been sleeping all day, why an I still tired?" I complained.
"Because Mrs. Aria, you're body has gone through a lot and for it to get better it's going to take a lot of rest. I know that's frustrating, but you're going to need to accept that that is going to be your life for a while. It'll all get better though." the nurse informed me as she walked in to make her rounds.
I sighed, "I know. I'm just tired of being tired and I miss my son." I replied as I pressed the button on my bed to make me slightly sit up.
"How's your stomach doing?" I asked her as I started to eat my chicken noodle soup. She's still taking her medication via IV and still can't eat too much. I on the other hand take one of my pain medications orally. I'm still on a constant IV though so I can get fluids, a different pain medication, and all of my antibiotics.
She shrugged, "It still hurts to eat, even if the majority of what I eat is broth from the soup. I'm still trying to figure out how I was ever able to stuff my face with brownies and ice-cream." she informed me with a stressed voice.
I sighed, "At least we're getting better, and you know we're both well under our pre- baby weights." I joked as I looked down at the pile of bones I like to call my body.
She smiled and nodded her head, "Yeah, that is right. I'm sorry to tell you this Ar, but you are getting pretty scary looking you're so skinny." she laughed as she threw her package of crackers at me that she isn't supposed to eat anyway.
POV Aria
I awoke to some extreme pain in my hip, I eyes flew open and I realized that I had leaned my body to that side in my sleep. Tears formed in my eyes as I looked at the clock. It's ten in the morning, hmm, usually there is someone in here with us by now. Where is everyone?
I looked over at Hanna's bed to see that she is still fast asleep. "Hey, Hanna." I whispered. I couldn't make myself speak any louder the pain is so bad, I couldn't move, I couldn't think, I could barely breath and I really feel like I'm about to throw up.
Hanna rolled to her side where she's facing me and groaned, "What?" she murmurer, not bothering to open her eyes, still mostly asleep.
"Hanna" I repeated myself in desperation. This pain is consuming my body, tears are free-flowing down my face and the room feels like its two hundred degrees yet I'm freezing. I'm not sure why I'm in so much pain but I just want it to stop.
She finally opened her eyes, they widened in alarm to see my current state of being. She quickly pressed the call button for a nurse to come in. "Aria? What's going, talk to me!" she asked trying to figure out the reasoning behind my pain.
A nurse walked in, she dropped her clip board, "Mrs. Fitz!" she yelled as she ran to me, "Can you speak? Can you tell me what you're feeling, what hurts?" she asked as she poked at my face checking my vitals, and my heart rate, which by now is racing.
"Hip." I managed to get out before I started uncontrollably vomiting from the pain that I'm experiencing.
POV Hanna.
"I need backup, get me a sedative!" she yelled as she threw Aria's covers out of the way to the foot of her bed and moved her clothes out of the way of her injured hip.
Two more nurses ran in, one with a syringe in her hand, and she stuck it in Aria's arm. Aria was out within seconds, so they removed her bandages and threw them in the waist basket between our beds, they were drenched in blood. What the hell is happening? I didn't dare break their concentration on Aria to ask what was happening to her, but I watched intently.
I heard someone walk through the door, but I didn't bother to look and see who it was. I felt a hand on my shoulder. "What's going on?" I heard Caleb ask me.
I shook my head, "I don't know. She woke me up like this so I called the nurses in." I informed him finally breaking my gaze on Aria to bury my face into my husbands chest. This shouldn't be happening, she was getting better. She was doing so much better. I feel like I'm going to throw up.
Caleb wrapped his arms around me, "Hey, she's alright. She's going to be just fine. Hanna, you're green, you need to calm down." he told me as one of his arms took hold of a bucket that's kept beside my bed for times like this when I can't hold the contents of my stomach.
He grabbed the bucket just in time, because just as he got it in front of me I lost the contents of my stomach into it. Once I was done Caleb shortly moved to dispose of my waste, but was back to my side within a minute. "Mr. Rivers why don't you help your wife into her wheelchair and take her for a walk outside, I'm sure she would love some fresh air right about now." one of the nurses suggested once I had come to my senses a little bit better.
Caleb nodded his head and lifted me into his strong arms, then gingerly placed me into my wheelchair and got me out of the room as fast as he could. "I don't want to go for a walk Caleb. I'm tired and I have a skull splitting headache." I complained. This is the truth, but I really said that because I wanted to stay with Aria and see what was going on with her.
He sighed, "We don't have to walk, we can find a nice shady spot and just breath in some fresh air. I'm sure that'll help your head. I can even give you're mom a call and see if she can bring Tiff up to see you." he suggested as we walked out of the front doors of the hospital and to one of the several big oak trees.
As much as I'd love to see my baby girl and my mom, I'd like to feel a little bit better then I do now when we do so. "I would love to see them, but I would also love to go back to sleep. I'm exhausted Caleb." I groaned as I squeezed my eyes shut trying to block out the light of the sun.
"Okay, then you can sit on my lap and take a nap on me, then when you wake up we can see how everyone is doing and go from there." he suggested as he stopped by the trunk of the tree and keeled down in front of me.
"No," I complained, "I want to go sleep in a bed in a dark room, with you laying next to me." I told him making it clear that I do not want to go for a walk, I do not want to take a nap outside, and I do not want the sun in my eyes with the headache that I have. "Oh my gosh, the room is spinning." I added as the world around me couldn't stay still.
Caleb place his head against my forehead, "Han." he said with worry in his voice, "You're burning up. Do you still feel sick?" he asked me, finally realizing that I do not feel good and I'm upset. Not a good combination for me.
I wanted to slap him at that point. "Yes, I still feel sick. Can we please go back inside now." I begged as he stood back up and started pushing me back to my room inside the hospital.
When we got back to the room there was not only one nurse in there hooking Aria back up to a heart monitor. "That was a fast walk." she commented as Caleb lifted me back into bed and tucked me into my covers.
"She isn't feeling very well, she's kind of warm. We decided that she just needed to get back into bed and stay there for a while." I heard Caleb tell her as my eyes closed and I fell right to sleep, very aware of the fact that we are no where near out of the woods yet. I only thought we were until this morning.
Where am I? There is an older Caleb and Ezra with two teenage kids. One girl with beautiful long blonde hair cascading down her back in beautiful curls. She her eyes are a splitting image of Caleb's. She is wearing a knee-length sea blue shirt a orange belt and a black sleeveless button down collared top. She is the most beautiful girl that I have ever seen.
The boy has chocolate brown curly hair with stunning brown eyes and defined eyebrows. He seriously a spit between Aria and Ezra. He is a very handsome young man. "Dad please. Stephanie's family invited me to go to Hawaii for the summer with them, how could you say no to that? Deprive me of that opportunity?" she asked Caleb with a frustrated, guilt invoking tone.
Caleb's eyes rimmed with tears, "Tiffany! We have never been apart on the anniversary of your mother's death, and I don't think I'm ready to change that." he laid down the law.
Tiffany gave Caleb a cross look. "Dad, mom died when I was a baby. I'm fifteen, almost sixteen now! I don't even remember her, so I don't think that mom would want me to miss out on this opportunity! I think that she would want me to jump on this chance!" she said trying to win her father over so she could spend a summer in paradise.
He gripped the kitchen counter. "Tiffany, if your mother were here she would support my decision. When she was fifteen her best friend was murdered. No one saw that coming. The following years until her death she had some major problems that I never want to happen to you. I keep you guarded for a reason Tiffany! You are my baby girl and I love you and I will do anything to keep you safe, and I don't think going to Hawaii with Stephanie is safe for you. She's done drugs, she spends every other week in detention, and don't think I don't know that she hooks up with any guy that walks her way!" Caleb yelled in frustration of our daughter not understanding why he is thinking the way he is.
She sighed knowing that talking with her dad is hopeless, so she looked to Ezra. "Ezra, if it were your decision you would let me go wouldn't you?" she said in the sweetest voice she could muster up.
Ezra shook his head no, "Sorry sweetie, but I'm with your dad on this one. I don't think that it's a good idea for you to go off, and even if you could care less about spending the day of your mothers death away from your family, doesn't mean that we are ready to spend it away for you. We all miss your mother, and Atticus's mother as well, and you two are the closest things we have to them and that make us even more protective to the two of you." he informed her with a shaky voice.
She looked annoyed at Ezra then looked to Atticus, "But you're letting Atticus go to that lacrosse game with Mike next month. They'll be gone for an entire week!" she shot back at the two of them.
Ezra closed his eyes and took a deep breath, when he opened them he looked a little calmer, "Yes Tiffany, but Mike is his uncle, he is over the age of twenty-one, and he hasn't given me any reason not to trust him. You're friend on the other hand, I've met before. She is one of the most disrespecting inappropriate fifteen year olds I think I have ever met, and I used to work at Rosewood high so I've met some pretty bad kids." he replied with stress in his voice.
From what I can see Tiffany is everything that I ever wanted to be a few years ago. Beautiful, skinny, popular, and most of all she's just as much of a bitch as Alison was before she went missing.
How could that have happened? You would have thought that everyone who took a part in raising her would have made sure that that did not by any means happen.
My eyes shot open and my body is covered in a thin layer of sweat. "Caleb!" I asked as I came back to my senses. I need to talk to him, I need to see my baby girl. I miss my Tiffany, I need to take part in raising my little girl.
He rubbed my arm, oh, he's lying in bed with me. "Yeah Han?" he asked in alarm as to why I've woken up in the state that I am in.
I rolled to my other side to where I was facing him. "I need to see Tiffany. I can't die, I need to be able to raise her and make sure that she knows that I love her and that we know what's best for her." I begged with anxiety from the dream I just had.
He furrowed her eyebrows at me with concern. "Han, where is this coming from?" he questioned trying to understand why I've just said what I said.
My heart started beating through my chest, "I had this dream that both Aria and I died from this and Tiffany turned out to be, well... Alison before she went missing. I can't let that happen, I love my little girl and she needs me, she needs to have her mother to help her understand how to be a good person and to share experiences with. Please just go get her and bring her to me. I won't be able to calm down until you do." I informed him. I could feel every bone in my body trembling, and sweat is poring from my face. I could seriously throw up right now.
Caleb's eyes widened, "Yeah, I'll go get her Hanna. Just calm down, that isn't going to happen to our daughter. Okay? You're going to be a big part of her life and you are a great mother." he reassured me as he got out of bed and put his phone back in his pocket from it's place at the side table, then picked up his keys.
I took a ragged breath, "Hurry. I really need to see her." I ordered as he placed a kiss on the top of my head and hurried out the door to go get our daughter and bring her to me.
Ezra walked in a few seconds later, "Hey, where's Caleb going in such a rush?" he asked as he walked in and saw that I was awake, then he saw that current state that I am in. "Hanna, what's wrong? Are you okay?" he asked in concern as he placed his cup of coffee to the side and stood beside me with concern.
I gripped my blanket with anxiety. "I am a horrible mom and I need to fix that, so I sent Caleb to go get Tiffany. We barely ever see each other, and as her mother I need to play an active roll in her life, no matter how young she is." I told him through my sobs.
He shook his head no at me, "Hanna, you are a not a horrible mom. You are going through a lot and you are stressed out. You have got to calm down, okay? You're body isn't well enough for you to have any amount of stress." he told me, starting to become anxious over the fact that I'm having an anxiety attack.
I could feel my face get hot and my pain surge through out my weak fragile body because of my sobs. "N..oooo! A-ny... goood mommm... would-n't gggooo ooof-f an... an and ner-ly ki... kill them-themself!" I told him through my tears.
"Hanna, calm down! Making a bad decision like giving into the urge of making yourself throw-up does not make you a bad mother. You are a good mom, you love Tiffany and you would jump over the moon for that little girl. Calm. Down." he ordered with an authoritative voice that I never even heard while he was my teacher.
I worked on my breathing, and and my sobs started to ease. I let my body go limp from exhaustion onto my bed and concentrated on every breath. I weakly lifted my arm to the bed side table to retrieve a tissue so I could blow my nose.
Ezra kept a watchful eye on me knowing that there was the very real possibility that I would start freaking out again, "What brought this on?" he asked me knowing that I've been doing so much better and there much have been something to trigger my anxiety attack.
I took another deep breath before answering, "I had a nightmare that I had died and the kids had grown up and Tiffany was a total brat. I don't want my baby to be a brat, I want her to be my little angel. I love her so much, and I went from seeing her all day every day to almost never since I'm stuck here. I'm just ready to be better again." I confessed letting my stress and sorrow leak into my voice.
He nodded his head, "But you aren't dead, and you still are a big part of Tiffany's life. She loves seeing you when she gets the chance to, but until you get better you aren't going to be able to be her main care giver, but that is okay. Looking back this is how Tiffany would want it. She would want you exactly where you are, getting better. She wouldn't want you being home, depressed, and getting worse. You've been through this before so you know that recovery is not a short road, but it's a necessary one that will make you stronger and it'll make you a better mom." he comforted me.
I smiled at him, "I can definitely see why Aria fell for you. You definitely know how to make a girl feel better." I commented before my eyes got heave and I fell back into slumber once again.
A few minutes later the opening and closing of the door awakened me. I slowly blinked my eyes open to see my wonderful husband with the baby carrier in his hand. "There's my little girl." I greeted them as I adjusted my bed to where I was in the sitting position.
Caleb smiled as he saw that I had managed to calm down in his absence. "Hey baby girl. Want to see you're mommy?" he asked our daughter as he unbuckled her from her seat and lifted her into his arms, then proceeded to carry her to me and place her on top of my arm and next to my body.
I smiled at my daughter, "Hi baby. How's my baby girl doing? Mommy's missed you. Yes, yes she has. Have you missed mommy?" I talked with her daughter as I took in every feature of her tiny little face. She is fast asleep and seems to be very content in her mommy's arms.
Caleb knelt down on his knees beside us. "Of course she has. She loves her mommy." he replied for our baby. He then stroked the top of his hand over my cheek. "So how're you doing Han?" he asked me after a moment of taking in this family scene.
I shrugged, "I'm just happy to see Tiffany. I don't want to go that long without seeing her ever again. You need to bring her to come see me more often. I can't stand not seeing her, I think that's what caused my nightmare." I informed him with a sigh.
He nodded his head, "Well since you seem to be getting better I think that is something that we can manage, but you still need your rest so don't push it when she is here. We all want you to recover as soon as realistically possible." Caleb agree as he placed a kiss on both of our foreheads.
I held my little angel until she woke up from her nap, then Caleb took her from me and fed her a bottle. "How's she been doing with formula? I was hoping that I'd be able to nurse her for a little while longer then I did." I asked as I watched my husband feed our daughter her lunch. It honestly feels backwards since I'm usually nursing her.
He shrugged, "She seems to be doing okay with it. I really wasn't there when they first really started feeding her formula since I was with you in the hospital, but I didn't get any bad reports and she seems to be taking it just fine." he reported back, smiling at the fact that even though there has been so much going on our little girl is doing great.
I frowned. I made Caleb miss little pieces of Tiffany's life. All of this really affects more then me and Aria. I looked over at her sleeping figure and the images of her this morning rushed back into my mind. "What happened to her this morning?" I asked Ezra who is reading a book next to her.
He looked up at me from his book, he marked his place and set it on his lap. "She moved to her side in her sleep, it popped a few of her stitches and with the infection it caused her a great deal of pain. They gave her a light sedative and some pain medication so she'll still be out of a while, but she's okay." he reassured me as his gaze shifted from me to Aria's bloodied bandaged hip.
I nodded my head, "That's good. Is Atti coming up here today?" I asked wanting to see the other child in my life too. I miss that little guy so much.
Ezra shrugged, "It depends on how she feels when she wakes up, but seeing that she probably isn't going to wake up for a little while, I'm going to go grab some lunch. Can I bring you anything Caleb?" he asked as he put the book beside Aria on the bed and stood up.
Caleb nodded his head, "Yeah I'd love something to eat." he agreed just as his stomach accordingly growled, which made both of the men in the room laugh.
"Okay then, I shouldn't be long. I'll be back in a few." he said as he walked out the door, genitally closing it behind him, careful not to disturb Tiffany or Aria.
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