Hey guys! So today I thought I would be real with you guys about my life and how I'm feeling right now. I know you guys were expecting a chapter, but I want you to know who I really am. So, here it goes.
In my authors notes, I seem like this cool, awesome girl that everyone would want to be friends with. But, in reality, Some people don't want to be my friend. They think I'm annoying, stupid, and weird. That's what people think of me. Now in my opinion, I'm not stupid, in fact, nobody is stupid. They're just not that smart. But I can't deny that I'm annoying and weird. People judge who I am before they get to know me. They think I'm annoying. But, weird I think is another word to describe unique. We're all unique in our own ways, so that makes us weird in our own ways.
But, I care too much about what other people think of me. Every time I say something to someone, I think to myself 'that was so stupid. Now they don't like me!' It's like one day when I wake up in the morning I say I'm not going talk to anyone today or I'm not going to say anything stupid. But then, I say something that makes me look stupid. So I beat myself up over it. I tell myself that nobody likes me and that I should just pretend I'm sick so I don't have to go to school the next day. I let the expression of the person I was talking to overpower how I act.
I wanted to wear my Shaytards shirt to school one day but my mom said people would make fun of me and I listened. I let that thought of getting made fun of overpower me. So I put the shirt back in my closet.
It's funny how people judge other people for their flaws when they have flaws too. I just hate those people who always act like they're perfect and are flawless. Most of the people in my choir class are like that. They act like snots. They make fun of other people. And they're called the popular girls. I just want to punch them in the face. They get picked for everything.
But one time, I got the solo that they really wanted. So they said whispered to each other that somebody else should have gotten the part. I knew they were jealous. They got picked for everything up until then.
I only have 2 best friends. I have other friends, but they spread rumors about me, wrote a fake love letter and said you have a secret admirer. Those two best friends like me for who I am and don't think I should change. I'm thankful to have those two people.
That's why I love fanfiction. People are nice and don't write mean reviews. When I read one of your reviews it brightens up my day cause I know you guys are engaging in the story. I love you guys. I wouldn't be writing if it had not been for you guys giving me positive reviews, favoriting and following my stories. That's what make me keep going in life, knowing I'm doing something right.
My mom is getting married again and I have new cousins who are 7 and 6. The 7 year old hates me. She says I'm mean to her when I'm really not. I don't have a good relationship with my cousin on my dad's side. She's always playing video games with my brother and I'm stuck doing nothing.
So, I really appreciate you guys. I just wanted to let you know that. Thanks for being so supportive! I will see you tomorrow! BYE!