Sorry for the long delay in updating. Im terrible at time management when it comes to the real world and assignments. But Im on holiday for a few weeks. YAY for me.

I tried to block the sound out of the peoples thoughts around me on the plane. I close my eyes and pretended to be asleep in an attempt to keep the woman over from me from trying to make a conversation with me, which she really wanted to do, among other things.

No, I did not wish to join the mile high club with her. Not today. Not ever. This flight couldn't be over fast enough. I may have no choice but to keep my eyes closed the entire flight. Not that I really minded, but I should have at least plugged my ipod on before i pretended to be asleep.

My mind wandered, to thoughts of my wife. I would be seeing her soon. I couldn't wait to run my fingers through her hair and hold her in my arms, kiss her soft lips, and smell her delicious scent. I missed my wife, I loved her, but now it came with a tinge of guilt, anger, maybe it was jealousy?

No it wasn't guilt, was it? Maybe it was more like self pity, me feeling sorry for myself because I couldn't make my wife happy enough that she felt the need to climb on a goddamn werewolf...oh yes there was some definite anger there.

I let out a deep breath I hadn't even realized I was holding. I was going to have to talk to Bella about this, possibly as soon I saw her. It couldn't wait, it would eat me up inside, and I would always be thinking about it, it would be sitting at the back of my mind gnawing away at my brain, cutting into my sanity until I blew up at her and made the situation probably worse then what it already was.

BPOV

I was in the car driving towards the airport before the plane was anywhere near landing. I just couldn't wait any longer. I wanted to see Edward, so badly.

It was late as I sped towards the airport. I looked out the side windows as I drove. Out there somewhere were the children of the moon, waiting for the full moon, waiting for their chance to attack. I would be ready for them, and I wondered if they would be ready for me. But I wondered what they did in their spare time. I knew for myself that different immortal creatures could get along, but from what I had heard of the children of the moon. They were not ruled by their brain but rather brute animal instinct. A wild animal. Something that could not be tamed. It almost seemed a shame to go to war with a creature that somewhere deep inside them was still human. I shook the thought from my mind, it was something that had to be done.

"Any minute now," I said looking at the arrival time of the plane Edward was on, then at my watch, then back at the board with the times. I ran my fingers through my hair, looked around, looked back at the board with times, back at my watch. I had done this numerous times, and I decided anyone watching me would probably think something was wrong with me. I folded my arms in an attempt to stop myself from looking at my watch but ended up tapping my foot instead. In the end I just growled in frustration at myself and went and sat down on the seats available and flicked through the magazines. Nothing caught my interest and my foot started to tap again.

EPOV

We weren't far from landing now, and so I pretended to wake up. Luckily for me the woman that had wanted to speak to me earlier had lost interest in me, I hoped now that I had opened my eyes it would stay that way. I settled in for the landing knowing soon I would be seeing Bella's beautiful face again.

I quickly made my way out of the plane after landing, and it didn't take me long and I had my luggage and had gone through customs. I was on my way to the rental car area when I saw her, standing there biting her lip trying not to smile but doing a terrible job at it. I couldn't help the smile that spread across my face as she ran towards me.

" Bella," I breathed as she wrapped herself around me. I pulled her close to me, oh how i had missed her. We kissed each other gently, and she tasted as magnificent as I had remembered. We looked at each other smiling with our hands in each others hair.

" I missed you." she said.

" And I, you." I replied, kissing her softly on the forehead. " I'm glad your here."

She shrugged, " Yeah well once i knew you were coming I couldn't wait for you to get here. I'm telling you time felt like it passed incredibly slow."

I smiled, thinking of the annoying woman on the plane. " You have no idea," I said with a chuckle.

"Where were you going?" Bella asked as she pulled herself away from me.

"To get a car, but well your here now so no need. Lead the way Mrs. Cullen."

Bella took my hand, " That I will Mr Cullen."

Even though the car had been her car here, I still managed to take the keys off her and take over driving duty. I would still need to look at getting me a vehicle since she would take this one back to Volterra when she left me...mmm when she left me. I wondered if she would return to Volterra tonight before dawn.

I drove to the closet nicest hotel, which wasn't very far at all. While Bella told me all the great things about the Volturi, I listened intently asking questions when appropriate.

We walked quietly to our hotel room and let ourselves in, locking the door behind us. Bella's mind was obviously somewhere else, as I guess mine was also. Was i going to confront Bella now about Jacob? After just getting off the plane? Should i even bother unpacking on the off chance I end up back on a plane in a hour if this doesn't work out. I wouldn't even care where the plane was going as long as it was away from here...but no, what was I thinking. It would be fine. We would discuss this like adults. We would stay together. Of course we would, we had to.

" Edward?" I heard Bells voice invade my mind.

" Oh, what was that my love?" I asked. I didn't have a clue what she had asked me, or if she had even asked me anything.

" I asked how everyone was back home? Are you alright?" she asked, concern showing on her face.

" yeah, I'm fine." I replied. I couldn't even use jet lag for an excuse.

" So i was thinking," Bella started, but I didn't let her finish.

" I think we need to talk Bella, I know I just got off the plane but theres something we really need to talk about."

Bella looked relieved, " Oh good, cause well I have something to talk to you about to, I was hoping we could talk first before anything else."

" Oh ok" this caught me off guard, what did she want to talk about, could it be the same thing I wanted to talk about? I guess there was only one way to find out.

" Well you go first then" and I sat on the seat across from her and held her hand, gently rubbing circles on her hand with my thumb.

" Ok" and she swallowed loudly. " You know I love you right," she said quietly without looking at me, and I nodded. " I love you more than anything you know, and I never ever want to be without you. You understand that don't you Edward?"

I nodded.

" Well something happened Edward, and I need to tell you. It was bad, I don't know what I was thinking, but...but..."

" I know something happened between you and Jacob, Bella." I blurted out

Her eyes flew to mine, shock and fear written all over her features. " You do?" she asked softly.

" Yes I do, i don't know all the gory details but I know something happened." saying that out loud had been difficult, I felt like I couldn't breath acknowledging it out loud to Bella, to my wife. I struggled to retain my calm posture.

She nodded, and let out a strangled sob. " I'm so sorry."

I couldn't respond to her yet, bet she had more to say.

"It was all my fault Edward, all of it. Please don't blame Jacob for any of it. He didn't instigate any of it."

"It?" I managed to choke out. What exactly was it? I clenched my fists as anger coursed through my body. I did not want to to wreck this hotel room.

"We didn't have sex Edward, I promise you that, we didn't even kiss."

I relaxed a little at that, I was still hurt and angry but yet somewhat relieved at what she said.

" You believe me don't you?" she pleaded.

"Yes I believe you." I replied, it was all I could manage. But the thought lingered, if she didn't kiss him, or have sex with him, what did she do? it involved her in bra and panties. I couldn't control the growl that escaped my lips. " Why did you do it?" I managed to ask.

" I don't know." She sobbed.

" You do know!" I seethed, my voice louder then i had intended. My emotions were starting to get the best of me. She actually jumped at the tone of my voice. I had a long list of emotions I was trying to deal with, along with a long list of things I wanted to say to her. I fought to keep in control, to not turn this into some argument over everything that solved nothing.

"Because I'm stupid, because I wasn't thinking, because I'm selfish, because I was only thinking of myself, because I got excited by it" she yelled, but it was directed at her self then she slumped onto the floor. "Because it was something different," she said quietly, " thats why i did it, because he was different, he wasn't the norm. because it made me feel...all excited. I'm not trying to make excuses for what I did, and I know its wrong." she looked at me, her eyes pleading for forgiveness. " It was so wrong, and its not because I was bored with you, or because I don't love you with all my heart."

"Something different?" I asked, almost unable to believe what she had said. I wasn't mad anymore, it was just grief that racked my entire body and I dropped to my knees in front of her. " You want something different? Am i not enough?"

Is this what she wanted? other men? could i share her?...No i don't think i could.

Her hands reached for my face to face her. " Yes, yes you are enough. I...I got bored Edward, not with you but with our life. I know I have never really talked that much about it, but you know I have struggled with this exsistence. And its no excuse for my behavior but it's all I got to give you for an explanation."

" You love Jacob." It wasn't really a question, more of a statement.

She nodded, "but I know who I cant live without." she replied.

I had started to calm down despite the situation. Because despite the fact she had done me wrong. She was suffering, and because I loved her so much I didn't want to see her pain.

"Me, I hope." I said quietly.

"Yes you." she replied. " I'm sorry Edward. I will never put you through something like that ever again. Will you ever forgive me?"

I sighed. I already knew I would forgive her. Despite the anger I still felt, I knew I couldn't be without her, that was just impossible. Of course I would forgive her. It was the only option I had.

" Of course." I replied. " You know I cant live without you Bella, I would rather have you with all your flaws, then not you have at all. But promise me one thing."

She nodded.

"Talk to me Bella. Don't leave me on the outside, I'm your husband, please talk to me about what is going on with you. Thats what we are suppose to do."

She nodded again, " Ok, yes ok. Of course, anything."

"I'm still angry about what happened, but I'm sure it will pass, because being with you is by far the most important thing to me."

She nodded with her head down, and reached for my hand, gently bringing it to her lips and kissing my hand softly in different spots. "I'm so sorry, so so sorry." She continued to mumble this, for how long...I did not know. I think I needed to hear her apologize as much as she wanted to apologize. And I believed her sorrow.

The next chapter should be up soon, its almost done. It just didnt seem right to put it in this chapter. Thanks for reading.