A/N- Sorry for the long wait on updates but as compensation you get three chapters at once! None of which have been proof read as i was eager to get them posted. Also I know Mary Margaret is supposed to be confronting Gold but i felt there were bigger issues that needed addressing first. Hope your all still reading and enjoying, despite long waits on update, this is turning into a longer fic then intended. Done for fun not profi

Chapter 11

I knock lightly on the door, secretly hoping the knock is quiet enough that she doesn't hear and I can scurry away and carry on avoiding her. It seems she does hear it because the door is opened almost immediately. Before I can brace myself, explain myself or even make eye contact she slaps me so hard round the face that she nearly knocks my head clean of my shoulders.

"You bastard!"

"OK, I deserved that." I say as I roll my jaw to check its still attached.

"I don't need your permission!"

"I know you don't, that's not what I meant. Look Regina I have a hell of a lot of explaining to do and even more apologising, so can I come in please."

I can see she's conflicted. The pure anger is still clearly visible in her eyes but I know she needs to know the reason why and so when she moves slightly to the side I enter the house before she can change her mind.

"I was expecting you earlier."

"I wasn't sure if you would speak to me. I took my time showering and getting ready. I waited till I knew Henry would have left for school."

"Well I'm glad you showered, I hate the smell of wet dog."

I have never felt so scared in my life. I'm not scared of her temper, although I probably should be. I'm scared that this is always how she's going to look at me, with utter contempt and disgust. I'm also scared that there is no coming back from this, that I've lost her for good.

"Regina I'm so so sorry. It was a stupid mistake, it didn't mean anything and if I could take it back I would. I never meant for you to get hurt."

"You mean you never meant for me to find out. You're only sorry you got caught."

"No, I'm sorry I betrayed you and that you saw it because if I saw you kissing someone else god that would kill me!" I look at her and can read the 'think before you speak' expression on her face.

"Regina I know how badly I've fucked up, believe me I get it."

"Then explain it to me, because I have no idea what the hell you were thinking."

"I felt beat up, everywhere I turned someone was waiting to give me a hard time. Ruby was nice to me, she paid me a few compliments, made me feel like I wasn't a complete asshole and I was weak enough and drunk enough to allow it to turn my head."

"Oh so now we get to it, allow me. 'I was drunk', 'she kissed me', 'she took advantage'. Did I miss anything?"

"I'm not putting all the blame on her. I'm a grown woman. I saw this escalating all night and I should have walked away." I see Regina's eyes narrow and I know what she is going to ask.

"Would you have stopped?"

"Of course I would!"

"Don't you dare be offended that I asked that."

"I'm sorry, you had every right to ask that, not that you need my permission. But yes even if you hadn't scalped her in the middle of the street, I would have stopped."

"Why?"

"Because I don't want her, I never wanted her, all I ever wanted was you."

"That's certainly not the message I've been recieving."

I move towards her and put my arms round her to my surprise she allows it, but not for long. She pushes me back, she's shaking her head and I know she hates herself for momentarily allowing herself to enjoy the comfort my arms offered.

"No, you can't just do that. You can't act like a complete asshole, break my heart and waltz back into my life like nothing happened. I won't allow it."

"Regina I'm sorry, that's not what I was trying to do. I just wanted to try and make this better and if you're feeling anything like I am being in each other arms is the only thing that will ease the pain."

"You really are the most unbearably arrogant asshole."

"And your what? An angel? If that's what you think I hate to tell you this but your halo is slipping."

"How dare you?"

"How dare you?! One minute I'm living my life in Boston. A sad, lonely life but my life never the less. The next minute my entire world is turned upside down. And no one gives a shit about how I feel about it all."

"I think you'll find I did. I was here for you, ready to listen when you were ready to talk. You struggling to comprehend something that is quite frankly incomprehensible isn't the problem. You running off to get drunk and make out with Ruby, instead of talking to me, that's the problem."

"I've said sorry for that, and I mean it. I'm serious Regina, I am sorry."

"I need you to leave. I'm serious to Emma, I just can't be around you right now. I'm sorry."

"Don't be sorry, just let me stay. Your right I was a coward. I should have come to you and told you everything I felt. I guess running is still my default setting. But I'm ready to talk now, please I want to make this right. I need to fix this."

"I'm not sure you can."

"Don't say that, please, don't. We can get through this I know we can."

"Emma just go. I'll talk to you when I'm ready and in the mean time try to keep your hand to yourself."

It was her parting shot and a low blow, one that was well deserved. How is it that even when I'm trying to apologise I still come across as a complete dick? This isn't the end. I can't let this be the end. I will win back the woman I love, or die trying.