Hies!!! How are you all sorry for the wait My Uncle from Calgary was here in BC for a visit with his family for the weekend so I didn't have much time to write. I'm so happy! I've got a whole entire thirty reviews!!! I'm actually more happy now! Because I got SEVEN REVIEWS!!!! I love you all thank you! I practically cried when I saw how many I'd gotten!

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Thank you Sapphire Sword: Yeah I know, I love writing about their past. I'm doing my best to keep Kai in character, but it's harder than it looks! It's a great break to be able to write him when he was more innocent and had all his faith in his friend.

Thanks to Phoenix Bandit: I'm glad you like reading my fic!

Thanx Hilary;: even though I really had trouble understanding it I think I got the gist of you tried to say and don't worry: I meant them to be together, just not lovers more lik brotherly sisterly love.

Many thanx for Musei Kage: A rabid fan girl? Hahaha!!! That might be funny but not very realistic, if you get what I mean I might use it as a one shot for something funny though if I feel like writing something not totally A Promise for a Promise based. Thanx for the suggestion though, I love getting them!!!!

Some thanx to Kohari: Wow. This review wins the award for the most creative review of the century.

Kai: don't be so bitchy, at least the godamn person reviewed at all!!!

Me: And you're callin' me bitchy you need to soap your mouth! Any ways Thanx a lot for taking the time at all to review, you probably just had other things to do at the time at least I know you read it. Thanx!

thanks to Shaedowe: Thanx for reviewing this chapter and others really happy about it! I love getting new reviewers!!! Thanx byes

and last but not least racx: Thank you for not dieing! I was having a heart-attack thinking I had killed someone!!! lol I know I'm not wonderful, but not that bad! L.o.l Hahaha. BTW did you notice you typed it in caps? If so than it's an original style! : )

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Thinking of you...

Kai sat on the roof of the building where he finally let his mask slip off. His back was to the ledge looking down between his knees at the concrete, his hair shadowed his muddy crimson eyes.(I never thought he had pure crimson eyes I always found when I looked at him on the television he had brown/crimson kind of blended together) He felt like he was on a roller coaster, his head swam, his stomach clenched and unclenched. Swirling memories ran through his head, confusing fragments of information that didn't make sense. He struggled to fight off the rush of emotions, guilt for his actions, sadness for what he had lost, longing for what could have been, frustration at how he could only remember bits and pieces, anger at himself. He fought of the tears burning his eyes. Snarling, he held his head in his hands, tugging at his hair.

What's wrong with me? One dream brought back all of this? This is also confusing I can't make them out! I know they're mine though but it's like trying to hold onto water slipping through your hands!! Kai thought angrily running a hand through his slate hair. Why? Why did I do it? We could have left together and be adopted together, and lived together like brother and sister. Why did I take Black Dranzer? Was I that power hungry? Was I that shallow? I want to go back and change it all so much... That last longing thought was enough to shoot him in the heart with an unseen bullet. He fisted his hands, digging nails in his palm, leaving four half moon arks in their place when he opened them. Though his face stayed blank, as if he was just a robot, his eyes gave it away. The turmoil eating him up inside shone clearly through. He was confused by everything, and nostalgia was eating out his heart.

He wished Cherrelle were there like in the old times. Though they were harder and much more painful at least he had a true friend, but he destroyed that, he was too self-absorbed to realize how much more she meant to him than a Black Dranzer, he had taken it though he had destroyed the trust he had in his only friend. He had as in his fault.

Despite his desperate efforts his tears overflowed. running down his cheeks leaving blue streaks where they washed away his war paint. Though he made no sound; it was just as painful as if he had pulled a tantrum. His teardrops stained the concrete in dark splotches. Drip, drip, drip. Was all he had to disturb his unhappy thoughts. I was so stupid! Such an idiot! He thought looking at the sky. It was a clear night and the stars were shining brightly yet the moon overpowered them all. Even though the city lights brought down the glow and it wasn't as beautiful as in his dream, he still wished Cherrelle were there.

Kai looked at the notebook beside him. It was for when he remembered parts of his past he would always write them in there. He pulled the red pen off the Velcro and began to write his dream. Painfully recalling it all as if he was still there, still dreaming. Feeling every brush of her tail, every vibration of her purr, hearing every sound of her breath, every rise and fall of her chest as she slept, every expression on her face, every flash of her fangs, every snarl and curse during their brawl, every smile and smirk she made when they taunted each other, everything, from how they got there to how they got there to how she had murmured his name, to how he had thought he was lucky to have such a friend. For the fiftieth time that night he asked himself: How could I have committed something so horrible? Why? She didn't deserve it!

"What have I done...?" He whispered to himself. He wiped the tears away leaving a blue smudge on his arm and stood up. There was no way sulking like this was helping him, he was better than that, he needed to think about what to do next. Kai looked around, and saw a discarded broom laying a ways off. He walked over and snapped they end off bringing it in front of him like a sword.

"It's been a while." He said to no one in particular. He swung it down then up, followed by a series of movements which he only half remembered. Aside from being with Cherrelle; this had always helped him to think. My body remembers. And someday so will my mind. The reason they had martial arts there was to teach your mind and body to work together. Maybe I should associate it with our training. Tyson would have a field day of whining. He finished the combination and decided to go through it again. I wonder how tonight looks from the Biovolt spire? Why don't I just go and see? They'd never know I was there... except maybe Cherrelle, but then again that's not such a bad thing. With that he threw the broom back where it was. He stepped up to the ledge and looked down. Vertigo took its toll and before he lost his balance, which would probably kill him if he screwed this up, he jumped. He smiled (more like a smirk) at the roar of the wind I his ears, the sting of the wind whip his hair and making his eyes tear. Just as he was reaching the end he grabbed onto street-lamp-like pole by the entrance in the shadows and swung down. He walked calmly away down the street as if nothing he hadn't just jumped from a 33-story building

With Rei...

Rei watched the swirling emotions going through his captain. No wonder he wanted to get away! He looks like he's redoing world a war one and two inside himself. He watched the emotions passing across his captain's face. First there were so many emotions going through his Kai's head he couldn't make it out, pain as he clenched his head, sickness. That dream must've triggered more memories. It must be so confusing, having all these pieces of memories. Frustrating too. Confusion; self-disgust, Rei analyzed it all. He must have done something he wasn't too proud of. Desperate longing passed over his face; sadness, He looks positively heart broken. Rei's eyes widened immensely as his usually stoic captain started to cry- silently yet still crying. Wow! Is Kai...actually crying!?

"What have I done..." His sharp ears picked up Kai's whisper. What has he done that's made him like... like this? It must have been pretty awful. Why do I get the feeling it has to do with the tournament? He watched as the phoenix-bearer wiped his face removing his streaked war paint, smudging it on his arm guard instead. He looks younger, more...innocent. He watched as Kai started to write in the book. Rei saw how absorbed he was in it and wondered what he was writing. Finally after about a half hour of waiting Rei watched Kai pick up the broom with interest as he snapped of the end, and fascination when did the martial arts move's. He noticed his face grew calmer and concentrated seemingly not noticing a few fumbles and miss-steps. He must not remember it very well. Where'd he learn it? Kai stopped and redid it with fewer mistakes this time. He finished the combination and threw the now broken broom back. Kai stepped up to the ledge and Rei watched with horror when he swayed slightly looking down. Has he gone suicidal!? Now I've seen it all! He's going to kill himself! I've got to stop him!!!! But before he could do anything Kai jumped. Holy smokes! Kai! He thought running to the ledge he watched as Kai fell but disappeared near the entrance. He saw him walking out as if nothing happened and his stomach fell to his shoes in relief. I wonder where he's going? Oh well I've snooped around him too much already. It's his business. I'm going to bed. At least I know he's alright- for now. Rei thought turning around to the door.

With Cherrelle...

"Nooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How can it be! What is it! Why can't I beat him!"for what seemed like the hundredth time that day a black blade was thrown from the dish. Why can't I concentrate? She sighed in defeat.

"I'm taking a break" she snapped at the lady whom she'd found was named Bess. She pulled off the helmet and dropped it to the floor tiredly as she walked to the door jumping a little as Boris sauntered into the room.

"Cherrelle, you have been doing well in all your tests, I myself must applaud you you've perfected your martial technique, and are able to do the physical tests ahead of time, but one thing still evades you..." He trailed off; she knew what he was talking about. Cherrelle looked away angry at him.

"I know so drop it. You didn't come here to taunt my failures."

"Yes, a I was saying since you are lucky I will allow you to do the final test tomorrow." He smirked at her dumbstruck face.

"The final test?" she repeated raising an eyebrow.

"Yes, the final test. Scared?" he asked. She scowled

"In your dreams."

"Hehehehe- Good, because if your failure here weighs you down- I won't be there to punish you- not where you'd be."

"You'd kill me?"

"No. The test has no safety allowances, you lose or you pass. Your choice."

"If I fail than valuable resources will be spent, no?"

"No. If you fail than we have no use for you. Shadow Cyro will not accept failures. You're lucky he doesn't judge simulation battles. " Her eyes narrowed.

"If Kai defeated it than so will I."

"Kai? What happened to 'traitor'?" Boris sneered. Her hate for Kai was a good thing for Biovolt, but he frowned when he noticed the edge to her glare dissipate. "not developing a soft spot for old friends are we?" eh whispered icily through clenched teeth. We cannot afford it! I must have misjudged her hate for the boy. If their friendship runs so deep that it's disrupting her work, something must then be done.

"Of course not! Don't be absurd. You really are dense, I thought I had proved our friendship was over!" she emphasized the use of over by throwing her arms out palms down, making the blades on her arms jerk a bit.

"Good."

"I'm taking a break. What time is it?" she snarled at him.

"12:00pm sharp, I expect you back in an hour. Remember training starts at 7:00am so don't be late, I won't tolerate fatigue in my students."

"Yessir." She said through clenched teeth suppressing the urge to punch his goggles into his head. Walking stiffly to the door she swung it open. Once she was out she ran to the High Terrace practically breaking the iron enforced oak doors off their hinges as she ran in her desperation for solitude. Now she could roam Biovolt freely she didn't have to hide to get up here but she still used the rope. Old and ratted; it still held amazingly. Slumping against the wall she did her best to blend in with the shadows brooding about the day.
The final test?! I'll kill myself! If Kai were here he'd help! I need my friend! she mentaly sighed at how pitiful she was.
I'm thinking like I did when I was on the streets. I can't seem to concentrate. I'm letting my feelings get in the way. It's been showing in my work. I need to think. She was confused and at a loss, she didn't know what to feel- or when she did how she would deal with it.
It's the full moon tonight. I wonder if Kai can see it too? She mused.

With Kai...

He turned down many alleyways and streets stopping at random intervals remembering the way to Biovolt. Picking up the pace, as he got closer, he began running. Reveling in the feeling of wind rush past his hair.
I need to go skydiving one of these days. It'll be easier than jumping off a building and the roar of wind is way louder. He smirked as he ran. When he reached the outskirts of Biovolt he paused before walking up to the stone wall carefully dodging cameras' views as they passed by. He jumped up grabbing the edge with his fingers before hoisting the rest of his body over gracefully landing before dashing to hide behind a bush. He tried to spot all the cameras in the area, and he found seven though he was almost positive there were more. This would be tricky enough getting in without extra hidden camera;'s. It helped a little his scarf wasn't there it would be too much of a beacon to the computers. Carefully he dashed between trees and shrubs. Always just in the nick of time as the cameras moved from side to side. Trusting his instincts he unconsciously moved to a ledge that went around the whole building. He jumped onto that and from there onto a window sill and then to a drain pipe that led to one of the lower platforms of the building, Once he had pulled himself up and over the wall of the platform he ran to a door swinging it open her was confronted with stairs that led up or down. He chose up. The stairs spiraled as he went. They were very steep and he jumped two at a time, but he was barely winded when he reached the top. Kai ran across the platform he was now on and looked up at the straight concrete brick wall. The stairwell to that terrace/platform had a security camera in it so he and Cherrelle had risked the punishment once to leave a rope there. Worth every ear splitting yell in the lecture from Boris they got in return. Every full moon they would go up there and watch it. That dream had made him remember it. He looked the rope hanging down. He grabbed the rope and pulled; checking if it was secure. After he was sure, he began to pull himself up to the terrace. Climbing over the wall the sight found was exactly like in his dream except Cherrelle wasn't there. Or is she? He saw something pass through the shadows, flitting forwards and stopping; getting closer. Suddenly he caught a flash of red.

"You can come out Cherrelle. I see you." He said coldly. She stepped out smirking but it turned cold in disgust when she spoke. Her voice spat venom.

"Why are you here. Looking for a way to get me back, Traitor? Caus' I have news for you: I'm not coming back."

"I came here because of a dream, not because I thought you would be here." Kai answered convincing himself mostly. His voice just as cold as hers yet more civil and not like he was on the brink of attacking. "Why are you here"

"That- I-is none of your business." She retorted fumbling a little in uncertainty, but did her best to hide it. Think! Think! Why am I here? Why am I here?! Hmmm... Maybe he won't press it. He doesn't pose a threat- yet. If he gets annoying I can always go inside and he can't follow me there. Maybe I can use this to my advantage. Suddenly she dropped her malicious attitude she sat down. Leaning her back to the door of the stairwell that they would have used had there not been a camera there (Confusing to write!) slowly she let her body relax again yet kept on guard. She closed her eyes and calmly thought back on he day.

"Sit down. Your too tall from here." She demended her eyes still closed but her ears straining to hear his movements. Kai was completely confused. He glared at her seeking an explanation, but her cool facade gave away nothing. Her tricks are old if she trying to lull me into thinking we're still friends than she's even more dim-witted than I thought. Oh well I'm not in mood for a fight, mind as well enjoy it while it lasts, I could use this to get some information.

He sat down aside her as she shuffled away slightly to make room.

"What was your dream?" she asked calmly opening her eyes to look at the full moon, curious as to what provoked him to come here. Her eyes were so dead and calm they looked lifeless, yet deep broodings could be seen beyond it. He imitated her, looking to the moon.

"It was of one time when we came here."

"What happened?"

"Not much. At least I don't think so. It's the only time that I can remember, but I know we came here almost every full moon." He closed his eyes and folded his arms, focusing his other senses o the world round him.

"Hn."

What have you been doing?" He asked still distrustful of her motives.

"Training... a lot." she added at the end.

"I know. Have you been doing well?"

"Yes, I take the final test t-tomorrow." She said hesitating at the end, when deep pit of dread ate a whole through her stomache.

"......" he didn't answer.The Final test? So soon? She is much batter than I first expected. Her determination to conquer her weaknesses has driven her to attain impossible goals.

"Are the Bladebreakers doing well?" she asked casually. Too casually for his liking, narrowing his eyes he questioned her.

"Is that why you're not acting like my enemy?" he countered with another question.

"Huh?" she pretended to look confused.

"Why are you acting as though we're just having a friendly chat? Because you want information on my team?" his voice was calm but dangerously severe.

"Kai," she sighed heavily, "I'm not biting your head off because I want a friend before I have to be an enemy. Tomorrow I'm taking the Final test." She made up.

"You dare look to me for sympathy? The nerve of you astounds me."

"I know." she acted smug. Her first plan not working

"So for this hour or so, we can just be friends, and at the tournament we're the worst of enemies?" He asked, noting the flash of triumph in his eyes, confirming his suspicion

"You can even pretend I'm someone else, but I know you need a friend too." she egged on.

"I have friends: the bladebreakers."

"So, your still my enemy." Her face fell a bit.

"I can't believe I'm even having this conversation. You think after what you've done we can just go back to being friends? Even for a while? Heal the wounds so they can be torn twice as much at the tournament? You try and make me think I have a chance at being your friend an when we're at the tournament use it against me. I've used that trick many a time when I was at Biovolt so I've got news, which you should have known: I'm immune." He told her scornfully before getting up and walking away.

"You said you would never betray me. " She spoke grimly and in an undertone as he turned his back. "You said we would always be friends! I believed you! Who did you use that trick on Kai? Other so-called 'friends'! When you left I looked to Cyro. He promised he would always be there! He promised he would always take care of me, but he left too! Even my mother promised she would protect me from everything and always love me, but she gave me up to Boris! Why does everyone betray me!? Why!? What have I done! Was I that naïve? That gullible!? All of you betrayed me!!! Why!!" She was screaming at the top of her lungs now practically begging him for an answer to the question shredding her inside and ripping out her already sore and broken heart, but he couldn't answer. He knew she had been betrayed but this was not how she should have reacted. When he replied there was no pity or remorse in his voice just distaste at her weakness.

"So you betrayed us? Just to get back? You say I betrayed you, yet you've done just what I did, and you still accuse me. Cyro left you for a reason and instead of working to get him back find out what that reason was, you just move on to the next most powerful bitbeast like he was nothing. Your mother died. Cherrelle. Died giving you up to Boris, and yet now you willingly join him as if he was your father. You have no right to be pointing a blaming finger, Balkov."

"You don't understand."

"From what I've seen of your concept of understanding I don't want to." His voice was still frosted with ice and calm as a lake on calm weather, but inside he was burning with fire. Pain and anger fueling it into a raging inferno. She would pay dearly for her mistake- in more ways than one.

"Kai!"

"Goode-bye Cherry."

"KAI!!!"

He ignored her and just kept on walking... He would suffer. She would smother him in the tournament, That raging flame inside him would be distinguished to a sigle dying ember which she would gladly crush beneath her feet.

I made it really long just for you! So