Santana's bed – The morning after

There is always a moment before the wakening during which the body starts to perceive sensations before the brain is able to process them. This moment was particularly intense for Brittany that morning. First the warmth of the morning sunlight on her face made her start coming back from the world of dreams, all the cells of her body began to capture what was going on around her. Brittany started slowing perceiving sounds, smells and sensations. Scent of cherries, the heat of a body lying next to hers, someone else's breath, her left arm hugging something, or someone. Brittany opened her eyes, just a millimeter. The view still blurred. She smiled by instinct, then her brain slowly started processing all the inputs and realizing what was going on. The image in front of her became more defined. She was confused by what she was looking at. Santana was lying in the bed next to her, her arm was embracing her, they were so close. Their noses were approximately ten centimeters away, she could feel her breath on her neck. Brittany, not expecting that at all, made a sudden movement. She froze, listening if she had woken Santana up. Santana moaned then she open her eyes, she looked at her smiling.

"Hey." She whispered, then she closed her eyes again and came closer, cuddling herself into Brittany's arms.

Brittany couldn't move, she was afraid that every possible action could have altered that moment.

Suddenly the memories of the previous night hit her, it took her a second to live again those moments: her leaving the hotel, wandering for a while in the neighborhoods and then getting into a bar and going back to Santana's place.

"Oh god. I didn't." she thought ashamed.

She did.

Santana was still sleeping.

God, she was feeling such an idiot for countless reasons. First of all she had fought with Santana because of that innocent kiss emphasizing the fact that she was going to marry Matt and then, few hours later, she was screaming at her because she thought that Santana was cheating on her.

Cheating.

"How can someone who's not in a relationship with you, cheat on you?" she thought reproaching herself.

She also remembered screaming at Santana that she was selfish, when the truth was another one. Santana had been so amazing, instead of arguing with her she had helped and cuddled her for the whole time.

She felt so guilty; damn she was so fed up with that feeling. Everything she was doing was wrong, for Matt or for Santana or for herself. She felt so lost in that moment, it was like she was fighting with herself for something she wasn't even sure she really wanted it.

She studied Santana's features.

Damn, she's indeed beautiful.

All those moments in which she had been staring at Santana sleeping came into her mind, she used to love watching her sleeping. Santana was always so passionate, so fighting with everybody that it was nice to look at her while she was relaxed. She remembered that she loved the fact that she was always smiling when she was asleep.

And there they were, after five years. She was staring at a sleeping Santana and noticing a hint of a smile on her face.

Her heart was full of love in that moment. She knew that even after all that time she still care about that brunette.

"Why can you do this to me?" she mentally said to her, then she got up trying not to wale her up.

Santana's bed – A hour later

Santana slowly opened her eyes, stretching her arms unconsciously looking for Brittany but she only touched the cold sheets.

What..?

Brittany wasn't there anymore.

It had taken only few seconds to transform that day in a bad one. She lift herself up, so disappointed. She took her pillow and then she screamed pressing it on her face.

"It's official, I'm the stupid!" she said. "And this is the best wakening ever!" then she stopped for a second before starting swearing again.

"Cómo puedes ser tan estúpido? Está claro que no desea!"

She looked up as she noticed Brittany standing on the entrance of the bedroom, holding a tray.

"Oh." She said blushing so hard. "How long have you been there?"

"Just a sec, " she mocked her. "Good morning."

Santana smiled, still embarrassed, but happy to have her there.

"Morning."

"How are you feeling?"

Brittany placed the tray on the bed and sat in front of her. "Well, I've been better, but I'm fine. Just a little headache." She said.

Santana looked down on the tray and smiled. Brittany had ordered breakfast, not a normal one, their breakfast: pancakes, strawberries and orange juice. She didn't know if it was on purpose but she felt glad about that.

"Look San." Santana looked up at her, afraid of some other shocking news.

"I'm sorry about last night." She said in one breath.

"It's okay." She replied.

"I've noticed that you texted Matt that I was stuck with the shooting of the video." She added. "Thank you for having my back"

Santana smiled looking down. "Always."

They started eating and speaking about the video and the past days. The situation was calm and relaxed even if Santana could feel the usual tension underneath. It was impossible to let herself go when she was with Brittany because doing that would have meant doing something that Brittany didn't want.

She realized how difficult it was to behave as a friend with someone you were still in love with. And yes, she clearly was still feeling something strong for that blondie.

The day before she was sure that she had lost her forever, but after that night she wasn't sure about anything anymore. She could bet that Brittany was still caring about her, but caring wasn't enough. Plus the way she had screamed at her when she was thinking that she and Ana were together had made her think that there was a little chance to win her back. The real question was how.

She had dumped her, only god knows why, and she knew that Brittany's trust was something very difficult to get back.

"I just have to find the right way." She thought.

"Look San, I should go now." Brittany said.

"Oh yes, sure." She replied a little bit disappointed.

She was going back home, to Matt. Every time, thinking about her with another person was like a stab in her heart.

She walked Brittany to the door.

"So, see you on Monday?" she asked.

"Yes." She said smiling.

Then Brittany got closer and kissed her on the cheek. Brittany held Santana's gaze.

"Thank you, again."

Santana nodded and closed the door as Brittany was walking away.

She leaned to the door, looking up as she was asking for god's help.

She really needed some help. She got her cell phone and dialed a phone number. She found herself surprised when she managed to remember it.

"Santana Lopez. The last time I've heard from you I was still wearing hairbands." The voice said picking up.

"Hey, bitch. I've missed you too!"

"How is it going? Last time we spoke you told me you were working on a big project." Quinn said.

"Very well actually! You'll see in a couple of week I guess!"

"What are you saying?" she asked excited.

Quinn had always been one of her best friends, besides Brittany. When she left Brittany they had a big fight but they manage to reunite after sometime and they were still in contact.

"I'm launching y first single!" Santana explained excited.

"Wow! You made it! I'm so excited for you San! Looking forward to that!"

"What about you?!"

"Well, work is always the same. So stressful, but you know I can't complain. The company is investing a lot on me so I'm flattered! "

"I see. Congrats!"

"Thanks!" she replied quickly.

"Look Quinny. I didn't call you to boast about my upcoming career." She mocked. "I have a problem. "

"Which kind of problem?"

"A blonde one." Santana replied.

"Classic Santana. You get everything you want and you're not happy. You want more. Come one tell me, what's her name?"

"Brittany."

Silence.

"What?! What does Brittany have to do with you?"

"She one of my dancers." She confessed.

She heard Quinn's laugh.

"No way!"

And then Santana started telling her everything from the first day she had met Brittany again. She talked about the video, her music project, Matt, the proposal and also about their brief kiss.

Quinn wasn't speaking and listened very carefully, she couldn't believe it.

"Santana I have to tell you, you're very lucky."

"Are you kidding me?" she said

"Oh come one, I've spent the last years hearing you complaining about her not being in your life anymore. This is your chance to get her back, your chance of having everything you've always wanted. A career as a singer and the love of your life." She explained trying to cheer her up.

"Q, she's getting married in less than six months."

"San, it's obvious that she loves you and that the two of you are a endgame. The only problem is that she hasn't realized it yet."

Pause.

"We need a plan". She said.

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