The Fight
I had just gotten home from work, and I was not feeling well at all. I made my self some chicken soup and had some water, hoping my nausea felling would go away. The doctor warned me this would happen; she also warned me that my hormones may start acting up in the next couple of months where I would start getting sexual cravings as she put it. I laughed remembering Ricky's face as she said that. I lay down on the couch and was trying to get this nausea felling to go away when I herd a knock on the door. I looked up and saw Ben so I got up and answered the door.
"Hey Ben, come on in" I said and gave him a light kiss on the lips.
"Hey sweetie, how are you?" he asked
I couldn't answer and I ran to the bathroom and started throwing up. I hated this feeling; I got up and was dizzy so I walked into my room after brushing my teeth and Ben followed me in there. I lay on the bed and he followed.
"I guess that answers my question then." Ben said
"I have been feeling this way all day, the doctor warned me it might happen." I said
Ben leaned over and tried to put his hand on my stomach when I stopped him.
"What are you doing?" I asked when I pushed his hand back over to him
"I was going to rub your stomach maybe it will make it feel better." He said
"I don't want anyone touching my stomach." I said
"You let Ricky do it." He said
"Ricky is Boo boo's dad" I answered
He leaned over and kissed me I felt my pregnancy hormones kicking in, that the doctor warned me about. So we started making out, he tried to go further but I didn't want to; making out was fine, he then pulled away and asked.
"Can I cum on your stomach?"
"What did you just say?" I asked I was in shock did he really just ask me that
"I said can I cum on your stomach, you don't want to go any further than making out so let me do this." He said
I got up and walked into the living room trying to breathe.
"Are you serious? What they hell is wrong with you, I am pregnant and I was fucking throwing up and you ask me that stupid question." I yelled
"Well you won't do anything else with me." He said
"Is that what this relationship is all about? Getting me to sleep with you?" I asked
"No I love you and I just figured you wouldn't mind" he said
"I wouldn't mind that my boyfriend just herd me throw up and not even ten minutes later is asking to blow his load on my stomach, which in case you forgot has a baby in it." I yelled
"I just feel like you use me some times." He said. I couldn't believe he just said that, I am done I am going to flip out.
"I use you, are you fucking kidding me. I know what it feels like to be used, I have been there and I have done that. I would never do that to anyone. I have been there for you since we met; I listen when you talk, cheer you up when you are sad, and laugh with you when you laugh." I said
"Well you let your self get used." He said
"I fucking let my self get used, how the hell do you figure that one?"
"You told Ricky to make love to you, you basically asked him to throw you away." He said
"You are so fucking stupid, you know that I mean really. Ricky is the one of the only people in my fucking life that has never fucking used me. He LOVES me! I have been fucking ignored and used as a doormat my fucking whole life. Grace and Ricky are the only people who fucking cared about me. You wanted me to let you cum on my stomach when I am a pregnant with another's man baby. You are supposed to love me and you treat me like this. I don't fucking think so." I said
"You need to grow up." Ben said
"I need to grow up Ben; I have taken care of myself since I was fucking five years old. I have made sure I was as happy as I can. I got emancipated; I am working, having a baby, and living on my own. Why don't you grow the hell up? Stop living off of daddy and his money, stop getting jealous be your own person. Your own father has even told you to grow the hell up. What do you think your dad would say if he was here right now? He would flip. Everything you have ever complained about beside your mom was a petty and stupid thing. The cook messed up my dinner; the maid didn't make my bed right. Blah fucking blah. You are 15 years old you should do something on your own." I yelled
"I don't know why you are being such a bitch." Ben said
"You just asked me to let you cum on my pregnant stomach, after I fucking threw up. Than you proceeded to tell me, you think I use you, and that I let myself get used. To top it all off you told me I need to grow up." I screamed
"You did what?" I herd and Ben and I looked to see Ricky walk in and he did not look happy. Fuck I thought to myself
"Hey Ricky I didn't hear you come in." I said trying to calm down. He came over and put his hands on my shoulders to try and calm me down it was working a little.
"Well you were yelling and I didn't know what was going on. You didn't answer your phone when I called and Grace hasn't seen you, so I came to make sure you were okay." Ricky explained
"You can't just come by whenever the hell you want, and get your hands off my girlfriend." Ben said and grabbed my wrist and pulled me too him.
"Ben let go of my wrist." I said and he didn't it was beginning to hurt and I tried to pull away. I looked at Ricky.
"Let go of her." Ricky said as he walked over to me and pried Ben's fingers off my wrist.
"Don't tell me what to do." Ben said I walked over and hugged Ricky and I buried my face in his side while he kept one arm around me.
"What the fuck is wrong with you man, she is not your fucking property and you don't get to fucking put your hands on her, or any woman for that matter. If you want to hurt anyone you fight me." Ricky said and I peaked out and seen Ben looked scared.
"Ames, look at me." Ricky said, and I looked at him "What you said when I walked in was it true. Did he say all that stuff to you?"
"Yes." I answered and pushed my head back into him and he held me tighter.
"Who the hell do you think you are, to say that shit to her? I will tell you who, you are a fucking nobody. You have no idea the shit she went through, and what she dealt with when she was younger. She is 15 and has been through more shit than half of the people out there; I would know I was there. Now she is 15 having a baby and living on her own, and legally responsible for both herself and the baby and working a part time job and going to school. That is pretty grown up don't you think. As for the first thing I herd, you fucking asked her to cum on her stomach when she is pregnant with my baby not only that she is sick and fucking throwing up. You are fucking sick ass hole." He yelled then he did what I expected from the beginning he punched Ben in the face.
"That was your last warning, if you ever fucking lay a hand on her ever again. I will make sure you can't walk for weeks. Do you hear me?" Ricky said
"Yes." Ben answered I unwrapped myself from Ricky's arms and walked over to the door.
"Get the fuck out Ben, and don't ever come back, incase you didn't get it we are over." I said and Ben walked out. As soon as Ben was out the door; I closed the blinds locked the doors. I turned around and seen Ricky open his arms and I walked into them, he wrapped his arms around me and I started crying. He picked me up and led me to my bedroom and laid me on the bed and then lay down next to me. I curled into his arms and one hand rubbed my back while the other lay on my stomach, as I cried my eyes out. After 15 minutes I stopped crying and Ricky kissed my head.
"Let me see your wrist." He said gently, I nodded pulled out my wrist and gave it to Ricky, he looked at it and I felt him tense and run his fingers over it.
"It is bruised isn't it" I said to him
"Yeah, I am sorry." He said
"You didn't do anything wrong, you saved me Ricky." I said and took my wrist and wrapped it around him in a hug and cuddly way.
"Want to tell me what happened?" He asked
"I wasn't feeling well I was nausea all day. I mean some times were better than other, so after you dropped me off at work, I went in and was fine. It was about 10 minutes before leaving the feeling came back so I assumed I was hungry. I came home and made soup and ate that when Ben came over, he asked me how I was feeling, and I ran to the bathroom to throw up. After I was a little dizzy like always so I brushed my teeth and laid in here, Ben came in and he tried to touch my stomach and I wouldn't let him so he kissed me and as the doctor said stupid pregnancy sex cravings were kicking in, but I restrained and we were just making out. He tried to go further but I refused and that's when he asked. I obviously got mad we started fighting and you know the rest." I said
"Would you have had sex with him, you know because of as the doctor said sex cravings?" Ricky asked
"No, there is only one person I would have sex with right now." I said
"Who?" Ricky asked
"You, because you are the only person I trust not to hurt me, or use me, or treat me like dirt. I am comfortable with you." I said
"Good to know." He said
"Thank You." I said
"For?" He asked
"Coming to my rescue, caring enough to check on me, loving me and boo boo. Everything, I don't know what I would do with out you." I said honestly
"Same here babe, and I always told you I would do anything for you." Ricky said
"I know that. I was scared before you walked in and then you came in and it felt like all my fears went away." I said
"I think it is funny that I make you feel safe, when I can't even make myself feel safe." He said
"You love me, when you can't love yourself, your trust me more than you trust yourself, I know you would never hurt me, and I know you would only love me. I know you would never let anyone hurt me because you know what if feels like to be that hurt and you wouldn't wish it on anyone." I said
"You are right as always." Ricky said and I laughed
"Always remember that. Can you do something for me tonight?" I said
"Anything." He answered
"Stay with me tonight, I don't want to be alone. I won't admit this to anyone else but what Ben did, brought back a lot of memories for both of us I think and I know it scared the hell out of me, so please stay." I said
"Of course I will stay." He said
"I am proud of you." I said
"For what"
"You didn't shut down, you stood up for what you believed in, and you hit Ben once and knew it was enough." I said
"I don't think anyone else beside you has ever told me they were proud of me." Ricky said
"Well if that is the case I am also proud of the man you have become and they way you treat boo boo and I." I said
"You guys really do mean everything to me." Ricky said , I felt myself getting tired so I changed in front of Ricky, nothing he hasn't seen before.
"Nice boobs" Ricky said as I stood in front of him completely topless in the process of putting on a tank top. I laughed. I then took of my pants and turned around to get my shorts
"And she has a nice ass too, and a pretty face. Gentleman this girl is the total package." He said I laughed and blushed a little as I put on my shorts and crawled into bed with Ricky. He stood up and took his shirt off and pants and stood in his boxers.
"Nice butt." I said and we laughed he crawled in bed next to me and I curled into him.
"You know I was thinking you should bring some clothes over and leave them in my closet because when the baby comes you can stay here some days." I said
"You know I think you might be right. We will talk to tomorrow. Go to sleep babe, I am not going anywhere. I love you." He said as he kissed my forehead I nodded and whispered
"I love you too" before I was totally out.