Chapter Twelve: Why?

"Hey Al, where's Nate? He's supposed to be here" Mitchie asked while grabbing her guitar and handed it to Shane

"He should be here right now" Alex said while waiting for the music room door to open

"Why is he going to be late anyways" Shane asked while writing something on a piece of paper

"Because Nate wanted to know what he got on his exam" Suddenly Alex got a text from Nate

Wait for me in the hallway. Mrs. White is almost done grading my exam –Nate

Alex smiled and ran out of the music room

"Where do you think she's going" Shane asked

Mitchie shrugged, "She's probably waiting for Nate in the hallway"

"Ah, love is in the air" Shane chuckled as Mitchie playfully hit him on the arm.

Alex was now anxiously waiting for Nate to appear. Suddenly, she heard Nate and saw him running towards her, "Allie, Allie! I got a 93%"

"Really?" Alex was excited for him

"Yeah!" Nate showed her the exam, and she saw a bright red A- on it. Excitement over came Alex and she jumped on Nate. She wrapped her legs around his waist and her arms around his neck. Nate chuckled and held onto to her as he spun her around a couple of times.

"I'm so proud of you" Alex said as she pressed her forehead against his.

"Coming from you that means a lot" Nate smiled as he gently placed her down. Suddenly, the late bell rang, "Come on we're late for music class" he took Alex's hand and walked with her to the music room door. But before he opened it, Nate stopped and let go of her hand

"Nate, what's wrong?" She asked worriedly

"Nothing, I was just thinking" Nate stated

"About" Alex was clueless

"How would you like it if I taught you how to play the guitar today" Nate looked at her

A smile emerged across Alex's face, "I would love that"

Both of them walked into the music room, only to be greeted by Ms. Snow, "Ah there you two are. Now come on let's not waste time. Music waits for no one"

Alex giggled as she took a seat next to Nate, "May I ask why you look so extremely happy" Shane whispered to Alex

"Nate is going to teach me how to play guitar today" Alex exclaimed

"Wow, things really changed last night didn't it?" Shane was surprised

"It did, it really did" Alex said while staring at Nate

"God, Alex looks so happy. I have never seen her like this" Mitchie was studying Alex

"What can we say; she's finally getting the man of her dreams. She deserves to be happy" Shane replied

"Nathaniel, do you mind helping Gavin with his sheet music? He's having a little trouble" Mrs. Snow asked

"Sure, I'll help him" Nate smiled

"Lovely" Mrs. Snow walked away

"Hey Allie, I'll be back. I just need to help Gavin with his sheet music but don't worry I'll still teach you during lunch" Nate stated

"Promise?" Alex asked

"Promise!" Nate smiled and walked away

As Nate walked away, Alex secretly watched him admiring his every move, "God, he is so cute
Alex muttered.

"Heard that" Shane and Mitchie said together

"Whatever! I swear nothing can bring me down. And when I say nothing I me-"

"You mean nothing" Shane interrupted her

"Exactly" Alex smiled as she began to write lyrics down

"I wanna be with you, yeah I wanna be with you there's nothing more that would make feel this way, I wanna be with you. Oh baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore. It drives me crazy. So take my hand"

Alex was planning on showing this song to Nate and asking him what he thought considering this song was inspired by him. She continued to write down the lyrics until she heard the bell ring.

"Earth to future Mrs. Grey" Mitchie waved her hand in front of her face.

"Huh" Alex looked up at Mitchie

"What have you been doing this whole time" Mitchie asked

"I was writing a song" Alex handed the lyrics to Mitchie

" I wanna be with you" Mitchie read the title, "Let me guess it was Nate inspired"

"Yup" Alex replied while looking at Nate

"Remember Gavin, this note goes on the third bar, and this note goes on the first bar" Nate told him. Gavin nodded

"But don't let your sheet music get in the way alright, your song is really powerful" Nate handed Gavin the sheet music

"Thanks Man" Gavin smiled

"Isn't Nate, just amazing" Alex was listening to their conversation

"As your love interest he's sucks! But as a musician he's great. Did you know he applied to Juilliard" Mitchie asked

"Yeah, he told me. I'm sure he's going to get in. Nate's extremely talented, and soon enough he will be my talented boyfriend" Alex exclaimed

"What do you mean" Mitchie was clueless

"I'll tell you when we get to the backroom. I need to get my guitar" Alex walked away, "Hey Nate"

"Yeah" Nate looked up from Gavin's paper

"I'll be back, I'm just going to go get my guitar" Alex stated

"Alright, I'll just be here. Once I finish up with Gavin, I'll help you" Nate said

Alex smiled, "I'm glad you didn't break your promise"

"Hey! After last night I probably won't be breaking any promises anytime soon"

"Glad to know you learned your lesson" Alex winked and walked away.

As Alex and Mitchie left to go to the backroom, Nate was just about finished helping Gavin with his sheet music

"Thanks again Nate, you helped me out a lot" Gavin stated

"No problem, if you ever need help. Don't be afraid to ask" Nate exclaimed

While Nate and Gavin were talking, Alex and Mitchie were having an interesting conversation

"Okay Al, what did you mean by future boyfriend" Mitchie closed the door

"I mean, I'm going to tell Nate how I feel"

"WHAT!" Mitchie yelled

"Mitch, calm down. Look I'm just going to show him my song and then after that tell him that I love him and I want be with him. Just like my song states"

"OMG, you are going to tell him how you feel! I can't believe this!" Mitchie started jumping up and down, "Nate and Alex are finally going to be together. YAY!"

Alex chuckled, "I'm glad you are happy for me"

Suddenly, Mitchie stopped jumping "I gotta go and tell Shane! He is going to be so happy!" She started to walk to the backdoor, "Good luck and GO GET YOUR MAN!" Mitchie opened the backdoor

"Wait, why don't you use the door that we just used to come in" Alex questioned

"Because that would just ruin the moment I want you two to talk alone" Mitchie stated before stepping outside, "Oh and make sure you kiss him after you tell him"

"Oh believe me Mitchie, you don't know how long I craved for his lips to be against mine" Alex blushed

"WELL GO ON! GO DO IT!" Mitchie yelled out before closing the door and running to Shane's locker

As Mitchie left, Alex sighed and began to question if she could really do it. She sat on the floor for a couple minutes while looking at her lyrics. "Alex you can do this, you have done it before. So you can do it again" she muttered to herself and looked at her guitar leaning on the wall.

Alex stood up and grabbed her guitar, "Okay I'm ready" she walked over to the door. As her fingertips touched the doorknob she began to hold her breath. "What if doesn't love me, what if he hates the song, what if he only sees me as a friend, what if he…hurts me" Alex found herself beginning to tremble by the thought of Nate hurting her. Nate hurting her was Alex's worst fear that she constantly wished would never come true. "Come on Alex, stop questioning herself and just open the door" She told herself as she gripped the doorknob and slowly began to twist it with her right hand.

Once she fully opened the door, she gradually took steps out of the backroom while clutching her guitar tightly in her left hand. As she took the final step and turned towards where Nate was; her heart dropped, her stomach began to twist and turn, her eyes began to water, and she once again felt that constant stabbing in her heart except this time it was worse.

She felt as if someone stabbed a knife into her heart, slowly making sure she felt every single ounce of pain. Then that person would do it slower and slower digging deeper and deeper while slowly dragging the knife down causing her heart to slowly tear and shred into little bits that would initially be unfixable.

STAB, STAB, STAB is what Alex constantly felt as she fought the tears that threatened to fall, "Ouch" she muttered as she felt a piece of her heart break and flow down her bloodstream. At that moment, Alex knew her heart was officially broken.

She held her breath and took a step back carefully eyeing Nate making sure he would never see her. But that's until she saw Nate smile, he smiled into the kiss. Alex felt another sharp pain that was indescribable. This indescribable pain caused her to drop her guitar, and just like her heart; her guitar also shattered into pieces.

As her guitar hit the floor, Alex's worst fear occurred. Nate pulled away from Miley and looked straight at her. She was distraught as her brown watery eyes met Nate's. She once again backed up and hit a music stand causing it to fall over. She watched as Nate looked at her worriedly, not knowing what was going on. Never knowing that at that moment her heart was breaking.

"Allie" Nate said softly as he saw her eyes begin to fill with more water.

"Oh my god, It hurts, it hurts so bad, why does it hurt, MAKE IT STOP" Alex thought as Nate said her nickname

As he said "Allie" once more, her heart tightened and she couldn't breathe "I can't breathe, why can't I breathe" she thought

"Allie, are you okay" Nate stood up

"OWW!" she whispered-screamed as she felt another part of her heart tear.

Nate looked at her and proceeded to walk towards her, "Allie"

"RUN" she thought, "Run! Run as fast as you can before he touches you" Alex knew that if Nate touched her, it would only make her suffer more. She closely watched Nate as he walked towards her. He was only five steps away from her. And just as Nate was on his second step, Alex sped past him and ran for the door. As she ran, she heard Nate yell out her name but she didn't want to turn back because if she did she knew she would break down.

"Run, just keep on running" Alex muttered to herself as she ran to her locker. She once again needed to get out of there. Regardless, of the fact that she had to stay in school.

"Run, run as fast as you can; run away from the hurt, the constant stinging in your heart, and the intense pain he caused" Alex thought as she reached her locker and grabbed her backpack. But as she turned to close her locker, she saw that picture of her and Nate.

Alex groaned in pain as she felt her heart rip into tinier pieces.

"Alex" Nate yelled as he ran towards her.

"OWW" she yelped in pain as she clutched her shirt in her hand. Her heart was begin ripped apart with every second that passed. Alex felt like she was slowly dying. She couldn't breathe, she couldn't get rid of the pain, she couldn't fight her emotions, she was enraged, sad, and full of hurt.

How could he do that, how could he not notice me, how could he not take my feelings into consideration, how could he not love me back; Alex felt another pain emerge as she saw Nate get closer to her. And this time she allowed a teardrop to fall and slide down her cheek.

"Alex, are you okay" Nate asked as he was about to place his hand on her shoulder. However, Alex moved back

"Don't touch me" she said with so much animosity in her voice

"What" Nate sounded distraught

"You heard me" Alex looked straight at him with hatred in her eyes, "Don't touch me"

Nate was taken back, "Alex, what's wrong"

"Nothing, Nothing's wrong! I'm PERFECTLY fine. Why don't you go back to Miley" Alex yelled as she shut her locker and walked away

Nate suddenly grabbed her wrist and pulled her back. God how his touch burned her skin, "Is this about me kissing Miley"

As Alex felt Nate touch her wrist, she felt her heart or whatever was left of it ache. Alex felt another tear being to drop as she pulled away, "WHAT DID I TELL YOU! DON'T TOUCH ME!"

"YOU NEVER ANSWERED MY QUESTION" Nate yelled out as she began to walk away.

Alex stopped, "NO! NATE THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU KISSING MILEY" She yelled

"Really, could have fooled me! Because you seem like your jealous" Nate said

Alex sighed as she walked towards him, she was not jealous. She was burning with rage; her heart had been pulled out of her chest and then smashed into pieces as it hit the floor leaving her breathless and alone. Regardless, whether Nate was standing in front of her or not she felt empty.

"I'm not jealous Nate because right at this moment I'm too busy having a heartbreak" Alex looked at him sternly

"And who broke your heart" Nate asked

Alex got close to his face; "YOU DID" she then walked away

"AND HOW DID I BREAK YOUR HEART HUH ALEX! TELL ME BECAUSE I RECALL ALWAYS BEING A GOOD FRIEND TO YOU" Nate yelled

Alex stopped dead on her tracks, she took a breath and turned around, "THAT'S THE POINT NATE, YOU TREATED ME LIKE A FRIEND" She screamed as she let a few tears fall down, "WHY HER HUH? WHY MILEY? GOD NATE WHY DID YOU HAVE TO KISS HER? I WOULD RATHER HAVE YOU KISS MITCHIE INSTEAD! BUT WHY HER, WHAT THE HELL MAKES HER SO SPECIAL THAT YOU WOULD PICK HER OVER ME! WHY! DAMN IT NATE, WHY DO YOU KEEP ON DOING THIS TO ME" She shouted

Nate was furious, "WHEN DID YOU HAVE A SAY ON WHO I KISS OR DON'T KISS HUH! WHEN DID THIS START BECOMING ALL ABOUT YOU! JESUS ALEX! WHY CAN'T YOU BE HAPPY FOR ME!

"BECAUSE I DON'T WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY" She screamed at the top of her lungs

"WHY" Nate fired back

"BECAUSE I WANT YOU BE HAPPY WITH ME" Alex looked down and took a deep breath, "I want you to be happy with me"

"What" Nate was speechless

Alex sighed as she wiped her tears, "Nate I have loved you since I was thirteen. And believe me I tried to be happy for you. I have endured you dating other girls, you talking about how amazing they are, but did you ever consider or notice me just once Nate"

Nate didn't answer

"And of course the answer is no" Alex wiped another tear, "Because if you ever did consider me I wouldn't be standing here having a heartbreak and confessing my true feelings for you"

"Alex, I'm sor-"

"Nate" Alex put her hand up "It's too late for that, my heart is already crumpled and this time I'm not sure if I'm strong enough to stand by your side"

"Alex, what are you saying?"

"Nate, I know in my heart or whatever's left of it that I will always love you despite how much pain you put me through"

"And that's why I'm trying to apo-"

Alex interrupted him, "So I came to the conclusion that I can no longer be friends with you" Alex's voice shook as she said this

"What" Nate was speechless

"Goodbye Nate" Alex started to walk away

"Allie, please don't do this. I need you" Nate pleaded

"I need you too but right now I can't even stand being in the same hallway as you"

"Please..Just don't" Nate's eyes were getting watery

"Goodbye Nate" Alex felt another tear fall as her heart started to ache even more, "I'll always remember you as my first love and my first kiss" Alex looked away and opened the exit door. Leaving Nate crushed with water filled eyes. Suddenly, Nate began to feel lost with every second that surpassed.

"What did I just do" Nate muttered as he slid down the lockers letting the tears fall from his eyes.

-End of Chapter-