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Chapter Twelve
They made their way down the stairs to the front office and he grabbed her arm "Stevie you dont have to face her... I can do this for you...". She shook her head "No... I need to know what is going on... their could be something wrong with Alex". He nodded slightly "But if she starts Stevie you walk out" she nodded slightly as he held the door open for her to walk through. Stevie smiled to the older lady sat in the chair "I am so hap..." the woman interupted "I have not come here to talk..." Smithy interupted "So what do you want?". She glared at him "Alex is my son and you both used your positions to gain access and information on him...". Stevie interupted "No he came to me... he found me..". She smiled "Well he wants nothing more to do with you..". Stevie shook her head as the woman rose to her feet "No.. he wanted a relationship with me.. he told me.. you cant stop him..." she interuted "I can and I will... I know your partner here used his position to gain information... and you come near my son again I will make sure your bosses find out.. I might not be able to ruin you but I can ruin him..." she watched as Smithy moved foward "Fine... report me... its a risk I am willing to take..". Stevie interupted "No... I will stay away... we will both stay away..". He shook his head "Stevie...". She held the door open for the older lady to walk through, she went to walk through but Smithy pushed the door shut "What the hell are you doing?". She glared at him "Dont Smithy". He grabbed her wrist "Why have you just rolled over and took that?". She moved into the chair "I cant do it Smithy... I cant take this...". He moved to her side and placed his hand to her leg "Stevie if it costs me my job I dont car its worth it..." she interupted "No... its not that Smithy... I cant handle it... I want my baby". He moved close wrapping his arms round the small blonde "I know babe I do to" he held her close as she cried on his shoulder "Its not fair Smithy... why did I lose my baby.." he kissed her cheek "We are gunna try again... we will get our baby..." she pulled from his arms "No.. I cant... I dont want to do it again..". He stared at her "Its ok... we can wait a while" she shook her head "No... Im not doing it.. I need to be on my own Smithy..." he shook his head "What are you talking about?". She watched as he stretched up to his full height "We are over Smithy... I cant do it again...". He nodded slightly before making his way from the room.
He lent in and placed a gentle kiss to her lips, at fourteen and having just had a baby, Stevie couldnt believe her luck when Eric had taken an interest in her. She couldnt be happier as they laid back onto his bed, he had told her his Mum was at work and his Dad had left when he was young, she knew he had a temper that is how he had ended up in a young offenders, but he had saved her, helped her to get over the bullying. He pulled from her lips and smiled "D'you want to..." he pointed to the soft mattress under her "You know?". She smiled before wrapping her arms round his neck and pulling his lips back down to hers.
Arriving home from work she heard the noise from the bedroom and made her way through, she watched him stuffing his things into his bag "Smithy..." he turned to her and pointed to his draws "Im nearly finished". She shook her head "What are you doing?". He smiled "You finished things Stevie... Im leaving.." she grabbed his arm "I thought we could talk things through first... clear the air...". He shook his head "Its not that simple though is it Stevie... I love you.. I would do anything for you and we been together what two years and you are chucking it all away..." she interupted "No.. I just need some time Smithy.. I have lost my baby..." he interupted "No..." he paused turning to stare at her "You lost our baby but how I feel isnt important is it... I get that you are hurting and that this is really hard for you but all I have done is tried to be there for you... support you and look where it got me... dumped and homeless..." she shook her head "No Smithy... you dont have to go..." he interupted "Well make your mind up Stevie... you said we were over...". She shook her head "I am so sorry..
please... where are you going?". He smiled as he grabbed his bag "My mums... I will see you at work Stevie...". She watched him make his way from the bedroom before hearing the front door slam.
Eric grinned at her as she stood infront of the group of men "All you have to do sweetheart is show them a good time..". She nodded slightly "I erm.." she begun to stutter as he pushed her futher into the room, she heard him discussing prices "Eric.. Im not sure I can do this" he interupted "Do what?". She shook her head "I dont want to..." she gestured to the men and he grabbed her wrist "Its not that simple... I need you to do this..". She shook her head "Eric I am frightened.." he interupted "Dont be so stupid you have done it before... and you were more than happy to drop your knickers for me... if you want us to have a future you are gunna do this...". She nodded slightly "Ok". Eric smiled at her "Get your clothes off". She removed her coat but as she stared round the men all chatting and Eric laughing she backed to the door before running out.
She had been sat in the living room for about two hours, she couldnt quite work out why she had finished with Smithy, deep down she knew she loved him and he was the only person she wanted to spend her life with and the choice to end things was not one she had thought through but here she was alone and to be perfectly honest frightened. She missed him, she knew she was doing the wrong thing but she was to ashamed to admit it, rising from the sofa she made her way into the bathroom and began to run a bath, she caught sight of herself in the mirror and rubed the tears from her cheeks, her eyes were bloodshot and her face a deep shade of red, she looked tierd and worn out, a look she would have to get used to without Smithy.
Arriving at work a few days later she made her way to the uniform briefing room, she glanced through the window but seeing him missing she made her way to his office, she knocked lightly on the door and waited for his voice to call her inside, once inside she smiled at him, he remained sat in his chair and glanced back at his computer screen "What can I do for you DS Moss?" he asked, she smiled softly "I just wondered how you were?", He nodded "I am fine Stevie..." he paused watching his screen as she nodded, she made her way to the door causing him to glance up "How are you?" she turned back to him "I am ok... I miss you" he shook his head "Dont". She glanced down "I am sorry for everything I have put you through these last few weeks I dont know what else to say..." he interupted "Dont say anything Stevie... its done.." he paused as he stared at her "I love you and I always will but I have accepted that we are over..." she smiled "And what if I made a mistake finishing things?" he shook his head "Then you screwed up things for both of us for nothing..." she interupted "Thats not fair.. I was upset". He nodded "I know... but so am I Stevie... I would do anything for you and you knew that... you have broke my heart I cant just act like nothing has happened..." he paused as he stared back at his computer "Is there anything else DS Moss?". She shook her head before walking through the door.
When she arrived home that day she smiled at her mum and dad, they were both sitting on the sofa watching the TV, if today had taught her anything it was that she wanted to make a go of her life and prove she wasnt the dirty littke slut everyone thought she was, She made her way over to the sofa and rested down next to her mum, they both smiled slightly before turning back to the TV "I have made a descision" she began causing them to both turn to her "I want to do well at school.. I want to be a police officer and I want to make you proud and for you to think of me as your daughter again". Her mum smiled "Stevie despite what has happened... we will always be proud to have you as our daughter... we both love you very much and are here for you... no matter what" she smiled as her dad pulled her into his arms "You will always be my little princess Stevie". She grinned as she finally began to feel part of her family again.
She knocked lightlty on the front door and smiled as Smithys Mum pulled it open "Hi Pauline.. is Dale here?" she asked softly noticing the sad look on the womans face. "He has said he doesnt want to see you Stevie... I am sorry". Stevie glanced down "Its not your fault.. I just wanted to tell him I am sorry and that I love him... I know I already have but..." she paused as she gulped back the tears stuck in her throat "It doesnt matter can you just let him know I called?". She nodded "Of corse I can" she paused as he appeared behind his mum in the door way "Five minutes Stevie". She nodded as he made his way outside,
his Mum pushed the door shut as the two began to walk down the road.
As they walked into the park at the back of where Smithys mum lived she gestured to a bench which he rested down onto, she suddenley found herself lost for words. She rested down next to him and took a deep breath unsure where to start. "What do you want to say Stevie?". She gestured accross to the swings "We would of brought the baby here... our baby". He smiled at her "I wish we had the chance Stevie..." she interupted "Im sorry.. I love you...". He shook his head "No we are finished..." She interupted "Please dont say that... I dont want too think of my life without you... I cant be without you..". He smiled "Then why did you dump me?". She shook her head "I was so upset Smithy and I know you were to and that its no excuse but..." she took hold of his hand "I felt like I had lost everything and it was all my fault and I wanted to push you away before you blamed me and ran...". He smiled "I'd of never of blamed you... I had said I wanted to try again". She nodded "I know but I am so scared Smithy... I know I had Alex and he was healthy but I had Stephanie and she died and now I lost this one... I dont think I can do it again...". He wrapped his arm round her shoulders "We will get through it together Stevie.. I want you to have my baby... I know it wont be easy but if we tried once more and it..." she interupted "I cant Smithy". He kissed her head "Then we wont have a baby...". She shook her head "You want one.." he nodded "Yeah I do but not if its not with you... I just want to be with you Stevie". She lent accross and placed a slight kiss to his lips "I love you". He nodded "I love you too Stevie and we can make us work but not if you push me away everytime things get a bit tough" She smiled "Im sorry Smithy... please come home with me?".