All of Me

Chapter 12

Disclaimer: I still only own Jess.

A/N: Hope everyone is still interested. I appreciate the reviews. JoMode, you're my girl! :) I'm about to continue upping the drama, and we'll see where this goes ;) Love you guys! XoXoXo

Jess had been avoiding Stu, yet again, as she was really trying to focus on making her relationship with Jon work. She had been struggling and didn't want to make any more mistakes. She knew that the situation with Stu and risking her relationship were causing the majority of her stress. She needed that to be done with.

However, things were rough with Jon, too. He wasn't really focused on Jess like he said he would be. She understood that he had a lot going on. She was just in a very difficult place and needed him to be there for her. She didn't feel like she was getting the support that she needed from the man who was supposed to be taking care of her.

"Babe, do you mind if I hang out with the guys tonight? They wanted to go to a bar with everyone," he asked her, as she put her pajamas on.

"That's fine," she agreed.

"You can come with us," he invited.

"Nah. I'm okay. Thanks, though."

"You sure, babe?"

"Yeah. I was thinking about going to the pool, actually, and maybe sitting in the hot tub for a little while," she told him.

"Alright, babe. I'm gonna jump in the shower real quick."

"Okay."

Jess sat on the bed and turned the TV on. She noticed the indicator light on her phone was blinking. Of course, the text message was from Stu.

'Are you going out tonight?' he asked.

'Nope,' she simply replied.

'Would you like to meet up tonight for a little while?'

'Nope.'

'Oh. Okay. Just saying in your room, I presume?'

'I don't know. I was thinking about going down to the pool. But don't consider that an invitation to join me. No offense.'

'Alright.'

Jess put her phone down. She decided to change into her bathing suit. Going through her suitcase, she opted to put on her La Perla Black Glitter Rock Embellished bikini. She put a large white t-shirt on over the bikini with a pair of plain black Old Navy flip flops. She sat back on the bed waiting for Jon.

When he got out of the shower, he saw his girlfriend on the bed. He only had a towel around his waist.

"Look at you. Baby, you have an amazing body. And I'm saying that looking at you with a t-shirt on."

"Thanks. You're not too bad yourself," she replied with a flirty smile.

"You have your bathing suit on underneath that shirt?"

"Yup."

Jon smirked and walked over towards Jess. She moved over to the edge of the bed. He stood in front of her and took her hands in his and pulled her up into a standing position. He wrapped his arms around her and leaned in to kiss her, when his phone started ringing. He quickly pulled away from her and grabbed his phone from the night table next to them. He took his phone and picked up the call. The smile that had been playing on Jess's lips quickly disappeared in disappointment, as she sat back down on the bed.

"Hey. Yeah. I'll be down in like five minutes. Alright. Bye." Jon hung up. He immediately focused on getting dressed and leaving. Within minutes, he was ready to go.

Jess had to admit that he looked really good. But she was kind of irritated that he was so quick to turn away from her, the second the phone rang. She understood that he wanted to hang out with his friends. But for like ten seconds he seemed ready to give her his attention. Then, he took it away without even a second thought. That hurt her, especially with everything that was going on. But what was she going to do? Fight with him? It really wasn't worth the energy. She just wished that she had a few uninterrupted moments with her boyfriend. All she wanted was reassurance that she needed to keep on fighting things with Stu and focus on Jon.

"You wanna walk down with me?" Jon asked her.

"Uh…sure," she replied. Jess quickly grabbed her cell phone and slipped her room key inside of her phone case. She took one of the towels from the bathroom and left the hotel room with her boyfriend.

"So, where are you going?" Jess asked, trying to make conversation…and trying even harder to not be a bitch about it. It made her sad that it felt forced. As if this was almost an uncomfortable situation they were in. After four years, she really didn't think that this moment should be such an awkward one.

"Some bar in the area," he replied. "I think a bunch of people are going. At least that's what Joe said."

"That should be fun."

"Yeah. You know, you can still come with us," he offered, hitting the down button for the elevator.

"Nah. I'm alright. Maybe I can go with you next time or something." He nodded in agreement. When the elevator doors finally opened, the couple stepped onto the elevator. He hit the button for the first floor.

"Okay, babe. Are you alright?" he asked, seemingly concerned.

"Uh…yeah. I just have a lot going on in my head right now."

"Do you wanna talk about it?"

"No, it's okay. You don't really have the time to talk about it tonight, and quite frankly, all I probably need is time."

"Well, if you want to talk, you can tell me. You know that, right?"

Jess nodded. "I know, babe."

"Okay. Good." The doors opened. The pair stepped out. "The pool is that way," Jon said, pointing in the opposite direction that he was headed.

"Alright. Have fun. See you later."

Jon gave Jess's lips a quick kiss. "Love you, babe."

"Love you," she reciprocated, before the two went their separate ways. Her heart felt a little heavy as she walked away from him. She felt like she was losing what had meant the world to her. Her relationship didn't feel right anymore. She just wanted things to go back to normal, and Jess wished that she had never come on the road. She preferred missing her boyfriend to feeling like they weren't going to last much longer.

Jess walked down the corridor to the indoor pool. She was relieved to find that it was completely empty and made her way over to the semi-secluded corner that contained a large, in-ground hot tub. She put her things on a lounge chair next to the hot tub and took her shirt off, putting it with her stuff.

Slowly stepping into the hot water, Jess immediately felt relief. She knew that this was going to help her relax. She sat against the wall, the water almost completed covering her chest. She laid her head back against the wall and closed her eyes, allowing the tension to leave her body. A girl could definitely get used to this. Even though this wasn't solving her problems, it was certainly making her feel a lot better.

"You know, Jessica, sleeping in a hot tub is extremely dangerous. This is why you shouldn't be alone in here," Stu's voice spoke, causing her eyes to open instantly.

"You were not invited to join me," she flatly said.

"What can I say? I just couldn't resist. Thankfully, though, this is a free country and a public place. And you should be thankful, too. You could have drowned. Really, it's to your benefit that I showed up."

"I wasn't asleep, you pain in the ass. I was trying to relax. But obviously that isn't going to happen."

Stu took his shirt off and tossed his stuff to the side. He stepped into the hot tub and sat next to Jess.

"This is nice," he spoke.

She rolled her eyes. "Where's Tori?"

"Out with everyone."

"Oh."

"So, why are you stressed out?" he asked.

"You. Jon. This whole being on the road thing. It's all culminating and really starting to take its toll."

"I'm sorry."

She shrugged. "My relationship problems and having a hard time adjusting to the road aren't your fault."

"You're having problems?"

"Jon has been on the road for years. He's used to only having to worry about himself. So, sometimes he forgets that he needs to be concerned with me, too. And it's hard to feel like I'm kind of on my own. I guess the fun of having his girlfriend with him wore off now. I spend a lot of nights alone, while he's hanging out with the guys and partying up."

"Oh. Well, I'm sorry for that."

"I don't know why I'm telling you this. You're the last person on Earth who I should be talking to about my relationship problems. You're a huge part of the reason I even have any relationship problems."

"Jess, I care for you a lot. Regardless, I don't want to see you upset."

"I do care about you, Stu. I've just been really been focusing on making it work with Jon," she explained, trying to be honest with him. "We've been together for a really long time, and he's the person that I should be with."

"I understand that. But I hope you know…I just want to make you happy. You mean so much to me. It's like since you walked into my life, nothing else has really meant very much without you being with me."

A smile formed on Jess's lips. "That's very sweet of you."

"You know we have something amazing here."

"Actually, I don't know that. But I know that it is possible," she said, unable to get the smile off of her face. She wished he didn't have that kind of effect on her.

"I would do anything to see that smile all of the time."

Jess felt the heat rising in her cheeks. "You're killing me here."

"I'm just absolutely crazy about you," Stu said, his voice lowering, as he rested his arm behind her on the edge of the hot tub. "I can make you so happy, Jess. That's all I want…a chance to be able to do right by you."

"Stu…"

He inched closer to her. "I've never felt so strongly attracted to someone. Seriously…what I feel for you, sweetheart, is overwhelming."

"You're very hard to resist," she admitted.

"Good. So stop resisting me, please."

She let out a laugh. "It isn't that easy."

"I know it isn't, Jessica. But I just…I'm so crazy about you. You're absolutely perfect to me. I think about you all of the time. Seriously," Stu told her. She believed every single word that came out of his mouth.

Jess felt what she'd been wanting to feel. Her only problem is that she wanted her boyfriend to make her feel this way. And he wasn't the one doing it. Resisting Stu was hard enough, but being near him and hearing all of the things that he was saying made it impossible for her. She put her hand on Stu's shoulder and climbed over his lap, straddling him. His hands found their way onto the object of his affection's hips. She rested her hands on his arms.

"You have no idea how good it feels to have you right here," he spoke, his voice barely above a whisper.

"It feels so good to touch you," she replied.

Stu wrapped his arms around Jess and pulled her in, the pair's lips ultimately meeting. She relaxed her body against the Englishman's. Their kiss quickly intensified, as Stu's arms held her body tightly against his.

"You're so amazing," Stu spoke against her mouth. Her arms were around his shoulders. Her body felt so relaxed with him. It all felt so right. She was finally giving in.

"You're incredible."

"I want you," he spoke, his voice husky and full of lust.

"I want you, too," she agreed.

"Do you want to come up to my room?" Stu invited.

Jess paused for a moment, knowing that if she did this, it would change everything. "Alright," she simply answered.